I am OPTimist

"Seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space."

~Italo Calvino, Invisible Cities

Worth without witness...

Happy full moon in Scorpio!

What has initiated has been taking shape as it grounds. This is Taurus season. Full moon in Scorpio on May 1st, a lunation as when I was born 62 years ago, happy solar return to me. Living with a Scorpio moon in my 9th house has made me seek for deep truth, only to realize after a long journey, that it emanates from within.

There is a particular kind of discomfort that comes with understanding that something new is emerging from within.

My body has been recording this passage sometimes as tension in the fascia, the membrane that holds water while binding muscle and bone together.

This is a beautiful membrane that is allowing fluids and flow at the same time.

It is like a breath that wants to go deeper, as it aspires within the rib cage and then slowly releasing, making space for what is new.

This is a feeling pulled in more than one direction at the same time, but the interesting thing is that the orientations are not what matters; what matters is the flow, aware, aspiring, and exhaling.

This is a new sensation of the self that has slowly been metabolized in the last years but now starts being shaped.

Even though I do not have a final definition, I can sense it in the body; it comes here first, so the threshold is here.

The discomfort I feel is how my life is composting and metabolizing itself.

It is not discomfort in the sense of pain; there is no pain, there is no emotional pain, there is no physical pain.

It is just an adjustment that has to happen on a moment-to-moment basis.

It is productive and real, and even though I am speaking words, the resolution is not in the mind or with logic.

It is more the adaptation of this flow on a moment-to-moment basis, with the body at its center.

I will say this is a Renaissance being born again from the inside out, as I carry everything that I have learned, surrendered, and lost, while none of the definitions built around it can comprehend what is transforming. I love this French word borrowed into English somewhere in the 1800s. The Italian artists who lived it first called it “rinascita,” rebirth. And yet, it was not a return to innocence. They were returning to what had always been there: the human body, the direct study of nature and anatomy. Somehow, a return to the classical forms, but seen with new eyes.

To be born again is not from nothing but from a full weight of everything already experienced. Time is teaching me to enjoy every moment, as mysterious as I can appear to others. There have been times when I went through the process of trying to explain myself, like in my first book, The Nature of My Reality, which, when read out loud, was my own echo. I realized that the mystery of my individuation was best kept as such. I did not need to explain myself to others, but I did.

I come back to the natural posture of someone whose depth cannot be compressed into a stage format, a place of performance, nor to a category that defines and limits at the same time.

It is through the experience of knowing, not knowing, and trusting the divine that allows this persona to be sensed but not grasped, like water through the fingers, what stays is the essence of the felt sense not the density of the water, fluid, flowing, gone.

Compression of that kind multiplies confusion. What is actually present is a synthesis, and a synthesis does not fit inside any container built to hold a single discipline. The process is the emergence of an insight, a poem, a reading, a vector, a color, a shape, a moment in time. A synthesis is the process of integration that begs to be lived and not to be ingested through the mind.

The new cycle is learning to trust that: acting from discernment on a moment-to-moment basis rather than from a fixed identity, allowing the creativity to be the truth rather than the explanation of it.

Right now there is a configuration in the sky called a Yod, a finger of God. Two points of concentrated pressure converge into a single apex in my chart. One point carries the plutonic energy of deep transformation of evolution happening at the level of identity itself as it rises on the Ascendant. The other carries the energy of a new face: new ways of initiating, of being supported, of communicating what I know through structure.

Both of these pressures are pointing at the same place in my chart: Uranus in Virgo in the seventh house, the planet that rules my Ascendant. The planet that governs how I meet the world and what liberates me from within it. At the same apex, the South Node of the Moon is passing through, asking what has run its course with a lot of discernment. These three together produce a sensation I discover in this body: with no pain. It is a threshold that needs to be adjusted at all times.

A lot of stuff that I have been doing last year is detaching myself from an old identity. Whether it is closing my LLCs, dropping everything that is still attached to the company I once opened with my ex after ten years of being divorced, I was still attached to it, not energetically, but it was still there for convenience. This year has been more about caring less about convenience and more about authenticity and cutting cords that are energetic and carry a weight that is unnecessary, absolutely dissolving into the past.

