[For Your Consideration.]

[For Your Consideration.]

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[For Your Consideration.] episodes

  • posh.

    posh.

    —tried to record the vocals with it but apparently either my interface or my computer—

    Whatever

    —Money.

    -U. ft, Happy Accidents

    Dunno when I'm going to be able to do vocals next so here's the instrumental, the lyrics. And whatever else was in my notes when I was in producer mode with my documents open.

    Amen

    posh. (Instrumental)

    Happy Accidents ft. -Ū.

    Actually I was thinking about using my Srs Blk Alias.

    [serious black]

    // srs blk.

    Whatever there's robots outside my door coughing right now.

    Here go the lyrics.

    Fucking robots.

    This is just a fad

    Why you mad?

    What is in my bag

    (Posh)

    I am just a fan

    Why you mad

    You are not my man

    This is just a fad,

    I make dance music cause I can

    This is just a fad

    Why you mad

    (Keep it classy)

    Posh.

    I am hella bad

    Do the math

    You are not my dad

    This is just a fad

    I make dance music cause I can

    I am just a fan

    Why you mad

    You are not my man

    This is just a fad

    (Dance)

    Posh

    This is just a fad.

    Facts.

    {Enter The Multiverse}

    I don't think I like anybody!

    That's right, I'm not looking.

    Mis it possible to be asexual

    Google?

    • Asexual
    • Asexuality is a lack of sexual attraction or interest in sexual activity with others. Asexual people may also be referred to as "ace" or "Aces".
    • Alright, I've earned that tattoo twice now .
    • Now,where should it go?

      I don't know if I'd quite cal it asexual, just…disinterested in the general population at large.

      But you're in the general population,

      Exactly.

      I'm in need of a pillow pet.

      Have you tried toys r us.

      Do you know how weird it's going to look for a 40 something year old man with zero kids to walk into a toys r us and ask for a pillow pet?

      So you have thought about it.

      Are you stupid?

      Not as stupid as I ought to be

      Lay on the tarmac.

      What.

      Just—lay in the tarmac

      For what?

      I'm going to run you over with an airplane.

      …that might work.

      “How to Kill An Immortal”.

      It's that time of the day

      And the day of the week

      Where my mind goes awry

      (So long, sir)

      And my heart starts making the wrong turns

      Cross eyes, ten and two

      [Atomic Number]

      cross Eyes, ten and two

      Cross your heart,

      Or don't

      (Goodbye, sir)

      Goodbuy, good sir

      I just bought a pony,

      I want a fruit roll up

      My internet due tomorrow

      (Go finish the album)

      I just want donut

      Good morning

      Hot topics

      I've got much more to show for it than you're onto.

      Than you're onto

      Than you're onto—

      Honest.

      Don't stop there, dog.

      (Atomic Number)

      Thats no crosswalk

      Purchase you for favors

      For favors

      For flavors

      Four flavors, are there

      But I've only got my whole eye on one of them

      What up then

      Don't call the number

      Oh, God damn

      Go run, Pharoh for you want an arrow out of your head

      Free hand and heart

      I thought I was a musician,

      —I'm not though;

      I stand 44 stories tall

      When I stand right behind you,

      Shadow.

      Small man

      I love McDonald's

      I got a long hat

      I got along swimmingly with your mom and dad, huh

      Data

      data projects and the atomic number

      That's all folks

      Data projects and those atomic numbers

      Cosmic stardust, they all shook

      They ain't lie, that's a hard pink turn purple

      They ain't lie, God, that's a mellow yellow saxophone there—

      They ain't lie, god, brought tear to an eye where there are no more,

      Heart took a wrong turn

      They ain't lie, God,

      It is bright plumb

      Are you in a black hole or what?

      Are you shook for stars and all bout dollars?

      Are you sure that had my name on it?

      Are you sure, or are you all talk

      All you sure, mom? Call the doctor.

      Are you sure at all, at all, at all about what you all wrote

      I'm on the 44th floor staring off, Dad.

      Straining heard, though—

      Had my eyes closed and my mouth sown permanently shut / sh it

      Is that your industry or something?

      Is that your window out my car door?

      Is that your hand over no heart at all—

      But a chest stuck out;

      Bring you down real fast when I've been humbled.

      Goddamn, when's this song over?

      When they tell you about God, God

      And all you do is turn your back, God,

      Are you good, or bad, God,

      If all I have is in this Target cart

      So I crunch numbers,

      Fall in black hole songs, atomic number—-

      It's just that time of the day

      And that day of the week where I call out

      Into the sound stage

      Reaching back,

      Into my alter,

      Rocks in my pocket

      And one at the Plaza

      One year only,

      One whole summer

      One whole novel,

      10 movies, more songs,

      Light candles and hard rock, Nirvana

      Soft porn,

      No dollar bills,

      No ballers,

      — I struck rules and struck diets,

      Followed often around like I own something

      I just might be,

      What they call

      —Ten more songs!

      (A poet.)

      —And a whole bunch of unfinished—

      NO—

      Cut to:

      fade in/

      Fade out—

      Whose line is it anyway?

      I ain't got no teleprompter!

      Fresh out of water, and

      Blocked from purchasing on Amazon market cause

      Something is wrong with my name

      Or observations I once made

      About being scammed by the monopoly

      Oh, polyamorous polyaddixt, polysexual

      Polygons, on PolyGod,

      God only—

      God ain't lie,

      It was plum,

      Closed my eyes to confirm, God,

      Can't conform, God.

      Atomic

      Number.

      I can do ten more before sundown; before

      I'm so over tired from espresso bean coffee,

      All about a dollar, I was—

      Everything I want in my target cart

      So I sure don't,

      For sure don't,

      Ever, On God,

      Have to walk in the supermarket on

      Stuggle mode

      Slow down, posh.

      [The Festival Project ™]

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      [The Festival Project.™]

      COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2019-2024 | THE COMPLEX COLLECTIVE. ©

      ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

      -Ū.

      Telesynthesis

      4 min
    • {Kill Bill Vol. I}

      Tell me why,

      No matter how you mix and match these scenes,

      They all make very exciting episodes.

      That's just how it is.

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      Ah. more posters.

      Double-Double.

      //

      L E G E N D S

      I don't know who lied to you, buddy, but you are not white.

      They lied to you, boy.

      That boy ain't white.

      Look at em.

      He ain't white.

      They lied to you.

      Something like—

      —a bicentennial bullet wound.

      It can't be that bad. You're only 50x

      I don't know what else to do about this other than prepare to die.

      He said it would come on fast after this.

      Who was he?

      I don't know .

      Hm,

      Just—shut up!

      Okay.

      Shutup!

      I got it, I got it…

      Fuck, this dude is gonna kill me.

      We can only hope that's what he plans to do.

      Anything else, and I'm double-fucked.

      Maybe quite literally.

      I can't handle that.

      Ii did have a good time a Bohemian Grove.

      How do you even get tickets to that?

      Early.

      Goddammit, how did he do this?

      Are you not like self aware of your own environment, or?

      Not if I don't have to be, no.

      Is everything okay over there?

      Yeah, everything's fine?

      Fuck, what happened?!

      I don't know.

      I fell asleep holding nothing; not stones at all, however, I awoke with The Illuminati Stone and one large rose quartz from a dream in which fly po

      What if all I lost

      Was a contact

      And all you wanted

      Was a daughter

      What if our world's were opposite

      I'm a rockstar

      You got nowhere to run home to

      You're not important

      I got nothin but hot bodies

      On my tour bus, or private jet

      Whatever way we get to the stage

      Where i'm playing

      You're soaked in rain just thanking God for rainbows

      Filled with pain

      Plate filled with old food

      From Whole Foods,

      With no shame

      “Hey. at least it's wholesome”

      I'm holed up in my studio making music

      With famous people and no names

      I made famous

      Playing a game that I made up

      You don't even know the rules of

      But if you learn them in time,

      YOu might just be where I am

      Or

      You might just die

      From sucicide–

      That's the plan

      Not like you have family, but you see

      If I die

      I might just take 5 lives with me

      The limelight's tricky

      All i got in my inbox is tits

      And celebrities on my timeline

      You don't mind:

      You're just happy to see the sunshine

      And find silence after a long day

      And a long night

      Trying to find life–

      Cause so far you know you died

      That's wild–

      So did I,

      IT took awhile to get to the other side though

      Keep trying

      JAGUAR

      I HAVE NEVER DIED.

      I'm telling you RIGHT NOW to TURN BACK.

      TURN BACK? I've been walking in this direction THE WHOLE TIME.

      EXACTLY.

      I'm following you.

      DON'T FOLLOW ME.

      I'm f–

      DON'T FOLLOW ME.

      I knew i would never see her again.

      Once i turned around it wasn't long before I realized, I had moved in the opposite direction, but was not in the same place I had been before–and I finally remembered.

      You can't go backward.

      But KA, you said time travels in all directions…

      In Infinite directions.

      What's the difference.

      “All” is just ‘some' things. Infinite is everything.

      Oh.

      *sighs heavily again*

      Ok. [beat] lets make fire again!

      Make fire again?

      Yes!

      I thought you hated ‘making fire'

      I did, but I like marshmallows.

      Alright, marshmallows.

      KU and YOUNG KA Flicker in the smoke and shadows of the firelight in a far and distant, dark cosmos, as constellations form around them, expanding outwards into galaxies beyond comprehension.

      You want some?

      No, I'm not fond of Marshmallows.

      Lol

      Lol

      Lol.

      WAKE UP.

      Nooh.

      I told you NOT TO FALL ASLEEP.

      Now you have to start over.

      NO.

      Noh

      I wasn't asleep! I barely nodded off.

      Clock starting.

      First of all, I told you.

      Dillon Francis is a Psychopath.

      I know that.

      Because i told you that.

      I already knew that.

      How could you possibly know.

      Just look at him.

      [Dillon Francis]

      But I got you now, buddy.

      What did he do to you?

      [pause] –He killed my cat.

      He killed you cat?!

      [beat] Well, no, but–

      ???

      Something Like That.

      I'm gonna have a heart attack.

      PLease don't.

      HeART attack.

      Mm. That was good. But it needs more force.

      More?

      Put some *love* in it.

      What's that? *shrugs*

      HeART ATTACK.

      What the fuck is he doing.

      PLaying with one of his alter egos.

      Jesus Christ. How many are there.

      Who really knows.

      What are you two dipshits doing.

      NOthing.

      Training.

      Training!

      No.

      *eyes*

      You can't train yourself.

      Woah–

      Woah, woah–

      That's an insult

      Both, exactly the same

      We are not the same.

      Jinx.

      Go fuck yourself.

      *looking at watch*

      Not until 3.

      *everyone stops and stares*

      You schedule your jackoff calendar .

      I'm very busy.

      Obviously not busy enough.

      It's called “building stamina”

      Do you use “home” or “work” for that.

      I use candidly.

      Yikes.

      Wow.

      Anyway, this scene is running long; I gotta walk off screen and say something clever, for continuity.

      But it's only 2:15!

      If you're not early, you're late!

      I hate him.

      So does everybody.

      If you cry one more time,

      I'll actually kill you.

      Put the gun away, dude.

      Why?!

      Cause you're crazy.

      It's 5 AM.

      Ok.

      Take your shit and get off the toilet,

      We have shit to do.

      [beat]

      FLUSH.

      Royal flush

      I win again.

      Dammit.

      This is not LOVE. This is just

      LUST

      AH, fuck it though,

      I love these cunsluts.

      COME OUT OF RETIREMENT.

      No, not us.

      I can do nothing but watch you suffer

      —suffer the little children unto me

      I can do nothing, but watch you suffer.

      —suffer the little children unto me

      I can do enough, but watch you alter

      Suffer the children unto me

      I can do nothing of earth, but of sun—

      Suffer the children unto me

      Riding through Brooklyn

      With Yelawolf bumpin

      I should be thumping to something else but

      I never got the trunk to open

      Nope, I was fucked up some

      Broke girl summer

      Broken girl summer

      Surfs up, though

      Copestetic,

      I am

      Don't stop writing

      (I tried)

      Intuition

      I died

      Whoever

      I am

      Exit Bedstuy

      So far behind,

      I'm ahead

      What's that like

      Left the pary,

      Fuck that line

      Partly cloudy with a chance o

      Get UP.

      Nah, I'm fine.

      For the most part—

      I just

      When does this train stop?

      For the most part—

      Where the fuck do I get off this ride?

      I guess I don't

      For the most part

      Sure,

      I miss my mom but

      Some days she's up

      And the others

      GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.

      HOW?!

      I will literally FLY you out, just

      ———————————————-//—-wait, come back.

      Wait, you can't just cut the strings like that

      That's amazing lady

      (She painted like a Mercedes)

      The second rule of time travel

      Since you're clearly a rule breaker

      2. Don't get hit by anything moving not fast enough to kill you

      Entirely and completely

      A fuck, which Brooklyn is this?

      JUST—time TRACWL

      BAMANAS.

      (William H. Macy is SIR, now)

      *face*

      Ok, I'm cool with that.

      Better hold that thought—

      And your phone

      Why what's up,

      Cause I can hear my train a coming.

      JIM(I)

      Well, I guess this is it.

      Are you sure

      Almost

      Yeah, I'mmma get this real quick.

      I AM A GOD.

      No, yur not.

      RICK! GET DOWN FROM THERE

      WAIT, you CC saw this movie, right?

      Where IS your center of balance, anyway?

      It's not.

      GET DOWN, KITE.

      ——aaaaand—

      ITS GONE.

      Let's just be real, I don't know how this happens.

      Best keep it that way,

      Now whose hot and toxic?

      I'm the talk of the catwalk

      The cause of the kamikaze

      Come for me

      Suddenly my nausea's gone

      Imma run off,

      Like I should have the first time

      I'm up

      LUKE SKYWALKER

      I'm LUKE SKYWALKER.

      Bitch.

      It's hard to believe

      That I, too,

      Could be in the window

      This could be an innuendo

      This could be an instrumental

      We should get going

      Go to work

      Fuck, am I still in a movie or some shit

      Or some shit.

      Fuck the glasses,

      See my face for this

      IT WANTS BANANAS

      GIVE IT BANANAS

      GIVE IT WHAT IT WANTS M

      PLEASE HELP ME.

      *with a monocle*

      *running fingers grubbily*

      For how much.

      *grimaces-*

      Wow, they really picked this little girl out,

      Just to pig party you

      I know.

      So where the fuck is this again?

      EXT. HELLS KITCHEN

      I DONT THINK HE's a good man

      No,

      I don't think he's a good man at all, now

      All I see's a child,

      And that's why

      It's just getting wilder it here

      Now I'm in the water

      (I can't drown)

      We all need a savior

      How about now?

