Down With My Demons: The Shadow Work Path

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It was a pleasure to host Danna Schultz on this weeks episode about Eating Disorders. Danna is a nutritionist, kitchen witch, and coach who helps her clients navigate a life of joy and pleasure post disordered eating. We discuss the many circumstances that can cause eating disorders including trauma with breast feeding, attachment wounds, and nervous system misalignment. Danna takes us through polyvagal theory, nervous system regulation, and how to begin inhabiting the body after years of trauma. This episode questions: how do we come back home to ourselves after years of being disembodied? Finally, Danna explains to us how she works with her clients and we reflect on the societal implications. There are quite a few dog barks in this episode so thank you for your patience!  Please subscribe, follow, share, and leave a review! Thank you so much for being here and for taking the time to listen. I hope you enjoy the episode, see you next time!

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Dr. Stephen Porges: “What is Polyvagal Theory?”

https://youtu.be/ec3AUMDjtKQ

https://www.amazon.com/Polyvagal-Theory-Neurophysiological-Communication-Self-regulation/dp/0393707008/ref=asc_df_0393707008/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=312111868709&hvpos=&hvnetw=g&hvrand=5423363387901378&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9028817&hvtargid=pla-499635944877&psc=1

The Embodiment Recovery Institute

https://embodiedrecovery.org/

Ventral Vagal: 

https://elemental.medium.com/if-there-was-ever-a-time-to-activate-your-vagus-nerve-it-is-now-2227e8c6885b#:~:text=Also%20known%20as%20the%20social,neck%2C%20throat%2C%20and%20eyes.

Dorsal Vagal: 

https://healingshame.com/articles/anatomy-of-a-freeze-or-dorsal-vagal-shutdown-bret-lyon-phd#:~:text=The%20dorsal%20vagus%20is%20a,where%20it%20actually%20aids%20digestion).

"Eating by the light of the moon: How women can transform their relationship with food through myths, metaphors, and storytelling" by Arika Rapson, Anita A. Johnston Ph.D.

"Not All Black Girls Know How to Eat" by Stephanie Covington Armstrong 

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This week's material was surprisingly edgy as I expose an element of shadow being cast by the self-care industry. This episode I discuss the ego-feeding problems with publicizing self-care and it's use in avoiding other's needs or any of our fears and discomforts. I talk about how I've been avoiding uncomfortable situations and conversations and how I came to realize how much that was hurting my ability to cope. Finally, we dive into the joys of facing our fears and utilizing staying with our discomfort as a radical act of self-care which inevitably leads to connection and intimacy. Please subscribe, share, and leave a review if you like the episode! I hope this content leads to greater feelings of belonging and connection in all of your lives. Thank you for being here, enjoy, and see you next time!

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

To get in touch with Chloe, please email:

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“People can only meet you as far as they’ve met themselves.” 

“Ego is able to convert anything to its own use, even spirituality.”—Chögyam Trungpa

Resources:

"The Science of Spiritual Narcissism"
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-science-of-spiritual-narcissism/

6 Steps to Self-Love
https://vocal.media/motivation/6-steps-to-self-love

“Shambhala: The Path of the Warrior” by Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche

“The Places that Scare You” by Pema Chodron

Brene Brown:

"The Power of Vulnerability" -Book and Audible Talk Series

"The Power of Vulnerability" TedTalk   https://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_the_power_of_vulnerability

"Daring Greatly" -Book

"Atlas of the Heart" -Netflix Series

What is an EarthShip?
https://www.earthshipglobal.com/

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This week we heard from my long time friend and professional artist, Olive Love! In this episode she shares her wisdom on the shadow of being an entrepreneur in the art space as well as in the navigation of life. She gives us tips and tricks as well as provides us with her top suggestions for how to live a balanced life as your own boss! We also dive into communication, uncomfortable situations, internal family systems, and much much more. Olivia keeps it real, inspires, and puts a smile on all of our faces as she helps us to be brave in working for ourselves. Please follow, subscribe, share, and leave a review! I hope you enjoy the episode, see you next time!

