fagments of frank

i talk about the ongoing grave i dig; how taking time off has left me in dark times. what i’ve done to stay afloat and alive. how i cope with the price that comes with spare change. why i started a go fund me. i announced my album and talk about my first single; a peak into my creation and concept. i talk about weather there will be a music video or not. a return to podcasting.

it’s been a month since i just sat down and talked it out like this. i share what life’s lemons and mundane has brought me. what i’ve been loving, where i’ve been working, who i’ve been seeing, and what i’ve been writing about. i talk about where i want to go and what i want to eat. everything that’s been keeping me alive will be thought over in this episode; hints at music, the fruit of fenwick, n’ more.

let’s talk about this film. directed edited and written all by myself. a concept and conversation about sexualized existences and exploitation. an exploration of sexuality; the love verses lust. what was the process like and for who did i seek wisdom from. what’s next and what did i expect from this journey. the how and why of it all. i explain my inspiration and intentions. listen to this tell all and watch: frank; the fruit of fenwick.

where to next? a dreamer dreaming out loud in the light of a sunset. i share my stories of who and what i wanted to be. from pro model and talent to a only fans content creator to a chef to a poor poet. all the ways my life has unfolded explained. i staple the past into this present moment and make plans for a god to laugh at. come dream with me will ya.

what is a vacation. the talk of summers spent in the sand. the thirst for salt water when i was of sagatuck. a man’s madness of michigan. the blood; i’ve grown to accept the good times of then are over. the hurt of moving on and remembering what made me laugh. the things children do to survive and love. the board games and card games i couldn’t have lived without. the ice cream shops and campfires of my childhood. where i want to go and what this all means now.

childhood; such a beautiful irony in the iridescent colors i remember. i talk about the writing of both my short film and record. i remember the places i used to love as a child. what makes me frank. i talk about cleveland and if i were to go back. a full circle of the feelings i miss; why and where i found them. a winter’s evening spent in bed thinking and remembering out loud.

let’s talk turbo taxes. i open up about my struggles and experiences of filing taxes without a father and as a business owner. my expenses/deductions, w2s, how i spend my money, where i spend my money, where i want to go, and how i’m approaching the future of frank n’ fagments. celebrating two years in new york city with a website launch. more details as my music career is being crafted; a fifteen track record being teased. with also a follow up to “the panichi’s peach tree” in motion. keep up!

makeup. i’ve been tormented into believing i’m this character when i wear the slightest of makeup; hence the makeup man. so i dive back into my journey and awakening with makeup. i explain the AP art portfolio i wasn’t able to show. the scholastic award winning art i wasn’t proud of because of where i was. looking back at this “time capsule” i breath life back into, giving the portfolio it’s deserving justice and credit. with questioning where do i stand with makeup today, after being pushed out of employment because of gender identity and expression. how and who i learned makeup from.

the episode starts with me setting up dating apps while texting/talking about the man i like and the man i want. exploring and educating myself in modern time sexualities while explaining and explaining how i present myself. making a fully circle to why i act the way i do; mommy and daddy issues. what i see for myself with this life if creating a brand and legacy with social media and technology is what i’m determined to do.

a catholic schooled twenty-year-old white gay man talks politics. i explain my journey and where i stand now in a sly humorous way. i put my morals to the test quite literally with a quiz. find out where i stand as i think out loud.