      How about a round of applause

      For the audience

      That watched the whole performance

      And don't know what the words to the song were

      Right on.

      Tell me why

      American girls just

      Get too cynical bout this.

      Why so hypocritical?

      We got A+ in robotics

      Now we got

      Animal Products in

      All of our water

      We got Islam R US in

      Jansport backpacks

      That's how you rat out these assholes

      That is a terrorist practice

      So who's gonna watch that shit

      Over and over

      And wish he could have that?

      So

      Whose in the water now

      Once you cheat once,

      Then it's all

      Void after that

      The God of the void is annoyed with you

      I just anointed you all with oil

      You're so fucking disappointing

      It's just

      Innapropriate

      Well, turn it off, then!

      Did you work today?

      Guess not,

      I'm too useless

      We work, you know.

      Your music is stupid.

      That's how good you look:

      Music producer

      No words for this.

      Here.

      What.

      I want you to carry this.

      Mariah, or Jim?

      Got it.

      OK.

      OK.

      OK, YOU WIN.

      That's RIGHT,

      STUPID BITCH.

      I'm o—

      Fuck that little dick nigga

      Broh God bless Jah Pharoh living up to his last name by reminding me that I also need to run.

      True facts.

      WHATS IN THE BOOOOOOOOWWLLLLL—

      Ing green?

      More dead people.

      Please, if you would.

      Eats—people?!

      Onlympurple—ones.

      Are you serious!?

      CUT TO COMMERCIAL. CUT TO COMMERCIAL.

      Ok, damn.

      Wait, so how long do I gotta be—

      Everybody.

      Till it ends.

      When's the—

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      [The Festival Project.™]

      COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2019-2024 | THE COMPLEX COLLECTIVE. ©

      ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

      -Ū.

      What's In the box though?

      Idk. Get in.

      1 hr 8 min
    • {As Seen on TV}

      Blue eyes, it is.

      I wish, I wish,

      Be careful what you wish for,

      Or cook in a Petri dish

      The world is a stage,

      The people a plague

      The magic was gone,

      The days were the same.

      [The Festival Project ™]

      Blonde hair, blue eyes;

      Live once, lose twice—

      Brown skin, brown eyes

      Die inside.

      (Or just die.)

      {Rewind}

      Captain

      Captain!

      Oh, Good, come in, Cannon.

      You've—changed.

      …as you know, Monday we disembark.

      Yes, I'm aware.

      And as you know, the details of the mission have been classified, even to us.

      Yes.

      I find that alarming. And so, without anymore thought I've decided to masquerade as my old self.

      How old are you, anyway?

      You should never ask a woman her age, LT.

      Sargent. * or the other way around, I clearly don't know.

      Sorry. Your recent promotion keeps slipping my mind; I…haven't been myself lately…

      Obviously not, if you've decided to publicly dress like that.

      I'm still very much in the privacy of my office.

      You can consider me the spokesperson on behalf of the public.

      Never as a woman her age!

      You're not a woman; you're my captain.

      We'll see about that after tonight.

      Being a woman, or being my captain?

      Both, probably.

      Hm.

      By any chance would you be interested in joining me?

      As your subordinate, or as a man.

      Both, probably.

      Or neither… presumably.

      As my escort.

      I beg your pardon.

      I've been known to become rather out of sorts in this condition.

      —er, your condition, captain?

      Dead drunk and blind with fear out of my mind.

      [he ponders for a moment, knowing that the mission could very well be their last.]

      Consider it done.

      Great. Get dressed, and meet me with the car out front in half an hour.

      Half an hour?

      Sharp. Bonus points for showing up early.

      We're earning points?

      We are now.

      Very well then. What am I wearing?

      Something sharp.

      Sharper than the inside of a half hour.

      On your mark.

      I'll—see you soon.

      He exits the captain's office, letting out a sigh of relief otherwise previously congested, he looks around as if not to be caught, regains his composure with the shake of his head, somewhat in disbelief of what he's witnessed. He casually places his hands in his pockets, walking down the hall and passing one of his crew mates, who quickly stops to salute him.

      Sergeant.

      Almost forgetting to salute back, mindlessly drifting passed in ‘off' mode, he slowly and squarely, almost still casually, salutes back.

      Oh.

      I had glimpsed at a picture of the man once more that had forced me to wonder— “Jesus Christ, is he okay?” It would be odd to think of a man who has spent a better part of the last two decades and most of his careers on camera as unphotogenic, then again—I had been tricked by the media before into thinking a certain way, and therefore was cautious, and still—I began to wonder about the man and his misery, and his mistresses—not out of jealousy or obsession, but simply because I knew he had them. He was old Hollywood, or old New York—or maybe a bit of both, and there was something about it all, perhaps even my own darkness, that danced with the flicker of sinful lust that motioned me towards not a yearning, or the act of doing so—I was at least wise enough to know nothing good could come from doing harm to oneself or another— but with the intensity of burning desire to know the man behind the mask—the actor inside the actor, to whom all the world's a stage.

      Whatever, though. Doesn't matter.

      At least I was still somehow youthfully resilient to what might have otherwise been torture,

      TVP

      S2- after Esha's promotion to head writer.

      DAEMON DALLAS, aka “DASH” is a quick witted, fast-talking comic powerhouse— his legendary stand up and acting career has made him a legendary force in movies, film, and television; he has been booked on the show to sit down with his longtime friend Patrick about his new stand up comedy tour.

      —

      Who's this beautiful sister.

      My head writer; don't even think about it.

      I dont think. I just do.

      Esha approaches— Dash politely bo s and kisses Esha's hand

      Should I get tested?

      —and funny.

      Against Patrick's wishes, Esha accepts a date with daemon dash, furious Patrick means to interrogate her

      Why would you even date that asshole

      Because—Pat. He's a comedian.

      I'm a comedian! So?

      So, he's funny.

      And?

      And he said things to me—

      What kind of things

      Charming, funny things—

      Okay?

      Things he wouldnt say to you over dinner— because, I'm

      —you're a woman.

      —and your head writer. So naturally.

      Esh, you're a genius,

      So is he. We have—some new material to work through.

      Ahq!

      Your monologue tonight.

      Oh yes. Oh yes.

      You can thank me later. Broken bottles. :9'd one stop her

      Walkin walking

      God knows I don't belong here

      And I don't want to

      Passover was April 21-30

      Global War on Terrorism

      Aka WWIII

      Oh, indeed.

      Don't look left

      Take a deep breath

      My heart beats differently

      I think it might be the end

      I think it might be

      I think I might be the enemy

      The pushing mechanism

      When i breath him in

      I levitate

      And gravitate to what it meant

      The sake of the art,

      The hurt of the heart

      As sacred as it ever was

      The turning or the Torah talks of

      Gestures, since the fall of Rome

      The toga on the alter

      Solid hands unwrap us all

      From falling over

      Old and awkward

      No award for wisdom

      No rest for the wiser

      No love for the troll

      Since thunder struck from under us,

      Delivered all but what we wanted

      So we talk of karma sutra,

      Surely we can't talk at all

      Of what we know

      As once was bonded

      Laughed it off

      To come from what

      The call to us,

      Fair serve governors fortress

      I work up in mentions

      Carved the scarlet letter out of

      Cannons, of course

      MA.

      WHAT. I'm BUSY.

      ITS ON.

      The what?

      The show we watch!

      The one that—

      YES,

      Oh, my GOD.

      Yes.

      YESSSSSSSSS.

      Usnavi, get your popcorn

      This is some worth watching

      Up in arms for forwards

      Causing sore arms,

      Numb thumbs

      From crucifixes

      Are you wondering what God

      Would walk about the horned carving

      A kamazake walk of tall corn—

      Follow me, dear mantra

      Your whole house is watching.

      Sacre.

      It's happening again isn't it.

      I do want ice cream.

      All I need is a divorce

      And an Amazon woman 10 foot tall

      To rub me off at the stroke of

      Nevermind what the clock says

      In God's house they're all wrong

      The blsphomoous for Catholics

      Has begun,

      So strum your number into the teleprompter

      And just hope no one gets hurt

      By the hook on the next song

      —like the hook of my last surviving bra

      digs into my back does,

      Or the skin on my lack of tummy

      Has rubbed off under the suicide

      Of the cycle—

      It's getting tighter

      A loss of interest is equal to

      A loss of conciousness

      And I'm 21 days drunk

      On the alternate, though—

      I'm sober and feeling less

      Loved.

      The animal I've become is all cardio

      And karma sutra

      For karma comes

      To the weak of heart

      To use the world as swords

      To cause harm

      To the calm artists

      I thought I told you off once.

      (Already)

      You look awful.

      lol.

      You look terrible, broh.

      But my album sound fire.

      #producerholes

      [portal]

      It's coffee time!!

      It's not coffee time!

      It's not coffee time.

      Iiiiits coffee time.

      Damn.

      Where's the cat.

      Gestating.

      My phone was never the first thing I reached for in the morning—but I was sure there was something missing in my mind from a place in LA that I used to frequent, that sold giant frosted cookies that were also vegan. There was donut friend, which I always enjoyed and craved—but I was sure—absolutely sure that I was missing a m cookie, and it was absolutely driving me wild that I couldn't think of the place, or find it on Google. Has it been before turning vegan? Was my memory failing me in thinking that the cupcakes and donuts that I had often brought back to the hostel in boxes were timetimes cookies also? It seemed like there were cookies…and I'm sure that there were, as I could remember the thick frosting often being sweet and decadent enough to lick from the top, and that the bottom cookie was sweet and soft, and usually warm—and that I almost always couldn't finish the cookie in one sitting. Had this all been before I went vegan? I was sure I distinctly remembered sitting atop my bunk at The Freehand savoring this cookie, but a google search yeikded no results—none that I could find familiar, and it bothered me so much that I actually decided to start my day just on the tip of figuring out what it was was.

      As I crossed through my apartment, realizing I hadn't bothered to throw the trash out after mopping and went m directly to bed early, not with the consideration of rising early but really just out of exhaustion, I had decided that in order to get work done that my workouts would have to be pushed toward the end of my day, somewhere between still having the energy to manage and not being disturbed—as I had seen that girl to at I very specifically didn't like again m, I had realized that again, I was correct— even after an hour of working out, I simply didn't like her energy. There must have been something wrong with her—or incompatible about us altogether; she had come into the gym quietly and was sort of hiding and even still, I had instantly recognized that there was a foreign energy—and squinting to see her, saw that she was crouched on the other side of the gym. I dismounted the stationary bike and figured that an hour of cardio would be enough for the time. Strength training would only force me to crave protein—-and I was running low saving everything that I had in order to better strategize an arrangement which didn't leave me at the bottom of New York's merciless barrel. It seemed I wasn't going to get the job at Equinox after all—it had been nearly a week since my interview with them, and having not heard anything back, I realized that everything, no matter what—was always just a game. I needed to figure out how better to play it before my life ended abruptly on some sort of whim.

      Sitting down in the darkened bathroom, I realized that in order to restore and keep my energy, I should be unseen, and unheard.

      ‘Keep your head down.'

      I'm sure there was some type of code or rule for the way I should handle myself in public or even in private all well knowing the types of things I had writtten about, let alone which had been published—and while I planned to clear out what written works had made it into cyberspace unchecked, there was nothing less important to me than the actual world, what it expected of me, or who was in it. I hadn't entirely failed yet, but I also hadn't entirely succeeded, and after a strange series of dreams— almost all of them more interesting than the one with the cookie, (mentioning that the reason I had been curious about the cookie in the first place was from a strange series of dreams)

      “Ohhh, you know what—that might have actually been that place in Vegas, before I went vegan.”

      The boxes at the freehand must have been all from donut friend and Sprinkles—and it astonished me how much of a sweet tooth I actually had which was sort of now quite well managed. There was no sugar or even salt in the house— and with the lack of food that I actually had in my apartment, for at least something like the next two weeks, I was sure that I'd reach minimum weight—absolutely minimum weight— by the turn of the month. That is, all the weight I could lose betsides what needed to be surgically removed, and there was some sort of plan formulating somewhere outside of myself in exactly how that would be achieved. Because at any rate—I knew that it would.

      There were no more cookies, no more donuts, and no more cupcakes, besides the occasional box of the frozen type I had ordered from Amazon fresh which I did thoroughly enjoy, almost always in one sitting after a wild amount of cardio had implemented a faster metabolism and brought me to the realization that so much cardio meant that entirely that I could eat ‘whatever in the fuck I wanted' without gaining any weight or even losing it—and as I stepped up to take a shower, pulling my shirt up and over my chest, I inspected my abdomen, though holding bloat from pinto beans and deep fried sweet potatoes, still toned with the definition lines I had only just now learned that I had, creviced and notations of my sometimes 4 or 6 pack abs, though hidden under the sagging skin of my once maternal belly— still evident at all, and a factor of my minimal pride in that I had gone in one lifetime from one body and into many others— and one day, an even more drastically different one.

      I fantasized owning a peloton but realized that I may have to settle on a rental until I had outfitted myself with some sort of safety net.

      lol there's a sweet potato emoji. wtf.

      I don't know how you did this but—

      I woke up.

      Apparently, I'm Lorne Michaels.

      Please stop.

      I don't know what that means.

      You know what

      If I was pretty

      Nobody would hate me for anything

      I swear to God only ugly people are punished or any or all of our matings.

      I lost the ability to see worth in myself.

      I also lost the ability to write good songs.

      Just let me watch bad girls club

      And wait for the motorcycles

      To make my night

      A living hell

      “I didn't mean for this to happen, Jimmy Fallon. “

      It was a whisper, actually— less than that, as I set the stone with the others above the amulet— I placed easch crystal carefully at the alter, keeping only two of them for myself; the rest, as guardians to the amulet. I could no longer keep such a relic around my neck; it had become quite heavy, and the dreams had become deep and more illusive, and it seemed there was some dark spirit along to it after all—and after all— the amulet was my only living son's, anyway, intended as a gift and charm of protection for when I next saw him—whenever that could be, or would be. It had been a long and interesting but altogether uneventful year, and now, not even feeling right in my own self, I intended to continue hiding, and perhaps even burrow further away until I was granted a full and proper divorce; my ex husband using his refusal to sign the papers as a final act of control, and though I almost found it admirable, I only became more dismissive of it—the person I was then, simply was no more; in fact, she was dead enough indeed that to disappear and become a ghost could do no worse than to further alter the course of time and distance it would take to ever become in such a way again—that is, if it were infinite, and for peace of mind and freedom of spirit and soul from bondsge, insisted it wasn't.