It has been a process of revising pretty much everything and what works and what does not work, especially with all the planets in my second house of value. I realized that what I need are basically the new resources and education I have been getting in the last ten years, and how they are serving me to establish a new field that is very different energetically from the one I was brought up with and have lived until now.

What started as an uncomfortable feeling has developed into understanding that this is the process of rebirth. Like all births, it is uncomfortable to leave one place for another. I am already on the other side of the threshold, so what I feel now is the excitement of it.

This is a time of application. For years, the oppositions in my chart have been the engine: sun opposing moon, Saturn opposing Uranus. Two poles always generating a third way, a synthesis that neither pole contains alone. That friction has been the methodology of my entire life.

Now the squares are activating and the quincunxes as well. Neither of those is for synthesis. They ask for adaptation or just movement; they ask for human action; they ask for purposeful behavior. This is the moment where everything that has been synthesized converts into something directed and real that I can grasp and I can ground myself to keep flowing.

The resources are here. They are already built: an operational system that grounds the exploration, courses and data converted and integrated into tools that make the knowledge available. A book finishing itself from the inside out.

What is asked of me right now is to trust what I have been put into motion and let it work, let it unfold naturally. The work now is to release the material into the world, not to return to its depths, to let the material generate.

Venus and Uranus meet tomorrow at the last degree of Taurus, the final point of eight years of excavating what is truly of value. The last degree of a sign carries a full weight of everything that sign has taught, distilled into its closing transmission. They meet at the foundation of my chart in the house of the roots, the family, my ancestors, who gave me an emotional body and also what made me feel safe.

They will both cross into Gemini together one day before my birthday. Uranus enters Gemini for the first time to stay after many decades, arriving in my solar return as a new era, seated at the base of everything I am building.

The flavor of Gemini is not the same as the excavation of Taurus. It is faster, more versatile, alive with connection and movement of ideas across forms. Last summer, when Uranus briefly touched Gemini, I felt it: without grounding it scatters. The work of the last year has been exactly that: building the foundation. The operat…

Aries stellium season is here; a rare concentration. The energy is intense, and so is the opportunity to observe the speed of things on a moment-to-moment basis. New Moon conjunct Chiron on the 17th, wishing you take space for your individual self as you integrate your peace within. Stability grounds through what you value, while crisis reveals where your leverage is thin, as it also shows where perfection is inexistent.

The Fool moves with risk and rhythm, sometimes feeling butterflies in the stomach while leaning into the unknown and trusting it. I am sharing this beautiful song from WU LYF’s newest album, “A Wave That Will Never Break,” kudos to my friend Ellery James Roberts and his bandmates.

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What happens when you leave space for yourself? You don’t do it in just one day that you cross off the calendar and cancel your appointments, so you decide to go out for a walk and keep walking the whole day without caring about the things that you’re leaving behind. No. I mean something more profound than that. What happens if you take time and space for that part of yourself that didn’t even know it needed that space? It needed that time. What happens? Something marvelous happens.

It feels like the space was there when I stopped rushing for my phone so I could check on people I care about, sending them things. I was not engaged with that anymore; I decided to disengage completely from my caring side to see what would happen to Monika when she’s not holding space for others and allows her own space to speak.

Over the last year, this happened to me, and I was finally integrating it, and it’s such a beautiful feeling that I’m at a loss for words, although I need those words because I’m finally putting together the whole process that went from me walking and talking to myself, realizing I had a structure that I wanted to follow. Then I allowed that structure to form a kind of spine, and as that spine was forming, it was allowing, breathing, and shaping itself, slowly receiving the flow that needed to create the space. From occupation, to beautiful self-caring silence.

Today is April 8th, one year since Bitcoin’s price touched the bottom after the previous all-time high in December 2024. It gave a different tension to the chart, and I’m in a deep realization and a state of wonderment. What happened in these 365 days?

A year ago I was tracking Venus retrograde not just my personal chart but also financially, and I noticed something that W.D. Gann also worked with when he brought mathematics and astrology into financial graphs. From there, price moved again toward the all-time high until October 2025. This is what led me to start seriously looking at financial charts, harmonics, and monitoring the wavelength as a way to also track my nervous system. I know it sounds crazy, but that’s what it is.

