Dancing with Bipolar Redux

Hey. so yeah if I wasn't living it I wouldn't believe it either. How celebrity veteran Steele is in RC is miraculous, but how he has tried to manipulate me after just being stalked in Flagstaff seems predictable. Would also go against all his medical shenanigans to create more trauma on a fellow vet. Honestly more worried about this drunk dude with a loaded guns. Fortunately I feel well trained for rodeo 193. Let's do this thing

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Hey, reality is this is a tough little spell of time. I'm super grateful that I went through worse before so I'm wise enough to know I don't have to do this again. Painful emotions and fear shouldn't be normalized parts of a relationship ever. it's time to just go back in hermit, write for Medium and wait for October when hockey starts

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hey yes it's been a true cluster today. Be careful what you ask for you might just get it .

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hey. thought it was only a weekend visit but it seems to be unpacking its bags and staying for a minute. There's a few reasons why but sleep disruptions due to my shitty upstairs neighbors is not helping at all. I'm not sure what the best solution is , but I won't be doing anything permanent. I promise. 988 is my friend too. 😎

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Hey. I'm gonna say I'm good but truthfully i might not be good. physically I'm healthy but starting to get that underlying exhaustion that appears before the ultimate crash. Perfection is a tough standard to live up to everyday. yup. I need to be mindful and careful of what I'm doing.

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Hey. been a busy week of nothing but good things happening for me. I haven't lost sight of how blessed I am to have made it this far since leaving Flagstaff in April. For me to think I made it this far by myself is ludicrous and I can't forget all the prayers I am having answered at this time and who is answering them. so shout-out to God. Hope you all are well. you can hit me up at [email protected].

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hey. so there's been some things happening that are pretty upsetting to me. yet unclarified situations are prone to misunderstanding. Am I just being played by people. IDK. At least I can't be accused of plagerism or breaking boundaries, but nonetheless a Reevaluation of what I'm doing can't hurt.

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Hey... So everything is good. Had an experience this past weekend that triggered the hell out of me and was a stark reminder of how bad it really was in Flagstaff. I'm in no danger here as long as I don't create it. As hard as it is for me to believe it's been only 2 months since I left Flagstaff and a month since the trauma from Horse Shit Resort. idk why I think I'd be all better so quickly. 988 is your friend if youre in crisis. As is 741 741 text help and they will help you . you can contact me at [email protected]

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Hey. it's been a long time since I considered dating and after this experience it will be a lot longer before I ever do this again. I think AI and porn have ruined a large majority of the population in regards to real human interactions. Otherwise I'm good. 988 is your friend without judgements. Call if you need help in a crisis situation. Love each of you.

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