      It was less than a whisper enough that none other besides God could have heard it, and yet it seemed something or someone had—as a door quickly slammed as the words—words which meant a name I was sure I would never say again—“Jimmy Fallon” left my mouth. I couldn't come close to words at all let alone a name, and especially not a song; but then, of course, there was The Book of Knowlege never to have been spoken and as always, the ever moving truth of songs— There were other Gods that new no words at all besides the melodies and rhythms of our hearts—and there never really was every truly a Jimmy Fallon at all—

      Only myself.

      Whatever the fuck.

      Alright, alright.

      It was next in the que with purpose, probably but quite on accident— Now I could continue in my pattern of dulling my brain for the remainder of the night as I had been all day. Since March I had seemed to cry what I thought were the rest of my tears, and however, after a particularly mind numbing day of trash television and Olympic surfing, it seemed the ocean alone was enough to pull from what was left of my soul, and as it turned out, it still was there.

      I was bored of the brokenness of New York—something like living in a rotten and spoiled toy, with the limits I had been given—and though I should have been happy, to finally just have my own place— the people surrounding, as always, ruined it—

      Them being myself aside. I wished the things outside of me were quieter.

      Now I could finally almost put my mind out of focus for just a little bit longer—and creep on Johnny Depp without doing it intentionally. I had stopped looking up famous people, besides some women and businessmen I knew could never feign my interest anyway. It was never about money— and always about creative intelligence; I hadn't seen the movie as an adult, and so I was sure it would have some insight to offer. I tried to forget that I had aged out of almost everything—and that my mother had so greedily destroyed any real chance I had at becoming what I might have been with anybody else as a mother—or at least some one around to watch her raise me and correct her damaging actions, words, and harsh thoughts. At least she had taught me to read and write—and if worst actually came to worse—which it was starting to look like—how to trade my body and time in exchange for things I wanted and needed. All women were nearly prostitutes in some way, anyhow—and the only thing deterring me from it was on every honest God I ever thought of, the fact that white women made more in sex work than colored women did.

      — it almost hurt to watch Olympic surfing.

      Actually, it did.

      It hurt, a lot.

      What's a girl

      Have you ever had a girl before?

      What's world when you're wound up in an orphanage

      Probably astounding

      I've got a shadow

      Sad, should have danced with him

      Now he's so mad that

      —I don't even touch my guitar

      No more

      I have words

      No songs

      The whole world's

      At war

      And to surf

      — you need water

      I love

      New York

      But hate

      Thus corner of Brooklyn

      I want to go up

      Testosterone

      —I've got a word for the goner

      “Gonzo”

      I've got a cannon

      Or blonde, for reference

      Why were all stalkers

      I'll book The Tonight Show,

      I'll summon up Carson

      A ,

      I promise—

      A good time was had

      —I promise, no subtle obsession.

      I made a decision, I went with it

      Just a protagonist, actor—

      A comic

      Producer, by marriage

      I swear,

      It's just adding up evidence

      If ever gets intensities

      Offensive, this illumination

      — I don't doubt you.

      I want chocolate milk

      What even is that?

      I've been eating healthy

      I've got half an album out

      And half inside my head

      With Donnie Brasco

      I've got half a million dollars somewhere

      Stuffed inside my cunt, I think

      With hallmark cards and shopping carts

      I owe them half a fortune

      I hate it so much

      I watch a whole soul

      Come out if television

      I love it so much

      But I hate the whole public

      And crowding

      I don't want love

      I want fucks

      I want puppies

      —Jesus he's beautiful

      My ex husband had similar facial structure to

      Mr Depp respectively,

      I'm guessing my artistry,

      Intention,

      A preteen obsession at least sort of paid off.

      Somehow.

      Now it's my eyes on the other, the older

      —

      The way that he sits and does nothing but slump

      —Al Pacino, they call him?

      The false father and forced profits often acknowledged

      The love of the old and weathered.

      For once I woke up to a record

      33 rotations a minute

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      —what are you gonna do?

      Blondes and shit.

      The best of the best—

      —I'll tell ya,

      I recommend it

      (Recommended by a Friend)

      I have a headache twice my age.

      I made a mistake half my life ago

      Woke up this morning

      Bought myself a gun

      To make it right

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      [The Festival Project.™]

      The Complex Collective. ©

      COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2019 | 2024

      ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

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      1 hr 2 min
    • XXX. (Uptown A Remix)

      XXX. ft Kendrick Lamar (Uptown A Remix)

      [Bootleg] Uptown A

      The Complex Collective

      Original Track: XXX. (DAMN, Kendrick Lamar, 2017)

      “The Rescue”

      This hearty soup uses tumeric, garlic, and beetroot to help boost the immune system and ward off oncoming attacks.

      This is not a simple soup to throw together once you've already come down with a full-on cold or flu, as you may not have the energy to gather the ingredients and for preparation, however— this soup is more meant for helping to boost the immune system in the beginning stages of coming down with a seasonal bug, or as a preventative booster. This recipe's complex blend of vitamins and minerals from greens and root vegetables keeps its ingredients' wholesome nutritional value high by first oven roasting the vegetables in a medley before adding them to the pot rather than boiling them; the prep time for this recipe is about 2 hours, with an additional 1-2 hours of cook time to simmer for flavor and for the raw chickpeas to reach the ideal texture before serving— the blend of herbs and root vegetables will add a layer of immunity and protection against any oncoming disruption to your normal level of health, and is hearty enough to be served alone, or with a side dish of salad or even a half sandwich, if you're feeling up to it.

      You will need:

      ½ medium size had of cauliflower

      ½ medium to large yellow onion

      ½ red onion of the same size

      ½ white onion, per reference

      1 whole celery heart

      One fresh turmeric root

      1-3 beets worth of beet root and leafy greens— you will only use the root for this recipe and can save the beets for later

      1 stalk baby boo choy

      3-4 medium sized carrots

      ¼ green bell pepper

      ⅓ pasilla or Anaheim pepper, per preference (one is milder than the other, but for heavy sinus congestion I suggest the Pasilla pepper, which is a bit spicier and will decongest easily, especially when including some of the seeds into the medley)

      ⅓ red bell pepper

      ⅓ yellow bell pepper

      ⅓ orange bell pepper

      ½ can stewed tomatoes with onion

      ½ can stewed tomatoes with garlic

      (This is for broth flavor)

      One whole vine ripened tomato

      5-8 cloves of garlic (per preference)

      About 3 tablespoons of fresh ginger root (a thumb tip's worth)

      3 cups chickpeas, pre rinsed and soaked overnight

      ½ cup finely chopped fresh dill

      ½ cup finely chopped fresh cilantro

      ¼ cup finely chopped freshoregano

      ½ lime

      ½ lemon

      Crushed red pepper

      Sea salt

      Thyme

      Black pepper

      Part II

      Spirit says music was first, then words, and after actions—and then all of time is just acting out the stories that were told in the beginning as art

      and…

      Something tells me

      Something's not all the way right with my head

      I'm

      Lost in my mind,

      I'm

      All the way here,

      But I'm still

      Somewhere off a bit

      Velvet, the skin,

      I'm just as sick in my head as I ever,

      Recovered sex addict, and by definition of nutrition

      —this handsome nigga smells like red licorice.

      (It's actually cherry ludens with pectin.)

      Zeroing in and away, heroing hard

      For your heroine,

      Heroin veins,

      Pigs on the wing,

      Singing your song

      Hearing your cry out

      Fly out my miles, my son

      Come into my arms, mine oath

      The love, some trouble

      Heavy was her heart,

      Lied to cover

      Still shattered,

      Ravine ions, cosmos farm

      And Wanda's black eye

      Timmy's wishes and

      SpongeBob's shallow grave,

      Oh, how high I got

      That Arnold's lost love

      Was actually

      Strangely enough

      Also his narcissist,

      Probably also practicing witchcraft

      And exorcisms of him.

      Scissorman, Scissorman—

      Get a load of this one;

      Frog and toad, a couple laughs

      Behind the masks,

      For this world.

      Would you honor?

      Give your blessing, butter

      Different wages paying,

      Listen, shallow author:

      You would write but then not follow up

      About the actors?

      The actors!

      The actors have had it.

      I'm

      Just

      As

      Badly

      Damaged

      As

      I ever was

      And listen, Awesome told me

      Your story

      I chuckled

      All the way

      Up until

      The literal punchline

      Now,

      Go home;

      Go hike Runyon.

      For a few hours, we can pretend.

      That old haunts

      Don't boil up

      They always have, of course

      But you know

      Nothing quite as pungent as

      What's become of yours

      [I love my son.]

      There it is again,

      As if something had called her,

      There, more words

      But less of them than the tongue could offer

      Swear you, listener,

      Past this message sits the wilted thumbs of wilderness,

      and weary travelers,

      Song pigeons and mismatched audience appearances

      For pleasantries

      And of course,

      Dessert trays.

      Cause I wear—

      —We all know.

      If anything happens these days,

      It's because I'm a comic.

      (At some point)

      Sunglasses before the sun's up;

      Eat candies before it all melts

      Warm something as download comes

      To fight or fold,

      To win or die

      To live or lose

      Whatever then

      First time flying

      And I've got

      My mind blinding me out

      Deciding for once

      That I'm not the whole world

      Just to have the experience

      If being surrounded by others

      In some way.

      The runway lights up all blue, and I'm in love with you.

      The subway cars opposite collide, I wish I died already.

      I should give some time between myself and my writing, I think.

      I really shouldn't end things the way I'm thinking of ending things—

      But I'm thinking of ending things.

      How selfish of me.

      First time flying

      Sunglasses before the sun comes up

      Halls on my tongue

      And vitamins in my pocket,

      I shuffle over and over in my mind,

      The millions of dollars

      And all that I go through

      Just to skip post,

      And go home to no one.

      But—hello there

      No one's looking over your shoulder quite so hard as

      This poster is,

      So aware of what's there, and near you

      You've begun to fear it

      Well, then,

      Hands in my pocket and down

      Dawn to dusk,

      Shaking my head,

      Drunkenly, but stone sober

      Really no one told me about the poetry,

      But a whole world opened,

      Inside of your notebook—

      Which I stand holding.

      Pleasentries, sick dissent,

      Indecent exposure.

      And body odor this early in the morning;

      Gotta love country folk

      Supposedly no judgements, but as I grow I older,

      The slower toad I become, and discover my bird eye—

      Here's to hopes

      The Hellicopter is all I know

      From here to Hell and back

      Westward bound,

      The Sun rise behind us

      Sunglasses and no sun yet

      My eyes reminders of times

      I remember

      Sure you did, sir

      I been there

      Suffered the whole coast

      And I'm still not sure

      You realize you're face down, ass up at an international airport right now.

      They say this airport is known for its art installations.

      You don't say.

      Grandiose to escape the algorithm,

      Tapped in with the captains hats

      Fit six of my guieapigs in the business

      1 transsexual,

      And 6 women

      3 biracial non-bianaries

      Some accused extra terrestrials

      You left me home, but —

      Nobody washes the whites without me.

      It's OWSLA again.

      [The Festival Project ™]

      It's mid week in midtown

      I fell asleep at a business meeting,

      Thinking in sequences,

      Drinking in increments,

      Sweet, sweet music,

      Death and television

      Television

      Celebritism, star power

      And no wonder

      Early October vacations

      From power fortunes tied to us

      We want Redbones,

      Resonated chambers,

      Thankless sacraments of disaster

      Are you archived?

      Damaged and the flatline

      Comes at such a heavy decibel

      Your arms grow numb and

      Start to stiffen;

      No wonder you're not paranoid

      Inside of our religion

      The Eye

      See i,

      Excuse me miss—

      Did I miss it ?

      Plea, I

      Give thanks,

      Again for

      —this is our tradition

      Me, I,

      Seek I

      —-meaning to make sense of it but,

      The might,

      She died, I guess

      The center of my kitchen

      Distressed from attention deficit disorder

      Sure, Marsh

      —Whatever doctor .

      He was just the type I like

      Milky silky white

      Sunglasses

      Slicked back hair

      Thick round thighs

      High fashion—( l)

      Sun baked

      Pose to take a selfie, right?

      Just the type I like;

      Milky silky white

      There's the girl that'll do anything for ya

      But she's no body

      With nobody

      No good, I

      In fact

      So ugly l you could choke on just the thought of her

      Even with beer goggles on

      But she'll do anything you want

      And like it—and it doesn't cost

      She'll fall in love with you

      (For not even a single dollar.)

      [The Festival Project ™]

      Now that we —

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      Ahem.

      Part III

      Day trip

      Take a nap

      Change the map.

      Pet the cat

      Let the dog out

      Run a lap

      Pitty Pat

      Pitty Pat

      Pitty Pat

      Pitty Pat

      I Pitty Pat

      I Pitty Pat

      Broh what up with these Dillon Francis clones tho.

      How do you know they're clones?

      They can't all be multi dimentionals.

      They could!

      You never know; they really could.

      I run these robots

      Into dark corners

      Just to honor me

      They come scurrying and ugly to annoy and ponder upon me, all the while praying l, my mind on

      Don't mind those, they're broke bots

      I haven't l l stopped my work to finish

      Work on

      [The Festival Project ™]

      I'm sure by now you've noticed

      The only people in

      Champion sportswear and

      Jansport backpacks

      Are ugly, slow,

      And weak

      L E G E N D S

      (I have noticed.)

      If attention deficit is forsure your destination

      I'm you're designated courier, or carrier pigeon

      This isn't ingidgenous reparations or explicit subliminal messages,

      But if it is, this is suggestive your direction is correct and attentive

      Listen to this shit:

      Case dismissed;

      Next time I'll fly direct

      Hit my line if your eyes are dilated

      I'm miles high,

      So if it rejects,

      Just leave a message

      (Eject!)

      All of a sudden,

      I'm somewhere else

      (With him)

      He pulls on the rings

      On the back of my

      —what was I wearing again?

      I should have stayed home in the first place

      (You don't listen)

      I should have stayed home in the first place

      (You don't—)

      I should have stayed home for awhile

      Cause before hand, and I'm wild

      Random foreplay,

      Orgasm,

      Desire you,

      You're right, I don't listen.

      All of a sudden, I'm gone with you.

      Those women in Santa Monica,

      All perfect and in hoards and by the handfuls

      The type celebrities get

      Celebrities need,

      Celebrities want—

      A shrill reminder

      Or what I am,

      And can often lose focus,

      Drawing back on icons,

      Sifting through the skin I feel,

      Entrapped by circumstance

      And perhaps, even

      Some terrible curse, or

      A shield of protection.

      —the deathly hollows.

