Trigger Warning: physical abuse, emotional abuse

Episode Nine of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with ASL interpreter Genna Middlebrook. Genna recounts her experience with intimate partner violence, how she escaped and her journey of recovery.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/gennamiddlebrookmom

More information on ASL https://www.nidcd.nih.gov/health/american-sign-language#:~:text=American%20Sign%20Language%20(ASL)%20is,of%20the%20hands%20and%20face

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1uIwS16McOPJDdbHJzmErdoDcEA1gfFTR/

Trigger Warning: Suicidal Ideation, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, disordered eating, body dysmorphia.

In Episode Eight of season four, Actor, Dancer & Choreographer Cat Heinen tells their story of intimate partner violence as a teenager and how they got help and healing. Cat also talks about being non-binary and the role body image and food played in their abusive relationship.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/cat.heinen

Website - https://www.cat-heinen.com/

Mentioned in this episode:

Dana Wilson - https://www.instagram.com/danadaners

The Satin Dollz - https://www.instagram.com/satindollz

Co-dependents Anonymous (CODA) - https://coda.org/

What to do if you’re dealing with someone who is suicidal https://988lifeline.org/help-someone-else/

Do’s and Don’t for dealing with someone who is suicidal

https://www.psychalive.org/the-dos-and-donts-of-suicide-prevention/

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1jtphqHnL9QM9EZQbVdxwsniIOD1NLuRK/

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape, trafficking, stillborn, grooming

In Episode Seven of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, author, dancer & nonprofit founder Isabella Grosso talks about trafficking and her recovery through advocacy, art and being a new mother.

IG (personal) - https://www.instagram.com/bellaspinkmachete

Book - https://www.instagram.com/natashasnotmyname_

Nonprofit - https://www.instagram.com/sheis_powerful

"She Is" Documentary - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5892642/

Website (personal) - https://www.isabellagrosso.com/about-me

Website - https://www.sheispowerful.org/

"Natasha’s Not My Name" by Isabella Grosso - https://www.amazon.com/Natashas-Not-My-Name-Memoir/dp/194859837X

EMDR therapy - https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1oFgqz8pm7KsWHNYesMEDmJAZArd40MDo/

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault

Episode Six of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with triple threat Jenni Nicole Bloom. Jenni speaks on the abuse she encountered, the complicated nature of it and family dynamics.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/jenninicolebloom

IMDB - https://www.imdb.com/name/nm6072942/

Mentioned in this episode:

The Bobby Darin Show - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0069565/

“The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron https://www.amazon.com/Artists-Way-25th-Anniversary/dp/0143129252

Pepperdine counseling - https://gsep.pepperdine.edu/about/clinics/

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1RNDYwU4OOzMjZ_0ijMAcM2dvkb4wCh_k/

Trigger Warning: Intimate partner violence, rape

In Episode Five of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, Jillian Schmitz recounts other instances of abuse and some unethical experiences, some of which include the entertainment industry.

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1AZonVJ3LcalNSkbfn79PBXwP1YExREnA/

Trigger Warning: psychological abuse, emotional abuse, non-consent

Episode Four of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Burlesque Queen & Artist Michelle L'amour. Michelle shares her experience with psychological and emotional abuse, her unique circumstance and her return to self.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/michellelamour

Website - https://michellelamour.com/

Intimacy Coordination - https://michellelamour.com/intimacy/

Mentioned in this episode:

Pamela Adlon - https://www.instagram.com/pamelaadlon

Scott Hislop - https://www.instagram.com/scotty_hislop

"Better Things" - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt4370596/

"Agatha All Along" - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt15571732/

Physician and author Gabor Mate - https://drgabormate.com/

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1zvLOHwJSMkVEe5UtY6MPrMazGEPN-WFF/

Trigger Warning: emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual assault

Episode Three of the fourth season of Grey Maybe features Jaayda Ellingham, MA, LMFT. Jaayda discusses the criteria for adverse childhood experiences and how they correlate to domestic violence outcomes. She discusses emotional regulation and how to attain it through mindfulness.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/jaaydatherapy

Website - https://www.jaaydatherapy.com/

Mentioned in this episode: 

Co-dependents Anonymous (CODA) - https://coda.org/

Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) - https://www.acesaware.org/

Scott Hislop - https://www.instagram.com/scotty_hislop

Tara Wilson - https://www.instagram.com/tleewils

Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/treatments/22838-dialectical-behavior-therapy-dbt

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline

https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1W9YOU5XXq858KgQeJUmlY6hQOk9w81rs/

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape

Episode Two of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Producer, writer & choreographer Scott Hislop. Scott talks about the repressed memories of abuse he experienced in childhood, how he finally gained access through meditation and the role of therapy in his recovery journey.

IG - https://www.instagram.com/scotty_hislop

Website - https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0386816/

Mentioned in this episode: 

Julie Schmid - https://www.instagram.com/julieschmid

Michael Chambers - https://www.instagram.com/michaelchambers2024

"The Body Keeps The Score" by Bessel Van Der Kolk

https://www.amazon.com/Body-Keeps-Score-Healing-Trauma/dp/0143127748

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline

https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Nc-MgnX674HcXV7997cqv56Z3W95S5Az/

Trigger Warning: abuse, physical abuse, rape, intimate partner violence.

Season Four of Grey Maybe, a podcast and social experiment, focuses on the topic of Abuse. In this episode, Jillian Schmitz reads her own story outlining her experience with an abusive relationship in the hope of lessening the stigma and shame associated with abuse. If you would like to share your story of recovery, anonymously or otherwise, please email [email protected].

How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts

https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf

National Domestic Abuse Hotline https://www.thehotline.org/

1-800-779-7233

Text BEGIN to 88788

Hotline Chat

https://chat.thehotline.us/v2/index.html?dkey=783ea42e-3aa0-42f4-9899-ad886e4995b4&skill=g1b

How to get out of an abusive relationship

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/domestic-abuse/getting-out-of-an-abusive-relationship

Preparing how to leave an abuser

https://survivingeconomicabuse.org/i-need-help/de-linking-from-the-abuser/preparing-to-leave-an-abuser/

Find Affordable Therapy (Open Path Collective)

https://openpathcollective.org/

Psychology Today Database

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

National Sexual Assault Helpline https://rainn.org/resources

Episode Transcribed Here: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1W3uCiKIiy4kQx8NGE7sE5_Kw19SSL4j8/

In episode twelve of the third season of Grey Maybe, Jillian wraps up the season with a few final thoughts about grief.

Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever

“Disenfranchised grief”: https://www.choosingtherapy.com/disenfranchised-grief/

Find Sliding Scale therapy in California:

https://health.sfsu.edu/sites/default/files/documents/SoCal%20Scale%202.pdf

Psychology Today Database:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists

If you are feeling suicidal or in crisis text or call 988.

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH):

https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA):

https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

Grey Maybe IG: @greymaybepodcast

Jillian Schmitz IG: @jillianschmitz

Jillian Schmitz TikTok: @jillianschmitzofficial

Episode Transcribed by Headliner.app Here: https://drive.google.com/file/d/15nTRwRdW9LFb2yed1nTpCF9pd-p5mpfS/view?usp=sharing