in late march 2021, after a year of lockdown, i got on a plane to costa rica with no plan and told almost no one where i was going or what i was doing. this is where the story starts.

i was about to turn 30.

the universe had presented me with multiple options for how to bring that new decade in: celebrate with the friends i loved but had long outgrown, go to a 10 day silent meditation, or get on a plane and leave it all behind.

in fear and in trust, i followed the voice i'd spent most of my life being guided by while simultaneously half-ignoring—the one that just says, you must —and flew standby to san josé on a flight i was not supposed to have been able to get a seat on.

this episode is about flow state and intuition, about the fear that tries to convince you the magic is gone, and what it actually feels like to commit to yourself. it's the beginning of a five-year journey back to every place i'd ever been on earth, to gather up the pieces of myself i'd left behind.

Chapters

0:00 back to the story

2:46 a year in lockdown

4:58 two voices: fear and a deeper truth

6:47 three pulls—staying put, going inward, or going outward

10:06 choosing costa rica

12:03 flying standby: the seat that shouldn't have been

14:26 the weight falls away on takeoff

15:29 landing in san josé

16:01 the hostel, and the feeling of not belonging

25:26 the bus across Costa Rica

28:44 meeting Temps at Jammin

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the last six months have been the most beautiful ending, beginning, and becoming—a few months each in australia, india, fiji, and the netherlands, where i've been guided to set up a home base and close the full-time nomad chapter of my life.

in this episode i talk about writing and publishing my first book, words about men, the intimate realization that the nomad era was shifting under me, and the move to the netherlands.

the book was published at the end of may, and i've been reveling in the afterglow ever since. i feel very much in the grey-area between lives at the moment: the one that lived that story, and the version of me who gets to tell it. it's a beautiful place to be.

i can't wait to be back in the swing of creation and sharing this story.

i'm so happy you're along for the ride.

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intentional trips is a podcast about my own personal journey, transformation, intentional travel, and the long work of integration. it follows the story of my commitment to build and live the life of my dreams, the magic that unfolded along the way, and the inner work required to truly become who i was always destined to be.

"words about (me)n" is the story of my travels and my journey home to myself over the course of sixteen years, told through the mirror of twenty-four different men who were and are in my life. while the stories in the book are intimate, deep, and leave little feeling to the imagination, there is always so much more to each and every story.

in this interview, i answer some questions about some of the men specifically and explain more what my feelings and lessons were with each of them.

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"words about (me)n" is the raw, true story of my journey home to myself, told through the mirror that twenty-four differtent men have held for me throughout my life. written in poetry, prose, and short story, "words about (me)n" dives deeply into the moments and feelings that changed everything, that rattled through me to my core.

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This is a excerpt of a voice note I sent to a friend today that I felt called to share with the world at large. We were talking about the pull of the darkness that calls to us at times, and the balance of that with the light that lives within.

For me, it's been such a journey of coming to understand that darkness, that little voice that whispers in my ear telling me to deviate from what I know is true to my soul.

For years it was a battle, and lately it's more of a dance.

The only way through it is to love it, to accept it as part of ourselves, and to recognize where it is trying to lead us.

At the end of the day, we get to decide which voice we listen to.

At the end of the day, the journey is entirely our own.

You're doing great.

I love you.

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To understand who and how I was and I was enterting Costa Rica in 2021, it's important to have a sense of what portals had been opened already, and what I was poised to dive deeply into.

There were three psychedlic journeys during the first year of Covid lockdown that helped deepen my understanding of self, expand my consciousness to the edges that it was ready to reach, and open doors to the healing that lay on the horizon.

Through memory and read-aloud journal entries, in this episode I explore what happened during those journeys and share some of the things that were cememted as Truth in me as well as the insights I gained into my own being.

You can read my raw journals and support my journey on Patreon, as well as connect more to my story on Instagram, Sibstack, and around the internt. Links all here:

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The conversation around food, diet, and our bodies as intelligent vessels is truly an endless one, and one that I will undoubtedly come back to time and time again in this space.

It's so layered, so nuanced, and so truly personal to each and every one of us. For me, it goes so deep that for a really, really long time I truly believed I may never come out the other side.

But the truth of it is: what we consume matters. And consumption goes far beyond what we put in our mouths—it's what we listen to, watch, read. It's who we spend time with and the conversations we have.

It can feel truly insurmountable to start the journey toward more aligned consumption, but it really is just one tiny step at a time. Modernity has done a number on us. Be gentle with yourself.

You're doing great.

I love you.

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2025 ended up being this truly beautiful year of grief. Mourning the existence and the life and the beauty of all that had been in my universe up until that point, the path I had walked, the journey I had undertaken. I was viscerally aware all year that I was allowing myself to linger in the throes of the death rattle, that the journey I had been on for the first 34 years of my life was complete. And that the dawn of what I had always been moving toward, the Me who had pulled all of the other "Me"s through, was imminent. That I had a choice in her arrival, and that I chose to revel in the end before starting the beginning.

It's a fascinating thing, watching your own timeline shift.

As I start out in this new chapter, it's already proving beautiful to witness the ways in which it moves through me, the ways I acquaint myself with what I've always felt and known would someday come.I've realized that speaking to that evolution is part of all of this as well. And that's a bit of what I'm exploring here today, in this particular Present.

Thanks for being here.

You're doing great.

I love you.

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The invisible string becomes visible only in retrospect, and now it's clear to see how all of the stars aligned between March 2020 and March 2021 to lead straight to destiny. From unemployment benefits, to winning a small lottery, to spending a year on a deep dive into my own consciousness, the universe was conspiring entirely in favor of me being poised to dive headfirst into the current of forever that awaited me.

You can follow along on Patreon, Substack, and Instagram to read and see more of the story.

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Setting the scene and the intention for the journey ahead: the undertaking is massive, the story is true, and not a single stone will be left unturned.

Through this podcast series, written work shared on Substack and Instagram, as well as books that are being written as we speak, I'm bringing my entire internal world, my whole lived experience, to life and sharing all I know and love with anyone who finds themselves called to it.

Future episodes will be broken into one of three parts: the trip, the integration, or the present. The trip will tell the literal story of how this entire journey has unfolded; the integration will be a space for spirituality, healing, coming to understand and truly live the lessons taught; and the present will explore whatever is front of mind in this moment.

I'm inviting you on a deep dive into the universe, your heart, and this beautiful planet, all explored through the pure truth of my own being. No AI, no fabrications. Just pure, honest, real humanity and the wonder that all brings.

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