Self guilt is a harsh pill to swallow. You're almost falling down a spiral but you're not at the bottom yet. Learn to recognise the signs and move away. It's not worth the trip down the spiral. Trust me I know.

I feel like subconsciously I knew just how hard it can be to forgive yourself, but today after an small realisation, I wanted to talk about how we differ forgiving others and then forgiving ourselves.

I had an intense today. From an 8 o'clock start to a 4 o'clock finish, followed by another 2 hours of working at home. Being tired is an understatement, but truth be told its all closer to be being over with then it started. And I can do it, we can do it.

Getting out of bed has such an odd thinking process. Like I want to get out, but i also don't want to get. But everyday I do still get out, because eventhough there may be alittle motivation in me. There is still motivation there. Its just so odd.

We all make mistakes. It's what makes us human. It's what gives us memories and emotions that we can look back on and reminisce about. But what mistakes should not do is make us overthink and feel sick. Mistakes are normal.

Today for some reason I went into a really deep thought about how we say everyone is unique, but then are able to generalise things to other people without taking into account changing variables. None of what I said, makes sense today !

It is what it is. What a phrase - a dangerous phrase.

There are some days I have where I feel like my day has passed like a warm summers breeze. Where my mind hasn't felt the need to justify every action it does. Today was one of those days. Sometimes it helps to just do, rather then finding and giving someone else a reason to why you did what you had to do. This probably didn't make sense.

Sleeping is so odd. For some sleep is just that - Sleep. But for some, sleep, a good sleep is a rare luxury where for once their demons haven't seeped through. What an odd thing is falling asleep.

My mind hasn't stopped on one thought today. Its been swarming will all sorts, jumping from one conclusion to another and not allowing time for a break. But it is what it is.