I am OPTimist

In 1976, I came to the United States of America to spend the summer. The funny part is that my mom, after my father died, decided to hire a Catholic nun from the United States. When I said “hire,” she actually sought an agency to see if there was a nun that could come and live in our house so we could practice English while my mother was working and would help us with our homework.

Alas, that didn’t last very long because we drove the nun, Sister Mary Hubert, crazy. She was probably around 55 years old, a good woman, a good nun, but maybe her ways were too stiff for these four little devils that, after my father died, unconsciously unleashed the worst possible behavior that any children could have, ages 4 to 10.

What happened in the following months upon her arrival was like a tug of war between kids who did not want to be disciplined and a mother who was constantly absent because she was in the office taking care of her affairs, so she could not be the authority she would like to be. She gave the reins to the nun, and the nun lost her grip within six weeks. We got her drunk, saw her naked while she took a shower when we hid in the bathroom closet. One after another incident led her asking for asylum in a nearby convent/Catholic school that was next door to our house. That worked perfectly, because then the nun was sleeping there. I think my mother was paying the school for her stay and her food, and she would come in the afternoon, so that made the arrangements a little bit better.

By the end of the first year contract, she stayed in Colombia, but she went to work in another school. From time to time, I would see her at the school bus on my way to school, and sometimes we would meet in that corner. I was a little devil, so I don’t know, but anyway.

Some of the things that happened with her coming to our house were that the first year that she was in Colombia, my brother was sent the first summer to her hometown, St. Louis, Missouri. He stayed there for two months in the house of some kids. My mother paid for that, and my brother was amazing. He just had the best of times making friends. My mom had given him some money for the trip, and he came back with almost all of it still in his pocket. He hadn’t spent a thing.

It was my turn to be there in 1976. I had heard about a bicentennial commemoration of 200 years from the 1776 Declaration of Independence. I didn’t actually know what contract my mom had negotiated before she put me inside of that plane, or whether what followed was part of her arrangement or a direct reaction to my outrageous behavior. The nun actually came along with me on the flight, and we started by staying a few days with her sister, an older woman. But then her niece and grandchildren started coming over, and things got chaotic. I made friends with Theresa, and we ended up having wild fights with pillows and baby powder until, I think, new arrangements had to be made. They sent me to Theresa’s house, and from her house, I was handed off to the house of Mr. Baine, a father of the household who was running for the state Senate. I think he was from the Democratic Party, so it was interesting for me, my first long summer in the United States. I was there with this family campaigning for the elections, getting $2 bills, having barbecues, and waving United States flags. In a way, it was a very beautiful way to understand what it means to be in this country for the Fourth of July, which is today.

Long story short, I stayed the whole summer. I had a blast. We ended up going to a house they had in the Ozarks. I learned how to water ski. But what stayed with me is this relationship that a lot of born Americans, unlike an immigrant like me, have with a flag, with the First Amendment, the 1791 Bill of Rights, and the Declaration of Independence. The First Amendment and freedom of speech, the Second Amendment and the right to bear arms, the Fourth Amendment and the right to be secure in your person, house, and effects, the Fifth Amendment and its protection of property from being taken without just compensation, the Ninth and Tenth Amendments and the rights and powers they reserve to the people and the states, these were seeds planted on that 1976 trip. Living those principles and codifying them are two entirely different paths. I then came about studying the Constitution and the Bill of Rights, and it fully connected me back to that first memory.

That leads back to Aristotle and my love for the definition of politics, the definition of collective behavior, and his understanding of eudaimonia, the flourishing that the Declaration of Independence itself carries forward in the phrase life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. That thread runs forward to John Locke, who gave me the definition that you own your body first and the land you homestead second, property as an extension of the self. This led, years later, to Ludwig von Mises and Human Action, and thereafter to Rothbard, who made me aware of what the state can do the moment you comply and hand over what is yours. Hoppe, and then Ammous, my teacher, moved to teach me the importance of understanding that property rights are at the core of the principles of civilization, not a policy position but the axiom underneath it. In the case of violence, defending yourself in the homeland is something that one has to do, because if one does not have that agency, one is dead in every sense that matters. So here is to the grand experiment that sparked it all, the land of the free. Happy 250th anniversary.

Coda

When Mars and Uranus meet at the beginning degrees of Gemini, the field is receiving a signal that ruptures. We can see this across the historical echoes of 1776, 1861, to 1943, years that smell like cannons, firearms, and conflict. Similar patterns: a declaration, a split, a mobilization, a new nervous system. Gemini carries the word, the code, the route, the message, the document, the transmission. Mars is electrifying this action while Uranus breaks the circuit open. It changes the direction into one that nobody knows, unpredictable. They could end up as innovation, propaganda, computation, or purely myth. The target was perception itself.

