I am OPTimist

Why am I so shaken by this? Because by listening to him over the years, I learned one essential thing—that his strength was in creating meaningful dialogue between people who normally disagreed. There were times when I wanted to give up, when I didn’t want to engage in dialogue anymore. But just listening to him, to the way he stood with courage, asking questions and responding to them, taught me something. It taught me that if I learned to be eloquent, I could carry a dialogue with meaning. And it didn’t depend on the other person—it depended on my ability to stay open. That is his legacy to me. And now, I will miss him terribly.

Today is a sad day for the world.

I turned to his progressed chart on the day of his death. A progressed chart is different from the natal chart because it measures the unfolding of the soul through this lifetime. What I saw was striking. Venus was transiting his first house, right on the progressed Ascendant. It opposed Saturn and it squared the progressed Sun and Pluto conjunction in Scorpio at the root of his chart. This is the wound to the throat, the silencing of speech, the sudden interruption of creative expression. The Sun and Pluto with the North Node reveal a karmic culmination, the soul reaching its evolutionary threshold.

At the same time Uranus and Neptune were conjunct in his progressed sixth house in Capricorn, with Venus rising in awkward inconjunct to meet them, a fated alignment. This shows that his voice becomes more than personal, that it becomes an echo which carries forward through generations. Though his life was short, Uranus and Neptune with Venus show the vibration of his words rippling outward, sparking awakening in the young and offering reflection to the older. His Mars, Moon, and Node conjunction in the fourth house in Sagittarius tied this destiny to the roots of his being, while Uranus crossing his natal South Node tore open the karmic past in one shocking event.

The story in the sky is unmistakable. A voice silenced in life becomes amplified in memory. Saturn closed the door, but Uranus and Neptune opened another. His words remain as resonance, carried like a wave through time, echoing strongly for those who are listening now and for those yet to come.

Note: Charlie Kirk (1993–2025) was the co-founder and CEO of Turning Point USA, serving as its chief fundraiser and public face from its founding in 2012 when he was 18 years old until his death. According to The New York Times, he turned the organization into a well-funded media operation backed by conservative donors. On September 10, 2025, while on stage at Utah Valley University for a TPUSA event known as “The American Comeback Tour,” Kirk was shot in the neck. The shooting took place around noon as the event began.

If you believe in something, you need to have the courage to fight for those ideas - not run away from them or try and silence them.

~Charlie Kirk R.I.P

Fragmentation

Here I am, contemplating all the changes that I have witnessed in my life and in the world, and looking back and looking forward is something that I love doing, but always anchoring myself in the present moment. Because I love studying my chart and the chart of others, as I do many readings a week, and I also look at financial charts, I am observing how the behavior of the world is unfolding. I am observing behavior, but I am also tracing patterns that repeat themselves through history and patterns that repeat themselves in my own life. It is interesting to see that while I cannot predict things, I can start observing also my behavior and how I respond to the environment, how more or less the upcoming transits or progressions in my life could unfold. Again, I am not making predictions. I am just saying, oh, I have this sensation that this probably is going to unfold this way. And then I can look back and say, because in the past, these were the patterns and the tendencies.

Uranus is about to turn retrograde at one degree of Gemini (09/04/25), moving back into Taurus and traveling all the way to 27°. It will remain retrograde until February 4, 2026 — five months exactly before the next eclipse season — and then moves forward again, re-entering Gemini along with Venus on April 26th, one day before my birthday. This is the last revision before the leap forward, the last pause before individuation jumps into new form. Uranus propels us to change; Uranus says this is no longer needed; Uranus deconditions what has crystallized and stopped growing.

As Uranus goes retrograde, I think back on the last seven years since 2018: what values I was able to give myself, where I am heading, what the new territory is. And even if I do not yet know it fully, I can begin to sense it.

So I do this myself, but I also have two anchors that I work with. Two practitioners that I work with monthly and mirror and hold space for my unfolding. And I make recordings of my thoughts daily. Some of them become articles in Substack. Some of them go to the pool of the chapters that I am writing for my book. But mostly it is something that is a mirror that helps me reflect the progression of my life.

The word individuation is central to this. If you are into Jungian psychology, you will be connected to it. It means to liberate yourself from trauma, liberate yourself from your conditioning. Jung started using this word in his early work and made it central in Two Essays on Analytical Psychology (1928). He wrote:

“Individuation means becoming a single, homogeneous being, and, in so far as ‘individuality’ embraces our innermost, last, and incomparable uniqueness, it also implies becoming one’s own self. We could therefore translate individuation as ‘coming to selfhood’ or ‘self-realization.’” (CW 7, §266)

For me, the path of individuation is a path toward joy and toward self-love. It is far from aligning with powerlessness or staying bound to victimization; it is about discerning the strength that comes from embracing my inner child, letting that part of me be seen and integrated.

In my life, there have always been disruptions that make me land in new territory. And it is always about initiating these shakes. The world is shaking, and at the same time I am awakening into new realizations. I carry a Moon balsamic to Neptune in Scorpio, fused with my Midheaven, so the emotional field and the dissolving of form have always pulled me toward closure, toward endings that feel like gateways yet full of divine inspiration.

In studying evolutionary astrology, I found some tapes from my first classes with my teacher around the end of 2017. It is interesting because in one of those tapes we were talking about how my chart is pretty much about balsamic (ending) relationships. Jupiter is balsamic to my Sun, Mercury retrograde kazimi leans toward the Sun in Taurus in the third house, always pulling thought and voice into integration, into distillation rather than expansion, a grounded synthesis emerges in every query.

But I also have a couple of points that balance the chart: the oppositions of Saturn and Uranus, of Chiron and Pluto, and of the Moon and the Sun. These are like anchors in the chart. They give me the polarity that I need in order to snap out of whatever individuation I want to do. Saturn in Pisces in my first house faces Uranus in Virgo in the seventh, an axis of endings and beginnings of form and disruption, of structure and sudden needed breaks. The Sun in Taurus opposes the Moon in Scorpio, a full moon written into my birth, teaching me how to stand in polarity and let both sides speak with intensity yet grounded in the embodiment of the material experience.

