Gray Area Stories

This week, Johanna and Erica reflect on their motivation to do this work and their strategically joy-filled process of collectively visioning a future beyond r*pe culture. Join them as they explore how we can mine the expertise of our own stories for healing wisdom and as they investigate the cat call in the time of Covid.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

Tune in for this bonus episode which first aired on KPFA as part of the KPFA International Women's Day programming. Join us as Johanna shares her saga of waiting for a new vibrator to be delivered and Erica shares her joy in getting in touch with her body. This episode contains our interview with Kyra Jones from Episode 6.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe. In this episode, Kyra's story includes instances of r*pe as well as mentions of harm done to additional survivors.

In this episode, we speak to survivor Kyra Jones who compares her contrasting experiences following reporting two sexual assaults - one through the carceral system and one through a restorative justice (RJ) process. Kyra takes us through the steps of both processes including the very public RJ process she underwent with her rapist Malcolm London, facilitated by prolific activist and organizer Mariame Kaba.

Survivor Kyra Jones is a Black queer multidisciplinary filmmaker, sex educator, and survivor advocate. Find her on IG @kyra.a.jones and Twitter @blkassfeminist

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Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Additional editing by Maya Bingham

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

Johanna and Erica are back in 2021 and thrilled to welcome survivor Desdemona Dallas. Sip on some tea while listening to Dallas' journey of recognizing their trauma and reclaiming their survivor story.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

Dallas details how returning to the place where harm was done was the turning point in identifying the trauma they experienced. This turning point was the start of Dallas' healing journey and their long effort to advocate for themselves and advocate for their case within the NYPD. According to Dallas, through sharing their story with others "I found community around a shared sense of harm and the equally powerful shared desire for healing."

Survivor Desdemona Dallas is a photographer, filmmaker and advocate. Desdemona is the creator of Survivor's Toolbox which uses various media to bring education and resources to survivors. Desdemona hopes that in the long term through helping victims, Survivor's Toolbox can help survivors and advocates lean into a society where empowerment informs futures, instead of trauma.

Follow @survivorstoolbox on Instagram and visit https://survivorstoolbox.org/ for more information.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Additional editing support by Maya Bingham

Production Assistance by Ashley Nicole Adams

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

This week, Johanna and Erica reflect on what they've learned about themselves and this podcast in 2020, while looking ahead to continued co-creation of this healing space with you (our listeners!) in 2021. Please visit the website to find our end-of-year survey and share how you've felt while listening to Gray Area Stories. We value your ideas and your stories! Happy New Year, listeners, and see you in 2021!

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

Join Erica and Johanna for this week's listener story, coming in from Carissa of Los Angeles, CA. Carissa says, "Sharing this story is difficult and so is liberation." E & J also discuss their experiences in their bodies during this tumultuous 2020 including Erica's experience with pregnancy loss.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe. This episode includes additional discussion around pregnancy loss and eating disorder recovery.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

This week E+J sit down with Nicole Snell to talk about her experience with street harassment and her journey becoming a self-defense instructor and skilled solo adventurer.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

Nik describes starting on her journey of self-defense after play-wrestling with a partner and realizing when pinned to the floor, she wouldn't know how to keep herself safe if it were real. That realization led her to immersion in self-defense. Nik also shares her love of the outdoors and how empowering it is to feel confident hiking and adventuring without having to rely on anyone else.

Survivor Nicole is the CEO of Girls Fight Back and is an International Speaker and self-defense instructor. Follow her at @adventuresofnik and @girlsfightback.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Production Assistance by Ashley Nicole Adams

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

Join Erica and Johanna in discussion this week with survivor Aaron Ricciardi who shares his survivor story in the form of a crown of sonnets detailing the many years of abuse he survived at the hands of his drama teacher. Aaron speaks on the power of being ruthlessly honest, naming his abuser, and saying 'Enough!' As a male survivor, Aaron sheds light on how boys and men are at risk for abuse and assault.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe. In this episode, Aaron's story includes pedophilia, childhood and adolescent sexual abuse, and an inappropriate teacher-student relationship. The story is told between the 20 and 31 minute mark but is referred to throughout the episode.

In a powerful example of a healing journey, Aaron is now an instructor himself. He shares with us not only his love of teaching but also his passion for rewatching award show acceptance speeches and making homemade ice cream.

Aaron is a writer and performer. He makes plays, musicals, and is flirting with TV. Aaron graduated from the Theatre program at Northwestern University, where he studied playwriting under Laura Schellhardt, and he received his MFA in Playwriting from Indiana University, where he studied under Peter Gil-Sheridan. Aaron is currently on faculty at SUNY New Paltz in their Creative Writing Program.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Additional editing support by Maya Bingham

Production Assistance by Ashley Nicole Adams

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

This week Johanna and Erica check-in around the topic of r*pe culture and its effect on their understanding of romantic relationships. E+J find they have very opposite early understandings of romance and dating but unite in the fact that r*pe culture has affected these views, with neither approach being immune from or victorious against the patriarchy.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

This week's listener story comes from Abi from Tucson, AZ who shared her very poignant observations on intergenerational trauma and boundary setting.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe. In this episode, Abi's story includes instances of partner assault. The story is told between the 6 minute and 8 minute mark but is referred back to throughout the episode.

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra

Johanna and Erica are joined by Malika Williams who shares her story of a harrowing ride with a tow-truck driver and takes listeners through the BREATHE method, a helpful framework for processing trauma.

[Content Warning]: This is a podcast where survivors share stories of sexual assault, sexual violence, and r*pe.

According to Malika, she created the BREATHE method to be a "series of steps for processing microaggressions, 'Me Too' moments, and misunderstandings--when something happens to you that's out of your control and you need to figure out how to deal with it. Instead of suppressing whatever emotions come up or minimizing or feeling like you need to be everyone's teacher, you can really take care of yourself first." Download the BREATHE method PDF at cwvbreathe.com

Malika Williams is the Founder of The Center for Women's Voice. She is a coach, writer, and actor. You can find her @centerforwomensvoice on IG and FB and centerforwomensvoice.com

Follow us @grayareastories and visit www.grayareastories.com

Hosted by Johanna Middleton and Erica M. Hart

Edited by Maya Bingham

Additional editing support by Erica M. Hart

Theme Song by Nailah Hunter

Show logo by Brianna Guerra