Felly Speaks

I was away---sorry! I give brief updates on why, super brief updates. I struggled a lot this past month and am looking forward to starting up again. I talk about my family issues and a loss that I endured. I also talk about my Hashimoto's and it's effects on me. 

This episode isn't about the title but i speak briefly about why I have been withdrawn. I speak about grief and death. This gets me talking about how death sometimes comes with disagreement amongst the living. I talk about my anger currently surrounding some conflict in my paternal family unit and the responsibilities of parents. Parent caused trauma is also spoken about. The concept of it being hard to practice what you preach is brought up as I am guilty of it myself. 

My friend Luis and I catch up. Many topics come up about what he has been up to and how we have grown as friends. Processing traumas and if dismissing them is healthy or not. The topic of triggers comes up and how these affect relationships overall. We then discuss relationships and being able to understand the internal struggles we go through and communicate those effectively to our partners. Female vs. male roles in sex and even the power dynamic is brought up. 

I bring in two of my best friends to speak about friendship and we get into a conversation about our friendship. We also talk about pain we have and issues we have faced that cause some disruption in our personal lives. Imposter syndrome is brought up and forgiving ourselves is broached.  What is a healthy friendship?? I think our dialogue here shows how far we have come as friends. 

I add some more context to Episode 3. I speak of trauma surrounding attachment figures and how that affects certain aspects of life. I use my own relationship with my father to add some more context to this discussion. I also speak about relationships in general and how I move on from pain or hurt in my life. Of course, further discussion in future episodes will come!

In this episode I speak about fatherless daughters in single mothered household and the difficulties in single mothered households. I explain struggles I went through in a low SES and some struggles in my high school experience. I go through what it is like to go to school and hustle through full-time work. I lend an emotional outlook on my own father figures and my struggles with overworking myself.

I touch on anxiety and the beginning ways to cope with it. My dealings with anxiety are touched on and how I dealt with it this week. 

I set the stage for what is to come. I talk about forgiveness and quarantine. What does it mean to be happy?