Luke Hand Diary

Crazy windy and rainy. Good burger. Did a few chores. Still very bored from yesterday - just not quite to the point of despair or feeling it in my bones. Moved where I’m staying today, so hopefully that new beginning can spark some positive changes. Finna review the old suicide prevention plan soon. Make some plans for 2022. Last week of work for the year from tomorrow. Some time off will be tight. Got to get my mind right and get some good habits in place. M: 3. E: 3. 😐😑🙂

Most downbeat day I’ve had in a while. I’ve really made a fist of my life. Fuck sake. Awesome station I’ve reached in life. Just wonderful. Interminably boring. Very grumpy today. Didn’t eat til afternoon. Would have preferred to have flicked a switch and spent the day in a coma, if I could have. Went thrifting. Mowed the lawn. Tried making something in Xcode a number of times but couldn’t get it to work. So bored. Fired up the dating apps. Doesn’t feel good at all. Grateful for the day: my bangs looked cute. M: 2.3. E: 3. 😑😠💩😔

Work. Boring day. Insta filter that I submitted yesterday got rejected in Review. I assume because of the Welsh faggots reference. People are so ignorant. Fifth Beatle Insta filter submitted. saw fish again. Saw weird clouds. Lots of junk food eaten today. M: 4. E: 4. 😑😐🙂

Glum. Lovelorn mood from yesterday carried over. Doesn’t make sense, but that’s the way it is. Yolo. Good laundry day. Kept the blinds down and worked in the half-light. Got a bunch of great sounding music from an end of year, best drone albums list. Very nice. Was super flat and thought I’d go to bed at 5 pm. Got a boost of energy and took a walk. Saw some ducklings and some fish from the footbridge. Very clear water today. Mucked around on the computer. Was thinking I wouldn’t have a grateful the day early on, but the ducklings accelerating together was cute. The weather was pretty perfect. Beautiful colours in the afternoon. The song American Music by violet femmes made me feel a certain sort of a way. That was nice. Bin night. Home alone tonight. Eek! M: 2.5. E: 3. 😢😔😑😴😐

Work. Ticked a couple projects off the list. Looks like a few things might finish in time for the end of this year. Fingers crossed. Day went quick. The freight train was half across the road for ages - blocking traffic, causing mayhem. The cops told me off for mentioning it on Twitter. Reported it to the fourth estate as well. Made an Insta filter. Probably won’t get approved. Probably won’t get any impressions, even if it does. Feeling a bit lovelorn because I was told this evening told that Sophie has a boyfriend now. Dang. YOLO though I guess. Sore back from working a long day yesterday. Wore my punchline jumper to the supermarket as a joke - to try to get a smile or laugh or a good-natured jeer from shoppers. M: 3. E: 3. 😐🙂😑

Long work day. Got called out on this job that I completely effed up. Guy called out my piss poor communication in the nicest way possible though. He had cause to really sink the slipper in and make me squirm, so I’m grateful that he didn’t. Tried the “BBQ Shapes roast potatoes” recipe. Not bad! Kind of a test run for Xmas lunch. New ethical jumper arrived. Mum laughed at it. It does look pretty fucked. A little birdy told me that someone from my old work used to have a crush on me. Squee! Need someone to declare kilig for me contemporaneously - like, 5 minutes ago already! Let’s go! Sore back from sitting at the table all day. Bed. M: 3.5. E: 3. 😐😰

Bit meh today. Thought it was supposed to be warm, but it changed very early on in the piece and turned out to be pretty chilly. Work. Had a few wines after work. First time I’ve done that in a school night for a while! Went for a sticky beak at the breakwater after hearing sirens and stuff. Talked to a cop and some witnesses. I think someone drowned. No good! Should finally finish this book that I’ve been reading forever tonight. Pay day snuck up on me. Feel like I just got paid and I’m copping another pay right away! M: 3. E: 3. 😴😑😐

Went to Tower Hill in the morning. Walked up the hill. Nice view. Checked out the tribal (or whatever) gathering area. Got close to emus and a wallaby. Lounging around. Went to the beach - read and had a beer and a paddle. Walked on reefs. Intentionally did a belly flop, per an Instagram kookslam post of guys doing that. Actually hurt a bit. Had a couple naps. Nice light in the evening, around sunset time. Cornershop and Steve Roden are on high rotation. M: 4. E: 4. 😐😆😑

Visited nephews for coffees. Watered their huge monstero tree. Alfie visited. We made a YouTube video of a walk to the river. An unvaxxed bint off of Hinge messaged me - she might be due a jab or two. 😉 Anko have sunnies with Bluetooth audio. Went to the 24 hour Shear-a-thon at the Showgrounds, saw a lot of sheep, had some food there. Went to a backyard concert fundraiser. Got pizza for dinner. M: 3. E: 3. 😐😑😠

Work. Stressed about a few projects that were due today - so I simply just didn’t meet the deadlines! Hopefully catch up on the weekend. Jussie Smollett was found guilty of faking a hate crime on himself. The system works, for once! Quiet night. Got the rating keyboard on to my phone. Can’t get the layout right. Ate a lot of junk today. M: 4. E: 4. 😐😑😰