fagments of frank

the headspace i have after trying to tip toe into the cemetery of my past. i further explain my childhood habits and patterns. i talk about religious family members and ones that used to love me.

breaking the branches of my family tree and digging up the bones protected by the roots. a humorous way to talk through childhood trauma. i dive into my therapy sessions and why they ended, why i spent holidays alone, and why i started drinking before anyone my age. as frank as i can be.

i have an open conversation about the experiences that really haunt me. the nightmares of now and the hurt of yesterday. the survival mode of sex i put myself through. i considered leaving new york but stayed for myself and the future i could create. talking out loud with hope to heal and think through my own trauma.

self discipline and discovery through sex. i break down the experiences i can remember, good and bad, while i try to understand my body’s cravings. the dark side of gay hookup culture and it’s toll on my mental health and physical health. the loneliness of lusting for love.

a recent nightmare i can’t wake from. a raw tell all about the projects and living with an older man because of a homeless scare. trigger warning: tales of substance abuse and sexual abuse. i talk about how i’m recovering and where i am now. how i moved out and begun couch surfing with a suitcase. how i fucked up and crossed lines being so naive. where i am now and how i’m doing with recovery.

i tell the tales of nyc sublets. a mattress i found on the street, police being called, deposits being lost, and all hell breaking loss. a glimpses into 319 eldert street, a facebook market place find. a one month sublet that turned into a six month rollercoaster.

how i fell out of love with nyc and how i’m falling in love with nyc again. from toxic work environments to sick men, i lost it all just to fall back in love. introducing the series i started to cope with a broken heart. what to love about the burrow brooklyn.

season two, part two, chapter two of fagments of frank