Midnight Wisdom

31.08.2021 Felt like recording mid day and talked about using and learning a new writing tool. Getting ready to go to Poland.

Treehouse on a lake. In Poland, Poznan. 05.09.2021, feels like a good day. Slept well and ready to take on the day and sit with Vernon. I indexed my writings, organised all I have in one dedicated Scrivener project. I’m eating well, meditated and journaled as soon as I woke up, and now I think I’ll paddle before sitting down with Vernon. I arrived here on Friday the third 03.09.2021, I’m glad I just booked. I’m glad I’m here. Can’t keep waiting to make things happen.

Recorded 28.08.2021 My dad.

Recorded 27.08.2021

Recorded yesterday, 21.08.2021-22.08.2021 at around 3 am. I was on the couch next to his bed, there was also a chair I sat on, thinking: “Remember this.” He was sleeping, he was breathing.

I’m booking the ticket now. Take care.

I am replanning my trip to Vienna and Helsinki to go to Amman instead. It’s a much better plan. 15.08.2021 Parents love us a lot, but sometimes people don’t know how to love themselves.

08.08.2021 My dad is dying, crashing slowly and uncomfortably, and his hate and malice is branching out. What did he expect? What does he want? And am I wrong not to feel any responsibility towards it? I don’t think I am. Room to reflect.

But little by little it will come together, I will always grow and understand more.

Accept and be non needy, and in the end create things to completion. Precise and clear.

I find myself often losing myself in reflection for the sake of it, when the truth is only to be here now.

To be in what you do, what you feel, and what is actually real between you and people and your work.