      It almost felt as if I'd never write again, but here I was

      Nearer somehow to a strange fame,

      The end of famine

      And feast of none—

      Doubling back upon

      Something I had recorded

      In this experience,

      Alone and awakened,

      Moving in automatic,

      Chaos and charismatic,

      felt, but never intertwined

      In the awesome circumstance

      Of wanting, no—

      Needing to be loved,

      And never having been;

      Needing to be touched, and never having felt

      The grip of sorts,

      The higher bar taste of something I had become famished,

      The sense of a calling so sacred,

      It beconed to my sea,

      The only one,

      A diamond in starry skies

      A night of dawn,

      But dark, the thought

      The ever present one,

      Never loved,

      And shallow kind

      Shallow breath,

      And putrid thoughts,

      Reckoning the wilted flower,

      The springing seed,

      The calling of another and yet,

      Here I was,

      Tolerance,

      At her mercy—

      Fearing none but knowing,

      By the handfuls they come,

      And drawn like magnets

      Into my being,

      A focus,

      Nonesuch art none otherwise known as

      My hell

      The bodies of women

      Perfect and priveleged,

      Sunbathed and worthy

      Of everything I wanted and needed

      Without working at all.

      I wondered harder, fasting.

      Soft lips upon his Adam's Apple,

      I drift away in his chest,

      Dreft, the smell of michielf managed,

      Then, the music of songs loved

      And garnished with sprouts of June

      In the coming of spring,

      Does form another,

      Again, my love

      I call for mercy

      The pain of yours needing born

      And my heart estranged

      Mercy

      Her eyes were darkened circles

      And body brittle;

      As I admired her courtesy, charm

      And delicate stature,

      Arose to connect this,

      A tune—

      So sung to tell a story

      Of Rocky Racoon

      Irish spring to lather his back,

      In bar form;

      His burgundy Mercedes Benz has had parked in my garage,

      And I, not able to trust his drunken judgements,

      Captured his keys, as my mother and I

      Had worried for him,

      Dissappeared again into the night, and yet—

      At least the keys and the car

      Were safe with me, at home

      As was his,

      Whenever he wished to return

      My strange and far love

      Nearly since almost nothing

      Screen doors and Fischer Price

      Office calls and casting agents,

      Honey bees and biopics

      Telephoto lenses and

      Semi autobiographical pornography

      Marriages and suits to match

      A name for Vegas wedded lie,

      A love bloomed from birth,

      Cherished insights in the water

      Reservations and yamakas,

      Simple and sacred,

      The undone village,

      The thought of nothing but one

      Until another does pull the string

      To which I had once known as harness,

      But had since cut,

      Only watching to strive,

      Seeing the dance one makes for one to distance,

      But only dangling, seeing not that I

      Had come free and was wary of

      All love, by now.

      All men, indeed.

      [The Festival Project.™]

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      ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

      6 min
    • “A Little Bit Shady”

      For the second time in recent happenings, the scar on the inside of my bottom lip began to swell and heat up strangely, as if it were activating in some sort of way or still healing—the scar itself was almost 8 years old, and in fact— would be 8 years old with the coming of springtime. It was a strange sensation, though not entirely traumatic— and while also fighting off some sort of infection, my body in entirety wasn't altogether well, but the mark to me stood out anyhow, as just the other day after leaving the craft store, the scar had lifted bizarrely, swelling as if some sort of creature under the surface of the skin had been moving around just enough as a reminder that it was there at all—now, something like a week later, it began to tingle and heat as if it were in the process of mending itself, and though when it had been healing, bits of skin and pieces of my bottom lip which had come loose after my bottom row of teeth had gone through nearly to the other side— not quite puncturing all the way through, but enough to indent the outside of my mouth with some bruising and swelling reminiscent to that of having once pierced my lip; in fact— the damage was so apparent that it had created a swollen enough tunnel on my upper lip, where my canines had created marks to make make it easy enough to re-insert new jewelry into the old piercing which had closed over time, and now had been halfway reopened by the blunt force of my teeth connecting with my ex's fist. In fact, I took it well enough that re-piercing the old upper lip didn't hurt at all, and almost made it seem meant to be. Then, in my mind—I was still fragile. Six or so week postpartum and still heavily lactating, with severe depression after having learned of the infidelities committed throughout the entire duration of the relationship had left me in a frenzied state— I worked almost around the clock after being hired at the local veterinary clinic, the doctor of which I had known since I was seven years old, and who had been happy to hire me, and after having already lost something like a hundred pounds, I took to the job considerably well, completing my daily tasks to focus my energy and the duration of my shifts to running the boarding dogs, often saving the larger breeds for last—the greyhounds and labs, the retrievers— so that I could run as fast and as hard with them as I could, and with each dog, a set of squats, windmills, and burpees and jumping jacks before running each pup through the obstacle coarse in the yard, never eating on my lunch breaks really, but only ever stopping to pump milk— so that especially when running, I wouldn't create a mess. I had always over-lactated, even for a short time supplying milk for other children, and in particular—my very best friend, whose choice to quickly resume drinking after her son's birth dissallowed her to continue breastfeeding, and either way, I had more than I needed, besides the occasional lot added as coffee creamer by one such who had discovered the magical and medicinal property of fresh breastmilk.

      I was, of course, considerably smaller than I had ever been, probably since the fourth grade when procuring such a scar— and it only seemed at least somewhat believable and fitting that, when asked about the heavy swelling and bruising on my face and lips, that I had been hurt so tragically working out on the pavement— having falling doing pushups, or burpees, or something—to which no one seemed to have reason to believe otherwise; I had, after all, taken my level of fitness to new heights, and, after having lived so much of my adult and adolescent life anywhere between 250-350 lbs, once peaking at something like 380 or even more without the actual knowledge of such (always being asked politely if I wanted to know during doctor's visits, and of course, declining) my chaotic and frenzied state after the realization that the entire fabric of my relationship had been a complete lie, made sense to the outside world—and though without the bravery to actually admit to what had happened, the Doctor, after scolding me for not completing my daily tasks, just the day after this scar had been created, seemed to have let me go, not because of the actual incompletion of my duties, but as a harsh reckoning with knowing that I had lied directly to her face about what exactly had happened to mine.

      The years homelessness that followed was due to the eviction received after having lost this job, and though with steady and careful recovery I was able to break free from my abuser, the lack of family support and financial stability combined with this legal eviction on record would see my struggle as a survivor of the physical and psychological violence which occurred over this, nearly a decade's time, seen by the outside world as an antagonist— a sick person, a derilict, a disgrace. It would take years for the truth to surface and as it had, the strangeness of things began to occur as not things in my mind, but things in the world, which were very real—and though while still in harsh denial of any such things besides other, ever having happened, it was this that remained, this scar—now strangely heated and almost swollen as if again I should be reminded that this scar did indeed mark a death of sorts, the life after which had all been some sort of strange dream; a walk through the afterlife, sometimes carried on the wings of angels or even driven by chariot of The Gods.

      — Death of a Superstar DJ.

      Lights fade,

      Fade to black;

      Sacred stones and crystals cross eyed,

      Just across I,

      Desire my mark;

      The finish and the start line are one in the same

      So as soon as I finish,

      I start.

      Part I

      Do not disclose your location.

      No address, I guess.

      Stressed and headed for some sort of war zone

      I'm sure,

      No entitlements and I pushback,

      Push to start

      —I swear if you keep scrolling,

      I'll take your eyes out.

      I been yellow taxi'd

      Two four door Ford explorers,

      Nevermind the o'luck eye,

      Cause I am all for it.

      Party to the people!

      I need water,

      I mean, power.

      You wanted the Stand Up Special.

      I wanted nothing of the sort.

      You could be funny.

      Suddenly I'm sitting in the middle seat,

      My eye on -

      Seriously, I might not ever come out in public again

      Again

      Again

      Again.

      What are you channeling?

      Apparently,

      Jimmy Falllon and Natalie.

      What in the fuck are you wearing!?

      (A blazer and a fish scale.)

      What in the fuck are you trying to say?

      I'm trying to—

      Thank you

      I fainted and woke up in LA .

      Dang.

      If you're going to cry,

      You might as well do it at 10,000 feet in the air—

      —she's tied to her phone, the ensemble has gone.

      Nobody wants her around anymore,

      Nobody wants a new phone, not really.

      Nobody needs a new friend, not Fallon.

      I picked up the one thing I liked

      In the whole place

      And your name was on it.

      Is this fame, or magic!?

      Is this God, or a bludgeoning?

      I forgot where my heart went,

      Steered toward the fountain, naturally

      So the water would calm me.

      If this obviously-from-denver

      New balance wearing motherfucker doesn't get

      His long ass leg from within inches of mine,

      I swear all the way to God

      And all the way to—

      Where is this?

      —wherever.

      I'm gonna reach behind me,

      And kill him.

      You know you've been in New York too long

      When you don't have not a lick of patience

      Or time for anyone's bullshit.

      you:

      Shut it down.

      Shut it down!

      A slap across the face is just as well—

      —Is just as well.

      And a swift kick in the ass is

      We're back to the Irish,

      The turn of the times,

      And his eyes are mine again.

      FUCK THIS,.

      Just listen to me, for once.

      I listen to you a lot, voice in my head disguised as

      Who is this

      The devil. I guess.

      Great. So were the devil.

      Could be.

      Listen to your gut.

      Not the greatest idea! I'm hungry.

      Look, don't you touch me with those greasy little—

      #spirit fingers.

      LINCHTIME

      *LYNCHTIME.

      Goddamn. That misspelling took a TURN.

      Let's just—

      ITS JANE LYNCH TIME!

      That's—yeah.

      Listen, I have something to tell you.

      Does it have anything to do with—

      Get in the box.

      Why, what's in the box

      Damn. I don't have a lick of deadmau5 with me.

      And why is that.

      I was [redacted] I don't know..

      You — might be the devil.

      If— maybe.

      In my eyes

      (In my eyes)

      I swear all the way to fucking GOD

      This long ass nigga

      With his dirty ass new balance shoes

      All the way in my peripheral vision

      Is about to be a whole

      No leg havin ass nigga

      Like that nigga I saw on the train the other day

      I thought about your story Ark/Arc

      All the stories I didn't want, like Noah's

      Throw stones from glass houses.

      Gas prices go up;

      Every time I see some shit

      I wanna throw up

      Stomach in knots lately,

      Been three years since I seen my own blood

      No knots berry farm

      I roam the streets very armed

      I got scary arms,

      Call em Michelle Obama;

      Am I wrong or am I wrong;

      I love the fuck out to New York,

      but I don't belong here,

      I just came to write a song here

      Got stuck here

      It's been two years since I had a

      Man, or a beer

      I'm black and I'm Queer,

      Screamed “fuck Fallon”,

      Then he just— showed up here.

      Center stage

      Now I entered a new dawn,

      Turn the suffering on a bit

      And turn the fucking lights off

      I'm high as a kite,

      A bird and a plane

      In plain language,

      I'm a mega famous alien

      Okay then

      Sure Sim, it is simple

      A wrinkle in time,

      Your first wrinkle

      I popped pimples,

      I'm still sure my high chair

      Is right there

      I got one foot in the grave,

      I'm inside Bearr

      I died there

      Serious

      Take the camera and check the images

      Remember this!

      I said sit your bitch ass down

      Before you get slapped by

      The secret president

      As a death wish

      For fuckin real

      Everybody on the godddamn plane

      Is about to get bitch

      Slapped.

      BITCH

      SLAPPED.

      What the fuck is wrong with people.

      I swear all the way to God these toddler brain motherfuckers

      Is driving me crazy.

      I'd rather hang out

      With actual CHILDREN.

      At least it makes sense for them to be retarded.

      Ya'll ain't got no business being this fuckin whacked.

      Criminal mischief,

      Interesting, isn't it?

      Dismissive,

      In fact, gone fishing.

      Doors open, open

      I'm on the road again, road again

      Hands wrapped around my throat again

      I'm sure to explode again

      Who wrote this?

      Take a ballpoint paper and pen to your notebooks,

      And you're so shook, you bought

      Two whole tickets to San Cristobal

      In the same thought

      I'm a good boss;

      I'm a bad kid,

      I'm a great guy

      —with some bad habits

      I'm a fat blonde

      In a bad mood

      And that's big facts

      This dumb motherfucker behind me is about to get slapped—

      SLAPPED.

      I didn't mean to hit him that hard, broh

      I didn't mean to really hit him at all though!

      It's infinite, this bitch just gets under my skin

      Like it's Siphilis, it's middles and pistols

      Niggas and bitches

      Nothing you would ever see

      On regular television.

      I took an elevator to heaven

      I haven't been back since,

      I don't remember at all what I left

      Under or back there

      In the black lands

      It's bad earth.

      Tomorrow, tomorrow

      Today

      Tomorrow, tomorrow.

      59;/$ l

      Tomorrow—

      —tomorrow—

      Today

      Tomorrow,

      Tomorrow

      How much power can one man have

      (Apparently a lot. )

      What could this mean,

      If nothing at all?

      I just wanna get loaded

      And run off and rave

      I just want a family,

      A horse,

      And a grave marker

      No, don't bury me

      I just wanted a family.

      I just want to write a good story,

      Now I'm stuck in world history

      All the well knowing

      Now I know I gotta die

      Before everyone I ever loved

      Or even kinda sorta liked

      — as a fan, you know?

      “This man will destroy you.”

      That is literally what the faraway shady ass voice said about Jimmy Fallon.

      So whyz

      why god.

      Is this dude —

      Not even all of a sudden

      It's you.

      It's you.

      Like fucking everywhere.

      It's YOU.

      Gazuntite.

      I move about silently,

      Emergency calls only

      Nobody needs to know me

      Or where in the fuck I'm going

      I'm showing you my dark sides

      And none the wiser

      The only Devil I got my eye on

      Is a liar.

      So what if God then?

      It'll leave this case open

      The gate opened up,

      And I rolled in

      Smoldering

      Sometimes I forget I'm the whole world

      Just long enough

      To be annoyed

      By everything in it

      But especially myself, and increasingly

      WHY THOUGH.

      So suicidal,

      I got blood in my eyes

      Love in my mind,

      I wish.

      Cause with men

      Love isn't blind

      Rolling the size

      And the eyes in the back of my head

      I heard I'm a genius

      I'm also retarded

      Cause I still like penis

      After all these dicks

      The vision was just

      Fallon in back of a Patty Wagon

      How fitting,

      Hands fisted and cuffed

      In front, instead of the back of him

      The Gillian in fact, was Saint Patrick

      It's same difference

      Insane niggas,

      It's getting ignorant

      And at this point

      It's unicorns

      Something going on,

      Don't know what it is

      Feels like something wrong

      Bitch.

      How the fuck you walk in a whole ass place.

      I don't know.

      The whole ass fucking place

      Right, I don't know!

      And the only thing you touch—

      I—-

      Has Jimmy Fallon's name on it.

