I'm Perfectly Fine Without You

The most heart-wrenching thing for me is that it was my father’s decision. That my mother said please don’t, I will never talk about my feelings again if you just won’t leave me.

http://archive.org/download/DIfullfile/DIMaster.mp3

There should be good memories, but there just aren’t any. Guess that’s something I’ll always have and unfortunately will never be able to get over.

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_QG/QG.mp3

But that name is obviously not the same name of the guy that I grew up with.

http://archive.org/download/WYfullfile/WYMaster.mp3

You feel like if you have a biological parent they would want to get to know who their children are? It’s so impersonal, like even though the minimal contact that he makes is so impersonal that I wish he didn’t make it at all.

http://archive.org/download/MSfullfile/MSMaster.mp3

I’m not ready to be okay with what happened. I’m not ready to forgive–I’m not ready to…to reward him, you know? Why should I contact you and have this relationship with you when…you didn’t?

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_SA/SA.mp3

I think it remains an unresolved issue and probably always will create some sort of structural weakness in me…

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_AO/AO.mp3

From an early age, I was not able to dream in the same ways or to think about life in such a positive way as many of the kids that were just thinking about cartoons. Like very early on, I realized that my parents were not a source of protection. Very early on, I realized my parents were not perfect.

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_EL/EL.mp3

Um, my mom’s told me that when I was little I used to ask where he was, and it broke her heart because she didn’t want to tell me or she couldn’t tell me. There was nothing that would sort of relieve that curiosity in me…

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_HIL/HIL.mp3

I am not your daughter. You didn’t have anything to do with raising me…You didn’t try to contact us for 14 years…

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_LG/LG.mp3

I rather he die than I say any of the things I thought about him. Because I don’t want to–I feel like it’s too late for him anyway, you know, like there’s no reform. So I might as well let him just, like, die with the thought that perhaps his kids don’t hate him.

https://archive.org/download/IPFWY_AH/AH.mp3