DEADSOX / @deadsox

Lyrics:

The fear of failure is paralyzing

So I try to crop the bigger picture

The fear of failure is paralyzing

So I try to crop the bigger picture

Stopped trying to fit in cause I'll never fit description (yeah)

I make dumb decisions, when I feel like no one listens

One day I'll go extinct

Watch my life flash by with one blink

A lone wolf in a sheeps skin, yeah

Said you knew a spot

Then you took me to the lowest point of my life

I could use a pint then take a flight to have the time of my life

I'm scared to close my eyes, cause what happens If I won't wake up?

Who'll take care of me, I won't give up!

Hoping to get to know what comes after this

When the end is near

Hope to get rid off my flaws, my fears and my head to be clear

Shoes lasting longer from the miles I've been walking (ay)

Getting to my destination as promised (ay)

And not to grief 'bout any losses, because

The fear of failure is paralyzing

So I try to crop the bigger picture

Stopped trying to fit in cause I never fit description (yeah)

I make dumb decisions, when I feel like no one listens

The fear of failure is paralyzing

So I try to crop the bigger picture

Stopped trying to fit in cause I never fit description (yeah)

I make dumb decisions, when I feel like no one listens

One day I'll go extinct

Watching my life flash by with one blink

A lone wolf in a sheeps skin

Lyrics:

I can feel the walls closing in

Staring at the key to my demise

You're the reason I see the light

You're an angel in disguise

I want to be your victim

The definition of wisdom

The reason I exist

Codependency, you're on the top of my list

Yeah!

Codependency, you're on the top of my list

Blend in with the shadows (blend in with the shadows)

Turn my soul into ashes

You screaming for my name (screaming for my name)

Makes me feel special (makes me feel special)

Blend in with the shadows

Hide myself from everyone

You screaming for my name

Makes me feel special (makes me feel special)

I don't want to be your victim (I don't want to be your victim)

I'm so tired of the symptoms (I'm so tired of the symptoms)

Started to gamble with my life

Only to satisfy you

I'm in need of assistance

I hate to admit that I'm dependent on you

I can feel the walls closing in

Make me feel special

Make me feel special (make- make- make me feel special)

Make me feel special (make me feel special)

Make me feel special (make me feel special)

Make me feel special (make me feel)

Turned my life around, and still you're the only thing I miss

Turned my back to you, still you're the only thing I miss

Turned my back to you, still you're the only thing I miss

Lyrics:

Here I go again, waking up in the same state

Like I was before, I'm confused, I feel played

Turn on your television, time to catch up, I'm amazed

When I read my name with a date, but I'm still here?

Why does it feel like I did my time on this earth

Though I'm only 21, I'm tired of feeling hurt

I got blood on my hands and on my t-shirt

Tried to escape but it only keeps getting worse

I want to feel like I'm needed (needed)

Sleepless nights, overthinking for no reason

I can't lie, I should be the one you're seeing (seeing)

I can't take it anymore, I think I'm leaving

I want to feel like I'm needed

Sleepless nights, overthinking for no reason

I can't lie, I should be the one you're seeing

I can't take it anymore, I think I'm leaving

Here I go again, waking up in the same state

Like I was before, I'm exhausted, I need a break

Surprised I made it out, still got a lot on my plate

It's all getting to my head, I need someone to explain

Here I go again, waking up in the same state

Like I was before, I'm confused, I feel played

Turn on your television, time to catch up, I'm amazed

When I read my name with a date, but I'm still here?

I want to feel like I'm needed

Sleepless nights, overthinking for no reason

I can't lie, I should be the one you're seeing

I can't take it anymore, I think I'm leaving

I want to feel like I'm needed

Sleepless nights, overthinking for no reason

I can't lie, I should be the one you're seeing

I can't take it anymore, I think I'm leaving

Lyrics:

Can you see me, or am I dreaming?