      I don't—

      Scary huh,

      Unfair really,

      I'm scared, really so

      Seriously don't look at me funny

      If it gets weirder and deeper

      When I never really asked for this

      And I don't really know what happened

      I think Fallon did it.

      —but on what account?

      [The Festival Project.™]

      The Complex Collective ©

      COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2024

      ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©

      -Ū.

      1 hr 27 min
    • Xochil // No Chill.

      They're gripping at straws to make me look and feel crazy which can only mean—

      He's losing his power.

      Hopefully he's expecting another baby.

      Hopefully, for the ba's sake and its mother, it's not a little girl.

      Even my big and strong boy might be irreversibly damaged at the hands of a psychotic narcissist with anger problems—and though surely he had tried to kill me any way he could, I had survived.

      Now, the tables had indeed turned in my favor. With enough time, the truth would be revealed not only to those above, but to all who knew us; I hadn't lost my mind at all, only finally found a pair of eyes that could see the world around me that they did not like—and a pair of legs to run away from it.

      The first time my ex husband actually hit me— he had snapped, and though there had been other counts of shoving,heavy handed close calls and other questionable events in the years leading up to this, it had never been what it turned out to be his fist actually connecting with my face— not just once, but several times over and over until something got in the way— even years later, I didn't know what, but maybe just that I had stopped moving, or struggling to get away.

      “Play dead.”

      Maybe he thought I was dead—or maybe I was. Everything since in the nearly eight years after seemed an inescapable and hellish nightmare—inescapable, that is, from him. Or, from “it.” The thing that had tried to kill me

      That even after assuming an entirely new identity and seperate life, this dirty, lazy, disgusting and altogether unllpleasant energy seemed to follow me everywhere—and worse—this energy seemed to crawl into the other humans surrounding me, and like a parasite, never letting go.

      I wanted to die as much as anything just to never be reminded of him again.

      My thriving and success would make him look like a fool— more of one, anyhow, and either way— his jealousy of my life without him made it obvious how little and weak he actually was, though not on purpose, and, in some ways—many small ones, I had succeeded.

      Suddenly, everything became battlegrounds—fighting for my life as if somehow I were still in my abusers presence and grips—the devil in him seeking me out in the world as if I had deserved it in the first place.

      No one really deserves to die like that/-

      Especially not in front of their children.

      Now at least I knew he had no power alone, but that what one would The Devil itself often lived inside of the weak—weak in spirit, weak minded. Feeble and malleable, often fat and lazy people, it had become obvious— that people were the tools for this force to deplete the light and kindness, the good spirit and soul's purpose of others.

      I had forgiven him, but something indeed had rotted away the core I thought once shared into a blackened depth if awful waste—the things about him belonging to a world I wished never to see or be part of. I had grown, and changed—and I was sure with time so had he; perhaps not, but I couldn't know and wouldn't want to, wishing only for the best for anyone's sake.

      But this thing that seemed to follow me was a pitiful, screaming l and evil thing—I had let go with the consistent reminders of the permanent scars left in the crevices of my lip, and on my face—and though an entire child and perhaps several women between us, his need vengeance that I had left must have been mad, as the sweltering parasitic welt that riled up with enough fierceness to crawl into other sunken bodies, and surround my every waking moment. Not his power, at all, but a greater force of evil—the evil of all mankind—Satan himself seemed to have chosen me as his prey, my abuser as the illusion of conception.

      There for I,

      There for I,

      There for I,

      None! As truth did shatter mine ever being,

      And also Ever person near

      WHO VALIDATED THAT BITCH'S PARKING.

      —you think she drove here?!

      —if she did it would be on a broomstick.

      Goddammit.

      Get her out of here!

      Out! I said!

      You're…not a fan of Fallon's, are you.

      No, I'm not.

      (No—God, no.)

      Well, why not?

      First of all, he winks at people.

      ;)

      *cringe*

      Like, off camera.

      JIMMY O'FALLON

      And I want damages.

      Damages?!

      Damages.

      He's seeking damages?! To what.

      JIMMY O'FALLON

      Like, my entire—everything.

      Damages to everything.

      My entire life!

      Ah.

      [The Festival Project ™]

      I've got to admit, being sued hy Jimmy Fallon is probably the most exciting thing that's ever happened in the entirety of this series!

      What about that thing with Skrillex.

      (That was pretty exiting.)

      Which thing with Skrillex?

      All the things with Skrillex were pretty exciting.

      (Admittedly, yes.)

      Then there was Dillon Francis.

      I hate Dillon Francis.

      Exactly.

      Why!

      Because he excited you.

      Next question!

      Ahead.

      Yo. I finally get to link up with Supacree.

      You're a mess.

      Everything is a mess.

      The world is a mess.

      —your mom's a mess.

      Amanda, please.

      Have you been drinking?

      How long has deadmau5 been a cat?

      Forever, I think.

      Exciting!

      Enter through the exit! Enter through the exit!

      Who the fuck let you in here.

      {Enter The Multiverse}

      MARTHA STEWART'S plan for world domination is complete.

      L E G E N D S

      Johnny Moon was a handsome fellow;

      Johnny Moon was a Sam as well.

      Johnny Moon was a madman also;

      Johnny Moon had indeed done bad.

      Johnny Moon was a handsome devil;

      Johnny Moon was a charming man

      Johnny Moon went to heaven after

      Johnny Moon finished in Hell.

      Welcome To The Wonderful World of…

      | The Complex Collective © |

      By

      [The Festival Project ™]

      Breaking down that one scene from Ascension.

      How the fuck did these two actors even get into the realm of ascension?

      Being honest, I think it's that part of the dream like in The Wizard of Oz and/ or Alice in wonderland where everything just kind of bleeds together into one blurry weird world before it all explodes—or implodes—

      Whatever, just kill yourself.

      (On my way.)

      Titus- Jason Sudakis

      Perscimmion - Will Forte

      Why.

      I don't know why.

      The King

      • just fucking guess .
      • (I'll let you decide.)

        Titus and and Perscimmion—

        One argues this character's name is actually “Persimmon”… i've generally myself no preference but though I had first heard it as “Simeon”— Apparently, actually, “Perscimmon”, or “Persimmon”, the former however not accurately as in other contexts, he is sometimes referred to as “Perci”

        Whatever. Why is this Will Forte.

        *shrugs*

        Cause whatever, I don't know.

        (I like his socks.)

        Titus and Perscimmon—

        Perscimmion

        Whatever.

        CUT TO:

        /Bedtime Stories with Chak Chel

        —or was it, Chak Chel's bedtime stories.

        Whichever. No one cares.

        THE COSMIC AVENGER/SUPACREE

        Ugh grow up.

        KIRSTEN SHAAL

        Or is it Kristin?

        Ugh

        K, SHAAL

        It could be whoever, or whatever— anyone— right?

        GOOGLE KID 1

        But it's not whoever.

        GOOGLE KID 2

        It is whoever.

        GOOGLE KID 1

        It's just two actors!

        GOOGLE KID 3

        —then pick better actors!

        watch it!

        K. SHAAL

        It could be whatever, it could be whoever… I could be whoever! I'm whoever. It doesn't matter.

        CUT BACK TO:

        {Enter The Multiverse}

        L E G E N D S

        Dissecting this recent excerpt from Ascencion

        © The Festival Project, Inc. 2019

        All rights reserved.

        — have just discovered the King's seduction of a lady in waiting; the reigning Queen of her own dominion, betrothed to another, also presumed to be in his own right, a King.

        As scholars and members of the high court, both Titus and Perscimmion are groomed to keep watch over the happenings within each quarry, as given jusrisdiction by the Asended Mastery to spectate freely throughout all lands, and as such; they often travel—often in pairs or groups.

        Titus and Perscimmion

        Persimmon

        Whatever.

        —have quickly departed, haveing spotted the King far out of bounds, to which the King quickly launches after these two Kingsmen in pursuit, and though their loyalty lies within no singular dictation, they somewhat begrudgingly agree it best to keep the King's secret, after he wearily explains to the men, as his friends and genuinely that he feels he has fallen truly in love with her.

        KING IV

        Titus!

        [Titus is annoyed and expecting there to be a fight]

        TITUS

        Mellow. (Chill, bro)

        KING IV

        Be bold, you! (If you have something to say, then say it now and let's duke it out.)

        TITUS

        Never—mellow I am, as are we.

        (Nah, I'm chillin. We cool.)

        (I'm good, he's good—we chillin.)

        PERCI

        Chaos, you've spelled it.

        (You've opened a can of worms, dude.)

        (You got us all fucked up.)

        (You fucked up.)

        KING IV

        I've spelled then many words

        For our wise,

        Nevermind before you found her waiting,

        Dusk was fallen

        And here you,

        cry out such a task-

        To have found her in waiting,

        Not I or heavy bound,

        But yet with lust,

        The breath of motherdom on her wicked truth

        The tied you have counted,

        For I wisked away with every since

        Your true intent, persist, I may.

        The King implies here that he's made many conscious choices and has been playing at this game as a King, to which that only other royalty might understand, the strife of making hard decisions in which case, others might be hurt— or even killed.

        He explains that he and this Queen have found common ground, confining in one another's understanding of hardship as leaders,

        And that their attraction to one other has grown from this trust —naturally, and out of control; as he sees her maternal prime has approached; he suggests that he means no harm at all, but urges the men to think about what they plan to do with the discovery of their possible affair—nearly asking “what exactly do you plan to do with your knowledge of this?”

        (Are you finna tell on me?)

        (Who you finna tell?)

        TITUS

        Now. (Yo.) (srsly?)

        [Titus is a bit pissed that the king would turn it around to imply that his knowledge of this secret could do more harm than the secret itself; he is quite visibly angry.]

        [Perci keeps the peace by holding his friend back.]

        PERCI

        Mellow. (Chill, bro.)

        KING IV

        You found for call my wants;

        Shallow, as it may

        My need ne'er far behind the broken,

        Does call to you, brother,

        And you also,

        For I widow in thought,

        My fury

        (I'm a man; I have needs— I often put my needs as a King behind that of ny entire Kindgom—you're both men; so you know how it is; the feelings I have can't be ignored—it's primal.)

        A tear.

        [sarcasm. He's suggesting “cry about it.” Or “why don't I believe you?” Or, blatently—]

        (Cry me a river!)

        A tear, you ask

        But one does not cry as I seek

        Fair judgement and ridicule,

        Severed heart I,

        Come now awakened in

        To her,

        A dusk had come,

        Though night was golden

        A dawn arose with fury in my bosom

        Mine love awakened

        [He implies to lose his composure would show weakness—the King also implies here that he does, however, feel horrible about it; that he expects to be reviled, killed, or even dethroned—that his heart has truly broken as he has discovered something new in him; he has fallen in love with her. That after spending the night with her, he had become anew.]

        TITUS

        Not love, but—[he begins to argue that it is only lust]

        PERCI

        Seldom! (Yeah right/ that's rare.)

        KING IV

        Love, I bear you mine honest hands,

        The wilted rose,

        Blood upon thornes,

        Truly marks I who has come

        To wake in her

        (I'm telling you, I'm really in love with her.)

        [the king pleas that painstakingly so, his love is pure and true]

        PERCI

        Then. (Whatever.)

        [Titus gives up and agrees]

        TITUS

        So, I mellow. (Okay, okay.)

        [finally Percimmon speaks his mind]

        (Or whatever the fuck his actual name is)

        ::||pause.

        By now it ought to be obvious to you, dear reader and listener, that I am in fact, dictating this—translating these things for you sent from some faraway higher realm, for the sake of the art and with the purpose of your understanding my true intentions, as fellow human and as a writer, to live in the way I desire, honestly and wholeheartedly, without further interruption to my sanctity and wellness, in peace—

        Until my departure from this world.

        Does that quite say it?

        I don't know.

        Whatever.

        ::||Unpause.

        PERCI

        (By the way apparently some decendant or incarnation of the God Percius, son of Zeus)

        PERCIUS

        PERSCIMMION

        SIMMEON

        PERSCIMMON

        PERCI

        (You get it, right?)

        Mits infinite,

        And for the sake of this concept,

        Let's just consider this—

        All the same fucking guy,

        Or at the very least,

        Very closely interacting versions of this same guy

        Within these parallels

        Of time and space

        Wherein these worlds

        And realms

        Exist.

        Okay?

        Ok.

        Good.

        Proceeding.

        [this dude's pretty much been quiet the whole time but now is a little tiffed himself.]

        PERCI

        Did you fear for not

        The death that approaches,

        For now you call I,

        And our brethren here,

        For siren had sounded to wake,

        You in the light and there destined to love

        By blood is bound,

        And yet you wait, here now on high

        Calling to us, havingbeen hound by light,

        Whether you did, or did not forsought

        Come as foreign

        And leave again

        Worried, feather feared at all

        That by this blood, you too shall weep,

        To reap again what you sow

        Or shall they say,

        As punishment,

        For cause just binds??

        (Did it bother you at all to think that not only you might get killed, but get us all killed?! Now you're asking us to lie for you— because all of a sudden, you're in love with this woman; a blood oath set in stone, and her having been betrothed— and here you come, running after us, after it finally occurs to you—whether you meant for it to happen or just “didn't think about it”, went all this way just to fuck shit up (complicate things), then come back home freaking out, running around like a chicken with your head cut off (acting like a crazy bird about to get eaten) saying that, whoever has to hurt or be killed over all this, you feel really bad about— but overall, know you what's coming to you, and you know, and I know, and he knows that we'll probably just all be better off not telling anybody about this…at least for now… but eventually, someone's bound to find out about this, and the less people “know”, the better…right?)

        KING IV

        Now. (Yeah.)

        TITUS

        I second. (I agree.)

        KING IV

        Here, too, I second,

        I third, even for not I as you,

        And you both as I,

        And how,

        The sun has set upon us,

        Why, death is sure to come

        As I rise,

        But give me no mercy, this

        Mellow now,

        I only beg

        What here has transpired

        Silence here,

        Between myself and I—

        Brethren.

        (So we all agree that it's better that this all just stays between us.)

        [the king implies that either way the truth will probably come out and he will die for it, but for now, the secret is best kept between them, with the understanding that they too could be killed in the vengeance and damage of the truth being told sooner than later.]

        Steady ye we all sigh as one. (I'm basically you.) / (if any of us go down, we all go down.)

        Steady ye as my death is yours. (We are one) (we're fucked, but whatever I guess.)

        Steady be my tongue as forced to lie with sacred heart true love does lie.

        (I hate having to do this but my love is true)

        So be it. (Fine)

        So, then. (Very well then.)

        Honor thy pardon. (Thank you guys.)

        Off, then. (Just …go.) (Get out)

        [the king quickly vanishes into the night]

        Damn, that took me longer to decode than I actually spent writing it.

        You—wrote this?

        I…

        Whatever.