I am enjoying the contrast the outside reflects with the inside, I am not a psycho, as I have really focused more on all my infinite possibilities. Someone who has inspired me in the last year is Professor Edward Frenkel. I’m dropping below his latest video, “Math Gives Us Hope for the Future”. Every time I listen to him and hear his soft voice with his beautiful Russian accent and his sparkling eyes, he just looks like a little boy in the playground when he speaks about mathematics. It gives me so much hope. It moves me.

This week, if you want it, brings lightness while the heaviness outside makes no sense, one bluff after the next, nothing feels real… but I am counter offering the idea of becoming light as a feather. There’s also light, hope, a different quality of life. It’s there for you all. All you have to do is align to that frequency and start embodying it.

One of the most inspiring, beautiful things in this video, Frenkel says, “the fact that we all perceive mathematics in the same way means that our minds are connected and so we’re all connected to each other”.

I want to say to Professor Edward Frenkel that I did not do well in school with mathematics, maybe because I could not find a point of entry and it led me to close myself to it. I was trying to understand them from my logical side, but I couldn’t tap into them. I failed them every year, even though my mind operates in patterns, the way I was taught just didn’t compute.

I’ve been using mathematics in the last ten years pretty much every day when I practice astrology. If you see, the first part of the word is the stars part, and the logos is the part where it makes sense. Astrology is based on numbers, based on the positions of the stars in the sky, and the relationships between them. We have to use mathematics, geometry, and harmonics to understand these relationships that validate themselves with the cycles of these celestial bodies, which is what we call astronomy.

Guess what these four form? the QUADRIVIUM, the four ways, defined as the four mathematical sciences: Arithmetic (number in itself), Geometry (number in space), Music (number in time), and Astronomy (number in space and time). These subjects were considered to be the preparatory study for philosophy and theology, and later in medieval universities as a way to understand the created order, as scholars believed the universe was constructed according to geometric and harmonic principles.

Of course, there’s another layer that comes from what Jung called the unconscious and the archetypal forms that have been attached to these relationships and phases.

The interesting thing for me is that I learned about mathematics through harmonics and through geometry, and I have such a profound love for Pythagoras as well, and for what he brought to the world. Lately, I have found true love for Gurdjieff, because through his teachings I’ve been able to understand how to apply mathematics in my life. The opportunities of certain aspects create a space for me to be able to break free from conditions that I thought were static and were already stagnating. These intervals that happen in music and in nature are the place where I tap into applied mathematics and applied psychology.

In my offerings, you will find different ways that I have arrived at applying mathematics, for example Bitcoin; it became a way to understand scarcity and its finite quality and to feel what that actually means in real terms of value and self-esteem as it relates to our essential needs.

Have you noticed in the last few weeks that you’ve been renegotiating the way you relate to the world and your values, and you tap into the Uranian energy in Taurus at the last degrees, where these resources suddenly make you realize that if you don’t stand for your value, nobody else will?

I’ll guide you into that same electric curiosity and luminous clarity in your life, your chart, and how you make economic decisions. Everything I’m sharing comes from this same process of creating space, while fully understanding structure, as I am able to move with it instead of feeling trapped by it. From failing in maths class to actually living through logic.

Aristotle knew that you cannot build a life on assumptions and you have to find that fundamental substance that primal beginning where a thing is simply itself and A cannot be not A if you want to stop the chaos and finally see the gap. As he writes in Metaphysics Book IV: “the same attribute cannot at the same time belong and not belong to the same subject in the same respect. First principles or Arché (Ancient Greek: ἀρχή.)

The behavior in society is what he called ‘Politeia’, which is the origin of the term ‘politics’. Now it is very fundamental to understand that, without individual responsibility, any civilization can be out of alignment because politics is the behavior of the collective and that individual action is what Ludwig von Mises called Human Action, you see? they are interwoven. No self responsibility leads to a society that acts with degeneracy, and gets easily corrupted, no matter how much moralistic views abound if integrity doesn’t stand well on first principles.

