Luke Hand Diary

Love comes in waves - Andy bell

Monday, 17 January 2022

Day two of the motorcycle Ls training/course thing. Passed the practical test and got my Ls, thank God (peace and blessings upon Him). Riding on the highway and stalling in front of civilians sucked! Walk with [sister and cousin’s wife]. Nice sunset. Watched some Servant on AppleTV+. Like this show. Bit of a headache and tension starting to release and start to be felt now that the stress of the motorcycle thing is done. Feeling a bit sick too. Didn’t eat great today I guess. And was out in the hot sun in jeans and a jacket and helmet all day. Ugh. Will be great to have the scooter on the road soon! My ‘grateful’ for today is a dead heat between getting my Ls and Novak Djokovic finally being told Ooroo. 👋🏻 M: 3.5. E: 3.5. 🔥😎😇😰

Day 1 of the motorcycle training/L’s course thing. Banter with the bikies didn’t go so hot. I just want to be allowed to ride the simplest of Vespas, so I’d hoped to do the course on an automatic - but they only have manuals. I didn’t know what the fuck a clutch is or what it does, etc etc etc. Pretty embarrassing to stall about 100 times and fuck up extremely basic exercises, then have how i fucked up and what to do differently explained to me, only to fuck up in the exact same way again - and again. Felt pretty hopeless for a while. Passed the written part of the test. Back tomorrow for more humiliation - and still may fail the practical side of it. Wonderful! One of the other learners was [old friend]! Very long time since I saw him. Good man. The motorbikes themselves were pretty great. Would love one that I could learn to ride in my own time. Went to [sister’s place] after the motorbike thing. Hung out with the boys who were being fun. Headache from all my stressing all day. Early night I reckon. After some snacks. Oo-ee. M: 5. E: 5. 🙂😆😧😠🔥

Stormy night. Lovely. Lightning all through the night. So good. Work. Was tilting at windmills and thinking that my manager was unhappy with me. Asked them for a quick call and tried to gauge the vibe. She might be on to me for not doing enough work, or she might be fine and just not feeling like chatting much. Yolo. Fucked up the roster for next week, even after rostering replied to my first email and tried to check that I actually meant what I’d put on the roster. Realised that I’d fucked up late in the evening and wrote to them with a mea culpa. Hopefully not too late to fix it. Damn it. Went for a nice walk to the he beach. Very flat. The water on the deep side of the breakwater was the clearest I think I’ve ever seen it. Very cool. Beautiful colours. I think some kid teased me to his mum about my fly net cap. Eat my shorts, kid. I’m sensitive to flies. Pick on Luke day again, it would seem. Prince Andrew had some titles or something stripped from him ahead of this legal case. I have complicated feelings about it all that I would like to think through at some stage. Very sad all round. Right or wrong, my thoughts go to Queen Elizabeth. Poor Queen! Which is not to diminish the hardships that the girl went through, but that’s just where my thoughts go. Novak deported. Still trying not to see any details about that saga, but apparently every so-called leader who could kick the cunt out has managed to squirm their way out of responsibility or having to make any real stand, and he still might be able to play. Bumbaclot he. And bumbaclots they. Was planning on smoking some dro and watching the new Shakespeare joint on AppleTV+ but I’ve got to be straight tomorrow, so I’m settling for ice cream and The Servant on AppleTV+. M: 4. E: 4. 😎📈😐🙂

Work. Put the world to rights in a1.5 hour catch up chat with [colleague]. Was thunderstorming all day. Got some really heavy rain. Nice to wake up to and watch on the window. I had no idea that weather was on the cards. Some amazing clouds and skies. Very cool. So many fucking flies at the moment. It’s interminable. Went to Kmart with mum and [sister]. Did a face peel. Felt great! Must do those more often. Doing an indoor walk because the weather kept me inside today and I might miss closing my rings today, dang it. Was so drowsy today. Probably the weather. Been feeling quite slugging lately actually. Sucks. Might need to tweak the old diet. M: 4. E: 3. 😐😴🙂

“Even the darkest night will end, and the sun will rise.”

- Victor Hugo

Work. Walked. Dinner with mum at lady bay. My pedicure from the other day was a game changer. My feet feel very comfortable. Listened to a lot of nice music today. It matched my mood well. M: 2.5. E: 3. 😑😕😐

Up late last night reading and tweaking my dating app settings. Now accepting Matches with quinquagenarian chicks. Checked out Grindr as well but that’s not me. Pretty great just having absolutely zero romantic interest from anyone. Fuck sake. Very sleepy this morning. Work. The court finding that Novak the fucking cunt can stay completely flattened me. Had to lie down for hours and try to stop my brain working at all. Made me furious and totally depressed. So insulting and unfair. I’ve deleted a couple of apps and will be trying to not hear about this shit for a couple of days. So fucked on so many levels. Need to try not to think about it. Going to sleep early. I need some sleeping pills. M: 2.5. E: 2. 😴😑😠😔💩😤😡😢

Laundry. Fresh sheets. Vacuumed. Fed the cows. Walked with mum and [cousin]. Saw an echidna. Organised the cupboard under the sink a bit. Drilled a hole in the Vespa piece that Eric gave me for the oil spout bit. Fits perfect. Vespa storage bit now locks. Very cool! Nice weather today. Too many fucking flies. Watched a movie - not fun. Finally saw the fox in the paddock. M: 3. E: 4. 🙂😎😇