The 20th and 21st centuries have rearranged the human mind around systems of persuasion and rapid obedience, using the same forces that created codebreaking, pharmaceuticals, cybernetics, and artificial intelligence. They are also training the psyche to receive reality through mediated signals. Today, standing at the same degrees of the sky that stood over 1776, 1861, and 1943, with Mars and Uranus returning to the early degrees of Gemini, Pluto is moving through Aquarius, and Jupiter just entered Leo while opposing it, completing a triangle with this conjunction, we’re asked to pause and read the wiring architecture behind all this noise. While all this moves through the mind, we’re also asked to show up in a solar way, in full expression, even as we hold the discernment to see what is underneath.

Who’s controlling the signal? Who’s writing the narrative? Look for the strings of the puppeteer, because you will realize that the one who benefits from this fragmented, inverted language is the one selling sovereignty back to us as a product. We’re being asked today, also, by Mars and Uranus squaring the nodal axis in Pisces-Virgo, an orientation to surrender with discernment.

I

What we inherit from our family is not only material. It is the nervous system, the fear, the patterns carried in the body across generations.

Giving the body enough space to feel them, making a different movement, and finding the order of love is how we begin to receive.

II

When I am sleeping, I am not in my body. When I wake, I land softly. Looking around. Breathing. Feeling. Being.

I know I have said very few things these days as these are emotional and body experiences.

Thus, the body’s silence as whispers can be slightly heard.

There is space to listen to them.

And the inner authority quietly arrives.

III

What we inherit lives unconsciously in the body. When we land back into ourselves, we begin to feel what the container is actually holding. And awareness creeps in.

Mold accumulates in the conditions that the container can no longer process on its own. The moisture gathers somewhere without enough circulation, without enough light, and the mold simply grows where the environment allows it.

There are two ways to respond. One is agitation, spreading the very thing one wanted to resolve. The other is a reading, honest and unsparing, of what the conditions actually are. Sometimes that leads to leaving the space entirely. Sometimes it leads to staying present at the edge, close enough to witness, far enough not to participate in the spread.

Mercury stations retrograde in Cancer in two days. The mind turns inward. The communication slows and softens. The sky is built for exactly this kind of clarity: the emotional intelligence that knows what a container can hold, and chooses accordingly.

On the same day, the Full Moon rises at 8 degrees of Capricorn. Cancer asks what we are carrying in the emotional body. Capricorn illuminates what we have actually built with what we carry. Jupiter reaches the final degree of Cancer, the last breath of its exaltation, a full year of emotional expansion delivering its concentrated weight before crossing into Leo to shine in its own light. Something is completing. The full light of this moon falls on whatever the container has been holding. What has circulation and what has not. What is ready to be seen clearly and left behind.

IV

Receiving is structural, the container is ready and what arrives has somewhere to land.

Accepting is the posture of someone still waiting to be told they are allowed to have. Without a container, nothing is retained: material resources, emotional nourishment, physical vitality, mental clarity; abundance in any form passes through or dissipates.

Maturity is standing in the correct order of love and letting what belongs to you arrive.

There is a figure in Buddhist cosmology called the hungry ghost. It has a vast, distended stomach and a throat so narrow that nothing can pass through. It is always reaching, as it has never felt fed. I did not know for a long time that I had organized a significant portion of my relational life around that figure. This time the story shows the same wound from a different angle, the degree itself rather than only the pattern, and the figures who have stood on that degree before.

I am very touched these days because there is something underlying in the rivers of humanity right now, and it is how can we all separately, individually, reconnect to our sense of value.

If you speak from the word axiom, axiom is a principle, but it also means worth.

How do you make yourself worthwhile?

How do you make your life worthwhile?

How do you make your voice worthwhile?

And now Chiron entering Taurus shows us that there is a wound in humanity because we have not spoken our values because we barely know what we need, because we have been following outside authorities for a long time to tell us this is right, this is wrong, this is the way. And there is no other thing more slippery than following the way of others.

I am speaking from a place where I, in my heart, I am also going in on the way. It has been a long road. I love the way that I chose this lifetime. So to explore what value is as something deep, profound, and it may take some time. Uranus in Taurus [2018-2026]showed us that value can be erratic, that it can lead to different unexpected situations. Chiron is going to come back to the place where it was discovered and show us that it all reduces to what essential needs are.