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

To get in touch with Chloe, please email:

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To get in touch with Olive Love and check out her work:

IG: @kozmickind @kozmic_juice 

Facebook: Olive Love 

Website: www.etsy.com/shop/Kozmickind 

Email: [email protected]

Olivia's Planner:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hU8Wfe-VjmXD3evZamEBwhm4gRhcRNa2/view?ts=62982cf8

For more information about Internal Family Systems:

Internal Family Systems Institute:    https://ifs-institute.com/

https://books.google.com/books?hl=en&lr=&id=ScqYDwAAQBAJ&oi=fnd&pg=PP1&dq=internal+family+systems&ots=83rodY0zEE&sig=x5DzAlT06PDhuyeQokKLUcTn60w#v=onepage&q=internal%20family%20systems&f=false

"No Bad Parts" by Richard C. Schwartz Ph.D.  (Foreword by Alanis Morissette
https://www.amazon.com/No-Bad-Parts-Restoring-Wholeness/dp/1683646681

Disco Biscuits "The World is Spinning"
https://youtu.be/22mD_pUjYrk

Widespread Panic Live at Red Rocks Set 1: 06-26-2011
https://youtu.be/-_qUzjSXV38

The String Cheese Incident Live at Red Rocks 2013
https://youtu.be/hvmt_vNlAME

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This episode is a full circle moment for me being that I had the honor of hosting my former professor, Linda Buzogany. Linda is a psychotherapist who works with dreams and unconscious material. She discusses an unexpected turn in her career focus when she came to realize a psychosomatic phenomenon through one of her students. Linda tells us about what a psychological non-epileptic seizure is and how other unconscious psychological material manifests itself through the body. Through work with dreams, she has been able to facilitate great healing with clients and her community.  At the end, Linda gives us amazing tools to work with our dreams and the initial steps which will help with this particular process of discovery. This episode holds meaningful stories, dream scapes, and powerful revelations, and reminiscence from our past together, while honoring our present and future. Please subscribe, following, share, and leave a review! I hope you enjoy this episode as much as I did, see you next time.

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

To get in touch with Chloe, please email:

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To get in touch with Linda Buzogany:

For therapy: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/linda-buzogany-therapy-littleton-co/239181

Her Book, "The Superman Years": https://www.amazon.com/Superman-Years-Emotional-Parent-Diabetes/dp/1469986809

Email: [email protected]

• To get in touch with Chloe, please email:

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Follow Chloe on IG: https://www.instagram.com/chloelionheart/

Resources:

Dream Tending with Dr. Steven Aizenstat:
https://dreamtending.com/

To find out more about Functional Neurological Disorder:
https://fndhope.org

Books:

"Dreambody: The Body's Role in Healing the Self" by Arnold Mindell
https://www.amazon.com/Dreambody-Bodys-Role-Healing-Self/dp/1619710005/ref=asc_df_1619710005/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=312681615521&hvpos=&hvnetw=g&hvrand=2357755986531162341&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9028750&hvtargid=pla-571407815465&psc=1

"The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma" by Peter Levine

"Dreaming the Soul Back Home: Shamanic Dreaming for Healing and Becoming Whole" by Robert Moss

"The Dream and the Underworld" by James Hillman

"Conscious Dreaming: A Spiritual Path for Everyday Life" by Robert Moss

Terms:
-psychological non-epileptic seizures
-conversion disorders
-functional neurological disorders (or phenomena).

Tips for Remembering Your Dreams:

1. Tell yourself you are going to remember your dream
2. Before you open your eyes or move when you wake up, try to recall all that you can
3. Write in your journal before doing anything else, even

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This episode is a sweet and beautiful unpacking of the patriarchy's impact on the life of Ransom and Chloe Lionheart. Ransom took us on the journey of his lived experience navigating "masculinity" and how his perspectives have shifted and evolved over time. His vision of "healing the patriarchy" comes to life in this episode and sheds light on a topic not often discussed in media. We discuss our stories, the impact of anima and animas, briefly unpacking the gender spectrum, and how to empower yourself and your community at large. What a blessing to have Ransom as a guest and even more blessed to hear his experience and how he is creating magic in the world. Please subscribe, follow, and share! I hope you enjoy, thank you for being here, and see you next time.