Therefore, for me, it is necessary that we have a solid foundation to find new ways to connect, to be eloquent, and behave more civilized. I’m a very emotional person that has worked for years, and I have learned to stay with my emotions long enough to channel them into a response. I take time to respond because I have an emotional authority.

What happened since I started studying praxeology a few years back is that it gave me the option to look at opportunity cost as the most important decision I make in every moment, shaping the outcomes I experience. Human action is a fundamental state of awareness rooted in logic. If I don’t start with fundamental truth, with first principles, during dia…

We are in the age of new beginnings after the several new/full moons this year that announced both dissolutions and brand new pastures. Pair the eclipses, the equinox and with the Saturn and Neptune new cycle, the upcoming weeks will show us an opportunity to show up and finally step UP to our new individual ways.

2027 is approaching and although it is not a prediction, ‘cause we are already wary of it, the cross of planning is closing. When Uranus finally enters Gemini at the end of April, and Jupiter moves to Leo this summer while the nodes shift axis to the Aquarius/Leo, we will feel plenty of sparks within and without.

Today is Easter, the season of rising kings and queens, we have all risen, for we are all becoming. Let the next weeks finally bring a furious and climactic outcome. With peace or without it, life keeps creating, every day all the time.

I have felt compelled to start doing new things, new ways of communicating, just trying new perspectives, I have been spending valuable time engaging in new methodologies that include plenty of play as a basic foundation, also including fascia movement in my body. It has been a beautiful introspective first trimester.

And all of these things lead me to a sense of pure JOY on a moment to moment basis. I had recently transiting Saturn squared my nodal axis. Where am I coming from, what I have left behind, and what kind of orientation am I bringing as a human?

I had a MAJOR breakthrough after the March 3rd lunar eclipse that will be manifested as the last text written in my book: The Art of Synthesis, and the Architecture of my Value.

The ignition is set, the inner messages are clear now. Mercury RX in Pisces created an inner dialogue to what we call the divine spark, and when it met the north node, it created an orientation that Mars had recently initiated in the same spot.

The body knows that the last chapter with the set of keys is gone, and the starting point of the clock is set back to zero. Everything set back to zero, and here we go. »» Amazing feeling. LFG!

If you’ve been cooking stuff in the last month(s), if you’ve been fortunate enough, like I have been, to spend quality time away from my thoughts and more focused on my response mechanism, on my nervous system, then probably you know that this ignition point is quite amazing.

If you feel that you are more aligned with your inner soul, and all the disruptions that you see outside of yourself are not keeping you from being disconnected or distracted, because actually disruptions are breakers of flow that allow and give us blind spots, or tensions, crises, even confrontations. These are the points to focus on.

These early degrees of Aries are squaring my nodal axis. It has been telling me for the last year, with Saturn and Neptune there, that my orientation, is slightly different. And I listened to that for a whole year. And I’m coming with the goods. And here I am »» Let’s start testing this.

Opening up the shades and looking at the sun—the life force, the light, that red light that arises every morning before I step into my balcony to sun gaze—what gives me light, what gives me life.

It is the understanding that stepping into the space where the light is, it’s an action that I take, that I’m drawn to because the light, the life force, is what fuels my presence on this planet Earth. And it gives me a sense of accountability, responsibility for the service that I sign up for by being a human on this Earth.

If anything, I’m very grateful for my life. I’m very grateful for living in these strange, weird, both ugly and beautiful times because I don’t see only one side. I see the potential. I see the light. I see the emergence of what we’re building. And again, thinking about the collective as the potential for our solar expansion, our fulfillment in creativity is what’s going to reshape the dawn of this new turning.

I want you to understand my thesis: we are in a very important moment in time where everything is a big reset, and the individual is given the opportunity to become educated into actions that are willful and can be turned into new possibilities of change rather than compliance. That’s a sweet and privileged place to be!

"Law is nothing else than an ordinance of reason for the common good, made by him who has care of the community, and promulgated."

— Thomas Aquinas, Summa Theologica

(Note: Aquinas argues that a "law" that is not reasonable is not a law, but a perversion of law—this is the root of my "lawfulness" argument.)