Why Now

I do not believe in coincidence. I just know about resonance. What Chiron has done for humanity since 2018 until now is give us the capacity to have the courage to take space for who we are as individuals, even if we do not know yet what individuality looks like. At least it gives us the courage to take the space, to breathe it, and to expand. The way Chiron expanded to the sky and became a witness that the pain could be the healing instrument. Chiron is now entering Taurus, on the same year Uranus left, the cycle of liberation that began in 2018 is completing. The structure is going to support the healing of value, and that healing has to come from the liberation of the individual, creating the space that is needed. There is a gap right now, and it is beautiful, because each one is playing a role.

Taurus is ruled by Venus, the archetype of the second house, the sign of the body, the earth, the resource, the talent, the thing you can hold in your hand. Chiron moving through Taurus for the next seven years is asking us to go deeper than the abstract idea of self worth and look honestly at how we have organized our material lives around the same wound. How have we undercharged, overgiven, worked for less than we are worth, allowed others to set the price of our time and presence? The hungry ghost pattern plays out in every transaction, in every negotiation, in every moment we say yes to a deal the body is refusing. While transiting Chiron was in my second house after my return, I was totally driven to study what money really means. Not only did I get into Bitcoin, but I have dedicated the last half a decade to understanding Austrian economics, of what value really is. Little did I know that it would open a new perspective on what it means to become free and responsible. Ludwig von Mises called it subjective value theory: the worth of a thing is never set by the market, never set by another, it is set by the individual who chooses it. Which means the hungry ghost, the one who lets others determine its worth, is not only a psychological wound. It is an economic one.

Prometheus is a kind of inspirational daimon. He is a force within the psyche that has access to knowledge of how the cosmic system works, and how to apply it to the everyday affairs of human beings.

- Liz Green

The Myth

Chiron is the son of Saturn, as a centaur, he is half animal and half divine, and he is the greatest healer and teacher of his age. He carries a double wound that will not close because he is immortal and cannot die from it thus unable to heal himself. The wound stays open indefinitely.

In the meantime, Prometheus is chained to a rock by Zeus, which is Jupiter, and an eagle eats his liver each morning, which heals overnight so the process can repeat. His crime was stealing fire from the gods and giving it to humanity. Jupiter is the jailer; while the fire, the Promethean principle, is the liberation of the soul from the conditions of the known, the spark of individuation that burns through inherited structure.

Richard Tarnas and Liz Greene have both written about this relationship between Prometheus and Uranus. The resolution arrives through a single exchange. Chiron offers his immortality back to the gods, to Jupiter. Jupiter accepts. While Chiron descends into Hades in place of Prometheus, and Prometheus is freed. Chiron, now mortal, can finally die. He then ascends and becomes the constellation Centaurus, his wound transformed into permanent light in the sky.

In principle, Saturn set the condition because he was Chiron’s father, and the wound was part of that bond. Jupiter held the power to release it. Chiron does not heal himself through knowledge, though he possesses all of it. He heals through surrender and through the willingness to let what he has always carried become something larger than his own pain; in that path Prometheus (Uranus) is freed, individuated, therefore Chiron is the vulnerability that also becomes our biggest gift while living the experience.

The creative spark, cultural and technological breakthrough, the enhancement of human autonomy, the liberating gift from the heavens, sudden enlightenment, intellectual and spiritual awakening.

The Discovery and the Degree

On November 1, 1977, a body was discovered orbiting between Saturn and Uranus and named Chiron. The degree where it was found carries a Sabian symbol. Dane Rudhyar named it: “THE POT OF GOLD AT THE END OF THE RAINBOW. “Riches that come from linking the celestial and the earthly nature.”

To trust the vulnerability of the pain, to surrender to it rather than reach past it, is the bridge Chiron offers, and it is that surrender that supports the individuation path.

It is the wealth that comes from integrating both spirit and matter. When you link this process, it brings to the individual consciousness something that has been elusive as the rainbow can be, because it never ends. It brings to the source of symbolic, universally valid wealth. The substance is found not by going directly toward it but by traversing the entire arc and arriving at the place where light meets the ground.

That is the degree where Chiron announced itself to the world. And this is where spirit and matter find a resonance so they can understand the meaning of value and the meaning of being of worth. That is an axiom.

