Midnight Wisdom

10.10.2021 Before Vipassana, in Amsterdam. Watched scent of a woman, loved it. Watched The Guilty. Watched Silver Skates. Drinking and eating citrus.

Recorded 25th September at 1 am. I slept for a long time afterwards. I’m glad my laptop still works. There is urgency, but there is also joy.

Recorded 11pm 18/09/2021 felt great to. Ended up writing another 5.1k words before falling asleep at 3 am. Rode a Buggy(?) didn’t die. Progress. Plus Ultra.

14.09.2021 recorded 9 pm at Lakehouse. I note mainly the difference in writing books as different as Understanding Intelligence and Vernon. I would also like to discuss attention again soon.

Day 7 10.09.2021 23:51 A close one to my heart. What I’m going through.

Day 7. Lakehouse, couch, sitting upright. Everyday I see the number of the new day in capital letters! (I know numbers aren’t letters) that pass in front of my eyes. A very productive week so far.

07.09.2021 21:23 arguably one of the more important recordings I do. How I’m feeling right now in the midst of this. Am I anything? I don’t want to feel useless. I want to feel solid in what I am. But what’s it when what I am is air? It’s the life and doubt of a writer.

47 minutes of music and indexing (writing down what is written in the notebooks). I don’t own any of this music, it’s good music.

I recorded this on the 28th of August coming into midnight. After coming back from Jordan, didn’t leave my dad on the best of terms but he isn’t the easiest person to get along with. He is often unnecessarily difficult and I think he prides himself on that, somehow. I smoked and I spoke about it, even though on the way back I was already done with thinking about it. But hey, it’s life, it’s here and it’s heavy.