17th Of May 2020

I went to the old guys place yesterday, he almost forgot who I was, but then made it clear he didn't want much to do with me. 

Finished filling an entire notebook with dreams. Insane. I always think about how I could write them differently, because words can only say so much. I draw the space the dream happened in a lot of the time. Let's see. 

I wrote in my green (bio)leather dear notebook for the first time. I liked how it felt and I like what was written. I am writing, and therefor the words are.

14th May 2020

And stay with it. 

No matter what you feel, when you know where you are is right, you learn and you find a way. Sometimes you feel you can’t breathe, other times all you find is air. What’s the difference between the two really. In and out. In and out.

I was holding a leaf when I recorded this, I usually do when I'm taking walks. Makes me feel centered and calm again somehow.

I saw an old guy in front of my appartment carrying bags and barely being able to walk.

Breathe.

And if it happens, if I happen to leave this life before I finish what I feel I need to, it's alright. 

It wouldn't bother me if the reality of the life I believe in applied to me. 

I'll try to keep my mind free of unnecessary attachment. From the idea of knowing.

"To be a king is but a curse you have all mistaken to be the only blessing."

"Here we are, reinforcing our own realities."

Here I am, keeping up and strengthening my foundations.

I'll talk more in detail about how I'm working towards my goals and habits in another one. 

Take care.

It felt like a reflection. I loved doing this one. 

I missed a point, I'm going to live like I'm living till I'm a hundred.

I'll always try to be a good person. And I'm very glad that I'm doing this. 

I'm just trying to experience all of this as fully as I can.

The mic in front of me.

The mop arrived from amazon today. I get to clean my floor properly for once. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe yeah. 

Smoke to Mo Owais today about my communication idea, I thought it was a really funny interaction coming from him. 

life doesn't need to be difficult. We don't need to suffer before the world decides to give us something.

I got to catch up with Ahmed "Meso-Paq". 

A teacher, an athlete and a badass. A very nice badass.

I sit on my bed, cross legged with a slightly tilted back, with the microphone in my hands as I breathe.

"What is my deepest wisdom?" 

"What is my deepest truth?"

"Am I listening enough?"

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"What is your deepest wisdom?"

"What is your deepest truth?"

"Are you listening enough?"

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To be the divine masculine essence. To obtain the divine feminine essence. To reach balance with both.

To know my truth, and give my love fully at every moment, regardless of the circumstances.

To spread my gift further and weiter.

I will continue to listen.