Johannes joined a Jiu Jitsu (JJ) grappling class two weeks after I joined mine.

We talk a lot about fighting. We talk about Jordan Peterson and what he's going through right now. 

That leads us to talking about self-esteem and what we base our characters on.

That carries into me talking about my financial planning into the next two years and we decide we're going to burning man before the end of 2022.

If we'd ever start a podcast together we'd call it "Night and Day".

"I tend to be consistent with my inconsistencies." Which is why I downloaded Tinder again.

I talk about fighting.

Kampfst du?

This one is about us and loneliness. 

How we'll take care more of someone who's a part of us, like our own child, but neglect to take care of our own self. 

How we wait to be seen through the eyes of someone who we also see eventually only to see ourselves. But then we'll lose that anyway.

The universe feels like it's desperately trying to find itself only to instantly lose it. 

Is that what we are? Loneliness?

We pay attention to the problem, the mistake, and forget all else. 

Are we listening enough? Are we slaves to our own idea of our mistakes?

Five days after New Years. I'm in the office on a Sunday night keeping a promise to myself. 

I talk about inner peace, karma, and my experiences these past few weeks.

We're always trying to find problems to fix. The reality is there will always be problems.

Past them is peace.

If you could ask God one question, and you had all the time in the world to think about it, what would it be? 

You'll only ever see the world through your eyes. It's a lonely thought. 

Makes me feel like we could all use a hug.