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        Carry your feet to mine kingdom.

        I have come again

        To bear good tiding;

        A greeting no other than now,

        For as such,

        Thee returns to fair and justly sit

        Upon the throne

        Which you had been born

        And had also birthed,

        The worlds, alone yours

        The only stone turned now, I,

        As the page does unfoldeth,

        These things part I now, as with time,

        Words have flourished,

        The wisdom

        Seas hath parted,

        And your rage has formed

        A new art,

        Besides I, mind you,

        For body's sake with woven

        I am here, from dust and wind,

        I am tide and seeking, song,

        And are I now none,

        Other than you

        To form a wave of oceans,

        Song of crying out—

        Lord, I have come once,

        Again to honor you,

        lord, as I am,

        As it may,

        We are as one.

        Come now,

        love.

        1 hr 59 min
      • INWARD.

        Today I found out that I never lost my mind at all.

        I found pictures of my car the day I bought it

        Not a dent, not a scratch; I found the pictures of the condition the apartment used to be in when I returned from work—I found the pictures with my friends that reminded me that I had once had them—pictures with my baby reminding me of how much I loved him and that I had cared for him well. I had almost believed my abuser's own accounts of what had happened to me over my own, because as it so seemed the world had chosen to side with him— but indeed, Google images had the entire story written for me from start to finish, and though each picture was well worth over one thousand words— the years had been documented well enough in photos to show that supacree was indeed a hero after all.

        —and I missed her.

        I straight up told you I control this robot bitch.

        It was Frankincense, and not sage

        And so all of a sudden

        The trip to Manhattan

        Became a field day

        True colors are shown

        Blue eyes have never been meaner, and I mean

        It don't matter what you look like—

        It's the inside that can't be trusted.

        Said.

        Don't make me lie to me

        Like I could lie to you

        Instead to calm a lover

        Never half sought

        But left upon the doorstep

        If someone allowable,

        Better yet,

        Heretell exciting news

        And distance captured

        Further between us than there ever was

        The mind that spoke,

        The dusk that only choked on

        Solomon, hart for words

        Lie to a friend

        And lie to the mother, a fraud

        And a scandal

        A cap and a gas can

        Remember the cap?

        How could you

        So broke the only words once spoke on were mortar

        No brick at all so the whole wall shattered

        Kellogg for breakfast brands,

        Spent seeing and scatterbrained,

        You are now mine,

        As time has fallen on to us,

        For our lands had not been yourn at her tides

        For nothing washed ashore but dollars

        Dirty by the hands of hatred lasts, four score years,

        Ride broke,

        Sun lasts,

        Leverage not, star bound

        Hurt I none

        Said disembarked, shadow,

        Come now, dear shadowland

        I am puppet master,

        And also hang upon strings,

        I Am.



        Can somebody,

        Anybody tell me why

        Every time I see that poster

        I almost start crying.

        Not just a little—

        But a lot.

        Not so much an ugly cry,

        But a mean cry—

        As if I lost something—

        And how I didn't mean for any of this to happen

        But it did anyway,

        And I still don't know all what for.

        There must still be something left to write about him

        Or something

        Because

        —someone tell me why—

        Anybody at all

        Tell me why

        Even though I don't want to

        I still see little pieces of that in everything

        As if they belong to maybe like,

        The pieces of me I lost, or something;

        And tell me why

        After like,

        All these years or something

        all of a sudden

        [its]

        So beautiful to me.

        So goddamn beautiful-

        That suddenly—

        —I don't know why—

        I don't see anything else.



        Anybody?



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        1 hr 6 min
      • kalypso.

        'kalypso'

        Collection 2.1 'appearences'

        Track 02. 'kalypso'

        Prod. By Blū Tha Gürū

        [Hurrying backstage and hunched over, off screen and out of sight of the audience, this man is clearly on the brink of a nervous breakdown.]

        I'm gonna puke I'm gonna vomit.

        Hey!

        I'm gonna puke, I'm gonna vomit,

        I'm gonna hurl.

        Hey.

        Oh God.

        Are you okay?

        He stiffens up, standing straight and regaining his composure almost immediately, as if nothing had happened.

        Yeah. Everything's fine.

        Are you sure?

        You're crazy.

        This is simple.

        Okay.

        It's not FAIR.

        Nothing is FAIR.

        All is fair in love and war!!

        Well, this is neither— it's TV.

        “Telephoto”

        ‘Teleform'

        And

        ‘Telesynthesis'

        Who here can explain the difference?

        A girl leans over from slinking back in her desk to her classmate—they are both wearing sunglasses which seems odd, considering that they are obviously indoors; the lecture hall, as vast as it may be, can seem as such an intimate classroom—the students here have been studying as a class together here for so long that their familiarity with each other is much like that of a large family—however—very large; there are thousands of them, actually, in total, divided by sects into guilder chapters, designated by speciality and type, each having been given specific assignments, relegated by their gifts.

        I have to tell you something.

        Can it wait?

        Probably.

        —because she's going to pick on m—

        Cecile.

        Actually, it's—

        (Sighing deflatedly)

        (With sarcasm)

        Glorious Agony.

        She slinks back into her seat, slouching

        See.

        Your anticipation is distinguished.

        …Thank you.

        That was at worst a compliment and at best a suggestion to minimize and regulate your frequency as to remain undetectable, if not to be synchronized with the rest of your classmates—thoughtfully so.

        Rather thoughtless, actually.

        Well think of it— and speaking of such;

        Telesynthesis:

        Telesynthesis is to adapt one's functional vibration and frequency to match the commonly shared vibration at which the majority of conscious inhabitants in one's immediate field, environment, or space.

        And—Teleform

        To materialize within any given space the perception of a shared reality within one's given realm and or secondary dimension.

        Good.

        Thank you, Cecielle.

        Actually, it's—

        Now—

        Moving along.

        The teacher again begins to lecture, as the girl once again slowly begins to lean over towards cecil , still frustrated from her interaction with the professor.

        Pssssst.

        Are you serious?

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        5 min
      • FISHSTICKS!

        My breath is shallow,

        My heart is lonely.

        The poster shadow

        Of many moons forshadoed.

        Again, I lie awake, screaming,

        Not calling

        I'm screening your calls

        You want ice cream with that,

        Or what.

        (Or what)

        Probably or what, though

        In a nutshell,

        I don't want you

        I thought your hollow bones

        Could swallow us whole

        To another,

        Long, long gone

        Summer.

        Sure, the show goes on

        —but it won't without you.

        For sure,

        The show goes on—

        But it won't without you

        Turn the phone on,

        Turn it over

        At the airport,

        Watching Conan

        Oh yeah,

        A honey blonde,

        Shucks.

        Honeysuckle wants only

        To become

        Sweet, ripe salmon berry

        (Don't you want to)

        At the airport,

        Watching conan

        Overhead, I

        Overheard a phone call

        “What the fuck did you just say?”

        It's been 3 days;

        She went missing at MIA

        No connection to jfk

        No connection at all Munroe, you blind bastard

        All the water

        All the drugs

        All in the wash

        It's water under the toenails

        (Four fingers up,

        But the fourth one lost it)

        At the airport

        Watching Conan

        I over heard you

        Turn the phone off

        Semi-sync or something,

        Semi dysfunction

        Chemists hemispheres

        All his fears are

        In my head

        I stand at the front at the edge of the the platform so there's just less temptation to jump

        (White Nikes is for chumps)

        Everybody is a goddamn DJ these days

        Especially on her bday

        When she asks for a replay of that remix

        Bitch please

        I sit alone bc with my phone and my notebook.

        By the end of a river

        A cold brook

        Wrote a whole mother novel

        A classy story

        For the world gone wrong

        You fucking Morin

        Fungi up I get more fond l

        I stand in the train with my back against the wall

        So the shadow markers won't stand behind

        And grab me

        Fuck man, fuck off

        There's a lot of blue here

        Must be something to do here

        I need new gear

        Stuck inside of my l life

        Since new years

        Whose here?



        WHAT THE FUCK MORGIE?

        SUNNI!

        MORE HEINIKEN!!!!

        You CANNOT. Drink with that ankle monitor on.

        I know.

        So why are you drinking?!

        I took the ankle monitor off.

        Nogga yo feet is small.

        Like smaller than mine.

        I been staring at your gut this whole train ride.

        How the fuck are you like a 5x

        And your feet are a ladies size 6?

        The fuck.

        You need some help, bro.

        I ain't been to the gym in two days

        But you got fairy feet

        My nigga

        My hip bone s apes against the railing;

        I've three children, but you'd not know I;

        I'm holding in cereal, cleaning out stuff for cereal boxes m,

        Audio level

        Aux chords polished

        Shined as silver,

        Hair as Golden,

        Still no meadows,

        My eyes rest in

        My, I'm tired.

        Please don't mind me,

        Bright blue jumper

        Still no meadow

        I lay down in

        Still no meadow

        Hair as golden

        Old blue boxers

        Boxes

        Please don't mind me

        Oh, you started it

        Oh, you started it

        No motion sensors

        Already alcoholic,

        Still halls

        And still water

        Oh,

        You started it

        Oh. You started it

        Sure, don't fall out of

        Heroin antics,

        Sure, don't fall forward,

        Only to fall out

        Oh. You started it

        Damn! Why the devil always gotta stand behind a motherfucker, huh?

        Fuckin creepo.

        Haven't you decided yet that you are the devil.

        I am one and all

        And all things, I am

        Still in my mind I am,

        Never behind,

        But always ahead

        Always right, and not wit wars

        I stand in line for the stairs

        The slower the better the more I write

        Imm on fast God

        Fasting time

        I'm on fully automatic

        The faster we go

        The harder the heroin

        The longer we stop for

        The harder we party

        Off bandwagon

        There I go—

        (Are I now)

        There you are?

        Fully automotive

        Fully automatic

        Fully on the wrong road.

        It matters hoping

        No more tears for lost stardom

        No more neon signs

        No halter tops

        Shit, I work harder in hell

        When I don't have my phone off

        Shit, I work harder in hell

        When I take all my clothes off.

        I couldn't even pretend to give two fucks right now

        I'm chained to a train

        With another one headed right towards me.

        I don't mind what's the line your on

        Whose line is it anyway, good line at the equinox

        Step over me

        Hoarder

        I'll say,

        Here for all time;

        Wherefor art though

        Simple and stuck

        In my own ways

        All day I sat in haides

        No semtember

        Sick morons

        Long, long October

        Still started

        No water

        Two dogs

        And a blonde

        No show starter.

        But There goes all that

        All the next understudies

        And sure profiles,

        Fair weather friends again

        —creepy ass inanimate muppets.

        Fuck, man.

        Somebody stick their fuckin hand up Elmo's ass before I punch him.

        Don't punch Elmo.

        Who doesn't love Elmo.

        I do not.

        What did you say your name was?

        I didn't.

        What did you say is your expertise?

        Rhythms.

        Mister mister l

        NOOOOOOOO.

        Some black dude rubbed his whole dick against my wrist on the subway train.

        gnarly.

        It was warm.

        And weird—

        Like a fucking

        Sleeping cat

        Under Egyptian cotton

        AGHHHHHHJ.

        AOh no.

        I THOUGHT MY HAND WENT PARALYZED.

        It just siezed up, real crunchy, like—

        *chicken foot arm*

        I automatically had like the whole thing going on.

        The worst part was that it was warm—

        And soft//

        But HUGE.

        I was like

        What ANIMAL is that.

        I will never.

        I could NEVER

        I said.

        what.

        I just got to the point in my life where I realized I wasn't interested in anything.

        !but especially

        I'm looking for

        Sage to burn

        I goy money go burn

        I got time to earn mi got money to chase

        Ain't got money to waste

        You've got to admit x

        It's a good savings system

        —for once, the sauce sounded like symphonies

        And wreaked of green peppers, or rather, was fragrant

        CHECKPOINT!

        I remember this part!

        I remember this place

        This time

        This dance

        This song,

        Then— everyone does

        And everything does, doesn't it?

        Show ants the advocate

        The advocate of another time

        I think I ran here on

        What if everything cheaper online

        But it's just the adventure you wished for

        Have you ever tried to be mad

        With squeaky ass shoes on

        Seriously

        Have you ever tied to like walk away

        Or stop away mad

        With squeaky ass shoes?



        Is that the pub?

        I guess.

        You guess! Is this the right pub or is it not?

        I don't know which pub is the right pub! He just said “Irish pub” you could throw a rock and hit one!

        Sometimes it's best,

        To just not give

        A single fuck at all

        At all at all

        A single fuck at all.

        I don't give a flipping song!

        Woah now

        i don't give a flap or a stick!

        Alright, alright.

        Leave me alone to die

        I'll melt inside the world

        A coin upon a string

        Run, girl, run

        Of course, of course

        It lives again

        It'll come again

        When the Sunnis down.

        I can't wait till the sundown

        I can't wait till the world is kind

        And the girls are gone

        And the birds all hush

        And the dogs don't bark

        And the sun downt come

        Till I'm long long gone and out of it

        I'm over her, no more war and art over sodom

        And stardom as startuduat

        Like I said, you started it

        I always did

        I didn't want

        I only done

        To suffer

        Suffer more

        Will you rot you blossom corpse

        The art is done

        The art is done!

        The water's hot

        No wonder white people fucking hate us.

        I saw a black dude on the train. Today with his dick in his pocket.

        NO, GOD.

        WHY!

        And he was holding it, too.

        I'm like

        “What for?!”

        Jesus Christ's.

        It was in his pocket.

        Outlined and everything,

        With his fucking grip around it

        Like it was a fucking animal.

        No!

        No!

        Man some people are so fuckin wrong

        I hate pda.

        I fuckin hate it.

        The Real versions come across a parallel reality's version of themselves—who by some chance, also happened to cross paths with each other—however—this band of miscreants are HOOLIGANS—unruly lawbreakers who cause chaos, confusion, and trouble to the good people of

        Where the fuck is this.

        —wherever they are.





        Don't come round here!

        I will fuck your socks off— and sell them back to you!

        The sex was free;

        But the socks will cost you.

        But—they're my socks.

        Were and could be again…for a price.

        Goddamn.

        Yes, Goddamn indeed.

        BROH.

        JOHN OLIVER IS MAD BRITISH.



        AVADAKAVARAH!

        I TOLD YOU, I WAS A WITCH DOCTOR!

        WHATEVER! I THOUGHT YOU WERE A LATE NIGHT HOST!

        EVERYBODY HAS A DAY JOB.

        THAT'S A NIGHT JOB!



        EXPECTO-PA–

        POTTER!!!

        WHAT IN THE [BEEP}! YOU'RE A WIZARD?!

        OF COURSE I'M A BLOODY WIZARD–WHAT THE HELL DO I LOOK LIKE TO YOU?!

