I went on tiktok live for this whole episode and see how I deal with all these creeps.

Rundown: how I act different irl vs on podcast, I got multiple personalities, want vs need, those tiktok videos be too accurate for manifesting, we see what we want to see but only when we are ready, "the universe won't give you the life you aren't prepared for", no such thing as a coincidence, believing in something to give life meaning, your perception is everything, I've slowly been taking more care of myself, being a good story teller makes you successful, if you want something, work hard for it, growth vs fixed mindset, you get what you deserve...not what you want, grateful for my success and failures, I mentally can't handle "going with the flow", The Weeknd is S tier.

Rundown: I need to see benefits to try hard, if I don't see the point in doing something I ain't gonna do it, I think school is pointless, I just wanna help people LMAO, finding a specific skill to excel in is hard, the desire to learn everything, please don't waste your 20's, your life is precious so don't take it for granted, today's challenge: don't talk about love, I'm slowly finding myself again, don't let go of the thing you're passionate about, the concerts I've been to, I refuse to watch anything related to SZA's tour, what outfits to wear at Coachella, "Until I'm 20" to do list, my brain works better at night, I need to have a balanced life, I don't want to grow up, I want to be content, you are privileged, I had an epiphany,

Rundown: how I spent my Valentine's Day, why I find Valentine's Day important, I feel smarter with uncomfortable/mature conversations, overthinking vs fully knowing the situation, I don't feel anything towards anyone anymore, becoming more aware of my words, romance is gross to me now, I feel more comfortable talking about love with y'all, surrounding myself with knowledgable people, the discipline to post is running low, I overthink my presence on social media, I'm ready to flee the country, I wanna be a travel vlogger, car therapy is essential to my mental health, why I don't have a job, I wished more females listened to my podcast, my school situation, my plan in 5 years, how tf I ramble on, underground tunnel car meets, I want a sunshine trait, I AM NOT A PUSHOVER...maybe, tiktok live is menacingly outtapocket, racist comments (I will eat your dog), I'm singing Determinate from Lemonade Mouth, messy sleep schedule, power of social media, A.I. will take over humanity. I don't remember wtf I say on this.

Rundown: (im emotional and crying in the first 3 min), post breakup empty feeling, ups in a relationship, don't take things for granted beetch, downs in a relationship, why i don't love easily, i take shit too close to my heart, little things = big meanings, im an emotional wreck, i've lost weight, your 20's are our learning stages, people remembering what you told them a long time ago>>>>, do you immediately drop the person that reminds you of your ex, is love really a choice, not showing the same energy from your ex to a new person, traveling with your significant other for the first time changes your relationship, EDC was life changing.

Warning: I yell loudly a few times in this...Rundown: romance is tainted for me, finding comfort in past relationships, it takes two to make it work, IM IN MY HEALING STAGE, distractions won't help you heal the right way, you a whole L if you do this, talking to people when you're not over your ex, don't use people as a distraction to cover up your heartbreak, cancel culture, my next bf HAS to be end game, relationships after healing stages are a challenge, I regret so much of my past, don't waste your youth, traumatic relationships builds character, I don't retain knowledge the same, ugly babies, most awkward hang out I've had, (rly loud yell at 34:51), who lives in an asian household and don't got rice?, forgive but never forget,

Rundown: mistakes and experience, my toxic traits, risk taking, our actions are a reflection of our demons, when is it right to change yourself, success is defined by wealth, words without action are manipulation, actions speak louder than words, we make the same mistakes countless times, healing with the right mindset, driving is my escape from reality, first month of 2023 was okay, should I video record my podcast and post on youtube?

This episode's rundown: Who deserves my love, missing connections, Say It by Tory Lanez, the universe will give you exactly what you're ready for, we are incompetent humans, hookup culture with dating apps, dating is not the same as being in a committed relationship, date to marry?, romanticizing/holding on to the good moments, turtle ah man being pervy asf, forcing can be good, i'll find my purpose in life in due time, change is good, most saddest thing growing up, 2019-2021 was the same year, I love Valentine's Day, love is blind.

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