I know you want me to go, but I'm not leaving

I'm ahead of my time, still I'm stuck in the past

Creating a sound, I'm sure won't last

To me, I'm your shadow, I will leave if you ask

No place to call home, nowhere I could rest

I'm not saying that I'm feeling useless again

But I shouldn't be around just to play pretend

I'm a fiend waiting for someone to cure me

Stop haunting me down, I find it scary

Something stole my soul, it must've been a fairy

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

I'm a friend waiting for someone to stab me

Stop stalking me, I find it very scary

Tried to sell my soul, too much weight I had to carry

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

I'm a friend waiting for someone to call me

I'll be high up with the clouds if you're wondering

Thoughts keep overlapping, I find it exhausting

You can keep on laughing, keep on causing damage

I went in too deep, forgot what my age was

Am I too young or have I lived enough?

I'm convinced that they want me to go, but I can't go

So I'll be buried for the season under the snow

To me, I'm your shadow, I will leave if you ask

No place to call home, nowhere I could rest

I'm not saying that I'm feeling useless again

But I shouldn't be around just to play pretend

I'm a fiend waiting for someone to cure me

Stop haunting me down, I find it scary

Something stole my soul, it must've been a fairy

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

I'm a friend waiting for someone to stab me

Stop stalking me, I find it very scary

Tried to sell my soul, too much weight I had to carry

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

I'm a fiend waiting for someone to cure me

Stop haunting me down, I find it scary

Something stole my soul, it must've been a fairy

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

I'm a friend waiting for someone to stab me

Stop stalking me, I find it very scary

Tried to sell my soul, too much weight I had to carry

They want me to leave, but I'm not ready

Time is just a concept

Cause when reality hits

I have nowhere to go

I'm here all by myself

Doing the impossible

Avoiding all the obstacles

Here I go again, wandering around

Like I'm lost, let's be honest

When am I not?

Sometimes things don't change

It all just feels the same (yeah)

If I believed in something

I might've been less destructive

There's a construction in my mind

What makes me restless for life

The dark clouds in the sky

Relates to my heart (my heart)

Like a part of my body

Unexpectedly stopped

I find it hard to accept that it's gonna be this way

Forever, never better

Praying it's gon' be okay

Take the orders of my maker

Put my feelings in a shaker, shake it

Put them in a bottle save it for later

Til' I'm past my limit

Take the orders of my maker

Put my feelings in a shaker, shake it

Put them in a bottle save it for later

Take the orders of my maker

Put my feelings in a shaker, shake it

Put them in a bottle save it for later

Time is just a concept

Cause when reality hits

I have nowhere to go

I'm here all by myself

Doing the impossible

Avoiding all the obstacles

Here I go again, wandering around

Like I'm lost, let's be honest

When am I not?

Sometimes things don't change

It all just feels the same

If I believed in something

Lyrics:

Demon, tell me can you see me?

Trying to escape, but the way be too misleading

Phone on DND, I'm elevating, breathing

In my own space, I'll be, I'll be, yeah

I'll be busy counting

Pesos, Dollars, Euros

Still in my head it feels like a Warzone

Heartbeat so heavy, man I can't seem to let go

Life is like a race to death and I can feel it coming

Life is like a race to death and I can feel it coming

I should've seen it coming

Knew you was onto something

Knowing all your tricks, your ways, got me thinking I'm bugging (buggin'!)

Knew you was onto something

Knew you was onto something

Tortured by your so-called wisdom (wisdom!)

Tried to break free but got stuck in your rhythm (yeah, yeah)

I never wanted to be your victim (never, never)

Laying in my bed wishing it all be fiction

Demon, tell me can you see me?

Trying to escape, but the way be too misleading

Phone on DND, I'm elevating, Breathing

In my own space, I'll be, I'll be, yeah

I'll be busy counting

Pesos, Dollars, Euros

Still in my head it feels like a Warzone

Heartbeat so heavy, man I can't seem to let go (to let go)

Life is like a race to death and I can feel it coming

I can feel it coming, I can feel it coming

I can feel it coming, I can feel it coming

Demon, tell me can you see me?

Trying to escape, but the way be too misleading?

Yeah, I can feel it coming, I can feel it coming, ay

I can feel it coming, I can feel it coming, ay

I can feel it, haha

Cut it off!

