What happens when you lose seven of the eight liters of blood in your body during childbirth? You might not survive. But Shauna did. For Shauna Parker, the miracle of survival led not to gratitude, but to seven years of crippling depression. Instead of asking, "Why did God save me?", she was asking "Why would God save someone like me?" Her past was filled with drugs, alcohol, abuse, and shame. She felt utterly unworthy of the miracle.
In this powerful episode, Shauna shares her harrowing near-death experience during an emergency C-section, the darkness she encountered (instead of the typical "white light"), and the long journey through depression that followed. From sharing a twin mattress on her parents' floor with her seven-year-old son to finally discovering her God-given purpose, Shauna's story reveals the critical difference between feeling disqualified versus unqualified and how understanding that distinction changes everything.
The premonition: why Shauna knew something was wrong before laborThe nurse's mistake that could have killed her babyEmergency C-section after 29 hours of labor"What is the chance of death?"—the question that haunted her doctorLosing seven of eight liters of blood (doctors say it's scientifically impossible to survive)The darkness instead of light: Shauna's unusual near-death experienceTwo days on life support in ICU"You shouldn't be alive"—the ICU doctor's blunt assessmentWhy survival led to seven years of depression instead of gratitudeThe difference between feeling disqualified (past sin) vs. unqualified (past failures)Understanding God's grace versus having an identity disorderThe twin mattress moment: taking responsibility and asking for forgivenessForgiving childhood sexual abuse and witnessing near-murderReading the Bible front to back: seeing God's forgiveness in a new wayJoshua 1:7 - "Be strong and very courageous" (why "very" changed everything)Your heartfelt concern IS your purposeThe five core components to discovering God's callingKey Themes: Near-death experience testimony, postpartum hemorrhage survival, medical miracle testimony, survivor's guilt, seven-year depression journey, feeling unworthy of God's love, past drug and alcohol abuse, childhood sexual abuse recovery, forgiveness and healing, single mom struggles, losing everything, identity in Christ, disqualified vs unqualified, discovering God's calling, spiritual gifts and purpose, heartfelt concern as calling, reading Bible cover to cover, God's forgiveness and second chances
Whether you're struggling with depression, feeling unworthy of God's love because of your past, questioning why you survived something you "shouldn't have," or simply searching for your God-given purpose, Shauna's story offers hope: God doesn't save you because you're worthy—He saves you because He has plans for you. Your past doesn't disqualify you; it prepares you.
"God's Calling for Faith Driven Entrepreneurs" podcast"Find God's Calling" workshop (5 core components)Matthew West's song "Do Something"Content Note: This episode discusses near-death experience, severe medical trauma, postpartum complications, depression, childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, drug and alcohol abuse, divorce, and financial hardship with honesty and hope
May you pivot from darkness to light in your own life today, my friend.
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