I do it even with so many balsamic signatures. I do not simply rest in dissolution. The Aquarian Rising, the quincunx from Uranus in Virgo to the Ascendant, the South Node of the Moon in the eleventh house — the constant impulse of Uranian energy keeps me awake, keeps me starting again each day. This is the energy that brought me here to myself now, but it is also the energy that is helping me define the direction of my life. And one component about Uranian–Aquarian energy is using the practice of observation. So I am always observing, and also the balsamic part is about synthesis. And this, with my 6/2 profile in Human Design and the Left Cross of Alignment, proves that my design is here to realign with the new person that I need to be and utilize the aspects that are supporting this realignment into a new reset. I am ready to be walking the walk and not just talking the talk.

This is why I see individuation not only as closure, but as beginning. Without the component of individuation, I could just rest in the dissolving movement of my balsamic chart, but individuation insists on birth. It insists on waking up every day, all the time. The quincunx between Uranus in Virgo and my Aquarius Ascendant is the signature of daily adjustment, of being pushed into alignment again and again. This tension keeps me alive, keeps me refining my choices, keeps me awake to beginnings.

So I am looking at this and I am looking at the world reset of February, and I am looking at my next birthday, and I am seeing that Pluto is ascending. It is going to make me go into a completely new me. It is almost like I am in a new shop trying on new clothes, not yet ready to wear them outside, but becoming familiar with the new clothes and the new ways of seeing myself. I was born into a balsamic chart, where so many cycles are closing — the Moon to Neptune, Uranus to Pluto, Jupiter to the Sun, Mercury leaning into the Sun, Saturn in Pisces. Dissolution and completion are written into my beginning. But now, as Pluto rises on my Ascendant, it does more than continue that balsamic tone: it forms a quincunx to my natal Uranus in Virgo. This is not the Virgoan 150° quincunx of internal crisis pushing from within; this is the outer 270° quincunx, the pressure of society, environment, and relationships demanding alignment. The emphasis to break free is amplified — it is now or never. I am already there, but not yet fully there, standing in the passage between what has ended and what is demanding to begin.

It is incredible because my North Node is in the fifth house. So part of my vulnerabilities is to really show up and validate myself and give myself the value that I need in order to just come out on the stage and be completely me with my arms open. And I am starting to do that more and more. It has been a beautiful unfolding for me. The South Node rests in Capricorn in the eleventh, ruled by Saturn, which sits in my first house in Pisces — the ruler of the past positioned in the house of the self, at the end of the zodiac. A cycle closing, a new one opening through me.

I have given myself so much time in the last few months to really integrate this. It feels like a very big rehearsal for something unknown, because we do not know what the great reset is going to b…

Back in April 2022, I wrote this description about what an eclipse is. (moving it to the end)

Two fictional points: the nodes and eclipses. “It is particularly important to stress that when dealing with the nodes, both of them should always be considered, and not only the north node, as it often is done. We’re dealing here with a line, not with a mere point.” — Rudhyar.

Back to the future:

This year, on January 11th, 2025, the South Node of the Moon entered Virgo, and the North Node entered Pisces. We are probably right in the middle; we’re still 18 degrees, so a little less than the middle, and this cycle is going to end July 26th, 2026. Let’s remember the previous cycle: the North Node was in Pisces and the South Node in Virgo from June 23rd, 2006 until December 18th, 2007.

What was happening in your life? Why were you surrendering? Why were you so meticulously discerning?

So right now, not only do we have these eclipses in this nodal axis, but we have Saturn, that takes 30 years to come back to the same place, activating these eclipses as it goes back to Pisces. The lord of time has already been a few months in Aries showing us where we have to be based, have courage, become individuated.

Suddenly he says “oopsie, I forgot something, I have to go back, try to fetch it.”

The whole deal with Saturn going back is not to fall into a role that has been outgrown, like for instance:

any role of victimization: poor me, it’s just happening to me, I can’t believe it.

Anything that takes you away from your own responsibility and you start blaming even the mosquito that is hovering around your skin,

stop it! that’s when you know that you’re going back to the past and it’s not a good place where to be.

Facing the Mirror

-So what’s going on here?

-What’s going on?

-Have you done any changes that feel like big accomplishments in the last few months? Have you let go of a lot of s**t that you never thought you were going to let go of?

-Are you fed up with certain things in your life that kind of dissolve into a new beginning?

Well, hold on to your braces because there’s going to be a little bit of a shake, and we’re going to be thrown back to the past just to make sure that we didn’t forget something. Imagine you’re going back to that rabbit hole that it took you forever to get out of because you finally saw the light, but now you’re given the last opportunity to say:

-are you sure?

-are you sure?

-are you REALLY sure?

Because the reset of 2026 onwards, there’s no way back. That’s why I find the coming eclipse so fascinating.

Things are happening. I always see things from the optimistic point of view. I can’t do it otherwise.

And even in moments of darkness, I look at myself in the mirror and go:

Come on, Monika, there’s always another way. Come on, we can do this.

So here’s the deal: If you still think there’s a part of yourself that is still faking it and nobody has been able to catch that lie, this is the time for you to face yourself completely in the mirror and go: I can do better than this. I can take responsibility for these snafus, whether it’s in economic decisions, whether they’re relational decisions, information that you got wrong, creative endeavors, how you deal with your personal daily habits, your professional career, how you’re projecting yourself outward, your ideologies, and even how you tell lies in front of yourself when you’re in front of your unconscious. That’s a double whammy: seeing things being revealed to you and then saying, “no, that’s not happening!”

Movement = Mutation

So yes, we’ve got a little bit of time, five months, which is great, but don’t max it out!!! Can you imagine having second chances in life and then making lists, but not just making lists, enabling those things to happen? As you make the list of what is not happening, make another list of what you’re going to do about it and then project yourself into the future, a year from now, where you’re going to be.

Use your imagination, use your feelings, use the power of assumption to get out of this whirlpool, because we can all do that. But it only needs movement. If you don’t move, you’re going to stagnate, you will get caught up in the current.

I’ve been doing so many deep studies in resonance and basically I can only reduce it to one word: movement.

You move or you don’t grow.

Movement equals mutation and evolution.

Voices in Resonance

“If Pluto represents the soul, as Green suggests, the immutable aspect of the consciousness, or what I term the core of the deep self, then the South Node of the Moon represents the prior life, inter-uterine, early childhood ‘ego’ experiences that have arisen to express those deep unconscious drives.”