That 3°degree carries a specific resonance in the charts of others who have traversed their own underworld. Dante brought the electrical, Uranian spark of breakthrough to make the Inferno a visible map one can walk through. Carl Jung held his natal Neptune on this exact point, dissolving the boundaries of the mind to map the vast ocean of the collective unconscious from the inside out, showing us that reclaiming our worth requires descending into the dark, heavy architecture of the body where the shadow is physically held. They anchored the sky and the psyche at this degree. While they received the high frequencies of Uranus and Neptune, my Jupiter in Taurus is here to ground them—to turn the cosmic transmission into a physical, somatic reality that can be lived and valued on the earth plane.

I align very much with resonance; when I find that I share frequencies with situations, persons, or things, the…

There is a sense of freedom that connects everything that I create, which mirrors how I think, and what emerges belongs to me, running on my machine, answering to no one else.

My telos is a local operating system that reflects my intelligence, my synthesis, my accumulated understanding across every domain I work in, maintained by my own hands.

My methodology is low time preference applied to infrastructure. I invest the time once to understand and build something correctly, and then it runs at zero ongoing cost, zero dependency. The upfront cost is attention and clarity. The long-term payoff is complete ownership. The local machine runs whether Anthropic exists or not. The scripts run whether this model exists or not. Zero ongoing token cost, zero dependency on an agentic loop that charges you for every step it takes on your behalf. That is the economic difference, and it pairs directly with the moral question, or should I say integrity? because financial dependency on a machine is the same mechanism as any other form of slavery. It is the same principle as Bitcoin for money. You hold your own keys or someone else holds them for you. You run your own scripts or someone else runs them on your behalf, at their price, on their terms, until they decide otherwise.

It works long term because I understand every layer. When something breaks, I can open the file and read it. When something needs to change, I change it. When a new domain needs a tool, I build one the same way I built the last one. The system grows with me because I am the system.

Trust is a question everywhere, all the time. You start trusting the way you deal with money with a corrupt system. Trust is also very important in behavior, politics, and human interaction. My constitution is based on who and why I can trust, and how I build the structure of trust. If I want to use a machine to support my productivity, I have to ask: can I trust the machine fully, or am I going to create a monster that is going to make me codependent and a slave, both financially and psychologically? The artifact I create is just a device that is going to be based on logic, it is going to have a function of being on the art of synthesis, and it is going to create an outlet for me to become even more practical and functional with my ideas. It is a support system. Just see what social media did to our minds, hijacking them for over fourteen years.

The intelligence I consult is distributed and intentional. I use Claude as a thinking partner for synthesis and complex builds. I use Gemini as a verification layer. There is no single source that deserves unconditional trust, including my own intuition in certain moments. When I triangulate between different models that have genuinely different ways of working, different memory architectures, different problem-solving approaches, I get closer to what I actually mean than either one alone could deliver. I am working with different brains, and that combination serves my intention.

When a tool starts costing me more than it gives me, my nervous system registers it as debt.

Financial slavery and psychological slavery are the same mechanism, and I have no interest in replicating that mechanism inside my own operating system.

Some of you may ask, do you not respond to any authority if you are running your own thing? And I will say, yes. My own integrity, not a moral external axis. That is the premise. When you want to play in the big leagues and you want to be free, you have to understand what authority really stands for. Then you have to do a daily, if not minute to minute, accounting of how your integrity vertical line is standing, on which principles and which virtues you are practicing, as opposed to waiting for an outside compass to tell you that you are right or going the wrong way, because this is not a moral issue. This is an integrity issue.

This is an evolving question, this is not a question to be asked and then have a simple yes or no answer. This is actually what makes the individual orient themselves toward a final purposeful behavior that Aristotle called eudaimonia, where logic plays a very big role but also integrates the psychological components of conditioning that has encased our way of thinking and our freedom, until the human, that means you or me, decides to break free from the shackles and decides to investigate what a more free, low time preference society will look like, if we were to be wholesome, self-determined, and flourishing.

The direct influence or inspiration that Ludwig von Mises received from Aristotle was the whole concept of logic. That is why he named the practice of logic praxeology. Basically, he said that we all have purposeful behavior that will lead to innovation, productivity, and collaborative relationships that, in that sense, will lead society to innovation and flourishing at every level, not just spiritually, mentally, emotionally but also economically.

As I wrote on March 5, 2026: “We are giving machines agency, the capability to act autonomously, then relying on morality, external rules and terms of service to control them. But if they have no consciousness, no inner experience, no capacity for integrity, then the moral framework becomes a script they can optimize around rather than something they are bound by.”

And the question I left open then is the same question that grounds everything I am building now: “What does it mean to deploy agency without consciousness? The only integrity response is to refuse until we understand what we are being asked to do.”

