Fearless Presence

• Stephanie Drury's Introduction and Background 0:01
• Melanie Weller introduces Stephanie Drury, highlighting her work as a Seattle-based writer and social commentator on American Evangelical culture.
• Stephanie's platform, "Stuff Christian Culture Likes," offers a satirical yet insightful examination of Christian communities through memes and personal reflections.
• Melanie shares her long-term admiration for Stephanie's work, tracing their connection back to the early days of Twitter.
• Stephanie expresses surprise at Melanie's long-term following and reminisces about the transition to Instagram.
• Religious Trauma and Personal Experiences 1:47
• Melanie discusses her interest in religious trauma and its evolution, mentioning her background as a physical therapist and her work with patients dealing with suicide ideation.
• Melanie shares her personal experience of being forced to mouth words in choir and her ongoing connection with Mary Magdalene retreats.
• Melanie highlights the lack of organized training for professionals in dealing with religious trauma and the incompleteness of somatic-based practices.
• Stephanie begins to share her own journey, mentioning her emotional breakdown at age 30 and the move away from her family, which included Baptist preachers.
• Therapy and Spiritual Abuse Dynamics 5:13
• Stephanie describes her first experience with therapy, which was facilitated by a therapist familiar with spiritual abuse dynamics.
• She mentions the influence of Dan Allender and the Seattle School of Theology and Psychology on her therapist's approach.
• Stephanie discusses the natural response to spiritual abuse, which often involves rejecting faith entirely, and her struggle to balance this with maintaining a connection to faith.
• Melanie and Stephanie discuss the importance of community and the fundamental need for connection, even if it means sacrificing one's essence.
• Family Dynamics and Emotional Control 14:17
• Stephanie reflects on her family dynamics, noting the control and emotional abuse she experienced growing up.
• She describes the difficulty of recognizing dysfunction in peaceful families and the insidious nature of neglect.
• Melanie shares her own experiences of emotional invalidation by her mother and the impact it had on her ability to express her feelings.
• Stephanie emphasizes the importance of acknowledging and validating emotions, even if they are not traditionally considered "happy."
• Spiritual Bypassing and Somatic Bypassing 23:45
• Melanie and Stephanie discuss the concept of spiritual bypassing and how it relates to somatic bypassing, which involves ignoring or invalidating one's inner authority.
• Stephanie shares a story about a friend who struggled with emotional validation and the impact of invalidation on mental health.
• Melanie highlights the protective nature of spirituality and the importance of personal devotion for mental and physical health.
• They discuss the role of nervous system regulation in religious and secular settings and the shift towards somatic practices for stress management.
• Community and Healing 30:07
• Melanie and Stephanie explore the importance of community in healing and the challenges of finding a supportive group.
• Stephanie shares her experience with Al-Anon meetings and the realization that religion can be treated like a substance.
• Melanie discusses the benefits of group healing demonstrations and the impact of community on individual healing.
• They reflect on the difficulty of revealing oneself to close family members compared to strangers and the importance of finding a safe space for healing.
• The Role of Humor and Satire in Healing 1:13:51
• Stephanie explains how humor and satire on her Instagram page help her cope with the absurdity of certain religious practices.
• Melanie and Stephanie discuss the disarming nature of laughter and its ability to reset the vagus nerve and mindset.
• They explore the power of questions in dismantling the addiction to being right and encouraging a more open-minded approach.
• Stephanie shares her admiration for Byron Katie's approach to turning thoughts around and the transformative impact it can have.
• The Vision for Religious Trauma Healing 1:15:00
• Stephanie envisions a world where religion does not need to control individuals and where love and self-acceptance are the foundation for healing.
• She emphasizes the importance of starting with oneself and the ripple effect of self-love on the broader community.
• Melanie and Stephanie discuss the potential for group healing initiatives and the power of creating safe spaces for emotional expression.
• They reflect on the intergenerational impact of trauma and the importance of addressing spiritual wounds for complete healing.
• The Role of Astrology and Personal Mythology 1:15:50
• Melanie shares her journey into astrology and how it helped her understand her life experiences and karmic backstory.
• They discuss the concept of the lost child in family dynamics and how it relates to Melanie's role in her family.
• Stephanie and Melanie explore the scientific and metaphysical aspects of astrology and its potential for providing deep insights into one's identity.
• They reflect on the importance of creating personal rituals and finding meaning in one's story for healing and growth.
• The Power of Love and Self-Compassion 1:16:24
• Stephanie emphasizes the transformative power of love and self-compassion in healing from religious trauma.
• She shares her personal experience of receiving love and how it helped her find a sense of purpose and direction.
• Melanie and Stephanie discuss the importance of forgiveness, both for oneself and others, in the healing process.
• They reflect on the challenges of reconnecting with one's inner child and the importance of self-care in fostering self-compassion.
• The Future of Religious Trauma Healing 1:17:41
• Stephanie envisions a future where religious trauma healing is widespread and individuals are empowered to take care of themselves.
• They discuss the potential for community-based healing initiatives and the importance of creating safe spaces for emotional expression.
• Melanie and Stephanie reflect on the intergenerational impact of trauma and the importance of addressing spiritual wounds for complete healing.
• They emphasize the ripple effect of self-love and the potential for healing on a larger scale, including family lines, communities, and the world.

