Dee, Let Me Clear My Throat

Sometimes in life we find ourselves faced with moments of prioritization. Even if we do not always realize or understand we are doing so. Getting caught up in day-to-day or even moment-to-moment situations that take us away from others or beyond our normal routines can pass us by faster than our next breath even allows. In this episode, I talk about my life doing just that. Please join me in this episode as well as my many others either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat.

I dedicate this Podcast to my Mom, Denise. Without you where would I be?

Here is a song I wrote to my daughter. Different Point of View. I am including the lyrics below. I hope you enjoy.

It’s those moments that you can’t see

Memories of yesterday, where I can’t be

The world keeps on spinning while I’m standing still

They say it will get easier, but I don’t think it will

Holding you back is what I did

With mixed emotion of trauma growing up as a kid

Left to follow you when it wasn’t right

Seemed to be the only version of tears you felt at night

Your eyes became curtains of things you feel

Covered in a heartache that severs you still

How do I get back what we’ve both lost

When you’re always the one that’s seems to keep paying the cost 

If you could see me now, what would you see

Would it be a reflection of who you really need

Would I make you proud, like I used to do

Would you look at me now with a different point of view

I’ve picked myself up and I get stronger everyday

But that’s not the version of me you saw yesterday

Now I’m standing tall and looking ahead

Wishing I could change all the memories you’ve ever shed

Time was against all the pain I couldn’t heal

Ticking through the moment now space to find and steal

Pushing through the darkness trying to light my way

Leaving you behind in a world that you have today

How do you look in a reflection that hurts you so

Too many emotions, like age they grow

I can’t give you now, what is lost

I can only pray your vision of me it won’t cost

If you could see me now, what would you see

Would it be a reflection of who you really need

Would I make you proud like I used to do

Would you look at me now with a different point of view

I’ve made my mistakes, and I almost died

I’m sorry for all the emptiness that you’ve ever felt inside

Finding myself in a world I now want to stay

From the different me you remember from yesterday

Healing from a life you used to see

Is my bridge of hope leading you back to me

Now in front of you here I stand

With nothing to offer but my hand

If only step by step and breath by breath is what we do

Maybe then you’ll get the chance to see a different point of view

If you could see me now, what would you see

Would it be a reflection, of who you really need

Would I make you proud like I used to do

Would you look at me now, with a different point of view

If you could see me now, what would you see

Would it be a reflection, of who you really need

Would I make you proud like I used to do

Would you look at me now, with a different point of view

If you could see me now, what would you see

Would it be a reflection, of who you really need

Would I make you proud like I used to do

Would you look at me now

Would you look at me now

Please look at me now 

Will you look at me now 

With a different point of view

There are designated drivers that dedicate themselves to ensure that someone makes it home safely after a time of drinking. Someone to ensure that they are safe and they don't judge and belittle them. Someone that ensures that they get medical intervention in the possibility of alcohol poisoning or alcohol overdose. So, what happens in the same scenarios but instead of the choice of substance is not alcohol, but instead drugs? Not just "street drugs", but any and all drugs. Even from your local gas station, synthetic? In this episode, I talk about an organization that I came across that offers this type of lifesaving intervention for those that use drugs, regardless of kind. No, judgement, no legal reprimanding, just someone on the other end of a phone line ready to call 911 while you "use". The service isn't about enabling; it's about being the "designated driver". So, please join me in this Podcast as well as my others either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ dee let me clear my throat. Time is the one thing in life you can't get back, knowing there is someone dedicating theirs to help you, can be lifesaving. I'm not promoting drug or alcohol use, but if you do, Contact: NEVER USE ALONE. 800.484.3731 or 877.696.1996.

In this episode, I go over the devastation and importance of domestic violence and suicide. I talk about some of my own personal experiences, as well as some resources, not only for the victim but for the abuser as well. Help is available and is possible. It does not just affect the victim and the abuser, but a whole family. If healing and intervention is not implicated, then the cycle continues on and on to future generations. I feel that this needs to be addressed in a greater importance than just throwing someone in jail or sending them to a couple of classes, especially when a victim feels that the only alternative is suicide, or an abuser decided to take both lives into their own hands with a murder/suicide. Giving them the power and control for eternity. 

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Happy 2-year Podcast Anniversary to us! In tonight's episode, I expressed my excitement in celebrating 2 years of doing my Podcast.  I also got into my emotions and feelings. Talking about things in my life and where I am at today with myself. I started doing my Podcast to not only help myself in a form of self-healing, but to also share my life, stories, and resources to others in order to help provide them a positive moment of hope, courage, dignity, understanding, reflection, reassurance of someone relating to what they don't say, and an opportunity to want to take your next breath without it suffocating you. As I always say, the one thing in life that you can't get back, that is priceless, is your time. If you dedicate it by sharing it with me, then I know that you have taken your priceless time and shared it with me, and for that, I am honored. Thank you for being a part of this journey and I look forward to many more priceless moments and sharing them with you.

Please join me in this Podcasts as well as my others either on my Podbean or YouTube Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. Although, still new, I just recently started a TikTok Channel @ Dee Let Me Clear My Throat. 

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