Anthropic recently chose to restrict the release of its latest model because it demonstrated autonomous cybersecurity capabilities that alarmed even its own early testers. Dario Amodei acknowledged that withholding it has hurt Anthropic enormously commercially, and he did it anyway. His stated reason: a human must always make the final call. “This is like a human, what we have seen here is Claude assists, but a human makes the final call. Imagine if you had a world in which the AI model just makes the decision and the human never sees it. That is what we were standing up for. That is what we were fighting against.”

I wrote that same reasoning from my reading of his astrological chart back in March, before this interview existed. I am not saying this to prove I was right. I am saying it because it confirms that the question is not about the technology. It is about the human being holding the line.

While walking on Venetian Way this morning, I counted at least twenty cars driving themselves alone. First it made me laugh and then it made me think: holy s**t, everything is here. All these self-driven machines, robots, AI. That is why I think my constitution is important for me. I do not know what you are going to do, but I know what I am doing, or at least I am not going to comply without more than a fight.

Every external integration promises convenience and delivers a cost you did not plan for, in tokens, in dependency, in the quiet accumulation of systems you no longer fully own.

The question this article leaves open, and the question I have been writing a book about, is this: is the human capable enough, knowing the difference between integrity, ethics, principles, and morality, to remain the one who determines what the artifact is for?

A question worth sitting with, and one I am leaving open intentionally: at what point does insisting on manual synthesis become a form of control that limits the very flourishing I am building toward? By keeping the human as the one who pieces everything …

Hi. I can’t believe how fast this year is flying. We reached the solstice.

I am very happy to share that I am relaunching my website.

This is a soft launch, because I still have to update a lot of projects, and I will do that in due time, without going into crazy crisis mode.

I wanted this to come from a very personal place.

I started designing websites back in the 90s, learning code and creating these environments, or experiences, because I wanted to create something that didn’t have a corporate feeling, something more like a process of creativity, a process of work.

And this time is no different.

Of course, there are menus, and there is text, and there are illustrations, but it is more like the experience of understanding, or peeking into my reality, into what my world is.

The last time I changed my website was exactly ten years ago.

That is a long time.

Before that, it changed every three or four years, as I was trying to keep up with the amount of work that I was doing, because I have had a long career as an artist.

And that was something else that really happened here, being able to realize how much work I have produced.

Even though internally I feel like I am in an identity crisis, because the whole world is in one, it made me realize how blessed I am for being able to have so much talent, and to practice it in so many different ways.

And I am not speaking from an arrogant place. I am speaking from a humble place.

I know that the talent I was given by the grace of the Gods has found ways to shine, whether it is through public art commissions, which I have completely been devoted to from 2017 onward, and that was purposefully done.

I left the gallery slash museum world because it was something I was no longer identifying with, and it was no longer resonating with the person I was at that moment.

I was in a state of flux as well.

But before that, even before I started creating artwork, I was a photographer. I was a black-and-white photographer.

And that work you won’t see here…. For now.

Around three decades ago, I went to see a psychic. Before I moved to New York, when I was a black and white photographer, she told me my work was going to be known for color. I laughed. I liked black and white photography. I did not like color. She said, I cannot tell you when, but that is going to happen. You are going to become very well known because of your color. People are going to hire you because of your color. And here it is: I cannot do anything without so much color.

How can you put together Austrian economics, Bitcoin, evolutionary astrology, human design, and public art... with philosophy, harmonics, somatic practice, trauma, fascia, breath work, and humming?

How do you do that?

Well, I do it.

I have been able to synthesize my life with all these subjects that are important to me.

Obviously, the artwork is the base, because it is the one I have been practicing for longer, but I also feel that without evolutionary astrology and human design, I wouldn’t be in the place I am here.

I went through a crisis after 2015, 2016, and it was through these systems that I was able to make radical changes in my life.

And I promised myself then that if I was going to come out of it, I would always be available for other people to do readings, which I do from time to time.

And I love reading charts, because the people that resonate with my readings are people that come for very specific purposes, and there are no coincidences in life.

So I love serving that way.

Another factor that is very important is education.

I come from a family of female pedagogues, and I was taught to teach whenever I love something.

So that is what it is.

I have been facilitating study groups. I have created courses that are self-study, and also one-on-one with me.

And there are two ways of interacting with this page.

One is by curiosity, kind of losing yourself in what I have done.

The other is if you are looking for something specific, maybe you will find it.

So here you go.

Those are my kind words to you today.

P.s

I have been considering looking at my archives, going back before 2012, all the way to the eighties. And I have also been thinking about creating a feature where you can own one of my works. This will come in the next few weeks. I will let you know when it is ready.

ENTER STUDIO OF ENDLESS IDEAS

There is a new moon in Gemini falling in my fifth house.

It couldn’t be better timed.

So, with the Gemini state of mind, I leave you with your own curiosity.

My website is relaunched.

A synthesis of thirty years of work.

Everything I do is an art form —including this website.Curious?

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Another improvised rant

Have a great week 😍

listening to 👇

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This week, a fast recorded message, impromptu, unedited, with real life background noise.

Such is life!

Beautiful & messy.

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I forgot to mention the north node is in gate 55 and Venus now on gate 39 create the channel of emoting- play your favorite songs loud and allow the body to provoke deep emotions either dance or cry or both lol.

Jin shin Jyutsu chart.

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There is a big silence between words because there is a lot of space in my emotional body.

I do not want to talk about it. I want to feel it.

I am in reset. Calibration mode.

Feeling a shift. Now understanding more this period we are in, which is not about waiting but about small movements with purpose.

A smooth surface offers no challenge. Evolution needs contrast and right timing. I am calibrating between the gaps.

I’m learning that true boundaries aren’t about defending—they’re about resonating.

~Monika Bravo, THE CARTOGRAPHY OF AWARENESS 3I Atlas

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Do you know the difference between a sacrifice and an offering?

I think we have gone a little bit cuckoo with the word sacrifice. You know, in essence, it comes from the word sacred, but it has been devoid of an important part of that sacredness that is transformational. Therefore it is lacking in full meaning.

Sacrifice is the action of consecrating. So what is it that one is consecrating without using a transformational part that has disappeared in the meaning of it? Now it reads as something you have to give up. And when you have that energy of giving up, you tend to hold on more to it.

I tune more to the word offering. I have this image of a Buddhist altar or even a Christian altar, and you light a candle. You offer something. You decide to become aware of what is at stake in the relationship of what you are looking at, that you are willing to extend, you are willing to care, to bring and carry forward. It is a relationship to something bigger.

So letting go is the dissolution of it, is the dissolving, is the surrendering to a new relation to yourself in those matters that comes from understanding that what you offer transforms into this new realm.

I am offering myself time as a wave that determines clarity when it has completed its function. It is not time like Kronos. It is more time like Kairos. It is the right timing so I can gain clarity. I am also offering myself space. Not a place, but leeway, in my body, my mind, a space within my emotional vessel. It is a territory I never gave myself because I felt the urgency to always be there for others.

I am not being pulled by anyone or anything at the moment. This time and space that I am offering are very balanced, slowly being absorbed. They are not judgmental. They possess no urgency. They are just there contracting and expanding.

I have been very interested in fascia work. Fascia is what holds the water in the body, and it requires some tweaking in the neck and the pelvic floor. And so this adjusting, this flow of movement is rotational. It is like the earth. We rotate around the sun. We rotate around the galaxy where we also self rotate. And we have pretty much a binary body where we have almost two of everything, with some exceptions, like the liver. The liver is the organ that detoxifies. It is also the one carrying anger. And I wonder if I have been carrying a lot of anger as a Manifestor/Initiator that needs to be expressed in a way that it does not break, but it actually informs my field of where I am not willing to do a so called sacrifice, but where I am willing to offer space for my own unfolding.

From the TCM perspective, anger is the energy of the liver, not necessarily the organ per se, but the energy of that circuitry. And in my case, it is about understanding that that anger as an emotion has the potential for evolution. If I understand its frequency as something that is driving me to move into another direction, breaking away the stagnation. Now it could be sensed as an activated reaction, or can it be initiating an awareness as a response? So that is where timing comes in. Whereas space and time expand, contract, and calibration can take place.

Fascia operates through what is called tensegrity, a word coined by Buckminster Fuller from tension and integrity. It is a structural principle that the body maintains its form not through rigid compression like a building, but through a continuous balance of tension and resistance distributed across the entire fascial network. Both the flexibility of the geometry that tensegrity brings and the crystallization of water live inside this structure, because it is a matrix inside our body that carries an emotional archive. The mechanics operate through a closed kinematic chain, mechanical loops where each part influences the position, the motion, and the stability of all the others. Kinematics is geometry in motion. The molecules of water get absorbed and at the same time dry out because there is no mobility, there is no circulation, and this membrane stops resonating with the rest of the body. And it is in that dryness, where there is no circulation, that the body keeps the score of trauma in its geometry.

