Felly Speaks

The quickest update since I have been gone for a bit! Looking forward to 2024

You're shocked I'm posting again back to back? This is too long to do in one episode. When was a time that I went backwards on what i promised to myself. When solidified and cemented trauma within me. When is not good! And is a series of unfortunate events!

I know..I know you missed me. Let's get the updates out of the way and then get on with the show! 

Here I update you once again on what has been going on. I further start this out with the three different WHERE's of my life. This is where I sought validation and where I tried to heal in toxic ways. This is where I lowered my value. Now, I go over this very quickly because WHERE influenced WHEN .  I am practicing my tone of voice to be more authentic with how I speak . This is coming from a therapist who speaks to many people, I hope you stick around to see my progression. My goal is to be vulnerable to influence others to feel their emotions!

I have been gone for a bit-- I have no clear explanation lol Just rambling for 30 mins .  I discuss just wanting to be heard and how people don't really hear us. This is me launching back in , but at my pace! This has no clear direction whatsoever. No editing either at all because I quickly posted it :D You hear me anxiously scratching and being super grammatically incorrect...ENJOY!

What is the person that abused me in multiple ways. This is what caused me to become entrenched in a cycle that I could not escape. Unhealthy patterns is what resulted and this is what caused me to accept wrongdoings from another person. Here is what created a core belief that everyone will lie to me and I am not enough. This is what dealing with a narcissist left me with, this is what love bombing was and what gaslighting looks like. These are stories I have not spoken of fully. This is a part of myself I hid from my loved ones, so here it all is. What was one of my lessons in life and a part of how I became who I am today. Learning to love myself has been paramount. Enjoy this almost one hour and a half rant !

Trauma series is here! WHO, WHAT, WHEN, WHERE , WHY and on. This series will follow my traumas in relationships. WHO encompasses my earlier years. WHO were all of my first traumas outside of my familial traumas. This one was hard for me and is fully unedited. This series is meant for me to come to realizations about things and talk about stuff I have never spoken about previously. People hear snippets but isn't it funny how much we keep inside. You will hopefully hear me make connections about things and hear some difficult things I have been through recently. I hope this leads to people speaking their truths more. You will hear crying and you will hear real up front processing. You will hear lows and highs. You will hear scattered thinking in this first episode. Totally unedited here and me trying to get over my fears of facing this stuff. 

My friend Kimmy comes on and speaks about her role as a teacher at our former high school. Kimmy continues to be a person that I can bounce some of my worries on and I do just that. We speak about our trajectories in life, motherhood, and friendship. You get a small taste of how we speak on a general basis. We can speak for hours and about randomness! Even if we disagree, we can always come to an acknowledgment of each other's viewpoints, which is captured in this episode. 

Sorry for the crappy sound on my end- ya girl was tired and not paying attention, thanks Luis for trying to fix it lol. If you can get past that then we are starting the talk regarding law enforcement. A quick chat about our experiences and our thoughts regarding the system and the outlook on Law Enforcement as an entity. I will leave it at that because we barely touched the surface.