Kondwani's Reflections on Self Discovery

This is a spontaneous, unscripted,  experimental poem, done during one of my morning gym session in October 2020.

Inspired by a friend called Simone, we were discussing how it would be so cool to make podcasts people could listen to get their vibrations high and just start the day on a good note.

You can hear the gym music, and weights in the background, making this podcast quite special as the environment created the most suitable background noise.

Reflecting back to this poem, the dome is a happy place ( for example the gym), where I feel rejuvenated when life is just too hard. The dome is my sphere of influence where my high energy and positivity rubs off you. The Good Vibes Dome is where you want to be when darkness and the shadow in near,

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/episode/5GZ2cytLIW6LSRKLlwTIIY?si=PYW1PqC7SoGkw7WiY3IEew

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/za/podcast/poetry-reflections-the-good-vibes-dome/id1542054587?i=1000501030550

2020 has been emotionally, mentally and physically challenging for almost everyone. The poem Anyway 3.0 is a reflection on how despite all the challenges we are facing, we should continue the good fight and not give up.

A poetry reflection on how despite being broken emotionally in the past, we are still able to continue with life and love like nothing ever happened. 

We go through so many challenges that at times we give up on ourselves and deem ourselves unworthy. Our broken wings and battle scars come with lessons and wisdom, and they will always have a  story to tell.

Written in December 2018 as I sailed the dark storms.

The poem titled Who Rescues Superman reflects on how at times we have so many responsibilities, social pressures and expectations from the world, and yet when we face our demons and are sinking, there is no one to turn to, no one to fight for us, because the world already expects us to be better off and fighting for it.  Superman or Woman is anyone that is a leader in any form, for example, the parent, the firstborn, the boss, the pastor, the role model, the breadwinner, etc.

We are constantly superheroes during the day and an average Joe at night when the world is not watching. The dear fellow lightworker, remember to be authentic, explore your God-given gifts, be yourself even if most will reject you because society doesn’t approve. 

Dear soul seeker,  be strong but also remember it is okay to be weak sometimes. It is okay to cry, real men cry, a real man knows that bottling up pain and sorrow never did any justice to anyone.

 Dear traveller, on this journey, may you never feel alone or die in silence, never feel like the man of steel as sometimes your rescuers may not be superheroes, it could be a Mr nobody or the man on the street. But still remember that your inner shadows, kryptonite, will need you to rise and conquer them. 

May we continue to empower each other, share good vibrations and be lighthouses to those passing throw the toughest storms.

Past traumatic events that took place in your childhood tend to play a role in shaping who you are as a person. Insecurities don't surface out of anywhere and there are deeply rooted in issues that need healing in order to overcome them. If insecurities are not dealt with, you fall into a trap where you want to seek constant validation so that you feel more secure about yourself.

Healing is a journey and we do not walk alone. The Traffic Reflections are reflections from my journey with hopes to start a discussion around healing and why we need to start with the inner self before we can change and address issues in our societies. Men are most prone to neglecting this journey because some of the toxic traits and behaviours are socially acceptable by hour peers and we tend to see no need to improve on ourselves.

Growing up from the townships in South Africa has allowed me to go through the midst of darkness and light, as I seek to find myself and discover the true purpose of life and what I as a person need. We get so caught up in impressing people that we lose our authenticity and so this series is aimed to start the engagements around these issues and how we can overcome them one day at a time.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/episode/0CLv6RFKJcMBgZvLG4HU7c?si=SoFfkwY9TZCprde9GCtNSA

Apple Podcasts: 
https://podcasts.apple.com/za/podcast/traffic-reflections-dealing-insecurities-constant-need/id1542054587?i=1000500227472