A reflection on retreating inward. In this episode, I explore what it means to exist inside my shell—not out of fear, but out of necessity. It’s about overstimulation, quiet survival, and learning to honor stillness without shame.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the quiet pain of feeling dismissed, unheard, and betrayed by people I once trusted — from a decade-long friendship, to an ex, to a job that called me “family” and still threw me away.

We’re unpacking what it means to try over and over again and still not be received… and how to honor the hurt, even when you’re told to “move on.”

This one’s for anyone who’s ever questioned whether their pain was real, or if they were just “too sensitive.” Spoiler: You’re not. Your feelings deserve a voice.

What does it really mean when we feel a spark with someone?

Is it love? Destiny? Or just something deeply familiar?

In this episode of Ignoramus, we untangle the messy truth behind the idea of “meant to be.” Through the lens of ADHD, relational trauma, and emotional re-patterning, we explore how intensity can disguise itself as alignment—and why so many of us feel an almost spiritual obligation to follow through.

We talk romanticization, the guilt of letting go, and what it means to finally choose peace over programming.

This one’s for the over-lovers, the spiralers, the folks learning to walk away with grace.

What do you do when love lingers, but connection doesn’t?

In this episode of Ignoramus, host Kevineh kJoiee Emman Freeman unpacks the grief that comes not from being left—but from staying. From holding onto a bond that once felt mutual but now feels misaligned. From loving the potential in someone who no longer lives up to the person they once promised to be.

Through raw journaling, reflection, and deep emotional honesty, this episode explores mourning the living, the unfinished, and the unspoken.

This one’s for anyone who’s ever asked:

“Am I asking for too much—or just asking to be seen?”

What do we owe the people we love? And what do we owe ourselves?

In this episode, I explore the complicated and tender space between community and self-preservation.

I reflect on the friendships that changed me, the betrayals that broke me, and the lessons that taught me what real accountability—and real love—actually look like.

From bell hooks to Justin Bieber, from chosen family to personal grief—this is a deep dive into care, honesty, and the courage it takes to be seen.

This one’s for anyone who’s ever felt the weight of showing up… and wondered who will show up for them.

In this episode, we dive into the blurry line between healing and hiding. I unpack how ADHD, self-diagnosis, and the internet’s aesthetic obsession with “healing” can keep us stuck in performance instead of progress. We talk about what it really means to check in with yourself—and how easy it is to bypass your own truth in exchange for feeling seen online. If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re actually doing the work or just mimicking what healing looks like… this one’s for you.

Expect honesty. Expect discomfort. Expect real talk.

Let’s ask better questions. Let’s call ourselves out—with softness.

After years of surviving, performing, and pouring into everyone but myself—I had to ask the real question: who am I when I’m not pretending? In this reintroduction to Ignoramus, I open up about heartbreak, identity loss, and the uncomfortable beauty of coming back to yourself. If you’ve ever had to start over with the version of you no one clapped for… this one’s for you.