Delicious Dignity

This is the first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives, just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores

This is part 6 of a sacred thesis & one of the syntheses of my entire life's work & experience. In this one we tackle energetic forces that make  up the pattern of self-abandonment -  Egregores, Memes, Possession, Evil Eye, & Curses.

Do we even have a ‘self’ to abandon? Are our thoughts truly our own? This is the spiritual side of self-abandonment, with the psychic vocabulary to tell what’s yours from what you inherited.

Inside this session:

1. Egregores as the baseline for understanding ourselves, through examples like respecting elders, Mar-a-Lago face, women’s empowerment, and the law of attraction
2. How powerful minds can be, through tulpas, emotional contagion, memes, and the Lucifer effect
3. Psychic survival instincts at work in spells, curses, nazar, the evil eye, and even possession, without the superstition or the new age fluff
4. Simple inquiry to move through the collective cloud toward a more authentic self

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More Reading:

Nara Petrovic - Best Explanation of An Egregore

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Reference Episodes:

• Episode 42: Reclaiming Your Claws - What Evil Really Is (And Isn't)

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 47 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 1: Empowered Women & Projective Identification
• Episode 48 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 2: Sensitives, Empaths, Introjection, & Just world hypothesis
• Episode 50: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 3: Childhood Emotional Neglect & The Wound With No Scar
• Episode 51: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 4 - Patriarchy & The Courage Of Wholeness
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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This is the first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives, just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores

This is part 5 of a sacred thesis  & one of the syntheses of my entire life's work & experience. In this one we tackle a major system that makes up the pattern of self-abandonment - The Education System. 

That feeling of being an actor in your own life, just waiting to be found out? I think it started in a classroom. In this episode I connect the education system, imposter syndrome, and self-abandonment in a way I’ve never heard anyone else do, so take your time with it. I’m not here to yuck your yum if you loved school, but I do want you to look at who shaped how you learn & what you gave up to fit in.

From one extreme to another (my personal stories & the stories of Native American boarding schools), I offer examples of how the education system has been used as a tool for power over children, creating disconnected adults.

Inside this session:

1. We explore examples of how imposter syndrome happens through the education system: where praise is given, grades, rankings, control through fear, what is considered intelligence, & which subjects and sports count 
2. Journal prompts to take you back to reclaim your own learning from the hands of systemic forces
3. What is intelligence really?
4. 3 ways you've never thought of through which you can truly learn as an adult today

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References:

• Movie - Listening & Healing Pilgrimage by Episcopal Diocese of Arizona

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 47 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 1: Empowered Women & Projective Identification
• Episode 48 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 2: Sensitives, Empaths, Introjection, & Just world hypothesis
• Episode 50: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 3: Childhood Emotional Neglect & The Wound With No Scar
• Episode 51: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 4 - Patriarchy & The Courage Of Wholeness
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This is the first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives,  just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores

This is part 4 of a sacred thesis  & one of the syntheses of my entire life's work & experience. In this one we tackle a major concept that makes up the pattern of self-abandonment - Patriarchy.

Patriarchy isn't just something happening "out there" — it's the reason you second guess your anger, over caretake everyone but yourself, and can't tell if you're the problem or the world is. 

I trace patriarchy through more places than you'd expect - producing content, mythology, governments, morality, the justice system, expectations of consistency, mother-daughter relationships, corporate culture, a simple group dinner, business coaches, female entrepreneurship, leadership positions, art world, how people form perceptions, mar-a-lago face & physical cosmetic alterations, caretaking roles, over-functioning personalities, Asian cultures, sex, & ‘innocent’ jokes.

Inside this session:

1. Defining patriarchy and why it's so hard to even want to look at it
2. The patriarchal double bind, and why "I'm confused" is often code for "I'm being punished either way" & how self-abandonment becomes a survival strategy
3. How patriarchy thrives on self-abandonment in women, and how it shows up differently in men
4. The witch wound, capitalism as a tool of patriarchy, and what the book Caliban and the Witch revelaed about the real reason why patriarchy needs to control women
5. How to build patriarchy-free spaces & a few journaling prompts to find where you enslave or gentrify yourself to stay safe

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Send me a text or voicemail! I really would love to know what you think of this episode/series (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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Reference Episodes:

• Episode 11: Why I left new age cult-ure: What I trust now
• Episode 4: Waking up from hustle culture. From grateful immigrant to getting fired.
• Episode 5: Hustle to Heart. The Feel Good Era Begins  + Feel good rituals.

