Dancing with Bipolar Redux

hey. just a quick check in. therapy went well today but it's still triggering. Guess I'm going to have to go through it to get through it to closure. At least the stalking didn't kill me. A few thoughts on being a Rapid City Rush season ticket holder and also creating my own position with the Rapid City Post in order to write about hockey. lol. diabolical. And a few thoughts on what happened to the idea of moving back to CT. it's not happening. otherwise still manic as fuck, but maintaining . hopefully meds kick in soon

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So being hotel bound for weeks is playing games with my mind. mania is better than depression but not by much. ultimately I'm safe though and I guess that was the goal in leaving Flagstaff. I sought help for my bipolar through Brightside online because time is of the essence when it comes to mental health and waiting for a callback from the VA wasn't happening. All in all texting 988 and asking for help was a very smart move.I can be reached at [email protected]

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So after a disasterous start in South Dakota at Horse Shit Resort I reached out for help. 988 is a literal life line. The people that I've met on my path, the VA and military personnel have rallied around me in a way I never knew existed. I am beyond humbled and grateful for how well I have been treated since literally being left homeless on the street by the plastic "princess" of horse shit resort. I'm over living in fear and chaos and will not be speaking further of bad treatment by ex landlords, bosses or stalkers my villain era ends. Now my pay it forward and advocate for others era begins.

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Hey so today has been awful. Being called deceitful and being put on "probation" is not what I'm about at all. Having people jump to all the wrong conclusions says more about them than me. I don't have a problem walking away from being a liability. Also Sir chimes in a bit which is very cool. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. so I made it to South Dakota. I talk about shitty the trip was. NEVER RIDE GREYHOUND!!! How Sir almost didn't make it, but did and how this transition is going. yeah it's not easy. but I'm not a quitter. This is the last show about the stalking unless I get updates regarding the civil rights case. Met someone on Reddit who's been pulling my head out of the shit. appreciate you Matt B.

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hey.. so the more things change they stay the same? yeah not so sure of that. Things are quickening as the date of my departure gets closer. it isn't bittersweet at all. Sunday can not get here fast enough. Shout-out to Knife Hoarder 🧡🦭🧡. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. this is straight up filler until the next great show. there was a huge pedo sting in Flagstaff and I definitely feel some way about it. I'm sure you all know what that is. just a few more reflections on my disdain for Arizona and how unhappy I've been. soon it will be over. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey there. A longer ramble than expected but whatever lol The move is closer every minute. Excited and glad to get the Hell out of here and out of AZ. so there's just some final closure here of things and people I never want to deal with again. And yes some praise to God if course. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. so another person I loved has officially moved on up to Heaven. I'm kind of ok with this one though seeing I already mourned them in Feb when the family jumped the gun on announcing their death. yeah it's f'd up. Also Im quitting the devil's lettuce before I hit SD and ruin my new future by breaking laws and stuff. lol 😆. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey just a quick check in. Things are good and still on course. stalking is unnoticeable lately which is also good. I remember someone lost too young and shout out someone saved on time. 21 Days to go until I board the big dog to SD. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER