Kickin It with KeeKee

According to Merriam Webster’s dictionary “Grief” is defined as “a deep sadness caused especially by someone’s death”. In my own personal journey of growth and self love I had to go through a period of sadness. Uprooting every pain, trauma, bad memory that I was holding onto caused me to go into a depression. Not understanding what exactly grief was, I thought that something was wrong with me, that I just couldn’t handle it. It wasn’t until I looked more into grief where I realized that grief doesn’t just take place after someone’s death. But that their are many things in our life that happen and occur where something is taken from us, we lose something. A relationship might run its course. However , it all comes down to how you grieve. Grief is a gateway towards healing. Allowing yourself to feel the emotions. The more you feel, the more you heal. 

Laces ?  Many have asked the question “Kee, why’d you title your book “Not Bound by My Laces” ?” Are you talking about actual shoes laces. Maybe? Find out in this episode how I was inspired to create the title of my book and what am I referring to when I talk about my laces.  

Dating is a part of life,  it’s how we connect with another individual to build a partnership by getting to know them and about them. Dating for me was a new experience after being in a long-term committed relationship for years, having to start over and get to know someone new was weird.  It  brought up a lot of insecurities that I faced growing up and still had. In this episode, I talk about how dating has not only effected my romantic life, but how it also pushed me to go back within and rediscover myself. To date myself and fall more in love with me. Not seeking external validation or approval. Learning from the lessons it has taught me on my journey. I was able to see where I went wrong when I started dating again. How I was seeking external validation and not loving on myself enough. And on the journey I went from “I’m not looking for anything serious” to knowing exactly what I want and deserve. 

We all have our own path in life, which is our Journey. It’s filled with side streets, detours, and even sometimes you run into some dead ends,  in  which you’ve  got to find your way back from. However,  it is our Journey. It is the steps we take, the experiences we endure that help shape and mold us into the beautiful people we are. It starts from birth, your Journey. However most are not aware of how in control of it they are , like me. It wasn’t until last year, I really embarked on a Journey of self-love and acceptance where I started to find my voice, my confidence. Where I wanted to dive deep into who I really was and no longer limit myself.  To become the woman I am today and still to be. Here is a peak into how I started with tips and tools that helped me along. It’s been an experience, however my Journey is not over. It has only just begun. 

I dedicate this episode to Esteban DeJesus. 
May you fly high with the angels, and watch over all who loved you. Rest in Power, Rest in Love, Rest  in grace, and Rest In Peace. 
November 27,1991 - July 11, 2021 

Leading up to the release of this project I’ve encountered a lot of experiences and emotions that made me realize I was still bound. Bound by past thoughts, fears and insecurities. I no longer wanted to live life that way. Along came Freedom Day! Freedom Day is the underbelly of this project, it goes hand in hand of what both my book “Not Bound by My Laces” and podcast represents. It’s about being true and authentic with who and what you are. Not being limited or bound, but accepting and embracing yourself, flaws and all. It is to feel unrestricted and open to flying as free as a bird. Freedom Day will be everyday for me! I choose to live unapologetically and authentically me. Every step to get to where I am today represented a different meaning of Freedom for me. Everyone has a different path to freedom, if you choose to do it for yourself. This is only the beginning of mines. 

Thank you for coming to Kick It with me and welcome to my Podcast! My name is Keelah but I also go by KeeKee. I was born with severe unilateral Clubfoot affecting my right leg. Life has definitely had its's challenges, however it hasn't all been bad.  Sharing my journey of self-acceptance was not always an easy thing to talk about, my anxiety would go through the roof. However, I have reached a point in my life where I am no longer hiding, not binding myself to false truths and society's standard of beauty. I embrace me and all that I am. Here is a snippet into my Journey.