The Quiet Shame of Wanting Again Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay The Quiet Shame of Wanting Again from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the return of desire after experience, the private awareness of repeating emotional patterns, the tension between clarity and longing, and the subtle shame that can accompany wanting someone again while knowing how vulnerable it makes us. We explore ambiguity, anticipation, asymmetry, and the quiet self-surveillance that unfolds when attachment grows without certainty, staying close to the lived emotional contradictions that shape intimate connection.

When Sex Felt Like a Return Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay When Sex Felt Like a Return from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the emotional pull of familiarity in intimacy, how recognition can feel like homecoming, the confusion between comfort and belonging, and the quiet ways repetition can shape connection. We explore the tension between ease and growth, the loyalty to shared history, and how returning to what feels known can both soothe and unsettle at the same time.

Sex as a Way of Staying in Someone’s Life Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Sex as a Way of Staying in Someone’s Life from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss how sex can become a way of maintaining presence when other forms of connection begin to thin, the emotional reality of choosing continuity over confrontation, and the quiet negotiation between wanting more and accepting what is available. We explore the tension between being desired and being integrated, the fear of disappearing from someone’s life, and the subtle dignity and contradiction involved in staying connected through physical contact alone.

The Hope That Would Not Let Go Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay The Hope That Would Not Let Go from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the experience of hope continuing long after clarity has arrived, how feeling can persist despite repeated disappointment, and the quiet ways hope reshapes itself to survive contradiction. We explore the loneliness of carrying something that no longer aligns with reality yet refuses to loosen its hold, the difference between believing in hope and simply carrying it, and the human complexity of living with longing that does not disappear even when the situation has clearly ended.

Being Desired for the Wrong Reasons Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Being Desired for the Wrong Reasons from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the experience of recognising when desire is directed at a version of you that is convenient, projected, or timed rather than truly known. We explore the tension between understanding that the attention is misaligned and still feeling drawn towards it, the emotional weight of being wanted for fantasy or availability, and the quiet complexity of responding to affirmation that carries both warmth and distortion.

Sex That Confirmed an Absence Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Sex That Confirmed an Absence from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss how intimacy can reveal limits rather than dissolve them, the quiet moment when closeness confirms something essential is not available, and the emotional clarity that arrives without blame or rupture. We explore how sex can act as a mirror rather than a bridge, how absence becomes visible through contact, and how that recognition subtly reshapes expectation, desire, and the future of a connection.

The Moment You Knew It Would Not Continue Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay The Moment You Knew It Would Not Continue from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the quiet instant when recognition arrives before acceptance, the emotional gap between knowing and readiness, and the experience of continuing to care while already sensing an ending. We explore how certainty can exist without consent, how behaviour often lags behind understanding, and what it means to live inside the suspended interval where something is still happening even as you know it will not last.

When Nothing Was Wrong but Nothing Was Right Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay When Nothing Was Wrong but Nothing Was Right from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the quiet discomfort of intimacy that contains no clear harm yet never fully settles into rightness, the emotional ambiguity of staying when nothing is broken and leaving when nothing is clearly wrong, and the subtle erosion that can occur in relationships where dissatisfaction has no obvious cause. We explore the grey space between justification and fulfilment, the loneliness of misalignment without blame, and how uncertainty can become a lived atmosphere rather than a passing phase.

Sex as Emotional Negotiation Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Sex as Emotional Negotiation from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss how sex can become a space where unspoken needs, hopes, limits, and fears are quietly exchanged, how emotional concessions are made in order to sustain connection, and how silence often carries more weight than explicit agreement. We explore the subtle compromises people participate in, the tension between desire and uncertainty, and the emotional residue that lingers when connection is shaped by terms that were never fully named.

Wanting Closeness Without Exposure Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Wanting Closeness Without Exposure from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the quiet desire for intimacy that avoids being fully seen, the tension between warmth and withholding, how closeness can feel real while deeper exposure remains absent, and the emotional contradictions that shape connections which never quite cross into shared vulnerability. We explore autonomy, fear of being known, subtle imbalance between two people wanting different depths, and the loneliness that can exist inside sustained nearness.