As Mark Jones writes, “With Pisces the potential exists for this stable identity to surrender to the reality of the soul, the higher self, a transcendent and immortal Being of which individual consciousness is merely an aspect. If surrender is allowed to happen, the person can experience a rejuvenation of the psyche whereby space and time are seen as playgrounds of the spirit”.

Rudhyar echoes this: “Saturn in Pisces is guiding us to return to the source from an earthly perspective, calling for presence—not showing off or checking out, but truly showing up”.

Jeffrey Wolf Green adds that “melatonin is only actively secreted within the brain when there is decreased light... meditation is a function of the pineal gland, and over time it will actually dissolve the Saturnian boundary within consciousness separating the egocentric consciousness and the Soul, in such a way that over time the center of gravity within consciousness now becomes within the Soul, not the ego”.

And as I have said: “Movement equals mutation and evolution. You move or you don’t grow.”

The First Eclipse — September 7, 2025

The first eclipse happens on September 7, 2025—a lunar eclipse at the full Moon, exact at 2 p.m. Eastern Time. What stands out is Ceres inconjunct the Sun in Virgo, which points to a sudden matter that must be handled in a personal and precise way. This draws attention to how you’re voicing discernment in the area where the South Node has been traveling. In evolutionary terms, South Node in Virgo with Ceres and Mercury carries karmic memory of over-analysis, self-criticism, and duty. The growth edge here is to practice discernment without punishment, to care for the body and voice in ways that liberate rather than constrain.

At the same time, there’s clear support from Jupiter, which is trining and sextiling the nodal axis. This acts as emotional support, guidance, and even grace toward surrender. It emphasizes the possibility of becoming more whole while still honoring responsibility. With Venus inconjunct the North Node, a sudden shift may surface around creative value or self-worth, asking you to check in with your emotional body, your creative sense of value, and how you express it. In evolutionary terms, Jupiter trine the nodes often represents protection and opportunity. The soul is invited to trust a larger picture; the challenge is to avoid collapsing back into the Virgo worry and instead allow trust to expand the path forward.

There is also a Yod, with the North Node and the Moon at the apex, and Mars and Venus in sextile forming the base. This alignment acts like a karmic turning point, emphasizing surrender and balance: how you care for individuality while opening to creative validation. With Mars and Venus involved, the pivot is evolutionary—balancing desire and action (Mars) with value and attraction (Venus). The North Node and the Moon pull the story forward, directing the soul toward trust and surrender rather than grasping at control or overemphasizing self-sufficiency.

Alongside this, Uranus trines Pluto while Saturn and Neptune continue their longer passage through Pisces, with Vesta and Juno opposing in Scorpio. This backdrop shows collective transformation working in harmony with individual breakthroughs. But there’s also tension: Mars square Jupiter ma…

NOTE: audio file for the book chapter starts at 11:01.254

“The unexamined life is not worth living.”

~Socrates (via Plato, Apology)

Losing Friends. Does it hurt?

This Saturday we have a new moon in Virgo and I want to share chapter 11.3 from my audiobook The Nature of My Reality that carries the title, Embracing the pulse of life: Losing Friends. Does it hurt? pages 144-150.

I wrote that chapter very close to the Virgo new moon last year that happened on September 2nd, 2024. That lunation landed in my 8th house right on top of my natal Pluto at 11 degrees of Virgo, and it opened a cycle that unfolded through the long Venus and Mars retrogrades of this year. Those retrogrades shaped everything. Venus and Mercury retrograded from Aries back to Pisces in my second house back in April, reconnecting me to value. Mars in Leo retrograded to Cancer from the 7th to the 6th house and showed me how I use energy, how I work, how I embody, how I take care of the little things. Together they created the sacred ground for what I am facing now: anticipation of Pluto crossing my Ascendant around my birthday in 2026.

Pluto across the Ascendant is a once-in-a-lifetime transit. It does not happen in one day, and it does not happen to everyone. It is a process of many years of shedding skin and becoming a new person. For me it began when Pluto entered my 12th house back in 2011. Since then it has been about bringing light to what lies in my unconscious, exposing hidden patterns, understanding the roots of relationships, and moving through individuation with integrity by embodying my own sense of value. It has been slow but it has been steady.

This is why the last Virgo new moon matters so much. It was preparation. At the time Jupiter was conjunct my Venus in Gemini, Mars was about to connect to my North Node in Cancer, Saturn was transiting over my Chiron in Pisces where the North Node is right now in the second house, and Chiron was on top of my Mars in Aries in the third house. That structure of my chart was lit up: 8th house, 7th house, value, intimacy, wounding, healing, 2nd house. It was a threshold. Period.

This year has been about relationship with the unconscious, with Pluto, and about preparing for the Ascendant passage. Pluto is also squaring my Jupiter long-term, and it started squaring my Sun and my Mercury. So this is going to be a few years of showing up as a new person with updated values and grounding myself in my own experience. Also very important has been the passage of the nodal axis on my 8th–2nd house axis, and Saturn and Neptune squaring my nodes have opened a window for me to deeply create an environment where outside feedback is no longer craved and outside validation is no longer needed. An inner space has shaped a vessel in motion that flows in trust. Yes, I know the image alone is vague and poetic, because I can only feel it.

Now moving from that threshold into the present, I’m writing because tomorrow’s new moon in Virgo is the first one of this month, and the next will be on the 21st of September, and that will be an eclipse where Saturn is going to be in opposition at the last degrees of Pisces. I’ve been contemplating a lot this week what it means where I am and why I’m speaking of last year and the next—because I see time as a long-term arc. The passage of Pluto across my Ascendant is not going to happen from day one to day two. It begins with the first passage on my birthday in 2026, then it will hover back and forth on that critical point until finally entering fully into my first house in January 2028. So I’ve been contemplating longer arcs in my life to understand where I’m progressing.

Uranus left Pisces, moving into Aries in March 2011. Neptune entered Pisces that same year, along with Chiron, which stayed until 2018. Jupiter did a brief stint in Pisces in 2022, expanding the themes there. The nodal axis was reversed approximately nine years ago, from November 12, 2015, to May 9, 2017: North Node in Virgo, South Node in Pisces. Neptune was joined by Saturn for the last three years, leaving briefly for Aries in the spring of 2025, only for both to return to Pisces for a few months this coming fall, until they finally make the much-anticipated conjunction at the archetypal degree of zero Aries—the reset where our individual potential can become more than just a dream. Pisces is the end of the cycle, the place where we all return to source, and that is what we are progressing to.

So what am I talking about here? Well, one of the things I see is that this decade, that long decade, has given us a lot of pollution and lack of clarity, especially in everything that is labeled “spirituality.” I think there is a problem with that word. We all have a spirit incarnated in our body, so somehow we all live with spirit. What changes is the level of awareness. Calling yourself a spiritual person is an oxymoron. It is like calling yourself a physical person or a mental person, because in doing that you edit out something essential. This is very Virgo-like: separating and dissecting until you don’t see the whole. Pisces is the whole of everything, and Virgo as polarity is about separation, analysis, and critique. The whole scope is to be able to integrate both.

It was also the decade known as fake it till you make it, and living in New York was the ground zero for that. That is when my life became disillusioned, and it accelerated toward the end of the decade when I took the impulse to leave the matrix and move to Miami Beach. As Saturn and Neptune traveled together through the last degrees of Pisces, it became obvious to me that I needed to integrate the polarity point, which is Virgo. And Virgo, where the South Node is right now, has created an incredible opportunity to revise, to refine, to discern, to integrate, and also to surrender to what it really means to be incarnated—spirit incarnated.

What happened to me this week is that I realized: it is not so much why did I miss Bitcoin last decade, but yes, I was very much immersed in my spiritual and emotional awakening, with its delusion and confusion. I was focused there, and I completely missed the boat on the physical reality of what Bitcoin could mean. This is not good or bad. I don’t have regrets. It was just what happened. Other people got on the boat, and perhaps now they are trying to get on the boat of integrating their emotional self, becoming more holistic instead of continuing to fragment.

So my thought with this new moon is that there is some uncomfortable relationship to Uranus, because it is going to square the lunation, and there will be a quincunx with Pluto in Aquarius and Saturn–Neptune in Aries forming a Yod, a finger of God. While Venus in Cancer squares Chiron in Aries, themes of value, courage, and movement are also activated. It raises an interesting question: what is it about your journey right now that is taking you to a different place? Where can you begin refinement—an upgraded version of yourself? It could be your mind, the way you relate to people, or the way you relate to the little details in your life. To find out look at the houses Virgo/Pisces land in your chart.

That’s all I’m going to say. It’s a marvelous life. I’m super grateful every day for the possibility not only to have the kind of relationship I have with my own needs, but also to be supported by wonderful practitioners. So yes, losing friends hurts, but it would hurt more if I stayed in places, situations, or with people no longer aligned to my frequency.

And now I am looking forward. The Virgo new moon in 2026 will arrive on September 10th, landing at 18 degrees of Virgo, exactly where the South Node of the Moon is right now, hovering for weeks, and in opposition to my Chiron. By then the North Node will have moved to Aquarius/Leo. Mars will again be in Cancer, and Pluto will have already crossed my Ascendant. Chiron will be in Taurus, starting to conjunct my Jupiter, and Uranus will b…

“Nothing is more permanent than a temporary government program.” — Milton Friedman.On August 15, 1971, Nixon suspended the dollar’s convertibility to gold, claiming it was “to stabilize the economy.” It was never reversed. This single move severed the Bretton Woods system and made the U.S. dollar a pure fiat currency, setting the stage for decades of monetary expansion and chronic devaluation.Happy anniversary, filthy, devalued U.S. dollar. Thank you for giving us everything that fiat erodes: health, food, medicine, education, savings, peace, family values, and infrastructure, all culminating in a decadent society. But that is why we Bitcoin.

Having plenty of time these days, I have devoted time to create a sense of presence in my relational values, and I’m deep into the writing of my second book. I’ve also been toying with the idea of creating more content for future presentations and conferences, while balancing my artistic production with what is considered by many to be the most important innovation of this century: Bitcoin. So, there’s never a dull day for me, because I’m either writing about it, reading about it, listening to podcasts about it, questioning about it—it has really become a state of being.

These days all roads lead to Bitcoin. Even if you are on the uninformed lane (those delaying understanding because they don’t yet feel the urgency) of trusting the government and leaders, eating their food that is full of poison, taking their Pharma without questioning, and allowing their children to get indoctrinated both in schools and universities, and breathing the air that is absolutely polluted with cloud seeding and what not, at the very end they are all talking about Bitcoin—silently, unknowingly, and unaware—since their cost of living has skyrocketed and they can’t seem to connect it directly to the structural failures of the central banking system: persistent inflation, endless wars, occupations and genocides, currency debasement, infringing on property rights, and credit expansion pushed to pathological extremes.

And then you may ask, why should you care anyway? The price of Bitcoin—between $118,000 and $124,517 per coin these past weeks (btw it reached its all the time last Wednesday)—seems insane, and you give up, not knowing that you can buy a fraction of it, hold it, and watch its appreciation over time. Or you still feel that none of these things that I just recited are at all connected. As Mises says, “Every decision in life is an economical one.” Most people want a life that is full—one they can enjoy, with meaningful memories and real contributions to society. But instead, many are marching, painting their identities with pronouns and pigments that cover all spectrums, without tapping into the origin of all things. The origin of the duality between socialism and capitalism has been lost in time—slogans recited without understanding, the true meaning forgotten. No common sense, only anger and reactionary ways—the full difference between creativity and degeneracy. It is the lack of awareness of not seeing Bitcoin as a state of consciousness that leads to that uninformed experience.

It is very interesting to see how engineers really get the structure of Bitcoin from the get-go. It has taken more time and trust in others for non-engineers like me to understand it from a more philosophical and consciousness point. I now get the whole structure of it because I did spend time questioning it, educating myself, and being in the presence of people who know—and I was unafraid of asking the right and wrong questions that offered the potential for humility and possible wisdom.

Well, I got myself all wired up here, but won’t offer you an inch of what my thoughts are—yet. The book will have those. But being me, I’m going to leave you with a list of videos and books that tap into the current economic landscape that, as we breathe right now, is being absolutely reshaped. And the worst thing to do now is to keep ignoring it. Read my words: by the next year, hopefully there’s not a very big rug pull, but the opportunities that you have as a normal person are going to be dimming because you didn’t pay attention to what was going on.