This is a big question for me in these days, because I am questioning those parts of myself that need to go because they do not offer me any potential for evolution. They have served their purpose. They have emanated. They have transformed themselves. They have metabolized.

And so I am questioning my sense of value at all levels. The places where I trust blindly, the places where I mistrust behind me. The places where I could be completely wrong.

There are two words I bring right now: control and definition. How can you support and define something without having to be controlling, but be on top of it, which is different. How to create a fluid, flowing state of circulation so things do not get stagnated, and they actually serve the purpose that they are meant for, resources.

Trust. What does trust really mean? Is it just based on faith, or trust is an interior authority that emanates and connects with the source.

Trust has been reduced to faith and trust in external authority, trust in external morality, and not so much embedded in the integrity or principles of individuals that can actually yield to the human action and subjective value of people’s lives.

These are very deep, deep, deep questions that are arising right now. They do not come with fear. I want to confront them differently.

They possess no urgency nor judgment. They are just contracting and expanding like the rib cage does under the spell of a diaphragm. How to create a flowing state of circulation so things do not get stagnated, and they actually serve the purpose that they are meant for. I want to calibrate them all. I want to give them space. I want to give them space.

It is an offering, not a sacrifice.

NEW MOON IN TAURUS, NEW EMBODIMENT

This week I am venturing myself to the city of Vancouver, Canada. Never been there before. I am going to be attending the workshop Family Constellations And Systemic Therapy with Tiziano Sguerso, a systemic practitioner and Constellations observer, whose work I have shared in this space before. He asked me to connect to my grandfather and to my mother and to take over the unconscious weight of his anger that she was carrying until she died, that was so crystallized, I developed kidney stones the next day. It took six months, and I was able to connect the dots during therapy sessions with Mark Jones. Everything coming from the subconscious, revealing itself through the body, has been quite a magical year for me in that sense. I am offering myself the space and opportunity to keep integrating ancestral trauma that I have been carrying without my consent, and now that I have awareness, I am just releasing it and allowing new space to emerge, and the sky is offering the same invitation to all of us.

There is a sequence worth noting. Venus crossed Chiron on the 26th of March, and at that time the Sun was conjunct Saturn, so there was some initial light given to what is the structure that needs to have integrity, that needs to have fluidity in our lives. Where, how are we going to find that shape? Then the new moon in Aries was conjunct Chiron on the 17th of April. Mercury passed that same point on May the 2nd. And now Mars is joining Chiron at this new moon in Taurus on May the 16th. One by one, each planet moving through the same wound. The wound of individuality. The sensibility that does not allow you to take space for your own Selfhood because you are afraid of being cast out or told that you do not belong, or you are told to behave in a very restrictive way. You are still afraid of taking that space and speaking up.

This new moon is in Taurus, a fixed sign. And what the rest of the zodiac is telling us is that if there is no space to breathe, if there is no space to calibrate, then the society and th…

One of the things that I am deeply in contemplation about is what identity really means. Do I need to identify as a person? As my gender? As my vocation? Just as a human being? Or as a polymath that has so many different variations depending on which angle I am willing to serve and to express in that given moment.

"I thought of a labyrinth of labyrinths, of one sinuous spreading labyrinth that would encompass the past and the future and in some way involve the stars."

Jorge Luis Borges — The Garden of Forking Paths, in Ficciones, 1944

SYNTHESIS

What is converging in my life right now is the recognition that everything I have been building interiorly for a long time is slowly ready to move into the world, and the steadiness I feel in that recognition comes from the quality of the interior work itself, the untangling of the chords that shaped me prior to choosing otherwise, the freeing of space that was previously occupied by patterns that were never mine to carry.

I feel blessed because I have been meeting with Mark Jones for 18 months steadily to support the navigation into my psychic untangling. Any chords that defined me are now being freed by the space. It is human action at its best, far away from being an effort or hard work.

Who is Mark Jones, you may ask? He is the astrologer and psychotherapist whose books and teachings have accompanied my understanding of evolutionary astrology for a long time, long enough that I waited for many years before I felt ready to receive a reading and direct transmissions from him. That moment arrived in 2024. We met for the first time in mid-October 2024, and a couple of months later I knew I was ready to commit to a deeper working relationship. These are conversations where the chart serves as a living map and you are always the territory, always interior, always personal, always asking what is actually driving this, and what would it feel like to stop being driven by something that was never yours to carry in the first place.

