Since the release of the initial episodes of the podcast, Pam has been taking direct action to help others who are affected by trauma, sexual assault, trafficking and abuse. She has been volunteering in an outreach program that offers assistance to cis and transgendered women on the street with the organization 1DL2H. In this audio clip, you will hear Pam telling the story of her early adulthood, her struggle to manage the impact of her trauma, and her discovery of the importance of community. She was asked to speak publicly about her experiences at a fundraiser for several of the programs run by 1DL2H. More information can be found at www.1DL2H.org, and will be discussed further in the next episode of the podcast.

In our first episode of 2021, we dig into dogfighting, it's history in Columbus and real evidence of underground dogfighting rings here in the 1970's. Could this turn up a lead?

We explore one of the names on Pam's list, James Yost, a man who she thought played a central role in her memories as a young girl. This story, however, is about to get a bit more complicated.

Unfortunately, due to concerns over safety. This episode has been removed per the wishes of the person it centers around. The overall podcast, however, will not be impacted.

This episode is a phone conversation with Pam's older sister, Amy, who takes us back to the 70's but this time from her point of view.

While Pam has done so much incredible therapy to get to where she is today, she still has moments where her emotions overwhelm and imprison her. These common moments in the lives of victims of trauma are usually buried away, hidden from the world and experienced in complete solitude. Pam has decided to instead share this moment with you, recording herself on the floor of her bedroom as the emotions debilitate her. The effects of trauma are often disregarded by society, employers, the government and larger institutions because moments like this mostly go unnoticed. Imagine trying to raise a family, keep a steady job, pursue romantic relationships or maintain roles in society while experiencing what Pam is going through in this audio.

We ask the questions that will be at the heart of our investigation and Pamela answers a few from her years of searching for truth. Warning: this episode contains a few curse words.

Pam reads some of the messages she has received in the first month of this podcast's release. If you would like to send a message to Pam, please email [email protected].

Pamela takes us through the last memory of her childhood that we will use for our investigation in this podcast. It is a strange meeting that would come to define a lot of her experiences as a kid and give this podcast its name. On a later episode we will dig into a lot more evidence on the KKK in Ohio, but for now here is the last piece of Pamela's Story.

This segment is an audio exploration of 1978, a year of serial killers, cult movies, racial discrimination, and disco. It was flashier than the 20's, bloodier than the 40's, and sexier than the 60's. Monsters jumped out of fiction and onto the daily news broadcast, egged on by even more global attention than that of Hollywood celebrities. Crime sold the news, sex sold music, and horror sold cinema. The traditionalist fears of white America grew despite complete systemic control, and regardless of the simultaneous dwindling of national civil rights energy from the 60's. There is a dark nostalgia entangled in this audio: it is a time in American history that often gets remembered blissfully by those with white privilege and bittersweet by those who fought day and night to participate in and develop Black music, art, and overall culture.