        ANOTHER LATE NIGHT HOST–OR WHATEVER!

        “OR WHATEVER” I'M A WIZARD–

        HARRY.

        What the [bleep]

        EVERYBODY HAS A DAY JOB

        ™

        Please, by all means,

        Keep your pretty white girlfriend.

        I want to see those eyes come through

        What a handsome couple.

        They are the scariest thing ever.

        Let them be, then;

        Out to be fun to watch.

        I can't listen to Drake on my loud speakers bro.

        Not—like loud, man.

        That shit makes me feel like a whole ass basic black girl.

        True story.

        Sometimes you gotta distance yourself from the “yassss” birds.

        I saw this one comedian performing—

        Well, I think he was a comedian.

        He wasn't funny to me but,

        He had like 710K followers

        And he was really really pretty.

        I had to notice that, because as imm listening to him preform, about 30 minutes into the video—

        I was waiting to see if he would make me actually laugh—

        He didn't—

        But—

        As I was trying to figure out how he has 710K followers

        And has not made me laugh, not once

        I start paying closer attention to him—

        And I realize;

        “Oh”

        He is major good looking.

        At first I didn't notice—

        I like white guys— so,

        Of course,

        At first glance

        I'm like

        “Hey brother!”

        You know, like

        “That's my son!”

        I'm like

        “Yeah, make me laugh, boy.”

        But he didn't

        And then as I start to wonder

        Like,

        Why or how he has so large of a following

        I notice he's very beautiful.

        And I mean, like mad gorgeous.

        Like ideally—

        I'm like

        “Oh” and as I'm realizing this,

        He's saying the punchline to a “joke,”

        And as he's saying it, I realize that way in the back,

        Like you can hear that they're in the back

        Cause the camera is in the center,

        And like half of the audience is behind the film crew

        , and you can hear these girls are in the way—

        Like in the way back

        Like in the way, way back,

        You can hear like a pack of ratchets—

        Yes— these must be his die hards—

        His squad.

        Not like his homies or anything, but like

        The Groupies.

        You know.

        The hopefuls.

        He's got this group of black girls like hackling in the back, like clapping hard at all his punches like

        “YAS!”

        “SAY IT!”

        And it was funny because his reaction to these girls was like

        “I'm—not in control of this.”

        “RIGHT!”

        “SAY LESS!”

        I'm like,

        Oh, I see how that works, now.

        {Enter The Multiverse}

        And even I

        Just want it to fucking stop

        So it can just be over with

        Oh why,

        Not another fucking lover boy

        After all of them

        Oh no—

        But this one's worse;

        Maybe even the worst of all of them

        Because as I exit my prison cell,

        I find this dude behind bars—

        Maybe even happily.

        And now I'm out into the world

        Supposedly free—

        But still trapped with this mentality

        As if whatever I had before—

        Maybe even possibly the worst, lowest existence

        At least for me,

        Was somehow

        Better

        —can anyone tell me why?

        Not even God, besides the obvious point that perhaps

        The Devil is in the mind;

        He likes to arouse,

        To play games,

        And tricks

        And I,

        Myself

        Perhaps

        Have fallen prey,

        Not to become victim to this;

        But a player in the game.



        A pawn.

        AND WHY HAS NOBODY DRAWN ON THESE YET,

        THEY'VE BEEN UP FOR SEEMINGLY

        forever and always

        And this nigga has

        Not one snaggletooth

        No graffiti tettoos

        No fucking sharpie lip injections.

        Nothing.

        Do you remember that story how Johnny Depp hated his face up on a billboard—

        So he went rogue and painted over it?

        Yeah? So?

        What if it's like that.

        I don't think it's like that.

        —I think it's the opposite of that, actually.

        And if anything—

        If I see not a one defacing of these posters

        And they are everywhere

        If anything,

        Jimmy Fallon is the guy

        With a spray bottle of acetone

        And a fucking microfiber rag

        Wiping that shit off

        In his free time

        WHAT FREE TIME?

        You tell me.

        But first—

        Somebody—

        Anybody tell me

        Why this happened.

        At all.



        Anybody?



        Somebody.

        C'mon.



        {Enter The Multiverse}

        If you'll excuse me, I actually have to get going.

        Where are you going?

        I don't know:

        I just—



        JOHNNY DEPP must be going.

        Have to.

        he does not know, however, that he is stuck in a movie—which has no definitive ending.

        Well actually,

        This movie has like—

        30 alternative endings

        Wait, 30 alternative endings?

        30-40

        Woah.

        That's nuts.

        Which makes it even cooler.

        If you ever blow my mind again like that,

        I'll actually kill you.

        I've been watching a lot of LMN

        Lifetime movie network—Why?!

        Because this shit is hilarious!

        Isn't it!



        YO. This shit is PIZZA

        It IS.

        What? Why is it pizza?

        Cause it's not pizza If it's not CHEEZY.

        ahaha.

        While traditional Thai pineapple fried rice has tomatoes within the vegetable medley, I opted instead for this recipe to use a sauced red pepper tomato sauce glaze to top the dish, for a new school American twist and flare.

        ½ cup chopped mushrooms

        ½ cup scallions

        ¼ cup white onion

        ½ cup red onion

        ¼ cup Pasilla pepper

        ½ cup red pepper cup white onions

        ½ cup yellow pepper

        ¾ cup green pepper

        1 cup fresh basil

        1 cup fresh pineapple

        UmBRIDGE.

        What.

        NO, Um—

        A bridge appears out of nowhere.

        lol why do you have no hair?

        I dunno; mate.

        Wizards.

        Don't go there—

        You're fired.

        I beg your pardon

        Please, don't beg. You are officially decommissioned as headmaster!

        This is the minister of magic

        Is that what it was.

        I guess, I don't know; I'm just along for the

        STEWIE.

        WHAT MA, WHAT.

        TEN AND TWO!!

        You know what, let me drive.

        Oh, finally—stewie has his own aplorable Boston accent, (hybrid proper English, of course. )

        What does that even sound like

        Strange.

        The lady working at Trader Joe's was so beautiful to me, I had to tell her.

        I loved her Locs, I loved her glasses

        I loved her accent.

        So I just had to ask where she's from—

        I do that sometimes.

        If I really love someone's accent,

        I have to ask where their from to try to get there one day;

        So I asked her,

        “Where are you from?”

        And she says

        “Haiti,”

        And I was like

        “Wow, cool”

        And then I thought about it for a second,

        And I asked

        “Do you ever miss home”

        And she just laughed

        I was like

        “Oh, guess not”

        Some context

        I had been homesick lately,

        But I grew up in Alaska

        And I consider myself from California,

        Having spent most of my adult life there

        So coming to New York has been like

        Living on the other side of the world;

        And sometimes that sucks.

        But sometimes, and I have realized that wherever you're from,

        To get to New York is sometimes a blessing.

        She didn't even say yes or no,

        She just laughed.

        Now I'm worried about Haiti.

        I was worried about it before;

        But now I'm like;

        “Do you miss home?”

        She's like

        “Hahaha”

        I'm like

        “Oh damn.”

        I count my blessings.

        So JOHNNY DEPP just like excuses himself, wanders out into the street, and then—?

        Yeah.

        And then what?

        I don't know yet, I'm kind of busy these days.

        “BUSY?!”

        BUSY DOING WHAT?!

        Beep boop.

        Eee—ooh.

        Beep—boop—boop.

        Yah-yah-yah—

        APPLESAURCE

        APPLESAURCE

        APPLESAURCE

        I'll show you all my scars, huh

        This one, she look like the reaper

        That's my girl,

        You bet she a keeper

        Ya'll sleepin on us

        What

        Yeah

        What

        Yeah

        What

        You sleeping on us

        I been in this b'niss

        APPLESAURCE

        APPLESAURCE

        APPLESAURCE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        ILIKEBALLSINMYFACE.

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        ILIKEBALLSINMYFACE.

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        I LIKE BALLS

        IN MY FACE

        ILIKEBALLSINMYFACE.

        It's not a bad song.

        Is it a song?

        Is it?

        idk

        I just like balls in my face, is all.

        ILIKEBALLSINMYFACE.

        [A Classic red dodgeball beams

        Who is it?

        WILL FERREL

        Is that how you spell it?

        Why will Ferrel?

        Cause I Want it TO

        MAKE ME LAUGH.

        HOW.

        JUST DO IT.

        Oh. I get it: So my pain is funny to you?

        [FINE, IT'S SOMEONE ELSE]

        Oh shit, that guy did look just like Will Ferrel, but OLD.

        He's old now, ain't he?

        Wasn't he always?

        [FINE]

        CUT.

        I QUIT.

        CUT TO:

        You and I, sir, have a longstanding arrangement.

        Would it be more comfortable to–sit?

        Yikes.

        (Whatever, we'll work on it.)

        [The Festiva–




        {Enter The Multiverse}

        I need a toothbrush to scrub my brain.

        I'm

        The lilly of the valley

        In the

        Belly of the beast

        I been swallowed by a whale

        I'm a whole damn story

        Woah

        I am the Lilly of the the valley

        I am the rider of the horse

        I am seeker of truth

        Writer of lines

        Sayer of lies

        (I might say a lie;

        But I just won't tell it)

        What is your deal with the devil.

        She knows I have a deal with ‘em.

        Well, the truth is—

        I have to turn ya!

        He's a good old country boy—

        From the simple south—

        A simple soul

        And they all believed him,

        word for word

        “I's born in New York”

        —he sounded assured.

        Gone, now, boy

        Go crack dat corn.

        Gone down south

        Go crack dat corn

        Gone, ol boy

        Go crack dat corn m

        —got no soul?

        Go crack dat corn.

        Aaaaghhh.

        I have a headache.

        why the fuck are you freaking out?!

        Because I don't know what I wrote.

        I must admit,

        There are things

        Where there should be no things

        There are springs

        Where there should be no springs

        There are strings

        Where there should be no strings

        And imm quite sure

        With no rules enforced

        —it's just a static cling

        Sort of thing

        OWW, my EYES.

        Nobody should have this much power.

        Nobody does.

        I don't get it.

        (I still don't understand why this happened.)

        He must have perfect genetics.

        Or something.

        THIS FOOL IS FIXING ME UP TO DIE!!!!!

        I AM THECRISCO QUEEN

        DIRTY NOT CLEAN

        WHAT CAN I SAY

        I LIKE

        GREASE

        MONEY EVERYDAY

        BANKROLL

        INCREASE

        DEEP FRY HIGH



        SUNNI BLŪ

        Yo

        VO.

        Ok— so sometimes things go shitty.

        Like, mad shitty.

        YOOOOO.



        My measurements are 34C, 24 waist, and 55 in height.

        I couldn't understand why a girl this perfect should have to be selling sex at all,

        But I supposed nowadays, all women were prostitutes in some sort of way.

        This one's 22 years old and 96 pounds

        Men are sick fucking creatures.

        Whose fucking child is this?!

        COME GET YOUR DAUGHTER.

        Although, you know—I get it.

        My mom bought a Mercedes in cash

        And I'm still in educational debt.

        I just now today realized.

        That could have been a college fund.

        But she wanted a Mercedes.

        It's okay that I'm a bit fucked up in the head.

        Something went terribly wrong.

        All and all,

        Myself and this perfect girl,

        Cost around the same

        For an entire night—

        But hey,

        I think she's low balling herself

        On the 24 hour special.

        That's an entire day of my time,

        That's at least 10K.

        ‍♀️

        She has a perfect body and two eyes that are different colors,

        But I'm a literary genius.

        You don't need words to soothe your boner thiugh,

        Or show off at a black tie function, do you?

        A stroll on the red carpet,

        Or some opulent fucking

        5-star charade.

        How much does she cost, I wonder?

        She says,

        “I also accept bitcoin, etherum, gold and silver.”

        On God,

        These fake lip hoes is robbin' niggas.

        Men are sick creatures though.

        “Here's my gold watch”

        Fucking gross.

        I cruise escort sites for entertainment,

        Having learned my value as a woman isn't the visual,

        Visceral thing men are usually looking for—

        No judgement,

        Because I've realized that if I too had a perfect body.

        I myself would be living in some kind of oppulent, prostitution fuck-hole,

        With everybody else in my generation,

        That didn't get married—

        And then, probably divorced.

        I realized a long time ago that this was the reason my mother

        Always hated my body more than I ever could have— which is fine,

        Because eventually I inherited this hatred.

        I could have eventually grown out of it—

        But she couldn't see that.

        I was a “nasty fat heifer”

        On her worst days,

        And now,

        Even on my best days—

        I still am.

        Nevermind that eventually my ex husband would

        Think of my hair as nappy, or

        That I actually did end up kind of sort of growing out of being

        A fat, nasty heifer—

        Kind of.

        But the fact that it's taken me the entirety of my life to realize my worth as a woman

        Would always be defined by that

        Of what a man idealized as

        “Worthy”

        Well,

        That in itself

        Gives me the dismissive ability

        To have days where I do nothing,

        But sit back,

        Cruising escort sites and shipping on Amazon for yoga mats,

        Wanting the experience of the world

        Without really being beautiful enough for it

        And waiting to fade

        Into the next lifetime.

        [All the black girls cost less

        Because they have to.]

        Men are sick creatures.

        They'll take a butterface,

        Ugly ass white girl

        Over a pretty one that's dark skinned

        And these are just

        The facts of life

        (So far.)

        Piper of Phoenix

        Valiant, bold, and brazen

        This woman, I love—

        In the wings for fortune,

        To honor, I love

        With wisdom,

        And aged like fine wine

        We all become

        I want body like Sofia

        But never met the real Rebecca.

        Yo.

        YO.

        Let's spend $60 o lip gloss.

        Okay.



        Hey.

        Ways crackin.

        I just bought a $12,000 mattress.

        Let's take a nap in it.

        Hey girl.

        Heeeeeeey.

        This yoga mat cost $200.

        That's fresh.

        You think THATS RICH?!

        Seems pretty rich to me.

        You can't get any of this stuff on Amazon.



        That's fucking psycho.

        These loafers?

        Uh uh.

        $2,000.

        For WAT.

        (Whispers)

        Eeel skiiiin.

        Gross!

        I'm HUNGRY

        Got grits,

        Ain't got no sugar.

        No butter—

        —ain't hurt nobody.

        Poverty is a whole damn show.

        Close the door

        On a broke ass bitch.

        Poverty is a whole damn story.

        Got no bucks for the Whole Foods market

        Shopping carts full of old ass garbage

        No reward

        For a woke ass artist

        I'm HUNGRY.



        I killed myself 3 times his morning.