Without contrast there is no mutation

I’m bringing two things into this article that have been sitting in my draft box since mid-March: the realities of digital property and the consequence of ignorant compliance. In addition, not understanding the main difference between legality and lawfulness sends a vacuum to what standing for one’s rights really is. Understanding the main difference between government “censorship” and complying with terms of agreement with digital platforms that are private companies... These are mutual contracts one abides by.

Consent is the boundary.

The Fourth Turning, the 2027 Human Design Cross of Planning ending, the Age of Aquarius, the Kali Yuga. Names are unimportant, you can sense it now. The era of bartering with institutions to secure our services and our survival—a cycle that has governed us since 1615—is finally over. We are moving into the individual stream of the Sleeping Phoenix, a shift that is starting now and will only become more defined from 2027 onwards. The chaos is beautiful; only mutation occurs in times of chaos.

Due to the history that we’re coming from, after six years from the terrible lockdowns and mandates, these were imposed only because people actually signed up for this compliance ignorantly.

It was a test, and everybody failed; there were only a few people, and I’m included, who did not fall for the scam.

Some of us used the time to learn more about sovereignty, and the critical nature of decision-making. We also studied the energy of money and the profound difference between what is merely legal and what is truly lawful, arriving at the understanding of what freedom really is: the power to have more than one option, because otherwise, you have no choice. and you are a slave of something or someone. And that’s when I discovered that logic was going to be my ally for the rest of my life.

"All rights are property rights, and all property rights are reducible to rights in the physical body."

— Stephan Kinsella, Against Intellectual Property

Willfully Ignorant

Ignorance is natural; it belongs to being human. It means there are things I do not yet know, areas I have not explored, questions I have not asked. Holding a vacuum that is available for movement.

Ignorance moves when attention is placed on it, by opening, it shifts, it transforms through engagement.

Willfulness introduces direction: a pointed target which denotes an act of the will. Ignorance, instead, is the moment where the individual turns away. Even when the information is available, even when something can be seen, because seeing it carries responsibility and consequence.

Willful ignorance becomes the refusal to engage, it becomes the point where not knowing settles into a position that is comfortable and can be called when excuses are needed.

Imagine them all tiled up inside a drawer, ready to be used as a distraction, because leaving behind a state of ignorance requires not only effort and energy, but repetition and commitment.

When the individual does not engage with the principles that govern freedom, something else will shape behavior. Other implemented systems define the boundaries; thus, outer authority replaces discernment, as compliance becomes the fake posture that pretends to hold the structure together when it actually chokes any movement.

"The basic axiom of libertarian political theory holds that every man is a self-owner, having absolute jurisdiction over his own body. In effect, this means that no one else …

## Core Realization

I saw the truth of my own delusion.I was projecting and I was having a relationship with my projection and with my own shadow. What I wanted, like the kind of relationship that I was expecting, is something that I created in my head.It was a transactional thing. It was me trying to equate everything that I poured into the relationship and say, hey, you're not doing your part.The big awakening came when I took away the light over the surface and switched the focus towards me.That was the shift!

Hey, I thought I would jump in very quickly.

NOTE: I wrote part of this text as small posts that I shared in FOTT community, but I thought that it’s a universal thought process that I want to share with you as outer and inner conflict are one and the same. These days, I don’t feel like sharing that much. I’ve been in very slow-internal processes of decoding a bunch of projections that I didn’t know were my shadows hence decoupling from them has been extremely liberating. So when I saw the light, it was poof, like the brain emoji exploding 🤯 in slow-motion.

It could be something as visceral as the terrible, impregnating smell coming out of my windows that mixes stench with vices and that I can’t control, or any other outside triggers that turn me off my line of equilibrium. Smell, like noise, has no boundaries. It is my biggest challenge, as I am learning to integrate this through somatic awareness to stop blaming myself and carrying the weight for the ways I previously failed to notice red flags or care for my own needs first. Thus, the article that I wanted to put out about digital privacy is still in the draft box and will be posted in due time. Instead I decided to share the text below.

Conflict as Mutation

I’ve written about conflict (read hexagram 6 below) before from a Taoist cosmology slash Human Design perspective.