At the very end, I’m going to say it: you know, folks, if you ever want to learn seriously about Bitcoin, you can do it online, you can spend hours, but you can also ask me. If you have twelve hours of your time and a small amount of resources to engage, I can serve as a facilitator and teach you the curriculum of My First Bitcoin, so you will have all your questions answered and maybe you will stop being unaware in economic matters that are super important—because that will make you free. And then you enter the rabbit hole of understanding why health, food, medicine, education, and wars—everything—is connected to money.

“All rational action is in the first place individual action. Only the individual thinks. Only the individual reasons. Only the individual acts.” ~ VON MISES

We just had the Full Moon in Aquarius, and this is perfect action. If you don’t act according to your frequency—if you are still following a leader without understanding the complexity of all things—then you won’t be able to understand why this context is so important. But then again, you do you, and I’ll do me.

Astrology Summary for Virgo New Moon August 23rd:In summary, this is an opportunity for initiating a new cycle of refinement that is grounded in discernment, for integrating new ways of thinking and being without losing the thread of emotional sovereignty, for restoring individuality as the basis for all negotiation and expansion, and for releasing the patterns that keep freedom dependent on external approval or collective structures. With Saturn retrograde re-entering Pisces, the definitions, boundaries, and commitments you hold now may lead you into situations that will need to be revised. The upcoming eclipses across the Pisces–Virgo axis will amplify this process, bringing events that reveal where refinement is required, where discernment has been bypassed, and where the truth you live by must be aligned with the reality you are actively creating.

Current transits influencing this cycle:

* New Moon at 0° Virgo square Uranus in Gemini

* Inconjunct Saturn and Neptune retrograde at 1° Aries

* Mars in Libra square Jupiter in Cancer

* Venus in Cancer square Chiron in Aries

* Venus in Cancer opposite Pluto in Capricorn

From Nixon’s fiat experiment to today’s inflation, wars, poisoned food, and collapsing trust—why Bitcoin is more than an investment, it is a state of consciousness.

Resources (long list, take your time)

History of Money & Foundations

* The Creature from Jekyll Island (audio book) — G. Edward Griffin

* The Secrets of the Federal Reserve, (audio book) by Eustace Mullins

* Saifedean Ammous: The Bitcoin Standard - book presentation in Vienna, Austria May 2018

* The Fiat Standard (lecture 3 FIAT technology) — Saifedean Ammous

* Broken Money (video animation)— Lyn Alden

* The Big Print — Lawrence Lepard What bitcoin did podcast

* What Is the Problem? — Joe Bryan (available in multiple languages)

Economics & Sound Money

* Principles of Economics (Lecture 1: Human Action) — Saifedean Ammous

* What Has Government Done to Our Money? (audiobook) — Murray Rothbard

Fiat Failures

* Fiat Food — Matthew Lysiak (The Bitcoin standard Podcast)

* Fiat Medicine — Ahmad Ammous (what is money show)

* Fiat Education How to Learn Like a Bitcoiner - Saifedean Ammous + Corey DeAngelis and Daniel Prince at Miami 2023 Bitcoin conference

* Fiat Health: Chef Pete Evans: Radical Health, Radical Freedom (You’re the Voice Podcast)

Macro & Contemporary Finance (reserves, lending, stable-coins, Bitcoin reserves)

* Jack Mallers on Treasury Bonds, Stablecoins, and Bitcoin (Preston Pysh)

* Preston Pysh — The Great Monetary Reset is here (You’re the Voice podcast)

You know, when I was born, Uranus was in a balsamic relationship to Pluto. This is a generational imprint. That was the mid-60s, and it completed between 1965–1966. And what was also peculiar about it—they were both in Virgo, Saturn and Chiron in Pisces were making an opposition to this rare conjunction (it takes 140+ years for they to meet). That created a very special situation for the people who are right now entering into their 60-year-old moment.

Dane Rudhyar wrote then: “What is happening today, as Uranus starts its new cycle of relationship with Pluto, is that the very foundations of man's collective mentality are being transformed; for Pluto represents indeed the planetary aspect of mind, the one mind of Man.”

“Pluto, I repeat, refers to the collective mind of humanity. In a narrower sense it refers to some closely interrelated and authoritarian human groups... But when Uranus acts upon Pluto... Uranus does not allow Pluto, as it were, to pull everything to the bottom or core. Uranus periodically fecundates and always stirs up the realm of Pluto; and we are witnessing such a fecundation.” 1965

So let’s talk about this trine that we have right now. It’s the first time that we have a trine with these two planets after their 1965-66 new cycle while we’re living. Probably the time before this trine happened, it was a closing trine—was in the 1922s. The last opposition was in 1901: the structure of the world began to reconfigure. Nations emerged, empires fractured, ideologies clashed, and industry consolidated under new frameworks of power.

But it has taken 60 years for Pluto and Uranus to create a trine as I spoke in recent articles about aspects. And they’re doing it: Pluto at the very beginning of Aquarius and Uranus at the very beginning of Gemini, both air signs. One is fixed—Aquarius—and the other one is mutable. So there’s this energy. It’s a supporting energy bringing new ways of doing things, while at the same time there’s a transformation and revolution in society.

You see, Uranus is ruling Pluto that is in Aquarius, so they’re really supporting each other. So the question is:

-where in your life do you feel that you are bringing some inner mental revolution?

-And how is this going to be transforming not only your life but your place in society?

(Pluto and Uranus in an opening trine signifies a maturation of the revolutionary cycle seeded in the 1960s. They are stabilizing vectors; air signs bring networked cognition, distributed innovation, and collective pattern restructuring. Aquarius sets the collective container. Gemini disperses the data. Uranus rules Pluto in Aquarius, so this trine is recursive, it supports a long-range synthesis of disruption into form.)

Relational clarity and inner refinement

And although these transits are not personal, they become personal now that Mars just entered Libra. We had Mars going through Virgo in the last weeks, joined the South Node of the Moon. It was initiating a way to look into the systems and the habits and the way our very complex mind edits out and edits in situations. It was all about initiating purity in the discernment and also calibrating obsessive ways of refinement.

