This might not be pretty, but it will be real.
(Warning: There may be some LANGUAGE!) #TessBomb
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At 6:30 this morning I had a meeting with Steve in New York. He’s my agent, but more than that, he’s someone I care about. This morning he held up a mirror for me to see myself for what I am. And I’m ashamed to say that what I saw didn’t make me happy. There were tears.
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Despite my success.
Despite my “eternal optimism”.
Despite my authentic care for you.
I’ve failed.
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I’ve failed to let you in. I’ve failed to be clear in what I tell you about what I struggle with. Because we all have the SAME struggle. But I’ve not shared mine with you.
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You don’t need to hear all my dirty laundry, but you do need to know that YOU are not alone. You fear criticism. So do I. You hate being judged. So do I. You secretly yearn for external validation. So do I. You carry the baggage of your childhood. So the hell do I.
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It’s really not enough for me to simply write this for you though. It’s not good enough to sanitise this pseudo-vulnerability. If I’m going to help you on your journey, I need to reflect your experience for you to see. I need to let you in.
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I can’t help you if I’m not being real, not allowing you to see my vulnerabilities. Because how can I help you if you can’t recognise yourself in my experiences, my vulnerabilities, my challenges, my wins. How would there be any relevance for you in my message?
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So this will be an emotional video. But it’s me, in all my unvarnished emotional honesty. I’m letting you in. And if it’s too much for you to tolerate, too much sharing for you, then I’ll understand if you need to step off the bus. Because I’m NOT everyone’s cup of tea. I never have been. And that’s okay. It’s time I practice what I preach and embrace that!
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And if you stick with me, I promise to do my best not to let you down again. No one likes to fail, least of all me. So I will use this moment to inspire me to do better. For myself and most of all for you. Because that’s why I’m here.
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