Here I’m bringing a different angle.

Heraclitus, who was a pre-Socratic philosopher, understood reality as constant flux. And Borges, the great Argentinian writer, used the metaphor of this flux in the river and time, where everything exists through continuous change. Heraclitus saw tension, or Polemos (πόλεμος), as the force that keeps the whole thing from falling apart, generating some sense of order, because the bow and the lyre depend on opposing forces held together.

I’m also bringing forward Gurdjieff, whose ideas I have made more operational and applied when I read financial charts, and, funny enough, I can reflect my nervous system through them. He speaks about intervals or shocks inside any process. He describes how any flat line that doesn’t have tension tends to lead to entropy.

When a movement begins, it follows the line and then it deviates. Without an additional impulse at that point, the process weakens or changes direction. With the right shock, it continues and transforms. That’s why we have transits in astrology with hard angles, like squares and oppositions, which are great opportunities to evolve.

A wave carries a frequency, yet it only becomes readable to variation, through points where the movement hits a wall, shaping the pattern and allowing the flow.

Conflict is that point of tension. It is the place where continuity alone turns into a flat line.

Through resistance and tension, the new can emerge. When I read financial charts, I’m always looking for those points of resistance, either where the price reaches a top or where it reaches a bottom or support. These are points of resonance, this is how I have learned to read anything that has a wavelength, whether financial charts, astrological charts, or my emotional body through my nervous system.

So I bring on the conflict for the sake of evolution, for the sake of mutation. The flow leads to deviation, to tension, to intervention, and to the emergence of a new alignment. That alignment will meet a different frequency and will resonate as something new.

Connecting back to Borges and Ars Poetica that I used in one of my artwork site-interventions back in the year 2000 and it’s here below. He writes in it that the river flows, yet it forms, and it is never uniform.

The identity of this river emerges through these variations, and it is the observer who meets these points as they read them and tries to find their own projection.

Conflict in a sense is when the pattern of tension triggers the opportunity to resurface, giving the human a place to evolve.

Hexagram 6: disengage

Things that I have learned in life:

Engage when it matters, disengage when it doesn’t. That’s the wisest thing I once learned.

Disengage from conflict as a device to protect your energy.

What I’m talking about is hexagram number 6, or in Human Design, gate number 6 that sits in the solar plexus. So therefore, time is part of the process.

Conflict doesn’t need you to rush into it. You feel it out, you give it a moment so you can actually see what’s going on instead of reacting on the spot.

Gate 6 is also creating a channel to gate 59 that sits in the sacral, which is what gives energy to things. It’s the house of the generator and it’s also talking about chemistry.

The question will be, should I engage, but also, is this the right energy to engage here?

Is there something real that can come out of this interaction? Something that can be generated, constructive, creatively contributing to the tribe?

What I’ve learned is that conflict, it’s about friction that can either produce something meaningful or just burn energy for no reason.

There’s a tension. What’s the tension for?

Is there something here that can lead to a connection, that can lead to clarity, to creativity, or is it just pure noise?

The right to choose if the conflict deserves energy, because not every emotional reaction requires you to step in.

I also make a difference between avoidance and disengagement.

Avoidance is when you back away because it feels like too much or because there is fear.

Disengagement is, it’s very logical, it’s clean. You see it for what it is, and you decide it’s not worth your input.

What I also learned through practice is simple. If my life is not in danger, then I disengage from conflict. I step out of it. I let it pass.

If there is real danger, then I meet it fully. And how I was taught in martial arts, I take out the sword and then I behead the opponent.

But if my life is not in danger, I just disengage.

Disengagement can be met in redirecting the conversation. It can be set up as a boundary. It can be chosen as not to escalate. It can be taking time instead of knee-jerk reactions.

Disengagement cannot be confused with withdrawal. It’s just a real understanding of the emotional wave.

The body and time

So thinking about discipline, career, long-term conquests, and giving value to bring the space needed to embrace this new identity, what is it I ask myself.

But the answer shall arise in time.

No pressure now to define the whole process, as it takes time to experiment and test new tools.