Now that it’s in Libra and in opposition to this Saturn and Neptune retrograding in Aries before they reenter Pisces, it is initiating a way how to create a balance between all these other subjects. So let’s say it is saying: hey, I’m an individual that wants to liberate myself from many things that I no longer care for, but how do I respond in relationship to others, in relationship to my needs, in relationship in general?

And I can tell you that I’ve been going through that deeply. That’s why I’ve been trying to keep some silence and I’ve done some specific things not to be out there that much. And it’s going to be a retreat that I’m enjoying.

An infinite array of options my friend!

This grand trine between Uranus, Pluto, and Mars is offering that possibility of confronting how we are individually, as persons, starting a balance in our lives in response to society. Also, it’s sextiling that Mercury retrograde about to go station direct in Leo, that is also opposing Pluto. So it’s almost like the whole sky right now—it’s creating a perfect situation for recalibrating, rebranding, seeing things in a positive way and mostly as they are devoid illusions.

(Mercury retrograde in Leo opposing Pluto supports deep inner reflection on self-expression, self-validation, and visibility. What do you need to say; not to impress, but to clarify authentically? Since January, we’ve been activating the same degrees, while Mars, the New Moon, Mercury, and soon Venus—all moving through Leo; have opposed Pluto in Aquarius, confronting each layer of personal expression with the pressure of the collective field. The area in your chart where Leo lies has been under steady fire—testing your courage, self-respect, and visibility. This moment is demanding that courage become embodied, that expression come from coherence. Each opposition has revealed where behavior still conforms to unseen systems of consensus and detachment—and where something more vital is ready to emerge. Be based!)

There’s no way that you can feel that you have no options, because if you still feel that there’s no options in life, my God, you’re not doing the work. Because there’s so many—plenty—but they depend on your action. They depend on the capacity you have to look inside of yourself for the things that are there for you to evolve.

So look at your triggers and look at how you respond to your triggers. And that’s going to be the biggest invitation, the biggest window for this upcoming full moon in Aquarius that is happening on the 9th of August. The Moon says: hey, how do I identify the patterns? Because the Moon is going to be conjunct Pallas Athena. So how can I identify the patterns that are important for me to feel comfortable in society, with my group, my peers?

It is squaring Vesta and Juno in Scorpio. So you got to look at the obsessive parts for your addictions. You’re creating too much devotion to the things you’re addicted to. And Ceres sextile in Aries is saying: you know, if you make a ritual about your individual needs, you may understand what they are.

Now the Sun in Leo says: dude, we got to do this. We got to show up authentically. We can’t keep on copy-pasting other people in society. Like, mimicking is not the way. Life is not mimetics. Life is emanation.

Ending cycles of approval

Now the last thing that I see about this beautiful celestial conjugation in the skies is that Venus—it’s approaching Jupiter in Cancer. Venus has been softening the way our values are needed. It’s in a balsamic relationship to Jupiter. Jupiter has not gone retrograde yet, but it’s creating an inconjunct with the full moon, a trine with Vesta and the North Node, and a square with Ceres.

So Jupiter is expanding and making like an underline of what are those emotional values that you have been forfeiting, or fading, or letting go under the radar in order for you to feel okay in society.

(Venus and Jupiter in balsamic relationship close a cycle of value inflation—asking you to decide what nurtures your emotional growth versus what simply maintains external approval. Jupiter’s trine to Vesta and the North Node supports purposeful devotion. The square to Ceres insists you re-parent yourself.)

Ontologies That Dissonate[A living exchange with Robert Breedlove, August 2025]

To close, I want to share a short exchange I had recently with Robert Breedlove in X, he is the host of What Is Money?—a channel where I was a guest close to a year ago. Robert often brings deep philosophical threads, and sometimes we resonate, sometimes we differ.

This one is a perfe…

Even if this truth is ugly, its more important to be aligned that to be faking pretty lies.

Because at the very end, my fear is to abandon myself again… that is not going to happen….

Yep, I feel like staying silent and being present.Though many, many insights and realizations have been surfacing in my consciousness,as I navigate them, this week feels precious in its silence.I do have a gift—a humming gift.

Be well, you all.

P.S. I recently discovered that empty space is not void, and it is also absent of abandonment.I’m enjoying the feedback of inner sound.

NOTE: There’s a new section on my blog called MONIKA IN DIALOGUE. Alas, I haven’t yet figured out how to make this section send emails to current subscribers—so I’m posting the link for now. Bear with me until I figure it out… (I will, for sure).

This week is a good anniversary for me. On July 30th, when I will possibly drop this newsletter, I’ll be celebrating five years since I moved from New York City (Williamsburg), after 27 years, to Miami Beach without knowing what was going to happen. Yes, yes, we were in the middle of the craziness. It had been a couple of months—or three—since I was in New York and unable to go out and lead a life of tranquility, because not only had the whole collective kind of collapsed into this nervous breakdown and fear about dying, but there I was already taking care of my body.

In order to keep my immune system sound, I had started a protocol detoxing my body from alcohol—not heavy drinking, but I would enjoy a good wine here and there. But that starts adding up in your liver, your gallbladder. So I did a protocol, very intense, where I lost 35 pounds. I mean, I could not tell I had 35 pounds more—they had been adding up through the years.

Anyway, I did the cleanse that took overall approximately six months. I moved here—here is Miami Beach—and just trusted that all will align, and it did! And here I am, celebrating. This week I’m also contemplating what exactly is coming to a close, especially in light of the current astrology. There’s Mars being around the South Node of the Moon in Virgo, and the Moon is there today.

How am I really embodying this clearing, this flush that I’m doing with many things in my life now?

I’ve been feeling sometimes a little bit sad, but it’s a kind of sadness that relates more to closing cycles than literally me crying about it. It’s just acknowledging that there’s a big cycle that has just finished.

Right now I’m walking over the bridge—Venetian Islands. I started in the last four months to do a very deep protocol on relating to my body in a really different way. Virgo, sixth house, relates to the habits, the little things that you’re not seeing—especially when you are stagnated.

Stagnation. What about it? In TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine), stagnation relates to the lack of movement and the lack of circulation in the blood. Therefore, when you stagnate and the circulation doesn’t flow, you feel lethargic, digestion is not flowing, you feel tired, and in a way, you start accumulating anger, because the liver and gallbladder’s energy regulate the emotion of anger. And anger is a yang energy that wants to come out, no matter what.

