I was obsessed with fairness when I was a kid. I hated the idea that some people had more than others. I thought certainly there must be some way to balance the scales, and make things good for everyone.

While I still believe we must work toward a more equitable world, I am coming to learn that life is random and cruel, as much as it is beautiful and breathtaking.

And we all have things to grieve. Losses, disappointments, heart breaks.
 
Our desire to believe that things can be better -- will be better - can be used as an escape from feeling the truth of what has been lost.

And holding to that fantasy of a guaranteed, better future, makes it impossible to be present to what is true now.
 
And nothing can be created if we are not here, in our present moment.

So, let us begin with grief.

If you're suffering, or having a hard time right now, I see you.
That sucks. It's not fair. I'm sorry.

And if you're feeling like the struggles you're going through are pulling you away from the opportunity to create, I see that too.
That sucks. It's not fair. I'm sorry.
 


If you're struggling with making time or space for your creative practice, I hear you. I'd love to connect. Come find me on Instagram @SamGarlandNYC.



(photo credit: Janae Jones Photography) 

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