Yes, AI more specific ClaudeCode has been my focus on many levels.

The time studying in a group is over; now comes the time to jump and practice and find how I can innovate.

It feels so 1996, with the advent of the internet, how I jumped to the new tech and created websites out of the need to communicate. Then I found out what I could actually do with these tools, and it brought so much innovation to my artwork.

From black and white photography to color darkroom to moving images edited inside a computer, oh boy, the early to mid 90s were dope. I was in my very early 30s, and here I am in my very early 60s and feel good as f**k, because the energy is inviting me to reconsider the orientation (nodes) and the structure of my value in how I would like to communicate and express from here onwards.

I can sense the innovation mixed with curiosity and thrill.

I am very grateful to all of my bodies, or how we are “bodied.”

I recently listened to this awesome podcast with Will Rezin and my homies Joel and Yerasimos from Here for the Truth. The way Will eloquently describes body work is purely felt as he utters word by word.

Grateful for trusting my inner self up in the cloud. Link below.

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The weight + the impatient speed to build

The Sun in Aries conjuncts the newly entered Saturn in Aries; these two are still in a new phase, with Neptune in Aries, and Venus approaching Chiron in Aries towards the end of the sign too. We still have Mars, the North Node, and Mercury in Pisces. The energy is slightly different from the energy of the other planets in Aries. In Aries, there is impatience and a desire to start something, bu…

“Time forks perpetually toward innumerable futures.”

— Jorge Luis Borges, The Garden of Forking Paths

In Borges’ story, Ts’ui Pên attempts to write a novel and build a labyrinth. Everyone assumes that the novel is chaotic and the labyrinth is never completed. The revelation is that they are the same thing, because the labyrinth is the novel and the novel is not linear. One storyline does not exclude the others, but every possible outcome occurs. In one version of reality, a character kills someone. In another one, he is killed. In another one, both survive. Realities do not cancel each other. They exist in different timelines.

So there is no point in feeling that I am missing the boat, because time is always working perpetually. There is not one boat, there are different trajectories, and alignment determines which branch I may inhabit or I may not.

Sometimes in one’s life, someone appears first as a person, perhaps a mentee, a friend, or another kind of relationship, yet with time the deeper symbolism of their arrival begins to reveal itself. What once seemed like an ordinary connection gradually discloses an archetypal layer, a role within the architecture of memory and meaning. When that realization arrives, something beautiful occurs: the symbol becomes lived reality. Even if paths diverge and the two never meet again or hear from one another, the encounter has already delivered its frequency, opening a new field of perception and possibility. For that reason, I remain grateful to a few people in my life who have served precisely that purpose. And if you are reading this, you know who you are.

The ignition of a flame that, instead of consuming itself, guides the inner path and integrates what was once forgotten.

We carry soul contracts with many, some resolve and dissolve, some become transparent and others validate those that remain are pathways to integarte, and I remain grateful.

People I once held very high in terms of integrity have been revealing themselves over the past weeks and months. Many influencers are simply showing who they really are and what they truly care about. It has been fascinating to watch, almost like balloons popping in a room full of cactuses. One after another, the image dissolves and what remains is the person.

At the same time, I recognize that I am also revealing myself more openly. Some of you may not resonate with me anymore, and that is perfectly fine. This is not about better or worse, and it is not a moral judgment. It is about integrity. When a person, an idea, or a situation is no longer aligned with me, I simply stop following it. Nothing dramatic, just clarity.

And honestly, I love this moment in time. It feels refreshing. The masks fall, people stand where they truly are, and from there we can choose our direction with much greater awareness.

The Split

What I see is the split, a split so defined, it is already divided. It runs through conversations, cutting through attention, challenging any motivation; the split shows up through the way people orient themselves in the world. One can perceive it before one can articulate it as something entering the field and the body can feel it immediately. The signals could be expressing a subtle tightening in the chest or a slight acceleration in the mind. As perception sharpens, the nervous system registers the divergence way before language catches up.

The split is energetic, like a wavelength it shows up in how attention is directed, responding also in how value is woven, at times how authority is embodied or applied. Some movements may be felt amplifying while saturating; others may feel withdrawing and falling deep within.