Instagram: @stuffchristianculturelikes

Substack: https://substack.com/@stephaniedrury

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• Sandy Silverman's Anti-Aging Journey 0:01
• Melanie Weller introduces Sandy Silverman, highlighting her extensive experience with various beauty and wellness treatments.
• Sandy shares her journey, starting with a breast augmentation in her late 20s and progressing to multiple procedures in her 30s and 40s.
• She discusses the significant changes she noticed in her 40s, leading to a face lift in her 40s, which she found helpful in her 50s.
• Sandy mentions the importance of lymphatic work and peptides in her 50s, which helped her manage puffiness and reverse aging.
• The Role of Lymphatic Work and Peptides 4:31
• Sandy explains how she discovered the importance of lymphatic work during COVID, which significantly reduced her puffiness.
• She emphasizes the role of peptides in reversing aging, mentioning that she takes different types of peptides for muscle building and skin health.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the impact of social media on the beauty and anti-aging industry, noting how it has increased access to various procedures.
• Sandy highlights the importance of counting calories and weight training in her routine, which has been crucial for her overall health and appearance.
• Internal Work and External Enhancements 7:29
• Sandy talks about the holistic approach she takes, including supplements, lymphatic work, and peptides, which are more affordable than surgical procedures.
• She emphasizes the importance of looking natural and maintaining a youthful appearance without resorting to extreme measures.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the desire to look younger and the impact of local and collective consciousness on beauty standards.
• Sandy shares her experience of moving to Miami, which motivated her to step up her self-care routine to fit in with the local culture.
• Misconceptions in the Anti-Aging Industry 11:21
• Sandy addresses common misconceptions, such as the effectiveness of laser machines and miracle creams, which she believes are temporary fixes.
• She stresses the importance of internal work, proper nutrition, and supplements for achieving lasting beauty and health.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the role of structure and boundaries in maintaining longevity and health, drawing parallels to astrological influences.
• Sandy shares her daily routine, including taking supplements, doing lymphatic work, and weight training, which she follows religiously.
• The Importance of Self-Care and Intuition 22:15
• Sandy talks about the support she received from her psychic, Priscilla, during a difficult time in her life, which provided comfort and guidance.
• She emphasizes the value of intuition and the importance of having a person who can validate and support your inner voice.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the role of spiritual healers and life coaches in providing valuable insights and support beyond conventional therapy.
• Sandy shares her experience with other spiritual healers, such as Wendy, who communicates with spiritual guides, providing unique perspectives and guidance.
• Balancing Internal and External Beauty 30:01
• Sandy discusses the importance of a balanced approach to beauty, combining internal health with external enhancements.
• She highlights the benefits of proper nutrition, supplements, and exercise in maintaining a youthful appearance and overall well-being.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the challenges of social media and the pressure to achieve unrealistic beauty standards.
• Sandy emphasizes the importance of self-compassion and accepting the natural changes that come with aging.
• Embracing Aging and Self-Acceptance 31:56
• Sandy shares her perspective on aging, acknowledging that it is unrealistic to maintain the same appearance as in one's 20s.
• She emphasizes the importance of self-acceptance and maintaining a positive outlook on aging.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the impact of genetics and external factors on one's appearance and the importance of loving oneself at any age.
• Sandy talks about her decision to stop weighing herself, recognizing the fluctuations and the unhealthy relationship with the scale.
• The Impact of a Balanced Approach on Life 36:54
• Sandy observes that women who embrace a balanced approach to beauty, both internally and externally, are happier and more confident.
• She shares her experiences with older women who take care of themselves and maintain a youthful appearance through self-care.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the benefits of good nutrition, proper exercise, and self-care in improving overall well-being and confidence.
• Sandy highlights the importance of sleep, proper diet, and avoiding substances that disrupt sleep, which contribute to better health and appearance.
• Sandy's Book and Its Purpose 40:52
• Sandy explains the purpose behind her book, "From Bullshit to Botox," which aims to provide practical advice and step-by-step instructions for various beauty and wellness treatments.
• She mentions the inclusion of affordable alternatives to expensive procedures, such as the Jesner Serum and body peels.
• Melanie and Sandy discuss the importance of making beauty and wellness accessible to everyone, regardless of financial constraints.
• Sandy emphasizes the goal of empowering women with knowledge and options to achieve their desired look without breaking the bank.
• Final Thoughts and Encouragement 41:13
• Melanie encourages listeners to get Sandy's book, highlighting its practical and grounded approach to beauty and wellness.
• Sandy shares her motivation for writing the book, which was to help others by sharing her extensive knowledge and experience.
• Melanie expresses gratitude for Sandy's fearless presence and the impact she has on empowering women.
• The conversation concludes with a reminder to subscribe to the podcast for more inspiring stories and information on stepping into one's fearless presence.

Links:

Book: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/from-bullshit-to-botox-sandra-lena-silverman/1146426001

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sandralenasilverman/

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John Murphy and Dennis King transformed their lives by selling their Nashville house and buying an 1850s plantation farmhouse, where they now host retreats and events. John's deep connection with Mary Magdalene began in his Catholic confirmation class, leading him to explore her story extensively. He transitioned from the music industry to energy work, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities. John and Dennis host retreats in France, focusing on Mary Magdalene's legacy and the sacred feminine. They emphasize self-forgiveness, self-love, and the importance of fostering intuitive and mindful qualities in children.

Website: kingmurphys.com

Retreat Instagram: @kingmurphysretreat

Crystal Instagram: @kingmurphysstones

• Melanie Weller introduces John Murphy, highlighting his transition from the music industry to hosting retreats and events at his 1850s plantation farmhouse.
• John Murphy shares his early connection with Mary Magdalene, starting from his Catholic confirmation class in junior year, where he wanted to choose her as his patron saint despite being told to pick a male saint.
• John discusses his identification with Mary Magdalene's outsider status and his journey of understanding her role in the Catholic Church and society.
• He recounts his career shift from fashion stylist to energy worker, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities, and his decision to quit drinking with the help of an energy practitioner.