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Reference Books: Caliban and the Witch -  Silvia Federici

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 47 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 1: Empowered Women & Projective Identification
• Episode 48 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 2: Sensitives, Empaths, Introjection, & Just world hypothesis
• Episode 50: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 3: Childhood Emotional Neglect & The Wound With No Scar
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This is the  first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives, just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores

This is part 3 of a sacred thesis & one of the syntheses of my entire life's work & experience. In this one we tackle a major concept that makes up the pattern of self-abandonment - Childhood Emotional Neglect. 

This is NOT about fixing yourself or blaming others or engaging in trauma fondling. Yet it's okay & even necessary to admit you've been hurt. This is about finally seeing the pattern clearly enough to stop blaming yourself for it. 

Inside this session:

1. What childhood emotional neglect actually is — defined by what didn't happen, not what did, and why that makes it one of the most insidious forms of trauma to name
2. The 9 symptoms of CEN in adults — from chronic emptiness and imposter syndrome to the inability to legitimize your own light
3. The 3 categories of parents who emotionally neglect their children — and how recognizing them helps you see the pattern without blame
4. How CEN shows up in your adult relationships, your inner voice, and even how you treat your dog
5. A first step toward listening to your emotions — and why that simple practice is the beginning of the whole solution

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Send me a text or voicemail! I really would love to know what you think of this episode/series (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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Reference Episodes to Enrich Your Understanding & Build More Self Compassion:

• Episode 46: Rose Mysticism 4 - Planting the Internal Eternal Mother
• Episode 44: Do You Feel Like You Have to Earn Love?
• Episode 43: The Art of Being Visible: Slowly, gently, peacefully healing the visibility wound
• Episode 39: When You’re Embarrassed by Who You Used to Be
• Episode 35: When You Can’t Believe in Your Own Dreams – A Practice That Makes Goals Possible
• Episode 20: The Dignity We Find in Animal Companionship - The Magic of My Dog Soulmate Azar
• Episode 17: Simple Grounding Practices That Bring You Back To Your Dignity—Without Force
• Episode 7: 'Log Kya Kahenge?': Navigating 'What Will People Say?' | Listener Q&A
• Episode 1: Quiet Ways We Undermine Our Dignity (& how to resolve it). Ritual of Dignity Abuser

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Reference Books:

• Running on Empty: Overcome Your Childhood Emotional Neglect by Dr. Jonice Webb
• Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents: How to Heal from Distant, Rejecting, or Self-Involved Parents by Dr. Lindsay C. Gibson
• The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller
• HSP The Highly Sensitive Person: How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You by Elaine N. Aron
• Scattered Minds by Dr. Gabor Maté

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 47 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 1: Empowered Women & Projective Identification
• Episode 48 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 2: Sensitives, Empaths, Introjection, & Just world hypothesis
• Episode 51: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 4 - Patriarchy & The Courage Of Wholeness
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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We’re halfway through 2026 and the energy has one clear symbolic theme: stop asking the egg to walk the tightrope. 

I've been doing intuitive work for over a decade so when this image came through so specifically & strong … I had to share it. This mid-year energy reading is an intuitive orientation for the next six months in 2026. The collective energy I tuned into is all of you who are listening to this episode.

It’s not about predictions. It’s a crystal clear look at your true power vs force. Pssst! This can be a beautiful way to ritually work with solstice energy.