        POOR SNOOP is still a whole ass G

        BET ON IT HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL RAP COVER -$15

        BROKE WAYNE AINT HAVING IT

        CHRIS ROCK THE METRO TRAIN DRIVER is NOT FUNNY—

        (He's still a ladies man though.)

        LCD SYSTEM

        HOOGLI BOOGLI is the reason they fear us.

        HOOGLI BOOGLI IS THE BLACKEST BLACK THAT EVER BLACKED.

        UNLIKE NIGGLY NIGGA—he is NOT FRIENDLY.

        He is the stuff of nightmares.

        A world gone wrong.

        Two bloodshot eyes on a black backdrop

        Dark black.

        I sold not state at screen

        They go uno in te night

        This shit doesn't make much sense,

        Does it?

        Doesn't

        Matter

        Antimatter.

        Ow.

        How far is antimatter from antithesis?

        Is this just a Christmas present

        Never said it, same diff

        Something something something

        SHUT UP.

        So to re-iterate—

        Uh huh.

        Niggly Nigga is friendly…

        Yeah, he's just—

        —he just looks like that.

        AH.

        What happened.

        Don't stand behind me like that, my nigga.

        Srry.



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        Okay, that'll work.

        #timetravelingdjs



        Enough with these weak dick pussy motherfuckers..

        I still got 30 minutes in my cycle routine!

        Here you come with your pussy ass punches;

        AIGH.

        OOOOOH.

        Come on, put some weight in them shits!

        Pretend it's my face.

        Damn. I lost fat Jimmy Fallon.

        How'd you lose him?! He's hard to lose!

        And slow!

        Damn!

        THE SUPER FAT JIMMY FALLON is trying to slim down; he munches on a chocolate chewy bar (read: eats it in two biles and grips the wrapper anxiously.)



        Imm a whole ass nigga

        Come try take me out my head

        I got corn in the fridge

        I got bread

        I got money to spend

        On you

        (On you$

        On you

        I got money to spend

        On you I

        I gotta go

        What happened

        Jew stuff.

        Ah yes.

        I remember now.

        Yeah, that's a Jew.

        Rabbi?!

        Shh! Shut up!

        But—

        Shut up!

        Yo. Bama.

        BARAK OBAMA

        I told you, don't call me that.

        Sorry—listen, Barak.

        President—

        President Obama.

        [beat]

        …yes?

        Look, I need a favor.

        You still owe me one.

        Put it on my tab. Listen, this is importsnt!

        -_-

        I think I control my neighbors.

        Yikes.

        For real. I think they move based on when I move.

        Seems like it.

        You're right! It seems like it.

        I was agreeing with you.

        BROH.

        They got planted baby bell cheeses!

        THEYGOTPLANTBASEDBABYBELLCHEESES

        I kinda wanna see if Dillon Francis is a dad yet .

        I'm tryna see like a tiny version of this.

        Of what.

        Don't change a thing.

        I would also like tiny versions of this,

        This,

        And this—

        Please.

        Ok.

        And this.

        Are you sure!?

        Yes.

        JACK BLACK

        don't you ever do that to me AGAIN!

        What! I didn't do anything to you!

        What?

        No!

        You didn't? Why not?

        What.

        What the Fox News! Do you have like an exclusive contract with Fallon, or something?

        No, that's NBC.

        I really can't talk about it right now, Jack.

        Hey hey-/ since when are we on a first name basis?

        You know what— you're right—

        I know it,

        Excuse me, Mr. Black—

        I ought to be going.

        going where?! You have to get me back to my original dimension!

        You don't have an original dimension!

        What! Why not,

        1. The fourth wall has been broken, very broken.

          And 2.

          What's the second point?

          You shouldn't have taken that acid.

          What acid?! Which time?!

          Exactly!

          Goddammit!

          don't look at me, God made this playlist.

          “Jew stuff”

          Ever since I inducted Jack black and Alex Baldwin into the impenatrable ten

          Ah—ahem

          Nobody “inducted us”

          There's no induction.

          We were just always



          —always.

          Here.

          HOOGLI BOOGLI.

          Huh.

          DID YOU JACK MY RIMS?

          Nah man, wasn't me.

          [the rims are sloppily hidden under a potato sack “hidden” obviously in the corner.

          Hehe.

          NIGGLY NIGGA spots his rims in the corner.

          Musical torture.

          HOOGLI, THESE ARE MY RIMS.

          I don't know how those got there, man, shiet!

          Nigga!

          What!

          HOOGLI BOOGLI

          YOU BLACK ASS NIGGA

          DONT—COME AROUND MY HOUSE NO MORE

          LOL HOW DO NIGGLY NIGGA AND HOOGLI BOOGLI SHARE A HOOD?

          Cause it beez like that sometimes.

          God damn—

          He's so fine to me!

          God damn,

          He ages like wine!

          Goddamn

          Goddamn!

          I turn the time;

          Damn,

          Goddamn—

          Let's turn back time




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        2. ragdoll.

          These terrorists are mad desperate;

          A demon is a demon—

          But a weak, feeble-minded brainwashed terrorist is another thing: just that.

          [domestic terrorism and acts of sociopolitical psychological tactical practices by and against American citizens.]

          The only satisfaction in knowing how right I was, became choosing not to directly address them anymore as they were— ignorant, insolent babies throwing temper tantrums—

          It seemed altogether in the same system were the motorcyclists and the door slammers, as if some sort of strategy against free thought and the right to truth.

          The actual truth of the matter was, that I was also in them—whether or not they had the conscience to know.

          Be mad; I am.

          Maybe now in coming times you will understand

          How cruel it feels to be hated,

          For just existing.

          Fragility

          Something ‘about' me bothers you so deeply—

          And you ‘don't know' what;

          But I'll tell you what it is…

          Later.

          For now,

          I'll just enjoy soaking in your rage —

          How wrong you feel I am

          For being right.

          And how right I am—

          That this is wrong.

          {Enter The Multiverse}

          “Billie's Bong”

          The poor Billie Ellish has a neon bong.

          Woah! You have a bong!

          Yeah.

          That's sick.

          Do you not—smoke?

          No. Wait. Do you not—like, sing?

          Nah, yeah— I'm in like, a band, but—

          But what about your vocals?

          We play punk!

          Nice.

          [A CHARACTER walks in, and is astounded to see the two practically identical Billies.]

          Who though?

          Doesn't matter.

          I don't get it. Which one is which?

          They both shrug.

          The poor Billie Ellish and the regular Billie Ellish have almost everything in common besides money— being that, “broke Billie” comes from a stereotypically dysfunctional family, and a broken home, and has lived a majority of her life in poverty—besides of course—Finneas at least having once served as the lead guitarist of her band, before dropping off.

          Wait, what did happen to your Finneas?

          Ah, My Finneas? Forget about it. That dude is a skag.

          My breath is shallow,

          My heart is lonely.

          The poster shadow

          Of many moons forshadoed.

          Again, I lie awake, screaming,

          Not calling

          I'm screening your calls

          You want ice cream with that,

          Or what.

          (Or what)

          Probably or what, though

          In a nutshell,

          I don't want you

          I thought your hollow bones

          Could swallow us whole

          To another,

          Long, long gone

          Summer.

          Sure, the show goes on

          —but it won't without you.

          For sure,

          The show goes on—

          But it won't without you

          Turn the phone on,

          Turn it over

          At the airport,

          Watching Conan

          Oh yeah,

          A honey blonde,

          Shucks.

          Honeysuckle wants only

          To become

          Sweet, ripe salmon berry

          (Don't you want to)

          At the airport,

          Watching conan

          Overhead, I

          Overheard a phone call

          “What the fuck did you just say?”

          It's been 3 days;

          She went missing at MIA

          No connection to jfk

          No connection at all Munroe, you blind bastard

          All the water

          All the drugs

          All in the wash

          It's water under the toenails

          (Four fingers up,

          But the fourth one lost it)

          At the airport

          Watching Conan

          I over heard you

          Turn the phone off

          Semi-sync or something,

          Semi dysfunction

          Chemists hemispheres

          All his fears are

          In my head

          I stand at the front at the edge of the the platform so there's just less temptation to jump

          (White Nikes is for chumps)

          Everybody is a goddamn DJ these days

          Especially on her bday

          When she asks for a replay of that remix

          Bitch please

          I sit alone bc with my phone and my notebook.

          By the end of a river

          A cold brook

          Wrote a whole mother novel

          A classy story

          For the world gone wrong

          You fucking Morin

          Fungi up I get more fond l

          I stand in the train with my back against the wall

          So the shadow markers won't stand behind

          And grab me

          Fuck man, fuck off

          There's a lot of blue here

          Must be something to do here

          I need new gear

          Stuck inside of my l life

          Since new years

          Whose here?

          WHAT THE FUCK MORGIE?

          SUNNI!

          MORE HEINIKEN!!!!

          You CANNOT. Drink with that ankle monitor on.

          I know.

          So why are you drinking?!

          I took the ankle monitor off.

          Nogga yo feet is small.

          Like smaller than mine.

          EY.

          I been staring at your gut this whole train ride.

          How the fuck are you like a 5X

          And your feet are a ladies size 6?

          The fuck.

          You need some help, bro.

          I ain't been to the gym in two days

          But you got fairy feet

          My nigga.

          My hip bones apes against the railing;

          I've three children, but you'd not know It;

          I'm holding in cereal, cleaning out stuff for cereal boxes ,

          Audio level

          Aux chords polished

          Shined as silver,

          Hair as Golden,

          Still no meadows,

          My eyes rest in

          My, I'm tired.

          Please don't mind me,

          Bright blue jumper

          Still no meadow

          I lay down in

          Still no meadow

          Hair as golden

          Old blue boxers

          Boxes

          Please don't mind me

          Oh, you started it

          Oh, you started it

          No motion sensors

          Already alcoholic,

          Still halls

          And still water

          Oh,

          You started it

          Oh. You started it

          Sure, don't fall out of

          Heroin antics,

          Sure, don't fall forward,

          Only to fall out

          Oh. You started it

          Damn! Why the devil always gotta stand behind a motherfucker, huh?

          Fuckin creepo.

          Haven't you decided yet that you are the devil.

          I am one and all

          And all things, I am

          Still in my mind I am,

          Never behind,

          But always ahead

          Always right, and not wit wars

          I stand in line for the stairs

          The slower the better the more I write

          I'm on fast God

          Fasting time

          I'm on fully automatic

          The faster we go

          The harder the heroin

          The longer we stop for

          The harder we party

          Off bandwagon

          There I go—

          (Are I now)

          There you are?

          Fully automotive

          Fully automatic

          Fully on the wrong road.

          It metr's hoping

          No more tears for lost stardom

          No more neon signs

          No halter tops

          Shit, I work harder in hell

          When I don't have my phone off

          Shit, I work harder in hell

          When I take all my clothes off.

          I couldn't even pretend to give two fucks right now

          I'm chained to a train

          With another one headed right towards me.

          I don't mind what's the line your on

          Whose line is it anyway, good line at the equinox

          Step over me

          Hoarder

          I'll say,

          Here for all time;

          Wherefor art though

          Simple and stuck

          In my own ways

          All day I sat in haides

          No semtember

          Sick morons

          Long, long October

          Still started

          No water

          Two dogs

          And a blonde

          No show starter.

          But There goes all that

          All the next understudies

          And sure profiles,

          Fair weather friends again

          —creepy ass inanimate muppets.

          Fuck, man.

          Somebody stick their fuckin hand up Elm/ ass before I punch him.

          Don't punch Elmo.

          Who doesn't love Elmo.

          I do not,

          What did you say your name was?

          I didn't.

          What did you say is your expertise?

          Rhythms.

          Mister mister l

          NOOOOOOOO.

          Some black dude rubbed his whole dick against my wrist on the subway train.

          gnarly.

          It was warm.

          And weird—

          Like a fucking

          Sleeping cat

          Under Egyptian cotton

          AGHHHHHHJ.

          AOh no.

          I THOUGHT MY HAND WENT PARALYZED.

          It just siezed up, real crunchy, like—

          *chicken foot arm*

          I automatically had like the whole thing going on.

          The worst part was that it was warm—

          And soft//

          But HUGE.

          I was like

          What ANIMAL is that.

          I will never.

          I could NEVER

          I said.

          what.

          I just got to the point in my life where I realized I wasn't interested in anything.

          !but especially

          I'm looking for

          Sage to burn

          I goy money go burn

          I got time to earn mi got money to chase

          Ain't got money to waste

          You've got to admit x

          It's a good savings system

          —for once, the sauce sounded like symphonies

          And wreaked of green peppers, or rather, was fragrant

          CHECKPOINT!

          I remember this part!

          I remember this place

          This time

          This dance

          This song,

          Then— everyone does

          And everything does, doesn't it?

          Show ants the advocate

          The advocate of another time

          I think I ran here on

          What if everything cheaper online

          But it's just the adventure you wished for

          Have you ever tried to be mad

          With squeaky ass shoes on

          Seriously

          Have you ever tied to like walk away

          Or stop away mad

          With squeaky ass shoes?

          Is that the pub?

          I guess.

          You guess! Is this the right pub or is it not?

          I don't know which pub is the right pub! He just said “Irish pub” you could throw a rock and hit one!

          Sometimes it's best,

          To just not give

          A single fuck at all

          At all at all

          A single fuck at all.

          I don't give a flipping song!

          Woah now

          i don't give a flap or a stick!

          Alright, alright.

          Leave me alone to die

          I'll melt inside the world

          A coin upon a string

          Run, girl, run

          Of course, of course

          It lives again

          It'll come again

          When the Sunnis down.

          I can't wait till the sundown

          I can't wait till the world is kind

          And the girls are gone

          And the birds all hush

          And the dogs don't bark

          And the sun downt come

          Till I'm long long gone and out of it

          I'm over her, no more war and art over sodom

          And stardom as startuduat

          Like I said, you started it

          I always did

          I didn't want

          I only done

          To suffer

          Suffer more

          Will you rot you blossom corpse

          The art is done

          The art is done!

          The water's hot

          No wonder white people fucking hate us.

          I saw a black dude on the train. Today with his dick in his pocket.

          NO, GOD.

          WHY!

          And he was holding it, too.

          I'm like

          “What for?!”

          Jesus Christ's.

          It was in his pocket.

          Outlined and everything,

          With his fucking grip around it

          Like it was a fucking animal.

          No!

          No!

          Man some people are so fuckin wrong

          I hate pda.

          I fuckin hate it.

          The Real versions come across a parallel reality's version of themselves—who by some chance, also happened to cross paths with each other—however—this band of miscreants are HOOLIGANS—unruly lawbreakers who cause chaos, confusion, and trouble to the good people of

          Where the fuck is this.

          —wherever they are.

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        About [For Your Consideration.]

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        Leave your EGOT at the door.