• John Murphy describes his transition from the music industry to hosting retreats and energy work sessions, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities.
• He shares the impact of COVID-19 on his career, leading to a shift in focus and the decision to purchase the current property with Dennis King.
• John discusses the financial challenges and opportunities during COVID-19, including hosting live sales of crystals and minerals to support their new venture.
• He reflects on the emotional and physical toll of his previous career in the music industry and the relief he found in his new path.

• John Murphy elaborates on his deep connection with Mary Magdalene, influenced by various books and online searches about her.
• He highlights the importance of Mary Magdalene's archetype in his personal journey and the significance of self-forgiveness and self-love.
• John discusses the misconceptions and misunderstandings surrounding Mary Magdalene, particularly the label of her as a prostitute by Pope Gregory.
• He emphasizes the role of women in the early Christian church and the importance of the sacred feminine in spiritual practices.

• John Murphy shares his belief in the transformative power of Mary Magdalene's teachings, particularly in the areas of self-forgiveness and self-love.
• He discusses the significance of the gospel of Mary Magdalene and its focus on the seven aspects of self that need to be overcome.
• John reflects on the importance of fostering intuitive and mindful qualities in children and the need for a mindfulness camp for children.
• He emphasizes the role of the sacred feminine in creating a more compassionate and loving world.

• John Murphy delves into the various stories and legends surrounding Mary Magdalene, including her possible role in Jesus's resurrection and her journey to France.
• He discusses the significance of the Languedoc region in France, where many of these stories are centered, and the importance of the chakra trail on their property.
• John shares his experiences of leading retreats to France, including visits to significant sites like the Basilica of Mary Magdalene and the Grotto of Mary Magdalene.
• He reflects on the transformative power of these pilgrimages and the importance of creating one's own spiritual journey.

• John Murphy discusses the importance of spirituality in modern life, particularly in fostering self-love and compassion.
• He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.
• John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.
• He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.

• Melanie Weller and John Murphy discuss the role of archetypes in spiritual traditions and the importance of understanding these stories in a modern context.
• John reflects on the significance of the Garden of Eden and the importance of creating a Garden of Eden within oneself.
• He discusses the impact of astrology and the Zodiac on understanding the human body and spiritual anatomy.
• John emphasizes the importance of inner work and self-baptism in fostering spiritual growth and self-acceptance.

• John Murphy discusses the role of religion and spirituality in society, particularly in fostering compassion and self-acceptance.
• He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.
• John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.
• He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.

• John Murphy discusses the importance of self-love and compassion in fostering a more compassionate and loving world.
• He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.
• John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.
• He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.

• John Murphy discusses the role of spiritual practices in personal growth and self-discovery.
• He reflects on the significance of the gospel of Mary Magdalene and its focus on the seven aspects of self that need to be overcome.
• John shares his experiences of leading retreats to France and the transformative power of these pilgrimages.
• He emphasizes the importance of creating one's own spiritual journey and the role of the sacred feminine in fostering compassion and self-acceptance.

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Marguerite Rigoglioso and Melanie Weller discuss the themes of loss, healing, and restoration through the lens of the divine feminine, specifically Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary. They emphasize the need to reconnect with the mother figure for healing and restoration. Melanie and Marguerite explore the concept of divine feminine power, addressing its importance for women, humanity, and the planet. They discuss the exclusion of inner discovery and spiritual healing in the Bible and highlight the significance of honoring the sacred womb power of women.

Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary's significance in healing and spiritual paths.

• Melanie discusses her personal connection to Mary Magdalene and how it has influenced her work in healing and spirituality.
• Marguerite shares her experience of losing her mother at an early age and how it has impacted her life and work.
• Melanie: Mary Magdalene movement gaining steam, restoring her as high priestess.
• Marguerite: Mary's unveiling newer, scholarship and channeled materials revealing her true nature.

Mother Mary's divine feminine power for personal healing and planetary awakening.

• Marguerite shares personal stories of Mother Mary's presence in her life, including a memorable encounter with a prayer card on a house purchase.
• Melanie interviews Mary Hanlon, an artist who creates beautiful Black Madonna statues and shares her story of addiction recovery.
• Melanie shares personal stories of synchronicities involving Mary, highlighting the importance of paying attention to signs and filtering less relevant information.
• Marguerite emphasizes the personal healing and spiritual acceleration that can be experienced through working with Mary as a mentor, rather than simply worshipping her as a historical figure.
• Melanie: Divine feminine power is missing from traditional religions, leading to personal, spiritual, and global healing.
• Marguerite: Reawakening human potential through connection to inner divine feminine power, restoring angelic template.

Feminine power, spirituality, and Mary Magdalene's role in empowering women.

• Melanie and Marguerite discuss false idols of feminine power, including hyper-sexualized media images.
• Marguerite discusses how society has missed the boat in empowering the feminine, citing examples of oppressive attitudes towards women.
• Melanie shares research on the benefits of spirituality for mental health, highlighting the importance of connecting with something bigger than oneself.
• Melanie explains how Mother Mary was protected and trained from birth for her divine role.
• Melanie discusses the importance of a good upbringing for spiritual growth and healing.

Healing through mantras and spiritual practices.

• Expert emphasizes importance of early childhood bonding for independence and brain development.
• Colette Shuar, a Hindu saint from India, shared ancient palm leaf manuscripts with US followers, revealing spiritual practices for accessing the Holy Womb chakra.
• Practices involving mantras and cleansing the womb chakra can lead to healing and spiritual growth.

Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary's healing power.

