Ellyn McNamara believes that God is the Divine Mother. To come to this understanding, first, her life had to go through twists and turns from wanting to be a nun at the age of 8, to being told she could not be a part of the church because of who she is. She experienced vile, homophobic rhetoric by boys as she held hands with her girlfriend and during puberty had to come to an understanding that she was, in fact, intersex. Ellyn took on her Spiritual Faith Journey through voracious reading of World Religions. She studied Wicca, Buddhism, chanting, meditation, and found herself in the Order of the Divine Reality(a cult) before coming back to her believe that her path with the Divine Mother God was hers to see for herself without the judgement or approval of anyone else.