fagments of frank

starting off work for my mother’s friends i was brought early into the work force. i wanted to share my experience at a family owned restaurant making $6.50 plus tips. working 5 days after school during the week. sexual harassment in the work place, mental health problems in the work place, and sanitary issues in the work place. i was forced to hold my position at geracis until i was of age. i talk of the trauma and bad habits i’ve taken into my work ethics and work lives.

we wrap up our poetry series. i clarify a few things said in the past. i walk through recent trauma gift wrapped in the form of poetry. we have a two hour conversation about what i love and who i love over a few yawns.

let’s be manic as i pull an all nighter remembering the meaning of my own writing. again a dive into my poetry. the exaggerated narrative of love, lust, and loss. newer poetry about manhattan men, abuse, and drugs. I talk about recent hookups and sex. a typical frank chat.

as poetry natures the concepts become more complicated and complex. i sit down and confront recent demons in the comfort of my bed; the spawn of them all. another talk of my sex life; love sick, traumatic, and love induced. an all around honest conversation and connection as i try to understand my state of mind as my writing becomes more unworldly and abstract.

i hint at my upcoming album and the process i have when writing. my new york influence and how my first year in this city has shaped me. i talk about my recent ER visit. celebrating 365 days of being a brooklyn baby. family, love, and lust inspired lyrical work. in depth details of the words i twist and cultivate. a thank you for letting me make art.

the meaning behind the beautiful words i conjure. an insight into the poetry that has taken over my entirety. i hint at an upcoming project that’s in the works. i talk about what influences me and inspires me. a raw one on one about past love interests and gender identity.

let’s chat about education: that being college. i, a gap year or two into it, talk about my experiences at campuses. i talk about my father's side of the family and columbus. the days i realized i needed to mature or be murdered. jcu and the neighbors behind my childhood home. then comes m-ville where i tried to settle myself, an escape from the city’s hell. i fucked a man i shouldn’t have but don’t regret. a man who could conjure poetry from a poet.

4 AM ET. ANXIETY HOUR. i speak freely about my struggles with anxiety; how they’ve worsened and how i’ve become one with fear. i talk about depression, depersonalization, derealization, and everything in between. the struggle of living alone in a city so overwhelming. how i am conquering my stresses all with a grain of sugar and salt.

never out of the woods; i talk about the last two years of my rollercoaster ride at ignatius. the sexual harassment allegations i received. the infamous beaumont/magnificat girls. the self expression restrictions of ignatius. the prom fairytale and graduation abandonment. the lessons i learned and matured from.

i take about the construction of high school frankie. the build up to how i became so infamous. the first two years of hell i endured only to be put on trail for two more. being honest has always done me dirty, so why not be honest again. i talk about the isolation, the complexities, the becoming.