I think a major message from Inside Out as well was to be careful of the pursuit of happiness. Of course we saw through the lens of someone having the understanding of a child but even adults act out of character and do silly things in their pursuit of happiness. I do tend to believe that people aren’t good with their emotions because they don’t allow themselves to feel them. Then when those emotions become overwhelming they tend to shut down. “Pain demands to be felt” is one of my favorite lines because it reminds me that I shouldn’t avoid certain situations even if they might be painful. It’s all a part of the human experience.

Being a creative is a difficult thing. Especially in sweet T&T and not doing soca or dancehall or trinbad. I know it may sound like I’m ribbing on the people in my circle or my family for not being the support system that I need but I’m not. I know the onus is on me to find it within myself to pursue the dreams that I have for myself which is why I’ll be trying to go to more of these shows. Do my best to keep myself inspired by supporting my coworkers on their journey until it’s my time to do my own thing. The mental fortitude it takes to consistently pursue a creative endeavor without a support system. The constant self hype. Daily affirmation. We look at the arrogance of some of the artists at the top but never really dissect what it took for them to develop said arrogance. The industry in Trinidad is also a bit harsh. The love and togetherness isn’t truly there. Openness to work with someone pretty much depends on the amount of buzz that person has. Which is why I love the open mic events. They allow otherwise unknown artist, like myself, to become a known and to generate said buzz. I’m truly not trying to condemn anyone or the industry itself by saying all this either. It just needs to be better is all. I’m thankful though, that I know where my inspiration comes from and what I am do to continue growing as a creative. Hopefully as I grow and my platform along with it, my ability to self motivate will increase as well. I’ll also like to not become arrogant.

It often easy to reach for entertainment. This is the true barrier to consistency. It is a form of procrastination, especially when you know you have work that you should be doing. It’s easy though, and that’s why we tend to do it so much. Consistency seems like work, especially when you’re not in a workplace and it’s something that you want to do for yourself. It’s easier to use your time being entertained instead of working on that project that you started. Motivation also plays a part in what you’re doing as well and preparedness. Sometimes we tend to believe that we’re capable of doing isn’t significant enough work to bother putting in but it is. Like I said in the podcast, you got to just do it. Also sorry about the abrupt ending. Phone dropped😖.

I tend to find myself feeling a bit insecure speaking about myself too much. Like “no one wants to hear about your life that much.” But I keep reminding myself that I’m only sharing so others could listen and learn from it and not make my mistakes. I’m basically creating podcast episodes that would have helped me as an individual going through my life. I hope that that alone can be enough. I’m highlighting it here under this episode because the things I’m speaking about in this episode, had I heard someone speak about them before I’d have an understanding of the things I’m currently being faced with and ways to be better ready to deal with these things. Being introspective and reflective is a gift and a curse. You grow from past experience and will be ready in regards to dealing with future situations but if you haven’t dealt with something before, you’d be at the mercy of said thing. Knowledge gained from other instances can always apply to new situations though once you can find commonality but it isn’t always one to one. Adaptability is also something necessary for one’s growth. Some things to think about.

It’s crazy the amount of things I’ve accomplished in that short time of setting my mind to it. I feel like it didn’t take much and a lot of the leg work was laid out before me already. One thing I’ll say and double down on tho is that the mind is a powerful tool. You have to make it work for you. It really feels like this all happened with the change of my mindset and I’m proud of that. Everyone has their own thing though and maybe mindset change isn’t it for you but we’re all already successful. Believing it is what’s truly the challenge.

Just wanted to memorialize and honor the man that was my father. Loosing him hasn’t been easy but, I’m pressing on. I appreciate all of you that still listen to the podcast week to week. I do apologize for my absence but I’m back. Should be back on schedule. Truly do love everyone of you that continue to give me your support

The mind is a super computer, I’ve been told. And our way of programming that computer is by using self talk. We need to be really conscious of what we say to ourselves, even in our subconscious. Like I mentioned in the podcast, success is whatever you decide it to be. What happens is, we tend to allow the world to tell us what our success should look like and that’s the beginning of the error. Don’t allow outside factors to dictate your inner peace. Allow yourself to find your joy and your success. Define your success for you and work towards it.

Don’t overlook the weeds while searching for flowers because oftentimes the weeds are flowers. But just like my episode on time, I will advocate for living life in the moment. Not only living in the moment but also appreciating it. We lose out on genuine happiness searching for faults in beautiful moments. Often because of who the moment is being shared with. We should be enjoying all the moments that we can. Protect your energy so don’t allow others to devalue your self-worth wither presence but make peace with others so you can truly appreciate the moments as they come.

So I wanted to start this description this week by shouting out everyone that I missed mentioning in the episode itself. Brandon for sure. Another one of the groomsmen and someone who has seen the growth of my brother first hand being that they both went to college together. I pray you don’t feel slighted that you weren’t mentioned verbally bro. Your presence and support was well noted. Keanon too. Another groomsman and my turn up breddren. We definitely brought life to everything we showed up to. Uncle Nigel in a big way. This man had the wisdom of kings and was willing to share it freely. All the dads really. Orville. Kamilya’s stepdad dad, who’s name I can’t remember. We’re going to be talking about Jamaica a lot for the coming episodes. It was a delight meeting and getting to know these people. Tabriah for sure. The maid of honour and she certainly brought honour to her tittle. An amazing individual that I really got to know and enjoyed doing so. It was really all a team effort for sure. Big up Kassidy. Lets be real now, she was the star of the show truly. Stole the whole show actually. Kamilya’s mom’s name escapes me at the moment but this women exuded life with such elegance and energy. Mans was impressed. Sharon bai. This young lady have vibes. My eldest brother too. My riding partner for most of my down time. Hadn’t seen him in 8 years till then and it was amazing. Love that our family could have this little reunion. Abbie, Leigh, Alex again, Justin. The family just grew exponentially and It’s beautiful. I think this description this week is only going to be shoutouts yes. To the Walker family, Crawford and Thomas families and everyone that was present and or connected I like to shoutout and say a great thank you. Prost to the newly weds. Live long, prosper and turn up.