I’ve been working on that, and this week I noticed it even more because the stagnation was very deep. Therefore, these are sort of relational activities that I’ve been doing—I had to go deeper. I added more red light therapy. I added smooth movements in my body that include hypopressives and some fascia movement, brushing, and vibrational plate with humming. All very subtle, coordinated with long walks, short swims, and deep, deep, deep meditations and contemplations.

I decided to start again Bob Monroe’s Gateway Experience from the beginning and go up in crescendo. Having practiced it since January 2024 and seen enormous results, I am being slightly more intentional in scope, aligned with my frequency as I comprehend dimensional relativity. So instead of formulating a plan of action, I am slowly in alignment through instinctual magnetism and intentional emotional wavelength resonance.

The next month, we will have two eclipses on the 7th and 21st of September, and Saturn goes back to Pisces. Uranus stations retrograde, and much later Neptune goes back to Pisces. We’re going to start having horror images of all the things that we forgot to do before the big changes come in. The deadline for all the changes is February 20th, 2026, but that doesn’t mean that you’re going to start working on that on January 2026.

This is the moment to actually look into what’s stagnated. Try to make a routine or a habit that will be very wholesome for your kind of frequency that needs to be realigned in your life.

The other thing I want to say: 2006 was the last time the nodal axis was in the same place (Virgo/Pisces). I have to say that I went through a lot of cleansing back then—a lot of fasting, a lot of understanding the edges of my body. I believe Saturn was in Leo, going through my sixth house then. Now we have Jupiter in Cancer, same house. So I don’t have to go through extreme cleanses. I don’t want that in my body anymore. I just want to have an expansion of this frequency of caring. But it comes from a more adult and responsible way. The discipline is there, but it’s not this blind discipline that is asking for more than it should. It’s more like a wise discipline that knows how to nudge this energy.

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Reflection and Release

If you look back into different kinds of periods—first, five years ago—it’s the end of July 2020. Had you already figured out that everything that was creating the tales was designed to fulfill your fear to such an extreme level that you would comply? Had you already figured that out, or were you still in fear mode, hoping that there would be a cure you would take no matter what? Because for you, the freedom of traveling or just being—going socially to clubs or restaurants—was more important than retaining the real freedom of your body, the property of your body.

Did you realize that then, or did it take you another year, another set of vaccines, boosters, etc., another round of getting sicker without understanding why? Are you still—which I don’t think—if you’re still in that loop, you wouldn’t be reading me. So I’m going to skip it. I don’t think that any reader who has brought awareness in the last five years—waking up from the numbness and this program that we’ve been on since we were born—I don’t think they’re in that loop anymore. I don’t think they would be reading this, for my intention is always to attract the souls that can interact with my frequency at that specific moment.

So that’s one of the questions.

Now, the next question is: What was going on in your life mid-2006 through 2007? What was it about the purge that you were doing? Uranus conjuncted the North Node in May 2006, in the same area where the North Node in Pisces is transiting now. I did get a breakthrough then. Did you?

Now let’s look at where this South Node is falling in your chart. In my case, it falls in the eighth house. So for me, it’s really about releasing—eighth house—all these things in a way that I merge with it and then I evolve. It’s a very full frontal release—not with fighting—but merging with it, understanding it fully, being transformed, and having a real metamorphosis in the sole act of awareness. Because what I want is to evolve at all costs. Mercury retrograde in Leo, which rules the South Node, is asking how I relate creatively to all these new habits.

If you’re a Virgo rising and this axis is in your first and seventh houses, you’re releasing the perfectionism that shaped your identity—the habits that made you feel worthy, but now feel like costumes. Mercury retrograde in Leo here asks: can you love yourself when the system you built breaks down? Can you release control and become more creatively attuned to who you are becoming?

If you have this in your fifth house, the release is around how you’ve measured your creativity—especially through service, results, or comparison. You may realize your gifts have been managed instead of expressed. Mercury retrograde in Leo asks: can you play again? Can you move toward joy, not just obligation?

If it’s in your tenth house, you’re releasing the image—the way you’ve worked to be seen. The performances that earned recognition but cost you energy. Mercury retrograde in Leo here is burning through the old architecture of approval. You’re being asked to speak from source—not from structure.

So I’m not going to go through the…

Kyle Huber

Satoshi gifted us Bitcoin so we could bring our gifts to the world. Episodes feature host Kyle Huber and guests discussing bitcoin, entrepreneurship, fitness, and a broad range of topics and ideas, all. I joined Kyle back in April, while I was installing Arcana, at the IEB University of Washington in Seattle. A fellow Bitcoiner, filmmaker, and friend—we had a great conversation.

Here are the timestamps (they link to his YouTube channel and are also helpful for the video above):

Introduction and Monika's Background [00:00]

The Process of Individuation [5:10]

From Artist to Bitcoiner to Free Human [12:34]

The Layers to Understanding Bitcoin [17:23]

How to Know if You're Being Authentic? [20:22]

Finances as an Artist [26:02]

The Power of Critical Thinking [35:00]

A Major Astrological Transition [49:59]

What Do YOU Bring to the World? [1:05:13]

Prometheus Story [1:16:56]

Saylor's Chart [1:23:02]

Achievement vs. Purpose [1:28:49]

Why Bitcoiners Want to Spread the Love [1:37:31]

Systems for Harnessing Creativity [1:44:59]

Public Art Projects [1:51:03]

Critiques of Modernism and Contemporary Art [1:55:35]

Do You Want to be an Artist or Be Free? [2:04:10]

Letting Go of Traumas [2:08:45]

Evolving Through Relationships [2:20:11]

Why Adaptability Matters [2:25:41]

Quesiton on the 2nd Coming of Christ [2:32:00]

Synchronicities and Alignment [2:41:14]

Polymatheia [2:51:48]

"An investment in knowledge pays the best interest"

- Benjamin Franklin

I’ve added a new section to my site: Monika in Dialogue — a space where I share transmissions that arrive when I get invited to speak. Topics include evolutionary astrology, Bitcoin, Human Design, art, value, perception, creativity, curiosity, consciousness, human action, and whatever else asks to be voiced.

Me, Me, Me, Me

So the other day during the session I was having with Mark, I was telling the story—reminds me of my mother, but it reminds me more about how I relate to myself through others. And I have Leo ruling my seventh house. What does that mean?

