L.O.R.D: The good fight, in an ugly world.™️

I don’t care how others may take it, everything I do is done out of love. Love is kind of my thing. It’s why I changed my whole life around. I want that for others. Life CAN be good. It’s just perspective and life experiences. When you know better you do better. Or at least you should. I’m talking from my experiences because I want others to feel welcomed in spaces I’m in. Or not feel alone or like outkasts because this society is good at making others feel like that but god forbid YOU make THEM feel like that. Here comes all the negativity and repulsive behaviors. CAN’T even conduct yourself with some class or empathy. UNCIVILIZED. I’m here to help that because I genuinely love Humanity.

Just a reminder to dig within yourself and figure out what YOUR issues are. So, others won’t and don’t have control over you. That’s what people want, is to control others. Which NEVER made sense to me because if you can’t control YOURSELF. You have NO business trying to control others. Not just that, it’s NOT your job to do that. Who made you god? Nobody. No other “man” has control over another. EVEN GOD ALLOWS FREE WILL. Like what the fuck?!? Does that make LOGICAL sense?

Just a reminder, that you got this. It’s ALL up to you. If change is to come, it’s up to the person in the mirror. Whether you choose to change or not. That’s a you problem, that’s something you’ll have to deal with on judgement day or when bad things happen. Or if you ever have to pay for who you are. Some roads can ONLY be walked ALONE. Your life may have started out by someone else’s will, but it’s up to you to make the most of it. Why let YOURSELF down? That doesn’t make sense. I love you.

I’m just trying to over-stand what’s going on with me and what’s going on in the inside of myself. I have these questions that others can’t answer. So, I started digging for myself. I started doing the work. Now, I’m in this weird space of growth. Which for some reason, I thought this journey was going to be a lot more beautiful and majestic. NOPE. I was wrong. It’s ugly, it’s scary, it’s humbling, it’s disappointing, it’s infuriating, it’s a beautiful disaster. I’ve NEVER in my life experienced anything like this. It doesn’t seem real. I had all these expectations and it’s NOTHING I expected. Seeing people for the shitty people they are, isn’t fun. I’ve one upped a lot of people but that’s not the satisfying part. Which, if I’m being honest. I thought that would be the best part and it’s not. The BEST part is I’m seeing myself with loving eyes. I’m having compassion for myself and especially my young self. Because that lil girl is very hurt and broken. Everything I prayed/meditated for I’ve gotten or it’s coming. Finding yourself is priceless. But finding Creators is even more rewarding and beautiful. This connection saved MY life. When I wasn’t even trying to be saved. If anything, I was trying to die. Changed my whole perspective on life. That’s why I put myself out here because a pact was made and I’m following through on my end. Nobody else has to understand it because it doesn’t take anything away from me. I love you.

I’m going through it, LoL. But still I want to remind everyone that I get it. Life is shitty at times and it’s hard. Especially, when you start going through things you’re not used to. It can become overwhelming. I know, I go through it daily. You’ll be alright though. Even with f you don’t feel like you’ll be alright. If you feel hopeless, reach out to SOMEONE. Or find SOMETHING that can keep you going. Go search for positivity and love, even if that’s not what you’re surrounded by. We can’t just sit and die. YOU got to fight, even when you don’t want to. Sometimes we got to do things we don’t want to. It’s a part of life. But we can do and figure it out together. I love you.

I’m tired and I feel like I’m fighting this battle alone. Which it gets hard. I’m STILL Human. I’m not some extra terrestrial, LoL. Like, DAMN, y’all not sick of this society? Y’all not sick of the bullshit? I know I am. I BEEN sick of it. It gets old, it’s NOT cute. It gets tiring checking people about being GOOD people. ESPECIALLY, when they portray the role of good. Good is ALSO an action word. To be a good person it takes A LOT of actions. Just like being and giving LOVE takes a lot of actions. This ain’t no joke and it’s not for the weak. Play your part.

About being a GOOD person and the road to getting there. This topic is EXTREMELY important to me. It’s been pushed down my throat since I could remember by people who don’t even have the right to say they are HUMAN. Or push that narrative of being a good person because their actions and character show other wise. These individuals seem to be in positions of power. Which is concerning. It’s concerning because these individuals REALLY BELIEVE they are god or in really close relation with him. So much they pretend to do so in his name. Which is EXTREMELY dangerous. Since others call themselves GOOD people or are doing Jesus/Yeshua work. Then I think it’s only right to start PULLING RESUMES. We need to start seeing these individuals for who they TRULY are and not who they PRETEND to be. CHARACTER is EXTREMELY important. Don’t let no one tell you different. I love you

Don’t play a role that’s NOT you. Not EVERYONE is a gangsta or tough. I KNOW from first hand experience. I KNOW you guys want respect BUT you get respect by being a stand up guy. Who you are in the dark and how you treat others matters. I KNOW because I walk it and live it. One thing I knew for sure when I was young, is people are going to pull your resume if you say you are something you’re not. I ALWAYS had to STAND on business. So I take offense when people are saying they’re something they are not because I KNOW what it takes to have that label. The streets are a dead end, if not the end. STOP perpetuating a lifestyle you know NOTHING about. That shit will get you killed or hurt. I don’t want to see that. You guys are better than that. Even if YOU don’t see it. I love you and I ONLY speak the truth because we sooo desperately need it.

I wanted to focus on MENTAL HEALTH and how IMPORTANT it is. For EVERYONE. I want you guys to see and question the mental instability of others as well as working on your own. I speak about MY life experiences because it’s what I KNOW. This is field research for me. I don’t know a lot BUT I KNOW these things because I have lived them and continue to live them. I’m not in the business of talking shit about others because I’m boarded or to get clicks. I’m talking about HUMANITY because it’s DEEPLY flawed. It’s SoOo deeply flawed that evil is no longer scared to show itself. You got to make sure your MENTAL is on point. That’s why I’m here, to help guide and speak the word of HUMANITY. It’s not a job I pictured as a lil girl but it’s a responsibility I have a commitment to. I take it VERY seriously. You should take yourself and mental health just as serious. I love you.

If you let horrible things happen to others and don’t speak up or try and stop it. You’re not a Human or even good. I’m sick of everyone talking about Humanity but aren’t Human. You can’t speak on topics you don’t know. Don’t believe me, take a look around. Or better yet dissect who you are, at the core and when nobody is watching. Who are you in the dark, how do you treat your children? Being a good person is more than just saying it. I’m tired of the bullshit but more than that. I’m tired of NOBODY SPEAKING UP WHEN YOU KNOW ITS BAD AND YOU SEE THE DESTRUCTION. Heaven would NEVER want any Souls like that. I don’t believe Heaven is packed I believe hell s packed and overflowing into this realm. Look what your religions have gotten you. Look where standing behind horrible individuals has got you. A one way ticket to hell. This has to be the waiting room for something because we are CLEARLY being shown something. And our actions are being judged or something is wanting US to do BETTER. Or at minimum, stick up for others without a voice. I don’t know what’s coming but something is, I can feel it. Make sure YOU’RE on the right side before it’s too late. Most won’t make it to “Heaven” because they CAN’T find it on Earth….