Lyrics:

Where is the bright side, when all I see is darkness of the time?

Please show me a genuine smile, I'm tired of being polite

Where is the bright side, when all I see is darkness of the time?

Please show me a genuine smile, I'm tired of being polite

It seems like I'm making it harder than it used to be before

I don't really know if I can do this anymore

From my point of view, life is nothing but a game

I can't undo the damage, I can't reverse what happened

You got me sanctioned and then took away my talent

I've been absent, I know I've been trapped in my own memory

I wish I knew better than running and forgetting

Where is the bright side, when all I see is darkness of the time?

Please show me a genuine smile, I'm tired of being polite

Where is the bright side, when all I see is darkness of the time?

Please show me a genuine smile, I'm tired of being polite (tired of being polite)

Where is the bright side?

Lyrics:

Yeah

All I ever wanted is for you to acknowledge me

Instead I'm stuck in this loop for eternity

Tried to get rid of the snakes, failed miserably

Everyday I feel like I'm bleeding internally

The snakes multiply, can't keep myself occupied

Overqualified for this life, where do I resign

I should've seen the signs, shoulda seen it coming

I was busy trying to stay focused

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

My memories be so twisted

It changes the way I see things

The way I breathe, my perspective

I'm feeling helpless, I think I lost it, shit

But I won't talk about it

I'd rather hide then them to feel sorry

I won't talk about it

I'd rather hide then them to feel sorry

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

Think I lost it, damn

And I've been wanting to get help

Cause I've been talking to myself

Lyrics:

Tried to ignore the light from afar

Tried- Tried to ignore the light from afar

Tried- Tried to ignore the light from afar

Tried- Tried to ignore, to ignore, to ignore, ignore

I tried to ignore the light from afar

Then it started to pique my interest again (and again, and again, and again, and again)

How much I want it to get closer (get closer, yeah)

I just stand there hoping it goes away

Scare me away, but promise to chase me

Daily check up on me, so I won't leave this place

Laying in my bed, I'm patiently waiting

Scared to fall asleep and thoughts are racing

Silently suffering and I keep wondering

If something is chasing me, trying to leave me behind

Why does it go like that all of the time?

It's all in my head

I keep making up scenarios on the regular

Just one more chance

I will do better, I promise you

I'll change my way but I just don't know how

I've been reminiscing, overthinking

I'm aware that it's all in my head

I've been stalling cause I feel like I won't come any further, but

It's too soon to call it quits, yeah

Hiding what hurts, hiding what causes the pain

Hiding the tears by going out when it rains

Trying to find a clue, I'm trying to find a way, but

I can't get through you in any way

Scare me away, but promise to chase me

Daily check up on me, so I won't leave this place

Laying in my bed, I'm patiently waiting

Scared to fall asleep and thoughts are racing

Silently suffering and I keep wondering

If something is chasing me, trying to leave me behind

Why does it go like that all of the time?

It's all in my head (I've been making up scenarios on the re-)

Just give me one more chance (it's all in my head)

It's all in my head

I keep making up scenarios on the regular

Just one more chance

I will do better, I promise you

I'll change my way but I just don't know how

Lyrics:

Yeah, yeah

What's the word

What's the word

Can you match my energy?

Got a mix of both worlds but where do I belong

I can't stop seeking validation from strangers

I always long for a change in my appearance

And I distance myself from opinions

Sometimes I care too much and that's the fucking issue

I want a miracle to happen but nothing ever changes

I keep on losing games of chess with the devil

Want to be like me? Trust me it's a struggle

Lone wolf in the woods, lonely bird in the desert

Lonely ape in the jungle, with my vision trembled

I want to fight it, where's my sword?

It's a battle I know I can't afford

I want to be better but I cannot keep my word

Finally achieved something and then you pull the plug

Like a bug in my system, addicted to me like a drug

Obsessed with my image, don't you think it's enough

What's the word, what's the word?

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?

What's the word, what's the word?

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?

Yeah, yeah

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?

What's the word, what's the word?

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?

What's the word, what's the word?

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?

Are you down to earth?

Can you match my energy?