I notice some could accelerate toward visibility or shyly refine coherence in smaller bands of resonance. Both currents circulate at the same time, and the field holds them simultaneously spaciously.

It is interesting how perception makes things absolutely different and how people are discerning and sometimes judging what they see based on their own expectations and projections. Obviously, we are creating this new reality, but a lot of it is a hall of mirrors, and this hall of mirrors is horrific because we just came out of fifteen years of complete delusion.

This hall of mirrors is so vast that it allows our lives to be reflected inside ourselves. Within each of us there is also a horror of mirrors.

The sensation resembles standing at a river delta. From above, the water divides into multiple channels. Each branch carries movement forward while separating gradually from the others. The difference between those channels becomes visible only after some distance has passed.

The Planet Pluto, the archetype of evolution speaks differently through each generation. Those like me born in the mid-60s with Pluto conjunct Uranus in Virgo may have ruptured systems through discernment and analysis. During the time while we were born, institutions were critiqued, carrying the frequency that all frameworks need to be examined and possibly exposing inefficiencies, the question becomes: can they be changed? Or shall we surrender to the ocean of “it is not my responsibility to fix all broken parts” and let them dissolve.

There is an evolutionary necessity here to surrender the drive for perfection; to accept that some things cannot be fixed through analysis and must instead be allowed to dissolve into the Piscean ocean.

The funny joke was that the protesters, the rebels then, became the yuppies and established a new order exactly opposite of what they were against by the beginning of the 80s. I see that a lot recently, how the split lives within us, the part that is a blind spot where we cannot really see ourselves for how we are but as a projection of what we would like to become. The irony.

Transiting Pluto in Aquarius now forms an inconjunct to that Virgo signature, forcing a recalibration of the impulse to critique systems and asking what we will actually do with the knowledge we gained.

The Millennials

There is a cohort that often acts as a bridge into this generational pattern. Individuals born between November 1985 and early 1986 carry a rare configuration with Pluto conjunct the South Node in Scorpio. Many of them arrived with an instinctive awareness of hidden power structures, psychological intensity, and the deeper mechanisms that shape collective behavior.

Their evolutionary movement points toward Taurus, toward stability, embodiment, and value. In many ways they stand at the threshold between the older cycles and the Capricorn generation that followed, sensing the collapse of power structures before the larger generational confrontation with institutions fully emerged. Carrying the South Node in Scorpio, they possess a cellular memory of how power corrupts; they are the Guardians of the Gate who must choose between seeing through the hall of mirrors or simply building a more sophisticated one.

History resonates across time, my life direction (MC) sits at 13° Scorpio, which is the exact coordinate where Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune formed a triple conjunction in 1307. The world remembers 1307 as the year Dante Alighieri began his descent into the Inferno. It was also the year the “Spiritual Architecture” of the West was etched into the collective degree of Scorpio.

On Friday, October 13, 1307, King Philip IV of France arrested the Knights Templar and destroyed one of the most powerful and secretive institutions in history. This event gave name to the famous Friday the 13th. It remains a primary symbol for intense, transformative, and shadowy power dynamics.

I work with harmonics and frequencies because I can hear the interference pattern between that medieval reset and our own. Sitting on my MC is the fixed star Alphecca, the ‘Jewel in the Crown.’ In the ancient sky, Alphecca represents a sovereignty born out of exile; a ‘crown’ that isn’t granted by an institution; it is found only after one has been ‘stripped of earthly status,’ much like Dante in 1307. My Moon at 12° …

A conversation between my good friends Paul Tarantino from Byte federal and Efrat Fenigson from You’re the Voice podcast back on February 16, 2020, since then so much has unfolded.

Paul invites us to reflect about these turbulent times, Efrat frames the moment as a global tightening of identification, digital control, while I place it within astrological cycles such as the Saturn-Neptune conjunction and the Aquarius eclipse cycle, arguing that society is entering a reset where the future depends on individual sovereignty rather than governments or saviors.

Bitcoin appears throughout the dialogue as both a practical tool and a discipline of consciousness, inviting people to regulate their actions and understand money with clarity, a process that restores responsibility and authenticity.