Holy Rebels Podcast

In this episode I reflect on the month of February and the energetics of polarity and my own personal work of reclamation. There is so much grief held in the tension of opposites and learning to work with that energy, instead of resisting its friction in our lives. As a 6/3 profile (and for any other transitional profiles) how our experience of that role can at times feel dissonant and not….harmonic. How can we hold the contradictory needs of the mind and body without negating an entire spectrum of potential experience? Of course, when we lay down the experiences that cause us more dissonance there is space for more of what we’re here to hold. But it doesn’t stop the mental chatter of “What if?”.

I pull from the Motherpeace tarot and speak on the 8 of wands to guide me towards the lesson of this polarity work, alongside the Etherea deck for where in the body and life this lesson occurred (51- the heart) Which sort of spoke to the context of an internal alignment with desire that brings about an external manifestation and expression of self accordingly. An arrow being loosed from the bow, and the heart of our being shifting its aim alongside our deepest dreams.

Because of this integration, commitments of the heart fell away that highlighted egoic themes, my tribe, and the reciprocity within my environment or lack thereof.

I hope you enjoy this episode!

You can find a link to the Motherpeace tarot HERE

You can find a link to the Etherea Illumination deck (mentioned in the podcast) HERE. Use “notself” at checkout for a 15% discount!

In this episode I interview Nic Strack, a 4/6 generator (for the HD nerds). We chat about the process of deconditioning from parenting norms while also reclaiming our identity. This conversation for me, was such a huge reminder that our best parenting comes from being our full selves and sharing that with our children (and our inner children). At the end, we talk about cultivating safety from within. External safety is never a guarantee.

You’ll hear a personal voice note from Nic identifying how even our relationship to the not-self is vastly different, which for me was a lesson in receptivity and openness and leadership. The whole thing was just AMAZING.

I’m so excited to share this one with you!

Enjoy!

You can find Nic on Instagram HERE

You can find a link to the Etherea Illumination deck (mentioned in the podcast) HERE. Use “notself” at checkout for a 15% discount!

In this impromptu episode, I muse on the significance of pulling the card “Unbroken Bones” (hexagram 45) and my body’s call for sovereignty in community. Complexity is hard to learn to carry. It’s a skill of internal nervous system regulation, and it’s a spiral. Ever evolving.

How can I continue to show up in community while prioritizing my need for sovereignty?

These musings really reminded me to get back into my body. To honor my physical body’s needs first before being able to engage creatively with others in the ways that I am feeling called to do.

You can find a link to the Etherea Illumination deck (mentioned above) HERE

I’m so excited to share this interview with my friend Megan aka @theinnocentprojector on Instagram.

In this episode, we talk about her journey with the not-self, limiting beliefs and the spiralic nature of personal growth. She shares how the Not-Self has been a guide and teacher and how it has led to some fun times along the way of her own spiritual journey.

You can find her on Instagram HERE

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In this episode, I call out my Not-Self and talk about the waves of old patterns coming back to haunt me. And more than that, how they come to help me learn. The old patterns show up to guide me gently…or maybe not so gently back onto my course and back to my inner sense of Authority.

I share my process for reflecting and identifying these patterns and seasons when they show up. They are here to help me up level into a more integrated version of self.

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I am offering my Reflect & Reclaim sessions at a discount rate for podcast listeners. Use code NSPPOD for $11 off ($33 regularly priced). You can book your session HERE

Welcome to the Not Self Productions podcast. In this episode, I talk a bit about the inspiration for this production and some possibilities along this journey. This endeavor is my next step towards a more intentionally expressed version of myself in the world. I have spent the past few years really locked down by limited beliefs and lack mentality of why things weren’t just happening for me.

I have big dreams and a desire to surrender to the mystery of my life. I also understand that I do have a choice in what my consciousness helps co-create in my life. This year I’m ready to be seen, to create art, to love loudly. And I know that my process in creation just needs to begin in all it’s messy glory.

So please enjoy this expression of my heart to yours. May you hold your Not Self with as much love and tenderness as you do yourself. Cause it’s all you, it always has been.

In our tour de Spleen this month with the Sun’s activations, the Earth is grounding us this week in our heart, Gate 21 to be exact— this is our relation to the material world, to the tribe, to our very real human needs.

We are exploring the deeper parts of ourselves that are the bedrock in which we step forward into this life with our body, in our physicality, in our bones. This isn’t surface work, we are touching the depths. We are reclaiming what we need in order to survive and THRIVE. We are choosing love through loving oneself fiercely enough to purge what no longer sustains us. Eradicating patterns, behaviors, relations that leave us empty.

In doing so, we must also know what we need to receive that replenishes our well of the life-giving waters within. How can we prep the landscape of our flesh to allow the roots to drink deeply? Who in our community carries the water from well to hearth alongside us?

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In this week's episode, I welcome in our first full spleen activation with Libra season in Gate 18. Which is a continuation of the “balance” that Libra so lovingly seeks. This collective energy is highlighting where old patterns are breaking down and new paths in service to more love, more joy diverge. Will you choose love? Will you choose service?

The Earth in Gate 17 is counter-balancing this effect by inviting us to “follow”. To humble ourselves and open the ear to many opinions to form possible solutions. This is not about becoming sure of anything as it is in remaining open to all possibilities conceived by yourself or those around you.

I pulled the Wayfarer this week (aka The Lover’s) as the anchor card for the Sun in 18 which highlights our journey of choice in service to loving ourselves and those around us. In the ability to become aware of when old patterns are no longer in service to us, when it’s time to open to new possibility.

Mmmmmm Libra so far is not disappointing and what a prudent reminder to rise to love.

Happy 18/17’ing! Until next time!

We’re moving into Libra season and I’m sad to leave Virgo behind. But do not fear, I’ll be the intolerable Virgo friend of yours!

This week the Sun is in 46 and the Earth is in 25 and we’re being moved through harvest season. It is a time to harvest the fruits of our labors since Aries and nurture ourselves with what is needed to move into the last half of our astrological year.

In being with our own natural rhythms, we find ourselves exactly where we need to be. It is a visceral movement with our waxing and wanings, a deep trust of our flesh to carry us in every moment. In remembering to pure intentions and divine role in the greater collective, we receive what is needed to move forward. Onward and upward, bravely and unafraid. The dark is coming, but we are the light.

Trying this again…

This week is major “Hanged Man” card energy for me. Which is funny because it’s also my birthday week and I am also a paradox of human being. I am both confusing and inspiring, suspicious and clarifying at the same time. I witness this paradox in the very breath that I take.

This episode is probably just about as swirly in nature as the 64/63 transit is this week, but it was sooooo much fun!

I contemplated the 6th line and birth found within death and talked about an upcoming project called “The Remembering” which feels extremely related.

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