Inside this session:

1. The egg & the tightrope - what this metaphor reveals about where you're applying force to something that simply isn't ready yet
2. Why willpower is expensive and what's actually driving the push (scarcity mindset, poverty consciousness, a dysfunctional relationship to time, an achievement standard that's gotten too narrow)
3. How to shift from a hustle mindset to a nurturance one — and what it looks like to give your egg what you think you'll only get on the other side

♦ May your dignity be so obvious to you that it is over and above any expectation of performance ♦

Reference Episodes to Help This Message Sink Deeper & Go Wider:

• Episode 34: 2026 Energy Reading: Intuitive Guidance for the Year Ahead
• Episode 44: Do You Feel Like You Have to Earn Love?
• Episode 43: The Art of Being Visible: Slowly, gently, peacefully healing the visibility wound
• Episode 5: Hustle to Heart. The Feel Good Era Begins + Feel Good Rituals
• Episode 3: Wilding - An Activation For Your Natural Dignity

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This is the first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives, just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores

This is part 2 of a sacred thesis where we tackle another 3  concepts that make up the pattern of self-abandonment (especially in women) - Empaths, Introjection, & Just World Hypothesis. This is not about fixing yourself. It's about finally seeing the pattern clearly enough to stop blaming yourself for it.

Send me a text or voicemail! I really would love to know what you think, what questions you have, & any stories to share 

Inside this session:

1. How introjection works — and why you may have been swallowing other people's beliefs about you whole since childhood
2. What being an empath actually means beyond the oversimplified version you've been sold, and how it feeds self-abandonment
3. Why the just world fallacy keeps empowered women over-responsible, bitter, or both
4. The journaling prompts that will show you exactly where your self-abandonment is currently playing out

References:

• Episode 46: Rose Mysticism 4 - Planting the Internal Eternal Mother
• Episode 9: True Feedback or Judgmental Projection? Is It Me or Is It Them?
• The Sacred Enneagram by Christopher Heuertz
• Warming the Stone Child (Audiobook) by Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estés
• The Vital Spark by Lisa Marchiano

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 47 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 1: Empowered Women & Projective Identification
• Episode 50: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 3: Childhood Emotional Neglect & The Wound With No Scar
• Episode 51: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 4 - Patriarchy & The Courage Of Wholeness
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. We suggest you seek out the help of a trained professional for help with your specific situation.

This is the first time that anyone has connected all 14 concepts -  projective identification, introjection, empowered women, childhood emotional neglect, patriarchy, education system, imposter syndrome, empaths, sensitives, just world hypothesis, nazar, curses, evil eye, & egregores.

This is part 1 of a sacred thesis & one of the syntheses of my entire life's work & experience. In this one we tackle 2 of the many concepts that make up the pattern of self-abandonment - projective identification & women (especially empowered women).

You've felt it: someone accuses you of being aggressive, difficult, selfish, a narcissist. Over time, you start behaving the exact way they accused you of behaving — even though that was never who you were. You feel like you're under a spell. What's happening is projective identification, and if you're an empowered woman, this is your constant reality. I've spent over a decade watching this pattern destroy women who are supposed to be the strongest among us. Nobody's naming what's actually happening psychologically and spiritually when a woman gets projected upon. This is the episode I wish someone had given me at 5, 15, and 25.

Inside this session:

1. Why we need to recognize the pattern of why we chronically self-abandon & what both pop psychology & new age culture get wrong
2. What projective identification actually is — how it differs from regular projection and why that distinction changes how you understand yourself
3. How empowered women become containers for the collective shadow of everyone around them, leading to self-abandonment without realizing it
4. A detailed & thorough reflection ritual about how to begin recognizing the pattern

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Reference Episodes:

• Episode 36: Empowered Women, Quiet Battles: Truths No One Talks About
• Episode 9: True Feedback or Judgmental Projection? Is It Me or Is It Them?

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Episodes in this Self-Abandonment Series:

• Episode 48 - The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 2: Sensitives, Empaths, Introjection, & Just world hypothesis
• Episode 50: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 3: Childhood Emotional Neglect & The Wound With No Scar
• Episode 51: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 4 - Patriarchy & The Courage Of Wholeness
• Episode 52: The Pattern of Self-Abandonment Fu*kery 5 - The Education System & Better When You’re Not You

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This fourth session of the Rose Podclass explores the spiritual meaning of the rose through the mother (the oldest archetype) as the source of all true strength. This is me wishing you happy Mother's Day in the most meta sense possible. Because the inner mother is the foundation everything else is built on. 