• Melanie and Marguerite discuss mother line healing and its connection to Hindu tradition.
• Exercises and reflection questions are provided in the book for readers to connect with the topic.
• Melanie ponders timeless relevance of Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary, exploring her lineage and symbolism.
• Marguerite discusses the stream of Divine Feminine nourishment, healing, and empowerment through Mary Magdalene and other Marys, offering a prismatic perspective.

Goddess archetypes and spiritual growth through mythology and personal experience.

• Melanie and Marguerite discuss similarities between goddess systems in different cultures and religions.
• Steiner claims Mary Magdalene was reincarnation of ISIS, offering model for spiritual ascension.

The symbolism and healing power of Mother Mary in various contexts.

• Isis and Osiris story parallels Mary's death and disciples' gathering, revealing cosmic archetypes.
• Melanie shares how she used Marguerite's insights to help a long-term client in a powerful and meaningful way.
• Marguerite appreciates the impact of her conversation and the new medicines that emerge from it.
• Margaret encourages listeners to buy her book and leave reviews.

Links:

Marguerite's Book: Secret Life of Mother Mary

Seven Sisters Mystery School Website: sevensistersmysteryschool.com

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• Intro 0:01
• Weller and Radtke discuss contrast, storytelling, and fearlessness in midlife.
• Melanie and Pam reflect on learning to listen and be present in their lives as they age.
• Women's experiences with judgment, trauma, and healing through sharing secrets and vulnerabilities. 4:10
• Melanie observes that people often try to control one aspect of their life during difficult times, such as keeping a clean house during a messy divorce.
• Melanie notes that there is a lot of judgment among mothers and that this judgment can be damaging to relationships.
• Melanie Weller shares her healing journey with a group of women, including stories of rape and abuse.
• Pam joins a private Facebook group for women over 40 to share their secrets and vulnerabilities.
• Trust issues, self-doubt, and healing through personal growth. 9:11
• Pam and Melanie share experiences of self-doubt and mistrust, rooted in societal expectations and personal experiences.
• Melanie Weller shares her journey of healing and trusting herself after being gaslit by her mother.
• Pam relates to Melanie's experience, acknowledging the difficulty of trusting oneself and the societal pressure to conform.
• Gender roles, expectations, and the impact on mental health. 13:20
• Melanie shares her perspective on the importance of family meals, citing them as a way to stay attached to the herd and avoid feelings of isolation.
• Melanie reflects on her childhood experiences with family meals, noting that her parents' messages about being part of the family were often at odds with their actions, leading her to prioritize connection and survival through shared meals.
• Societal attitudes towards aging and sexuality. 18:02
• Women's sexuality and desire are often marginalized or dismissed in society.
• Melanie and Pam discuss societal attitudes towards aging women, including the stigma against older women's sexuality and the importance of community and support for women over 50.
• Gender roles, leadership, and personal growth after divorce. 21:49
• Women over 50 can change the world with united leadership.
• Pam reflects on 30 years of marriage and realizes she missed her 20s while prioritizing work and family.
• Pam's friends and family helped them realize there were alternatives to their limited perspective on life.
• Pam learned about human rights, women's rights, and trans rights through her daughters.
• Marriage and aging. 27:55
• Melanie shares her insights on long-term relationships, revealing the challenges and lessons learned from her own marriage.
• Pam reflects on her journey of self-discovery after her marriage ended, highlighting the importance of difficult conversations in relationships.
• Pam reflects on their journey from journalist to novelist, sharing insights on creative writing and self-discovery.
• Identity and marriage. 33:29
• Weller emphasizes importance of self-discovery in long-term relationships.
• Melanie Weller shares her struggles with balancing work and personal life as a school mom, feeling excluded from social circles and struggling with loneliness.
• Pam discusses her experience as a Gemini, feeling like they have two different personalities depending on the situation.
• Gender roles, identity, and relationships. 38:03
• Middle-aged women navigating identity and relationships in a spiritual revolution.
• Melanie Weller discusses how our fears and habits are not just our own, but are also passed down through generations.
• Societal beauty standards and their impact on self-esteem. 44:39
• Pam shares personal experiences with cultural beliefs around beauty and body image, feeling inadequate and unvalued.
• Melanie discusses the fear of women owning their sexuality and the power structures that exist to maintain control.
• Pam reflects on mother's past experiences and how they may have influenced her upbringing.
• Pam finds solace in meditation and slowing down her life to appreciate things more.
• Meditation, contrast, and holding opposites as true. 50:20
• Melanie Weller suggests that people with Body Dysmorphia have difficulty seeing themselves clearly due to lower activity in the visual parts of their brain.
• Pam agrees that not taking time to slow down and appreciate contrast in life can lead to creating more trauma and drama, and suggests that curiosity and creativity are key to a long happy life.
• Meditation can help individuals hold two different realities at once and handle chaos with grace.

Links:

