A lot of odd questions have come my way recently so I decided to post this talk covering my religious thoughts from age 19-now. Hopefully this explanation will cover my thoughts and impressions throughout those years and why I made the moves I did, and what led me finally to affirm Orthodoxy (some years back, actually!), though I had no local church to attend in my area. Eventually I did find a mission church so here is that story. What is funny to me is that some who have accused me of "hiding" my past need only look to older podcasts from a few years ago where I was very open about all this, but since there are many more readers and listeners since then, an update is fitting.