Inside this session:

• The episode opens with a channeled rose contemplation
• The uncorrupted and corrupted qualities of the mother archetype — and how to recognize both in yourself
• The mother wound across four levels: personal, cultural, spiritual, and planetary (based on Bethany Webster's framework)
• A powerful three-part ritual to identify your current inner mother, define the one you need, and begin planting her within you
• The episode closes with a final blessing from the rose.

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20:40 Mark Correction: I said "headless figure".  I meant "disembodied head".

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Reference Episodes:

• Episode 27 - Rose Mysticism 3: Unlocking the Power of the Prostitute Archetype
• Episode 21 - Rose Mysticism 2 - Reclaiming Your Sensual Divinity
• Episode 14 - Rose Mysticism 1 – Practicing Heaven on Earth

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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I learned so much from this episode! Makenzie Sulfaro had a couch, a draining job, a best friend who said "just do it" &.....she listened. This episode is for women who are sitting on a dream they keep waiting to perfect before they start. From child psychiatry to being a multiple fitness studio owner, she did all of this during covid with a newborn. Makenzie now owns three Pilates studios and a gym in Arizona, and almost none of it was planned.

Makenzie embodies 'going with the flow' in a way that's rare, and I love how this episode mirrors that! We start off talking about intentional bathroom amenities and then we ended with her gushing about her husband. Ha!

Inside this session:

1. On Right Standards: Why "good enough" is the wrong standard & what standards to aim for instead when starting a local business from scratch (excellent wisdom for recovering perfectionists!)
2. On Integrity & Compromise: How to know when you're forcing something vs when it's actually meant to be. Brick and mortar business tips for women nobody talks about. 
3. On Business Strategies & Being Prolific: What it takes to build a physical business with no experience & no grand master plan - including boundaries with customers and putting community first
4. On AI & Online Businesses: The role tech currently plays and will play in the future in Makenzie's businesses
5. On Having a Kind (& Hot) Husband: After being twice divorced, Makenzie describes a real & raw unfolding of her finding her partner who builds her up rather than makes her feel small

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• Sultivate Website
• Makenzie's Instagram
• Sultivate Studio Instagram

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Go Deeper in Your Listening:

1. Episode 14 - Rose Mysticism 1 – Practicing Heaven on Earth
2. Episode 18 - A Unique Branding Strategy That Feels Good, Unlocks Your Strengths, & Expands Your Dignity
3. Episode 9 - True Feedback or Judgmental Projection? Is It Me or Is It Them?

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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It took a virtual pet app to show me how exhausted I was from trying to deserve love. This episode is for the high-achieving woman who has been dangling the carrot in front of her own face for too long. I share how rewarding yourself for just existing (before the task, before the finish line) can dissolve the internal critic and restore your motivation from the inside out.

Inside this session:

1. Maslow's hierarchy of needs — and the one rung most high-achieving women skip entirely on their way to the top
2. How five dysfunctional forces (hustle culture, the internal critical mother, scarcity mindset, patriarchy, & ancestral generational trauma) keep women locked in the cycle of trying to deserve love
3. A simple, private ritual to identify where you've been earning love and how to gently pull back

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Reference Episodes: 

Episode 38 — What I'm Loving Right Now: Real Self-Care, Money, and Dignity

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Reference App - Finch App. Friend code - CNLPF24ZLY

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🌹 Questions? Requests for Future Episodes? Want to say hi? Send me a text or voicemail! (your number is private & I cannot see it). 

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🌹 Please rate and/or leave a review for this podcast. I put together all the content & graphics for this show. I pay for an editor out of my own pocket. I'm not sponsored by anyone. My voice/opinions/research is not corrupted by any monetary incentive. So your reviews truly keep the podcast running & help me get the podcast out to the world. THANK YOU so much!

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This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. We suggest you seek out the help of a trained professional for help with your specific situation.