Pam's Blog: https://pamradtke.substack.com/

• Snowboarding accident and recovery with Nick Prefontaine. 0:01
• Nick Prefontaine shares his inspiring story of overcoming a life-threatening snowboarding accident.
• Nick excitedly describes their experience snowboarding at a mountain, mentioning the terrain park and the jump they attempted.
• Nick recounts the moment he caught the edge of his snowboard while approaching the jump, causing him to wipe out.
• Near-fatal snowboarding accident and recovery journey. 3:42
• Nick's near-fatal accident led to intubation by a paramedic who saved his life.
• Doctors induced coma to reduce swelling.
• Nick went to UMass Memorial Medical Center two years after his accident to speak at a groundbreaking ceremony, where he visited the ICU where he received initial care.
• Nick had no conscious memory of his time in the ICU, but he felt like everything and everyone in the hospital was familiar to him.
• Using energy and support for recovery after a near-death experience. 10:49
• Nick overheard parents discussing recovery plan with doctors. His mother wouldn't let them discuss the negatives around Nick's unconscious body.
• Nick trusted his inner voice and followed it to make a full recovery, which later led to his current work helping others.
• Nick's parents had someone perform Reiki on them while in a partially induced coma.
• Nick's advocate helped him get off medication and drugs as soon as they were clear to walk, allowing his body to heal naturally.
• Overcoming trauma and building resilience through persistence and training. 16:53
• Nick overcomes trauma and achieves goal of "running out of hospital" after persistent effort.
• Nick struggles with returning to school after coma and snowboarding accident.
• Nick starts his career in real estate by knocking on doors of homeowners who had missed mortgage payments, without proper training or support.
• Nick finds a mentor and starts to perform well in his new career.
• Inner voice and trauma recovery with a former real estate agent. 22:33
• Melanie Weller: impressed by mother's positive attitude after coma, credits her for not limiting Nick's potential.
• Nick: Believes everyone has inner voice and stresses how important it is.
• Nick grew up in a real estate family and got his real estate license in 2008.
• Nick helped his dad market and sell investment properties, shifting their income from real estate to investing.
• Helping renters and homebuyers remove doubt and build trust through a process. 30:10
• Nick helps renters remove doubt and build trust in themselves and the process, leading to successful homeownership.
• Nick's systems and tools help associates across the country achieve similar success, sharing his story from the stage and helping others overcome challenges.
• Voice in the back of his head disappeared after connecting with mentor, Tricia Brooke.
• Integrating natural and modern medicine for healing. 36:35
• Melanie shares her experience with Reiki and cranial sacral therapy, discussing their impact on her life and family.
• Nick believes his recovery was possible because of a combination of modern medicine and natural therapies, including acupuncture, colonics, and Tui Na massage.
• Voice issues after an accident and subsequent treatments with Botox and other therapies. 41:54
• Nick discussed his journey with voice issues and various treatments, including Botox and natural therapies.
• Doctor noted improvement in Nick's voice despite needing more Botox treatments, suggesting natural therapies were effective.
• Optimizing energy and recovery after a stroke using affirmations, therapy, and self-care. 47:23
• Nick recalls how social activities, like lunch with friends, helped him enter therapy sessions in a better mental state.
• Nick describes how affirmations in his hospital room helped keep his energy high and motivated him to work towards his goals.
• Nick struggled with doubts about his ability to walk again, but his mother's support helped him stay positive and focused on his recovery.
• Nick recounts journey with voice issues, including Botox treatments and a half marathon.
• Nick emphasizes importance of perseverance and keeping going towards goals.
• Persistence and resilience in overcoming challenges. 55:56
• Melanie and Nick discuss persistence in achieving goals, with persistence leading to predictability and structure in life.
• Nick shares his frustration with people telling him to be grateful for small improvements instead of believing he can be 100% back to normal.
• Nick's voice improved significantly after years of Botox injections.
• Nick still sees improvements in voice quality despite last injection 4 years ago.
• Meditation, mindfulness, and personal growth. 1:03:36
• Nick reflects on the benefits of meditation, citing its ability to help individuals quiet their minds and handle noise more effectively.
• Melanie discusses the power of affirmations and how they can shape our language and thought patterns, even subconsciously.
• Melanie and Nick discuss the importance of taking care of one's body as one's spiritual home.
• They emphasize the importance of being present in one's body and taking care of it to impact others positively.
• Nick shares his contact information.

Links:

Nick's Website: nickprefontaine.com/step

• Finding pleasure and joy through core trauma transformation. 0:01
• Dr. Tara Perry helps clients find pleasure, joy, and freedom through core trauma transformation.
• Transitioning from in-person to virtual therapy and healing. 1:50
• Dr. Tara Perry discusses transition from acupuncture to hypnosis, working virtually, and the impact of trauma on mental health.
• The power of the subconscious mind and its impact on our well-being. 4:05
• Dr. Tara Perry explains that the subconscious mind processes 40 million bits of information per second, compared to the conscious brain's 40 bits per second.
• Dr. Tara Perry and Melanie Weller discuss the idea that the subconscious mind drives the train, with the conscious mind only processing a small percentage of information.
• Dr. Tara Perry highlights the complexity of the human body's internal systems and the importance of meditation in connecting with one's own intelligence and regulating homeostasis.
• Dr. Tara Perry and Melanie Weller discuss the potential benefits of meditation in resolving issues and returning to a more optimal state of being.
• Hypnosis effectiveness and practitioner dependence. 9:51
• Melanie Weller shares her experience with hypnotherapy and the importance of finding the right practitioner for the desired outcome.
• Dr. Tara Perry discusses the practitioner-dependent nature of hypnosis and acupuncture, and the importance of looking at outcomes when selecting a practitioner.
• Emotional harmony, Chinese medicine, and practitioner effectiveness. 12:54
• Dr. Tara Perry shares insights on the power of heart and brain coherence in healing, citing Dr. Joe Dispenza's work.
• Melanie Weller discusses the importance of acceptance and social anxiety, explaining why people may stay in unhealthy relationships or fear public speaking.
• Chinese medicine views emotional disharmony as a blockage in the body's energy flow, leading to disease.
• Healing, hypnosis, and brain science. 17:38
• Dr. Tara Perry found deeper healing through connecting with subconscious rather than relying on practitioner's magic.
• Melanie Weller discusses the importance of changing habits and beliefs to achieve personal growth.
• She references Tony Robbins' teachings on the need to change and the brain's preference for familiar habits, highlighting the importance of making a conscious effort to shift towards what you want.
• Dr. Tara Perry helps people confront and change deep-seated fears and beliefs that have been holding them back, using techniques such as neuroplasticity and archetypes.
• Melanie Weller agrees that the brain is more malleable than previously thought, and that changing one's personality and consciousness is possible through various methods.
• Personal growth, mindset, and critical thinking. 23:48
• Melanie Weller and Dr. Tara Perry discuss the importance of asking better questions to achieve success and happiness.
• Dr. Tara Perry emphasizes the need to be mindful of biased research studies with financial interests at play.
• Subconscious mind healing and sustaining results. 26:42
• Dr. Tara Perry shares stories of people experiencing significant relief from chronic pain, migraines, and panic attacks through rewiring their subconscious minds.
• The root of these issues is often found in our interpretations of ourselves, the world, and other people, rather than the events themselves.
• Dr. Tara Perry describes common emotional struggles in therapy intake forms, seeking peace, freedom, and joy.
• Melanie Weller and Dr. Tara Perry discuss the concept of contrast in the nervous system, with Melanie explaining how contrast is necessary for learning and growth, and Dr. Tara Perry agreeing that contrast is a fundamental law of life.
• Dr. Tara Perry uses the analogy of a stock market to explain how life is full of ups and downs, but with the right tools, people can learn to navigate these changes and sustain their progress over time.
• Unconscious mind and healing with Dr. Tara Perry. 32:42
• Dr. Tara Perry explains that the key to solving personal issues is to access the subconscious mind, which is responsible for 90% of our thoughts and actions.
• Dr. Tara Perry offers a 90-day program with three sessions, a mastermind group, and additional modules to help individuals rewire their neural pathways and achieve their desired state of being.
• Dr. Tara Perry discusses her podcast "Next Level Healing" and her approach to helping people overcome unnecessary suffering through neuroscience and metaphors.
• Listeners can connect with Dr. Perry through her podcast, website, or by texting her to schedule a zoom call for her unzip meditation.

