Hey Big Pancho!

Taking a course about “How to be Confident”, ended up being one of the most valuable experiences of my life.

This course not only provided tools for what it promised, but it was a journey into our life and just by being ourselves, being human, we could connect more easily with others, in any situation. ⁣

When everything is going well and I am proud of what I am doing, I feel that I finally deserve affection from others and from myself.

However, I always come across a situation that stops me from keeping momentum, or I feel that things are not going as well as I expected.

Feeling that moment of failure, in my personal life, implies stopping what I was doing for myself (as opposed to what happens to me in my work life).

But then again, I’d rather stop completely instead of keep on going, because if I keep on going, it would mean accepting a defeat and a defeat, it is not appreciated by others.

Perhaps that is the key ... not doing things for the opinion of others and doing things because you feel that they are the right thing to do, since in that way, my goal of feeling successful will only be mine and for me.

Is that, perhaps, how you should look at life at all times?

As a result of the departure of two of my ex-partner’s friends. I have realized how important it is to rethink the relationship I have with the affections that I share with others - friends, family, coworkers, etc.

I have never felt truly deserving of affection, unless I am giving away some achievement in exchange for that affection. Affection is not related to simply being who I am and accepting that it is for that reason, why mainly, I should give and receive affection.

An invitation to participate in a project, just because I started with this podcast, makes me think that my voice is worthy of affection and my voice is me.

That same affection, I would like to give it to others, as part of this podcast. Attentive, which I will soon explain in a few episodes, how to use this tool to channel your thoughts and rediscover who you truly are in the inside.

Yesterday I felt like I was trying to justify some sort of "failure" in my control of anxiety, and I feel now, that it was a mistake. There's no such thing as failure when you look at the big picture. 

We all have good and bad days, bad days are triggered by something that happened recently, and beyond trying to feel all "normal" again, we should focus in accepting the feelings of anxiety, and analyzing what triggered them, that way more important than trying to escape from the feeling at all cost, so you don't feel like you're not in control anymore.

Remember that after a storm, always comes a rainbow!

I'm going to be brutally honest. My anxiety came back this weekend, and since I had been doing so good over the past few weeks, I lied to myself, because I didn't want to feel like a failure, and I ended up, completely lost, not knowing what to do, who to reach to to tell them how I was feeling, because I didn't want to believe myself.

I feel embarrassed, because when the first symptoms arose on saturday, I could've done something, but I didn't. I was so embarrassed today, that I nearly didn't tell Big Pancho, but I finally forced myself to, and I'm thankful I did.

What am I going to do about it, before it happens again? That's part of the conversation I had with Big Pancho, so please feel free to listen, and see if it can help you too.

Love you!

Being proud is feeling worthy of affection no matter who you are, who you love or what you've done. Being that said...do I really feel worthy of affection?

A hint: the answer is closely related to celebrating Pride. Shouldn't we always feel proud of ourselves? We should, but it's hard sometimes, especially if you are not aware that perhaps your pride was taken away from you, at a very early age.

"Am I Really Proud?" today on "Hey Big Pancho"!

For us, anxiety sufferers, worrying about something in the future at the same time we're doing something in the present is everyday life. But, are we supposed to always feel that way? Wouldn't be life more enjoyable if we could be there with all our thoughts, feelings, sensations and senses?

It took me over two years to understand that being present is the key to well-being. Letting go of stress, or replacing that stress, by doing things that can take over your troubled mind, really connects you to the world, and to others, making life so much more enjoyable.

Today on "Hey Big Pancho", I talk about "The Importance Of Being Present"!

Has it been difficult for you to start a task that is not work or that you are not going to do for anyone other than yourself?

Do you feel anxiety about not being able to do the things you want to do well and end up not even starting them?

Why do we feel lost when we want to do something out of love for ourselves?

It happens to me all the time and I think I have solved the dilemma for my case and I must do something to solve it!

Where does this feeling come from and what will I try to do to fix it?

Today I will travel into my mind for the conversation with Pancho Grande, called “Starting and Finishing.”

I've always been told that I'm the family's "Grinch". But instead of Christmas, I'm known for not enjoying family meetings...and I just discovered why.

Last weekend, I had a family meeting, where I noticed consciously, how my mom attacked me and my sister in a very passive-aggresive way. Funny how now I can only tell this is a type of behaviour that's been going on forever!

But I decided not to be away from my family just because I feel attacked at every family reunion, I have a plan...

10th podcast!!! I'm happy that I can share my thoughts with Big Pancho and with you!

Today's episode is exactly about that...are we really sharing what help us grow...or are we sharing what we are expected to share?

Are we misunderstanding the meaning of social relations because of social media? In a place where a picture or video of someone doing something admirable, gets immediate attention and affection from others, through a simple 'like' button.

But is our life always something admirable? What if we need to share not so good moments? Because, really, those are the moments we are mostly in need of support and affection from others. 

Has social media, eventually, made us avoid social gatherings unless we feel we have something admirable to share? Has social media reshaped social relations?

All of this in today's conversation with Big Pancho!