I've been reading a ton of books recently. A couple of love stories, a couple of time travel novels, a couple of life advice books. I summarize "how to not die alone" by Logan Ury and go into some of my favorite book Youtubers. 

A song I've been loving recently: "move" by brb.

I've been reading a lot of books recently. As of now, I've finished 6 books this month! That's probably more than I've read all of last year. 

I want to be a better friend and more reliable to the people around me. I want to be a better listener and more comfortable with myself. 

Coming to peace with friends I care more about than they do about me. It's kind of liberating. 

A song I've been loving recently is "move" by brb. 

A book I've recently enjoyed is "love and other words" by Christina Lauren

Some things about money, about people, and about school/work I want to always keep in mind. 

A song I've been listening to on repeat: "Alejandro" by Lady Gaga

Something that I've been excited about: learning and using film cameras

The last semester was difficult and I want to be a better person this year. well more specifically, a better friend and better classmate. I want to get into new hobbies and not lose myself as much as I did last semester.

A song I've really enjoyed recently - "Get Outta My Way" by Kylie Minogue

Oh, and I've been reading a lot of books. I really enjoyed "love and other words" by Christina Lauren

favorite songs of the moment

curious by rich brian

lost in the citadel by lil nas x

Been in a slump. Sometimes I feel like there's nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to talk to. I know that in reality there are tons of things to do, so many places to go, and so many people to talk to. But in my own mind, I just feel so exhausted that nothing feels meaningful. 

A song I'm really loving at the moment: "selfish" by madison beer

A scent I'm really loving at the moment: 'ambery saffron' from dossier

A game I'm enjoying at the moment: typeracer - this is the only game i play

Getting older is sappy. It's tough sometimes because lots of things change. You learn a lot about yourself; how wonderful you are and how terrible you can be. You begin to realize self-worth and self-destruction. You thank and you apologize and that's life. I wish happiness on myself and on everyone. I hope my 20s are as fulfilling and as rewarding as the rest of my life has been. 

songs I'm relating to rn: (1) "getting older" by billie eilish [super relating to this] (2) "your man" by joji [i don't relate but I'm vibing with the vibez]

I'm excited and a bit nervous about going to Antigua, Guatemala and Miama with my Friends Seena and Simon but I'm sure we'll have a good time eating yummy foods and wandering around. I for some reason go on to my elementary and middle school experience?? idk oh oh and I get really sad on my birthdays. I had a rough time last summer, but this summer will be filled with joy and excitement. I turn 20 on the 22nd??? crazy how time works...age is just a construct I guess

Thank you to my dear friends Olivia P., Seena S., Eugene J., Andrew K., Simon Y., Alsu S., Ayden S., Netanel F., Gregory P., Gavri K., Kam W., Crystal W., Kate W., Venus Y., Ethan S., Andy M., Andrey A., George H., Alexa J., Levi S., Adisa R., Chrisanna C., Laz X and many more who have helped me survive this year. 

I hope this will help me recall the old times later in life. I've learned quite a lot. I've suffered a bit but I got through it. It was tough and lonely and busy and boring at times but my friends always encouraged me to keep on going. 

Also, random, but for reference, some of my favorite artists this year were Olivia Rodrigo, Vance Joy, Lil Nas X, Taylor Swift, Shawn Mendes, FINNEAS, Billie, The Weeknd, AJR, BabyJake, Miley Cyrus, and Black Eyed Peas.

Since I've last been here: weight gain, being tooooo close to friends - finding my boundaries, and being myself, and impulse buying shoes and food. I can spend so much money on shoes, pants, shirts, and nail polish its kind of stupid