I cared too much once and it destroyed me. Now I don't think i care at all. Is that a bad thing ?

We spend so much of our time waiting for life to happen, when in reality its us who have to change and do things to make life happen. Stop waiting around and waiting to live life when there is so much out there !

Many times then not, I feel myself retreat into a place that is only reserved for me and it only exists in my mind. This is where I am still.

My hearts been heavy today and my mind a cloud but I'm accepting that the fact that today will be a slow day. Be at peace with yourself and im sure you'll find everything being alright. I'm not at peace, but I'm learning to find it somewhere in my life. I think you should too.

I feel like everything now is a competition. If you aren't suffering then you aren't doing well. Phrases like not having enough sleep and missing meals are normalised when they shouldn't be. Not everything is a competition. Moving forward at your own pace is fine. Its enough.

So many of my nights are spent thinking about the 'what ifs' and 'remember whens' that i forget sometimes to just let things be and exist. Let things go in life but hold yourself accountable, you did something it had its effects and thats that. Dont let it manipulate your life. Only you, the person now, can do that.

Kept it really short today, but what does growth mean to you. Seems like i don't really celebrate my little achievements, but I think I shall I start to and you should do !

Started my morning with some saddening news that lead on to some deeper thoughts. It got me thinking how the biggest spoiler in life is that death awaits.

I started to actually do some work after a good 4 days off and realised instead of actually doing what I needed to do, I was procrastinating. But I mean its not really procrastination, but a higher form of planning.

April starts tomorrow and March will be old news. I'm the same yet not the same. What has March taught me ?