You won't find Mary Henlin's extraordinary addiction recovery story anywhere else. From federal arrest and massive physical wounds to getting clean, you will be inspired and in awe of how Mary Magdalene showed up every step of the way. It will leave you asking how Mary Magdelene is alive in your life.

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Show Notes:

Art, spirituality, and personal growth with an artist.

• Mary Henlin creates beautiful Black Madonna and dark goddess statues and figurines.
• Melanie Weller and Mary Henlin reflect on their transformative journey through India, sharing stories of resilience and spiritual growth.

Art, addiction, and recovery.

• In the late 90s, the Mary started their art journey by creating a controversial piece on Mary Magdalene, which led to attention and a scholarship.
• Mary moved to the Bay Area to study fine art photography at Academy of Art University, where they lived above a DIY music venue and collaborated with artists and musicians.
• Mary Henlin recounts a harrowing experience at a metal festival in Germany, where they fell off a platform and was rushed to a hospital without their passport or ID.
• Mary Henlin hitchhiked back to the festival and later learned that the tour promoter had died in a car crash on the autobahn.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience with opioid addiction, starting with a fractured spine and subsequent surgery, and how they became addicted to prescription painkillers and eventually turned to illegal drugs.
• Mary Henlin's addiction led to a decline in their academic performance and photography career, and they eventually became bedridden due to their addiction.

Addiction, rehab, and recovery.

