This is a bonus episode — one I felt called to share because I know how torturous it can feel to be caught in that anxious loop of “Should I stay or should I go?”

And there is a good chance if you are on this journey with me. You may be in a relationship that doesn’t feel good. When you're unsure what's yours and what belongs to someone else… the confusion can feel unbearable. The mind obsesses, the body tightens, and the urgency to get clear becomes overwhelming.

But beneath that question, there’s something deeper. A river beneath the river. This episode invites you into that deeper current — the one that asks: Do I trust myself? Am I safe to listen to what’s true for me? Can I hold the not-knowing with compassion, not panic?

Together, we’ll explore:

• Why clarity can’t be forced, but must be felt

• How codependency makes it hard to hear your own truth

• A few simple questions to help you tune into whether you’re in a codependent pattern

• Practical ways to soothe the nervous system so clarity can emerge

• And a reframe that may help you feel less alone, less crazy, and more at peace in the in-between

If you’re struggling in the not-knowing, this episode is for you. You don’t need to rush. You don’t need to force answers. You just need to stay with yourself.

Join me live on Zoom on the last Thursday of the month. Learn more at www.healwithalchemy.com

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I’m Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide.

So many of us live trapped inside stories we inherited long ago — stories about who we’re supposed to be, what makes us worthy, and how love must be earned.

In this episode of Healing Our Relationships, I explore how these old stories block us from our authentic, divine unfolding — and how remembering who we truly are is the path back to freedom and wholeness.

We’ll talk about:

• The invisible agreements we made in childhood

• How codependency keeps us living in old narratives

• The difference between your story and your soul

• Gentle ways to begin rewriting your story and reconnecting to your authentic self

Because your story does not have to be your prison. It can be the doorway back home.

If you’re ready to explore the space beyond your old story, I’d love for you to join me.

✨ New episodes drop every week.

And if you’d like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my Healing Our Relationships live circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You’ll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself.

Let’s keep walking this path together.

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I’m Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide,

In this episode, I want to go deeper than just naming patterns of codependency.

Because self-abandonment comes at a cost — and until we see that cost clearly, we stay trapped in cycles of survival instead of living the life we’re here to live.

Today, I’m exploring the hidden toll that self-abandonment takes on us — emotionally, physically, spiritually, and in our relationships.

In this episode, I’m sharing:

✨ How each emotional struggle — resentment, anxiety, numbness — reveals something sacred we’re sacrificing ✨ How our bodies become messengers when we’re not living in alignment ✨ The quiet spiritual costs of feeling disconnected from purpose, Spirit, and our own soul ✨ The relational pain of feeling unseen  ✨ A sacred inventory practice to help you gently explore where you might be leaving yourself behind and what it would mean to come home to your authenticity. 

This episode isn’t about shame or blame.

It’s about remembering that your life is sacred — and you are worth fighting for.

If you’re ready to begin choosing yourself, even in small ways, I’d love for you to join me.

✨ New episodes drop every week.

And if you’d like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my live Healing Our Relationships circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You’ll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself.

Let’s keep walking this path together.

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I’m Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide.  One of the biggest questions I hear from people on the journey of codependency recovery is this:

“How do I know if I’m being loving… or if I’m being codependent?”

Because when you’re healing from codependency, it can feel confusing to tell the difference between true caring and patterns of people-pleasing, self-abandonment, or over-giving. In this episode, I’m diving deep into how to recognize when your caring is coming from fear, obligation, or anxiety — versus when it’s rooted in genuine love, choice, and self-connection.

I’ll talk about:The key differences between codependent behaviors and healthy, interdependent relationships

• Real-life examples of what codependent caring looks like — and how true caring feels different
• A story from my own journey of learning to stay connected to myself while loving others
• Reflection questions to help you explore how these patterns show up in your life

If you’ve ever wondered whether helping someone else is codependent or simply part of healthy love… this episode is for you.

I want you to know: Caring for others isn’t wrong. The question is whether it includes you, too. Thanks for being here with me. Let’s keep walking this journey — together.

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I’m Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide.  In our first episode, we talked about noticing the ways we abandon ourselves to feel loved, safe, or chosen.

But awareness alone can leave us wondering… Why do I keep doing this, even when I know better?

In this episode, I want to help you understand why codependency runs so deep. We’ll explore how these patterns don’t just live in our minds — they live in our bodies and our nervous systems. I’ll share how many of us learned, even as children, that our safety and worth depended on keeping others happy, reading the room, and shape-shifting to avoid conflict or rejection.

I’ll talk about:

• How codependency is actually a survival response, not a personality flaw
• Real-life examples of how these patterns begin in childhood
• Clues that your nervous system might still be stuck in old survival modes
• Moments from my own journey of learning to come back to myself

I’ll also leave you with reflection questions to help you gently explore where these patterns might still be living in your life and in your body. This work is not about blaming ourselves for the past — it’s about understanding how brilliant and adaptive we were, and how we can now choose something new. Thanks for being here with me. Let’s keep walking this journey — together.

Welcome to the first episode of Healing Our Relationships. I’m Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide. 

If you’ve ever felt like you’re losing yourself in relationships… like you’re constantly saying yes when you mean no, staying silent to avoid conflict, or feeling invisible even with the people you love most… you’re not alone.

Today, I want to help you begin to understand what codependency really is. Not just the clinical definitions — but the deeper truth: that codependency isn’t who you are. It’s something you learned to do to stay safe.

In this episode, I’m sharing:

• How codependency often begins in childhood and becomes a survival strategy
• The subtle ways we abandon ourselves to avoid rejection or loss
• How these patterns live in our nervous systems and shape our relationships
• A piece of my own journey with codependency
• Reflection questions to help you notice where you might be leaving yourself behind

My hope is that by the end of this conversation, you’ll feel a little less alone… and a little more hopeful that there is a path forward.

This work isn’t about fixing yourself. It’s about remembering who you are beneath the patterns that once kept you safe.

Thanks for being here. Let’s begin this journey together.

Welcome to Healing Our Relationships.

I’m Marisa. I’m a Healer and Transformation Guide, and someone who’s spent years untangling my own patterns of addictions and codependency — and helping others do the same.

Join me each week on Healing Our Relationships as I guide you through understanding codependency, reconnecting with your authentic self, and creating relationships rooted in truth.

Codependency often sounds clinical, as though it’s only a problem for people in chaotic relationships or recovering from addiction. But it’s subtler and far more pervasive than that.

Codependency is what happens every time we abandon ourselves to avoid conflict, rejection, or loss.

It’s in the way we swallow words that tremble to be spoken. It’s in the quick, polite yes when everything in our body screams no. It’s in the silence we keep because we’re afraid of being misunderstood. It’s in the way we dim our own light so someone else won’t feel small.

These are not failures. They’re survival strategies. Brilliant adaptations we created to stay safe.

But survival is not the same as living. And at some point, the strategies that kept us safe become the very cages that keep us disconnected from our truth.

Healing Our Relationships is a space to explore all of this with compassion, curiosity, and courage.

Together, we’ll talk about how these patterns show up in real life. We’ll learn how to come back to ourselves, even in the middle of messy relationships. And we’ll discover practices for building connection that doesn’t cost us our own wholeness.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re losing yourself in the name of love… you’re not alone. And you don’t have to keep living that way.

Join me as we begin the journey — back home to ourselves.