My Pluto in the 8th house requires this kind of work, it cannot operate on the surface. It is important to have a guide who can hold the depth without flinching, who reflects what is said with precision and returns it with a quality of witness that makes it possible to see something that was previously too close to be seen clearly.

Trust is my middle name

“Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river which sweeps me along, but I am the river; it is a tiger which destroys me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire which consumes me, but I am the fire.”

Jorge Luis Borges — A New Refutation of Time, in Other Inquisitions, 1952

FACTS

I had my solar return last week. My Sun is in Taurus in the 3rd house, and within days of that threshold, Mercury is returning to Taurus and Mars is returning to Aries. Venus follows, returning to Gemini in the 5th house. Four personal planets resetting within the same window the new solar year opens. The entire personal field seeds itself again from the beginning, all at once, in the first days of year 5.

The full Moon landed exactly on my natal Moon in Scorpio in the 9th house, and it formed a Finger of God [YOD] with Saturn and Venus as the two base points pointing directly to that Moon. A Finger of God is a precise convergence, two inconjunct lines meeting at an apex that has no choice but to receive what they are sending. Saturn and Venus both in quincunx [150° aspect] to my Moon in Scorpio meant the full illumination of the emotional body arrived through a double adjustment from structure and from creative value simultaneously. This was a full calibration, a precise demand from the chart that I receive the instruction the Moon was carrying at its own natal degree. My Moon rules my North Node in Cancer in the 5th house. The evolutionary direction was lit completely at that moment.

From an uncomfortable body sensation, to small calibrations, to mutations that slowly become transmutation.

The transiting nodal axis is sitting on my natal Uranus in Virgo in the 7th house and my natal Saturn in Pisces in the 1st house. The nodal axis crossing both of these simultaneously means the evolutionary pressure of this moment is landing directly on the axis between personal identity and encounter with the other, on the structure I carry as self and the liberating impulse that has always moved through relationship. The nodes on Uranus and Saturn together are asking what authority looks like when it has been freed from the conditioning that originally shaped it.

Transiting Uranus in Gemini in my 4th house is squaring that same nodal axis. Uranus in Gemini in the 4th house is liberating the root, the interior life, the foundation of how I think from the ground up. The 4th house is the private interior, the ancestral structure, what was laid down before conscious choice. Uranus moving through Gemini there is rewiring the foundational mental and communicative patterns at the level of origin. The square to the transiting nodal axis from that position means the disruption of the root is directly enrolled in the evolutionary direction.

The emergence of authority is the theme this whole configuration is pointing toward. Saturn in Aries in my 2nd house building stable structure in the domain of material value and resources. Mercury returning to Taurus in the 3rd house reseeding the mind and communication on solid, embodied ground. The nodal axis activating natal Saturn and natal Uranus simultaneously means the structure of identity and the liberating impulse are both being enrolled in what is emerging. Authority that is earned through embodiment. I dismantle every hierarchy that arrives morally imposed from the outside. Value that is established through what I have actually built in the domain of communication and creative expression.

Every personal planet returning to its natal degree while simultaneously being pressed by an outer planet. Mercury and Sun in Taurus receiving the Pluto square. The mind and identity renewing under transformative pressure. Mars returning to Aries receiving the Jupiter square from Cancer, asking what the drive is actually feeding. Venus returning to Gemini in the 5th house arriving into territory Uranus just opened. The creative principle reseeds into a field that has already been liberated.

Saturn in Aries in my 2nd house is forming a quincunx to natal Pluto Rx in Virgo in my 8th house. What I am building in the domain of material value and resources sits in permanent calibration with the interior transformative process in the 8th. Saturn in Aries wants form, wants concrete action, wants to establish something. Pluto Rx in Virgo in the 8th holds the requirement to release, to let the interior do its work before anything is grasped. The quincunx between these two asks me to adjust continuously, holding what I am structuring in calibration with what I am releasing.

The South Node in Virgo carries a deep prior pattern of using refinement as a way of managing what Pluto actually wants to transform. The quincunx says the pattern of self-correction needs to be released at the root so that transformation can move through.

Pluto crosses a threshold with great deliberation. It circles, retreats, returns, circles again, gathering interior pressure until the crossing can hold what is arriving. Stationing retrograde today, still approaching my Aquarius Ascendant, Pluto is asking whether I am ready for what April 2027 will demand. The retrograde until mid-October is the last interior preparation before the threshold becomes permanent.

Neptune in Aries is squaring my nodal axis. Neptune dissolves the fixed coordinates of the evolutionary direction. Capricorn as the past pattern releases its structural rigidity. Cancer as the future direction releases its sentimental image of what no…