Dealing With My Grief

The man convicted of murdering my father was the first person to receive the death penalty after Missouri re-instituted capital punishment in 1977. His penalty was later overturned and her received life without the possibility of parole for 50 years.How do my personal feelings and religious beliefs factor into whether or not I think he should be put to death for his crime.I can be contacted by: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com

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How are grief and addiction similar... how do they differ? I find that even though each may be caused by some difficult experience that we face in life, at least I have the ability to overcome my addiction. I don't think the same can be said for grief.Psychology Today's definition of addiction - https://www.psychologytoday.com/basics/addictionYour are encouraged to leave feedback: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.comMusic provided by Oren Levine ([email protected])

My father was my entire world as a child. Wherever he went I wanted to go with him. It seems as if I was always by his side.

Once he died, my mother became the central figure in my life and would instill in me core values that I carry with me to this very day. she would sacrifice all that was important to here to make sure I would have everything that I needed, And she'd always make herself available to me no matter what the circumstance.Your are encouraged to leave feedback: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.comMusic provided by Oren Levine ([email protected])

I have often wondered what would have happened if my mother and I had stayed at my parents store for an additional 15-20 minutes. Would we all be alive, or would we all have perished that night.It is a question that consumed me for a long time. Eventually, I just had to let it go.Your are encouraged to leave feedback: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.comMusic provided by Oren Levine ([email protected])

Even though I had an uncle and my grandfather who would become the male role modes in my life after my father passed, I did not ask them to accompany me to any of the father/son events at my high school. My reasoning was simple... they were not my father.

Grieving the loss of my father - some 4 years after he died, blinded me from reaching out to the two men that could have helped me the most during arguably the most trying four years of my life.

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When I was younger, if I heard people discuss the loss of a loved one I would always think that the somehow they got more time with them than I got with my father, or at least they had time to "prepare" for the loss of their loved one.I now realize that every loss is significant and hurts regardless of when the person passes or the circumstances of their death.Everyone must learn how to cope with their own grief.

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Episode 5 - Dealing with Grief TriggersDo grief triggers always have to make me sad?I have several grief triggers:Food - ham and cheese sandwichesTimes of the year - the month of AprilHeirlooms - a thermos and sofaAll of these remind me in one way or another, but do the all still make me sad.While I can avoid eating certain foods, I can't stop April from coming every year, but I can use some things that have been passed down to me to remind me of good times I had with my father. Those items make me feel like my father is still with me, and that gives me strength. Let me know what you think of today's episode: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.comMusic provided by Oren Levine ([email protected])

I've been trying to get out of the shadow of my father's legacy.

Once I graduated from high school, I decided to go to school out of state to get a fresh start... to be another face in the crowd.

After running out of money after my sophomore year, I decided to join the Army. I didn't want to go back home, because my mother had already sacrificed so much for me. I needed to make my own way. The army was perfect because I didn't have to go home a failure after not graduating from college. Please send me feedback: email - [email protected] twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com Music provided by Oren Levine ([email protected])

Is it possible that losing my father was not the worse thing that could have happened to me?Growing up, I had friends whose parents weren't together. Many of them carried the burden of thinking that their parents weren't together because of something that they had done. In other words, it was their fault that their parents weren't together.I had one friend who would wait for his father to come pick him up when it was his father's weekend for custody, and his father inevitably would be a no-show! He would often wonder what he did to cause his father not to want to be with him.While grieving my father's death, I take some comfort in knowing that the reason he isn't present is not by choice, but the actions of the men who took his life. I don't have the emotional scars that my friends have.In some ways I think that would be a lot worse emotionally.

This is one of the ways I cope with my grief.

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How religion or a belief in something greater than ourselves impact the grieving process? Is it possible to truly be angry with with God?

I was born and raised Catholic and am still a practicing Catholic. While I may not be the best Christian walking planet Earth, I still believe God has a plan for me.

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