Midnight Wisdom

Rec: 20.07.2025

Up: 11.08.2025

Recorded close to my home and reflect on everything.

Didn't upload yet so uploading now.

Rec: 23.07.2025

Uploaded. 11.08.2025

I got high with my bong and relaxed. Processed, and watched 28 days later and commented on the movie as I did so.

This was when my burnout period started. I gotta say, three weeks since isn't that bad of a number.

Rec: 25.07.2025

Uploaded: 11.08.2025

He replied with a lovey dovey message and didn't hear what I said. So I sent another one.

16.07.2025

Friend slept over and had quite the fight with me. I sent them this message the next day.

Keeping it for memories.

Sent on: 12th of July

10.08.2025 23:52

About to sleep. Watching The Gorge. Feeling quite tired. But like things came together again within me. After a lot of pressure was collecting behind a dam.

Full moon came, full moon gone. Here we are.

03.08.2025. 22:56 I have no ego now. It just flipped. I don't have a personality. I geniunely don't. And me chasing things just to feel like I do is what's making me suffer. So it's fine. I don't have a personality and I don't need one. It's absolutely fine.

I lost a friend, who wasn't a friend, after I decided not to pay for her movie ticket, popcorn and drink, while I just ordered a popcorn. And I reminded myself, I'm okay. People can come and go. I'm ok. I will remain myself, and overthinking relationships that didn't work out is not the way I want to live my life. I want to live forward.

Committing to:

One hour of reading a day

5-10 cold calls a day (during work days)

2-3 Muay Thai classes a week

2-3 hours a day of work on my business

27.07.2025 23:48 Sunday

The time I invest now is the gift I give my future.

And I want to give my future a lot of gifts.

Isn't that right?

Berlin I'm coming for you

20.07.2025 01:37 am

I'm Sunday now, I'm sitting in my room. It's dark outside. I have the lamp next to me on. I worked on a booklet for my company today and I'm going to a festival tomorrow.

I shaved my head today and removed whatever blonde strands that I had in it. I feel very good for coming back to being a brunette again. Black is back in town.

It feels great to let go of things at the right time that you should let go of them. I went through a lot of transitions being blond, and now I'm... this one.

22:43 13.07.2025.

I am holding on to too much.