In today’s episode, I’m talking about having more gratitude, and realizing that I’ve never learned how to trust myself. Trusting myself is a decision that I can make. Because all of us have the ability to get answers to our own truth.

Today’s episode is an update and also about a meditation that i did where I felt my life would be a nightmare to my younger self. I talk about some possibilities of why I’ve felt so lost and lonely and why I haven’t known what to share. Life doesn’t ever go as expected. I am learning that I want to be OK with that. I do believe that life happens for you. We just have to take responsibility and do the things that it takes to heal and move forward.

I am so grateful that I was able to put together this podcast episode. I recorded this after going to a women’s retreat. I am so grateful for amazing, uplifting, mentors, and friends that helped remind me who I am again. I hope that I can inspire you to remember who you are, and that you have everything inside of you to create the life that you dream of.

Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food.

You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form.

My blog:

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

Find me on My socials!

Aleisha Black

https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity

https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack

Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP

Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black

Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817

Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

More About me:

My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married.

So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family.

I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again.

So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us?

I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too.

I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Update on what I’m up to lately. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food.

You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form.

My blog:

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

Find me on My socials!

Aleisha Black

https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity

https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack

Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP

Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black

Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817

Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

Today’s episode i talk about how we have moved out of our house and into a trailer on our property. We are starting our journey to building a new life for our family. We are leaving the busy city to have more time for connecting with ourselves and the people we love. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food.

You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form.

My blog:

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

Find me on My socials!

Aleisha Black

https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity

https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack

Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP

Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black

Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817

Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

More About me:

My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married.

So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family.

I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again.

So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us?

I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too.

I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Here we are another episode of this journey of self discovery and finding out who I truly am. I’m discussing The step I’m making to Move out of my parents house and breaking financial ties with my parents. This is going to be a huge step to healing and finding my independence. More of my healing story…. After losing 85 pounds and gaining it all back and more… I was left full of shame. I felt depressed and I went into hiding. I’ve been searching for answers ever since. I was scared to try again. I realized I had to learn how to love myself in this big body. I started a podcast called Finding Myself Through Obesity and shared my journey of my healing from the inside out. Because of that, my weight gain has actually led me to my awakening. Now I’m healing the emotional weight. I’m learning why i want to escape with food. I’m healing and embracing all the parts of me so I can get healthy long term. After doing so much Internal work… I’m finally ready to start working on releasing my external weight and I’m so excited for the future. #healing #selflove #weightlosstips #weightlossmotivation #healingjourney

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

https://linktr.ee/AleishaBlack

Here we are another episode of being aware of our thoughts and the stories that we make up in our minds in order to protect us. Let’s try to stop lying to ourselves and getting to the truth. Maybe then there will be healing on the other side. More of my healing story…. After losing 85 pounds and gaining it all back and more… I was left full of shame. I felt depressed and I went into hiding. I’ve been searching for answers ever since. I was scared to try again. I realized I had to learn how to love myself in this big body. I started a podcast called Finding Myself Through Obesity and shared my journey of my healing from the inside out. Because of that, my weight gain has actually led me to my awakening. Now I’m healing the emotional weight. I’m learning why i want to escape with food. I’m healing and embracing all the parts of me so I can get healthy long term. After doing so much Internal work… I’m finally ready to start working on releasing my external weight and I’m so excited for the future. #healing #selflove #weightlosstips #weightlossmotivation #healingjourney

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

https://linktr.ee/AleishaBlack

Today I’m talking about the reflection of the past two episodes and how I forgot the things that I was learning. I am reflecting on how far I’ve come and the changes that I’m going to be going through physically with our move.

Today’s episode we are talking about moving out of my parents house and breaking financial ties to them so i can improve my relationship with my husband. I am having to face the fear of their disappointment in me when I’ve always wanted to make them proud of me. But I’m learning that i need to stop pretending to get acceptance and work on accepting myself. ——————————————————Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food.

You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form.

My blog:

www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com

Find me on My socials!

Aleisha Black

https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity

https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/

Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack

Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP

Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black

Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817

Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

More About me:

My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married.

So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family.

I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again.

So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us?

I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too.

I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.