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

To get in touch with Chloe, please email:

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To connect with Ransom and inquire about his offerings or to keep up to date with his journey:

IG: @radiant.ransom (personal)
@ra.rooted (chef page)
@radiant.ransom.art (art page)

Resources:

Dustin Thomas

https://lovedustinthomas.com/

Some song selections

 "Hands Untied" "Your Love is Water" "Awake, Rise , Shine "

Podcasts:

Aubrey Marcus

-Episode w/ Zach Bush & Charles Eisenstein

https://www.aubreymarcus.com/blogs/aubrey-marcus-podcast/the-birth-of-a-new-humanity-with-charles-eisenstein-dr-zach-bush-md-349

 The Man Enough Podcast

 Books:

“Man Enough” by Justin Baldoni

“For the Love of Men” by Liz Plank

“The Four Agreements” by Miguel Ruiz

“The Gene Keys” by Richard Rudd

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This was such a sweet episode with my dear brother, Kondor where we unpacked the Zen Buddhist proverb, "Let Go or Be Dragged." In this episode we loosely discuss the energies being felt at this time, how we are experiencing, and what it means to be getting dragged by our attachments to what is no longer working for us. We dive deeply into each of our experience’s of needing to let go and how we are navigating their lessons. Lastly, we discuss how we are caring for ourselves.This episode gets sweeter and sweeter as time goes on so make sure to listen all the way through. There is a musical gift from Kondor at the end you wont want to miss! Thank you so much for listening. Please subscribe, share, and leave us a review. Enjoy and see you next time.


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To find Kondor to participate in his live sound healing events, to get more information about yoni seats, or to inquire about anything else your heart desires:

Email: [email protected]
Facebook: GregKondor
Yoga Pants: https://www.facebook.com/marketplace/item/783862765438568
Yoni Seats: https://www.facebook.com/marketplace/item/516700459908940
Soundcloud: @kondormagic https://soundcloud.com/user-540854497
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqrwJKvEFUNuwc3ast5jpRg/videos

Quote by Sarah L. Brown:
"You hold on because you are glued. You hold on because there was rapture, reverie, and ecstasy. You hold on because to not hold on, is to release your grip on the emotional life support system you think he has been. You hold on because you believe if you hold on long enough, the dazed and glazed existence you have been living will reverse to rapture. The nightmare will then become the dream. The stupor will become the high of the intensity. You hold on because you believe you can't let go."

Information on Yoni Steaming:
https://www.birthsongbotanicals.com/blogs/birth-song-blog/yoni-steaming-the-sacred-origin-how-to-steam-choosing-your-herbs

Congee Recipe!
https://www.foodandwine.com/recipes/basic-chinese-congee

Chinese 5 Element Theory:
https://www.healthline.com/health/mind-body/what-are-the-five-elements#in-tcm

 Nature's Healing Song: By Greg Kondor

Walking in Nature I see how I’m to be

Vibrating with the elements in perfect harmony

Walking with Nature I see how it’s to be

Communing with Gods Angels receiving blessings

Feel the Earth beneath your feet

Let the Wind kiss your skin

Let go of your burdens

Let the healing begin

Walking in Nature I see how I’m to be

Vibrating with the elements in perfect harmony

Walking with Nature I see how it’s to be

Communing with Gods Angels receiving blessings

Embrace the fires of the Sun

Hear rivers rush to the Sea

When you learn to just Be

Everything becomes easy

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Fear of success is often disguised as procrastination, excuses, "rational" thinking, and dragging our feet. It's so much easier to talk ourselves out of living a life we love and going after our dreams than it is to take the necessary steps to making it happen. Even if we KNOW it will completely revolutionize and change our lives. Fear of jealous people and judgement, fear of economic insecurity, fear of looking like a fool and being humiliated, fear of total failure, all of these are things we put our energy into to keep ourselves small. In this episode, I break down all of the variables of many of the fears of success and speak to the realities of those fears. Later on, we go over journal prompts to help ourselves begin to move in the direction of courage and compassionate understanding. Please like, subscribe, share and leave a review! I hope you all enjoy the episode and see you next time!

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"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than risk it took to bloom."
Anais Nin

Journal Prompts:
1. What am I truly afraid of?
2. What would I do if I knew I was supported?
3. What will success bring into my life?
4. What small step/s can I take today toward my goals?
5. Where can I be courageous today? Even if only for a moment.
6. When have I failed and what did I learn?
7. Am I wiser now than I was then?
8. Who can I ask for support from in this process?