• Mary describes their addiction to prescription medication and rehab experience.
• Mary describes feeling lost and depressed after moving to a new house in a remote area, with numb limbs and a lack of interest in life.
• Mary's symptoms improve after months, with their hands suddenly pouring sweat in the kitchen.
• Addiction and recovery in Portland, Oregon.
• Mary describes feeling numb and disconnected from their 20s due to addiction, leading to feelings of loneliness and isolation.
• Mary moves out of their parents' house and back into the city, where they face new temptations and old habits.
• Mary describes their experience with addiction in a small town, including the availability of drugs and the impact on their family.
• Mary moves to Portland, Oregon to escape their past and find new opportunities, citing the city's reputation for vice and debauchery.
• Addiction and mental health in Portland, Oregon.
• Portland, OR has become an "open air asylum" with untreated mental health issues and drug abuse, despite making money from these issues.
• Melanie Weller asks Mary Henlin about their experience in rehab and the gap between what was offered and what they needed.
• Addiction, loneliness, and spirituality.
• Mary Henlin describes their home as "a hoarder house of antique statues and roses" and how it became overtaken by their collection during a time of loneliness and addiction.
• Mary Henlin shares experiences of being robbed and kidnapped multiple times during this period, highlighting the dangerous and unpredictable nature of their situation.
• Kidnapping, addiction, and self-harm.
• Mary Henlin describes being kidnapped and held captive by a man who was a gambling addict, who would force them to give him money and take their business.
• Mary Henlin eventually escaped and barricaded themselves in their house, feeling traumatized and scared of everyone.
• Mary Henlin describes experiencing severe foot wounds that were not healing properly, causing intense pain and discomfort.
• Mary Henlin tried going to the hospital but was unable to receive proper treatment due to lack of insurance and being openly judged for their drug use.
• Loneliness, addiction, and near-death experiences.
• Mary struggles with personal issues, interprets crow's death as omen of impending doom.
• Melanie Weller shares her experience with loneliness and isolation, feeling trapped and unable to ask for help.
• Arrest, medical care, and legal proceedings.
• Mary Henlin was arrested by marshals and taken to a federal courthouse, where they were told they faced 10 years in prison.
• Mary Henlin was taken to a hospital due to their poor health, and was handcuffed to a bed.
• Melanie Weller describes being handcuffed to a bed and facing federal conspiracy charges, feeling trapped and scared for her life.
• Mary Henlin recounts being chained and monitored 24/7 in a hospital, feeling violated and traumatized by the medical treatment.
• Mary Henlin describes being shackled to their hands while in the hospital for a drug overdose, with wounds on their arms and legs that were caused by the shackles.
• Mary Henlin talks to marshals in the hospital, who are older retired men paid to guard people, starting on day 9 or 10 of their hospitalization.
• Addiction, recovery, and incarceration.
• Mary Henlin was advised to resist temptations and turn off human instincts to succeed in a difficult situation.
• Mary Henlin was placed in a medical ward of jail after 10 days in the hospital, where they experienced pain and discomfort due to a bad back and constant light exposure.
• Medical care in jail, mental coping mechanisms.
• Inmate describes challenges with wound care and hygiene in jail.
• Mary Henlin describes being taken to a dermatology appointment in shackles and jail outfit to receive treatment for bleeding wounds.
• Mary Henlin found solace in reading "Woman Who Run with Wolves" by Clarissa Pinkola Estes in the jail library.
• Experiences of meditation and spirituality in solitary confinement.
• Meditation and reentry into society after prison.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, feeling like they were "entering a new world" with people who had been incarcerated for 20 years or more.
• Mary Henlin found solace in a particular book during this time, which they describe as a "treasure" that helped them feel more grounded and comfortable in their new surroundings.
• Life in a halfway house after prison.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, including the challenges of finding employment and navigating the city while being closely monitored.
• Mary Henlin struggled to find jobs due to a gap in their employment history and physical limitations caused by a back injury, leading to feelings of defeat and hopelessness.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, including the challenges of living with many people and the importance of learning time management and discipline.
• Mary Henlin meets someone from a recovery group who offers them an affordable room to rent and a week later receives a check for over $5,000 from the auctioneers who had sold their possessions.
• Loneliness and adapting to life in a halfway house.
• Mary reflects on their experience in a halfway house, feeling isolated and lonely despite being surrounded by others.
• As a defendant, Mary describes the challenges of pretrial proceedings, including constant therapy sessions and traveling to the courthouse for UA tests.
• Addiction, recovery, and legal struggles.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience in a haunted house job, feeling alive and connected to the Portland community after years of addiction and instability.
• Mary Henlin mastered a call center job for environmental nonprofits, overcoming employment challenges and rising to the challenge every day to keep their job and support their freedom.
• Mary Henlin describes their experience with the criminal justice system, including their guilty plea and the emotional impact on their family and relationship with their partner.
• The judge in Mary Henlin's case was impressed by their perfect attendance and work ethic, and gave them a more lenient sentence than expected.
• Trauma, art, and probation after a felony conviction.
• Survivor of traumatic event feels stuck in the present, unable to think about the future.
• Melanie Weller creates art while on home confinement and probation, finds solace in creativity.
• Art, spirituality, and personal growth.
• Mary's art and spiritual practices are intertwined with their living situation, leading to unexpected reunions with past creations and landlords.
• Mary Henlin discovered Head Tn's work on Instagram and was inspired by her art and connection to goddesses, leading to a shift in how they saw the world and their art.
• Mary Henlin was passionate about making merry figures and connecting with the world through their art, even while on home confinement and after a year ended, they started walking everywhere in Portland looking for sacred spots to leave their figures.
• Portland's nickname, roses, and sensory experiences.
• Mary Henlin describes the city of Portland as having a "magical" atmosphere, with vibrant colors and a sense of community.
• Mary Henlin reflects on the cultural significance of death rituals and floral displays in a historic cemetery, highlighting the importance of honoring the dead.
• Healing, creativity, and spirituality after escaping probation.
• Friendship forms between Mary Elizabeth and Beth, born on same day, share similar birth charts and personalities.
• Mary Henlin describes feeling watched and judged after leaving a toxic work environment, even after finding freedom and quitting smoking.
• Mary Henlin creates art and a studio in their closet, inspired by black Madonna statues from around the world.
• Mary Henlin's Black Madonna figures became popular after they were posted on Instagram, leading to requests for purchases and collaborations with other artists.
• Mary Henlin started an Etsy shop to sell the figures, but had to balance work as an administrative assistant with creating and shipping the figures.
• Creating art, trading materials, and mold-making.
• Melanie Weller shares her passion for creating sculptures and her journey of learning to make larger, more intricate pieces.
• Mary Henlin received a box of materials from Amber in trade for a pink marry statue, including vintage charms, rhinestones, and dried roses.
• Mary Henlin created a mold of a vintage Cali statue that Amber had randomly sent them, and used it to make black clay replicas.
• Art, spirituality, and personal growth.
• Mary creates sculptures of Mary Magdalene and Santa Muerte, receives commissions and publishing opportunities.
• Mary was asked to create 30 Santa Muerte statues for a special deluxe edition of a book. They initially felt intimidated by the task but ultimately decided to do it after meditating on it and finding the experience to be encouraging and transformative.
• Mary’s neighbors unexpectedly wanted to move out, leaving them with a dirt cheap two-bedroom apartment right next door to their old place, allowing them to finally have their own place and art studio after years of renting rooms and struggling to make ends meet.
• Mary Henlin describes feeling content and happy in their apartment, with a sense of community in Portland, before their job was unexpectedly relocated to Colorado.
• Mary Henlin decides to pursue their art full-time after a period of stability through Etsy income and commissions, despite initial concerns from their partner and family.
• Creativity, mental health, and business growth.
• Melanie Weller appreciates the thoughtfulness and care put into her packages by Mary Beth, which has improved her mental health and ability to focus on her craft.
• Collaboration with partner and friend leads to business growth and thriving.
• Healing through creativity and rituals.
• Mary Henlin values walking and the freedom it provides, having overcome weight gain and mobility issues.
• Mary Henlin and friend Mary Beth have drying rose operations in their homes, finding it healing and good for their mental health.
• Melanie Weller highlights the significance of rituals in her creative process, citing their ability to help her stay disciplined and focused.
• Mary purchases a vintage Mary statue mold from a stranger in Seattle despite reservations about trusting them, driven by an intense dream-like obsession with the mold.
• Mary Henlin and Mary Beth experimented with making statues using plaster and concrete, but encountered challenges such as mold damage and broken statues in transit.
• Mary Henlin's dad helped them figure out a better system for making smooth statues, including a stand to hold the mold upside down and a perfect smooth white stone mix.
• Branding, art, and personal growth.
• Melanie Weller describes Mary Henlin as a "real-life Mary" and an embodiment of mythological figures like Isis and Osiris, highlighting their personal growth and transformation.
• The guest's business evolution reflects their inner journey, with Melanie providing a "fly on the wall" perspective.
• Moving from Portland to Eugene and facing financial challenges.
• Feeling unsafe in Portland due to drug use and crime.
• Mary Henlin expresses relief at leaving Portland and gratitude for Mary Beth's continued support.
• Mary Henlin and others in the art community experienced financial struggles due to slow sales and increased Etsy fees, which caused them to worry about affording a trip to India.
• Spirituality, healing, and connection with Mary Magdalene.
• A story of spiritual pilgrimage in India, including encounters with a woman named Tatiana who gifted her a Mary Magdalene doll, and two women who helped her navigate the trails and find her way to her car after an injury.
• A dream about Mark 15, leading her to reflect on the intersection of Mary Magdalene and Christ's crucifixion.
• Mary shares her personal story of healing and connection through her dreams and conversations with Melanie Weller.
• Mary thanks Melanie for holding space for her to share her story and for providing healing before her 43rd birthday.