I spoke last week about relationships, so: relationships are ruled by the sign that is on the Descendant.

So the way I relate to others, in a very Leo way, it’s all about my self-validation. It’s about shining in the relationship, or as my mom would say: me, me, me, me, or in Spanish: yo, yo, yo, yo, yo.

I think she was probably the first person, along with my father, that witnessed that my relationships were very self-centered. And as I said last article, I use the surface of a relationship—something, a person, or thing—to reflect and to project an image that I want to see, so I can integrate a part of myself that is on the other side. And once it’s integrated, that’s the goal.

But sometimes, still, even knowing all this, I would project something that I feel is lacking—or that I have in excess. Like, for instance, I’m very critical about something, and then I just realize after a while that, oh boy, I’m just speaking about the same feature—but I have it, but I have not integrated it. That’s why I see it in the other.

Anyway, let’s go back to 2004, probably 2003–04. I had started doing a lot of meditation, and I had found teachers, and I was in this joy trip of like, wow—silencing my mind is something I didn’t even know you could do. So I was enjoying it.

But as much as I was silencing my mind with all these Buddhist meditations and insight meditation practices, I started understanding what the Buddha said about, you know: first become aware of your breath. Then become aware of the felt sense. I want to talk about that felt sense later, because I don’t think I really understood that until later on, when I got into the work of Gabor Maté.

Because it was very abstract for me—to take care of my senses, or to pay attention to practice. And then it was like: be aware of your emotions. And that was where I was refocusing, because that was the main reason why I started asking some teachers to guide me that way—because I was very emotional—driven by my emotions. Since I was little, I didn’t have any distance between them and what was happening. I just didn’t know how to respond. I was always reactive.

And mostly with the Moon in Scorpio—emotions are very, very extreme. They’re like either: oh yes, or oh no. There’s nothing in between. So it made me very radical about many things.

So I’m doing these meditations, and I start quieting my mind, and starting to understand my emotional body. What was the practice? The process was like, you know: focusing on the breath cycle. And then—I’ll say it again—I did not understand very well the felt sense. I kind of knew what they were talking about, but I did not experience it. Because I would jump immediately to the emotion, and I would stay with the emotion. But I would label it, like: anger. Anger. This is the way it feels to be angry. That was it.

But even just doing that for a while made me acquire so much insight about what was going on. So I started getting very curious about how I was so reactive. And one day I decided to do an exercise. And there was no social media at the time, only email—the way you connected to people that cared for you.

So I remember I just picked like 20 people around my life—whether they were people I worked with or dealt with, or family or friends—and I decided to ask them. I remember the subject line was: “I will never ask for anything, and this is the only favor I will ever ask for. So feel free to do something about it, but if you don’t want to do it, just don’t do it.”

So I wrote: “Dear blah blah blah, I don’t know if you know, but I’ve been doing therapy for a while, and I’ve also been doing meditation, and this came up to me and I want to do this exercise. I want you to tell me, with all your honesty, what are the three things that you think are my strengths, and what are the three things that you think are my downfall. You don’t have to explain much, you just have to label them. And I will really appreciate it. I will not respond to this email. I will probably delete the email afterwards, because all I want to see is—I want to see how I respond to that. Thank you very much. Blah blah blah.” Sent the email.

I got a lot of responses. And this is where I learned that when people respond to you or react to something you say or do—it’s not about you. It’s about them. Because they’re projecting something on you. it is about how they relate to the question.

But hear me out. This was fun.

So I got a friend that just responded like: “What’s wrong with you? You’re getting me very worried. Why are you asking this type of question?” And I was just laughing, saying like: wow, this person doesn’t want too deep [lol]. But hey, you know, that was his response. It was a he BTW.

Then I had a removed cousin—that she called me up, and she’s like: “Are you okay? Maybe you should go to a real psychologist, like a real psychiatrist. Maybe they should give you pills because I think you are a little bit derailed.” And I was like: okay, thank you.

Then I had the friend that I thought we were okay—she just used this space to tell me all the things that she hated about me. But the email was pages long. So she had waited for an invitation from me just to tell me everything. And hey—whatever. I get it. I realized she actually hated me more than she loved me. And the way that—whatever she was saying—it wasn’t that it was right or wrong. It was like: wow, that was intense.

So I did not get into a confrontation. She actually wanted a confrontation. But I said I was not going to reply, and I never spoke about it. So I probably just gave her the space to say whatever she wanted to say, but she didn’t have the guts to say it to my face, so she used the mail for that. Whatever.

And so on and so forth. So I had that.

But one person who didn’t reply—well, she was not very good at emails—was my mom. So I asked her. And I was having vacation with her. So she wrote on a little piece of paper, and she was laughing and laughing and she was giggling. And then she gave it to me, and it said three words. It said: yo, yo, yo, In English: me, me, me, me.

I looked at her, and she looked at me, and we started giggling. And she said: “That’s all I remember Monika. Since you were born, it’s all about me, me, me, me, me, and this is no different.”

And I was like: wow. Wow. This is the way she sees me. She sees me as very self-centered—which could be true. Because hello, I’m speaking about me all the time. This blog is all about my perception of my life.

Lots of answers pointed to the same thing: my greatest strength was also my downfall. Like, I’m very intense and I never give up—so I always get what I want. On the positive side, I’m a go-getter. On the negative, they saw it as very intense energetically. (like Too much, I’d suppose.)

So let’s share the story, and we’re going to talk about that kind of perception—and how our embodiment is sometimes more analytical. Let’s say you have a Moon in Virgo, so you start saying things aren’t working. You have a Moon in Gemini, and your mind is jumping here and there and you could be very funny. Or you have a Moon in Aries—and I mean, if you thought Scorpio was all about me with extreme intensity, Aries doesn’t even know that there’s other people in the room. Forget about it. It’s all about them.

But in a different way, because—I guess that I’m speaking about my seventh house ruled by Leo in my chart. And just the way I interact with others—I make myself the center of the conversation. But I’m also curious about others. So I’m not just all about me. But I guess that my mom saw me like that.

My mom had her Moon in Virgo. So she was very critical about anything that I would tell. She would usually come and tell me the wrong stuff.

She very rarely said …