“Most of us are forgetting that from the beginning of our life, we are approaching death. Life is absurd but you can fill it with ideas and enthusiasm. You can fill your life with joy.” -Reinhold Messner

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Judgment is hard to avoid and is in fact one of our oldest mental patterns. Our minds want to look at this as black and white, good and bad, yes and no, but it's not that simple. We are complex and so is our pain. In this episode, we dive deeply into the shadow of judgment and where it comes from. We reflect on our own pain, the mirror of judging others and situations, and are encouraged to feel what is really coming up at the moment of judgement. I talk about hard personal stories of how judgement caused much pain in my life and how I'm working towards overcoming the thought patterns that create it. Finally, we learn about loving-kindness and participate in a guided Metta meditation practice. Thank you so much for listening, subscribing, and leaving a review. I hope you enjoy and see you next time! 

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

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Studies on memory inaccuracy 

https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fpsyg.2019.00703/full

Brene Brown

https://brenebrown.com/

Idiot Compassion

https://www.elephantjournal.com/2012/12/idiot-compassion/

“People’s opinion of you is none of your business. Nor should you make it yours” -Steve Harvey

Metta Meditation Affirmations:

1. I am worthy of all the love in the world
2. I am loved and supported in my humanness
3. May all beings be happy
4. May all beings be free from suffering

https://www.healthline.com/health/metta-meditation#benefits

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Money can be one of the most shadowy things we all experience. It has the ability to destroy, inspire, create, oppress, and manipulate. Part of the money shadow is the struggle with our relationship to money. I touch on these elements and more in this week's episode. I speak about my shadowy money journey and the familial ties to money wounds. This episode features some of the money resources which have drastically shifted my perception and relationship with money and a few of my heroes, who continue to provide boundless wisdom and educational information. Listen in to get down with this week's necessary evil! Thank you for being here, enjoy, and see you next time!

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

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Journal Questions about Money Relationship:

1. How do I talk about money?
2. How do I talk to money?
3. What were the narratives I heard and experienced around money growing up?
4. How do I want to be treated?
5. How do I treat my friends?
6. What are my financial goals?
7. (write down your goal and then ask) How can I make this goal happen?

The Envelope Method:

Helpful Money Apps:
-Stash
-Acorn
-Coinbase
-Robinhood

Natalia Benson: Women’s Empowerment Coach

Magical Women and Money: https://www.magicalwomenandmoney.com/

Podcast: Natalia Benson the Podcast

IG: @nataliabenson 

James Hill: Entrepreneur and Marketing Expert

Website: https://www.brandbuilding.academy/members53315812

IG: @black-millionaires

Tori Dunlap: Personal Finance Educator

Website: https://herfirst100k.com/financialfeministpodcast

Podcast: Financial Feminist

IG: @Herfirst100k


"Rich Dad, Poor Dad" by Robert Kiyosaki
https://bookshop.org/books/rich-dad-poor-dad-what-the-rich-teach-their-kids-about-money-that-the-poor-and-middle-class-do-not/9781612680194

"The Total Money Makeover" by Dave Ramsey (I love his budgeting spreadsheet)

"Secrets of the Millionaire Mind" by T. Harv Eker

"The Richest Man in Babylon" by George S. Clason

"You are a Badass at Making Money" by Jen Sincero

"Atomic Habits" by James Clear

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Negative self-talk is something that permeates many of us and can be pesky to deal with. In this episode I speak to my troubles with self-talk, worthiness, body dysmorphia and body image, as well as what I've done to mitigate the harmful effects. Negative self-talk can be a symptom of trauma, though not one that is unable to shift. I dive deeply into what has worked for me, telling stories of a few journeys where my self-talk didn't aid me and was more than false. Super-ego, Shamatha Meditation, Anorexia, Developmental Stages, and what it's like to be a Ph.D. student await you in this episode. I really enjoyed making this solo episode and hope it's helpful for you as well. See you next time!

Website: https://www.downwithmydemons.com/

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"What other people think of us is none of our business" -Anonymous


Piaget's Theory of Cognitive Development:
https://micpp.org/files/psychoanalysis/warren-on-development/Piaget-Cognitive-Development-in-Children.pdf

Body Dysmorphia Disorder:
https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/health/conditions-and-diseases/body-dysmorphic-disorder#:~:text=Body%20dysmorphic%20disorder%20(BDD)%20is,are%20flaws%20in%20our%20appearance.

Shamatha Meditation:
https://youtu.be/vGuzSmS5hoA

Id, Ego, and Superego:
https://www.simplypsychology.org/psyche.html

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