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Qigong as a nervous system regulation tool.

• Melanie Weller and Scott discuss Qi Gong as a nervous system regulation tool, with a focus on energy channels and their function in modern exercise.
• Melanie Weller discovers parallels between her nervous system regulation teachings and traditional Chinese energetic practices, despite politics and cultural shifts in China.
• Melanie Weller and Scott discuss how art and meditation can become a threat to those in power, citing examples from history.

Exercise and its role in modern society.

• Exercise may not solve the underlying problems of modern society, despite being good for mental health.
• Scott highlights the importance of exercise for those who are not moving much, citing the potential negative effects of a sedentary lifestyle on the human body.
• Scott expresses surprise at the high cost of some exercise classes, such as a cycling class in San Francisco, and questions the value of paying for a structured exercise session when a gym membership can provide similar benefits at a lower cost.
• Idolizing a 20-year-old coach on a bicycle, revealing a lack of connectivity in society.

Exercise, loneliness, and vision with a focus on nervous system regulation.

• Exercise and nature connection can alleviate loneliness and improve mental health.
• Melanie Weller reflects on the impact of her surroundings on her vision, wondering if living in a different environment would have affected her need for glasses as she ages.
• Weller's husband's classmate creates makeshift glasses for people in Africa, highlighting the accessibility issue for those without proper vision care.
• Exercises impact five sensory systems: visual, vestibular, proprioceptive, somatosensory, and interoceptive.

Dantian and joint mobility in Qi Gong and Tai Chi.

• Dantian is a concept in Qi Gong and Tai Chi, referring to a storehouse of qi in the body.
• Melanie Weller discusses the importance of joint mobility in maintaining body health, citing examples from her visceral mobile mobilization training.
• Scott explains that stuck qi in joints can cause pain and limit the body's functioning, and provides examples of joint mobility exercises to open up the chi flow.

Body movement and energy flow in Chinese philosophy and meditation.

• Melanie Weller explains how Tai Chi movements can help treat trauma by increasing shock absorption and resolving stuckness in the body.
• Master Zhang's response to his students' concerns about training after retirement is to continue doing circles, which involves moving the body in various planes to keep the energy flowing.
• Melanie Weller explains how the Chinese philosophy views the body as consisting of different planes, including the coronal plane, which is involved in movement and posture.
• Scott discusses the microcosmic orbit meditation practice in the secret meditative tradition, which involves moving awareness up and down the body's energy channels for optimal health and awareness.
• Weller finds geometric patterns in body & cosmos, connecting alignment to cosmic rhythms.

Vedic philosophy and alignment with spirit.

• Scott discusses alignment with self, family, community, nation, world, and spirit as key to achieving bliss and well-being.
• Guru's plea for people's rights leads to his death by boiling.
• Enlightened state is achieved when one aligns with spirit, losing desire for external things.
• Melanie Weller discusses the concept of contrast in our lives, how it can be both positive and negative, and how it affects our ability to find meaning and pleasure.
• Weller and Scott explore how seeking pleasure can sometimes lead to more painful experiences, and how finding healthy contrast can help us enjoy life more fully.

Spirituality, contrast, and nervous system regulation.

• Scott suggests that contrast and the contrast of the collective can be soothing to the nervous system, potentially reducing drama in one's life.
• Scott and Melanie discuss the idea that karma can be manifested in the body and soothed through actions that promote relaxation and reduce stress.
• Melanie Weller discusses how solar in space weather affects the Earth's electromagnetic field, which can be measured in the vagus nerves, and how this relates to medical astrology and nervous system regulation.

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