mirror monologues

december 1, 2025 ◡̈

hello, dear friends. happy last month of the year! hope you guys are safe and well and having fun with the festivities :')

i've been having existential crises since i was 13 haha! but having turned 25 this year, this is the first valid quarter life crisis i've had since ever...

in this episode, i talked about life realities — experiences, dreams, challenges, you name it. what is it really like to be in the mid 20s in terms of individuality, career, love, and friendship?

solitude & loneliness: a very important context: how do you navigate life as (mostly) the only single one in your friend groups?

oh, it's afun fun quartler life crisis because we get to explore the niceties of life while struggling HAHA!!!!!

i hope this helps you in some sort. if you're not in this phase, i'm really really happy for you. if you are, i hope you know you are not alone! take care of yourselves pls. all the love, always!

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april 4, 2025 ◡̈

please forgive me for my never-ending thoughts about love grr

from the movie, the life list

is he the one checklist:

1. is he kind?
2. can you tell him everything in your heart?
3. does he help you become the best version of yourself?
4. can you imagine him as the father of your children?

⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

february 16, 2025 ◡̈

it was just after valentine's day... who could stop a girl from sharing her thoughts about love?

jk i forgot most of what i said here. all i know is just i'm a sucker for real, genuine love, that's all.

oa-ly belated happy valentine's day, human beings!

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december 1, 2024 ◡̈

welcome to the audio version of my notes app drafts!

here are some thoughts (ie. episode ideas) that didn't make it into full episodes, so we talked about them efficiently in this episode instead!

• the silence is screaming / when silence screams
• life is arbitrary
• indecisiveness and regrets
• my unhealthy relationship with food
• your own pace, your own goals
• impostor syndrome

• men & women
• body and eating disorders and health and all!
• transport disparity
• princess treatment
• toxic fucking masculinity aka djp
• grateful annoyances
• general optimism, patience
• rest is soooo necessary

⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

latecast | october 23, 2024 ◡̈

hi, friends. i missed you! how's life been lately?

sorry for being mia. these past few months, i have been reverting to different outlets for my thoughts & feelings; hence the lack of episodes. i would try to record then fall asleep, get lost in my train of thought, or just outright have no idea how to convey my thoughts in the first place. the podcasters app also removed the free music/sounds library pa, so instead of this mirror monologues being a low-maintenance thought diary, i needed to actually bring an identity into it. of course i didn't want na mema lang. intentional tayo in this place haha!

anywayyy, i am now in the right headspace to publish all the semi-successful episodes i did before.

first up: embrace your pace — this is one of my favorite mottos in terms of living in the now. truly, life is not a race. however people try to pose na we have to achieve certain things at a certain age, i hope we get to see and embrace our own journeys.

notice the ages of which people in your life got their first job, started working on their passion project, bought the things they just once dreamed of, or even got married. are they the same? of course not. our circumstances, priorities, and goals vastly different from one another.

i hope you're proud of where you are today. i know i am (of you, just in case i needed to clarify that pa haha)!

⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

latecast • july 10, 2024 ◡̈

i forgot i had this recording! let the title speak for itself na lang haha sorry. i think this is v important though!

the conclusion is basically… it all boils down to family :”)

i hope that we don't let our traumas define us, and for the people who are privileged enough to have such a stability, i hope they recognize how lucky they are, and pass it on.

latecast • june 28, 2024 ◡̈


a few ganaps that reminded me that life is still so vast and there are still many people to meet (and have crush on EME)!

i’m a small fish in an endless, still unexplored ocean. i’m a small dust in a massive universe.

it’s okay to let go of grief; it doesn’t negate what we once had. it’s okay to have hope again.

latecast • june 19, 2024 ◡̈


as vague as it sounds, this episode talks about the supercut of of the reality of it all — life, death, and everything in between.

what’s out of our hands? what’s in our control? how do we deal with either? both?


life is so complex, and that’s what makes it interesting — even worth-living… i hope!

latecast • may 22, 24 ◡̈

[uploaded this last may but unpublished din kasi the day after, hindi na ulit ako okay haha!]

note: this is a share ko lang episode guys so para lang ‘to sa gusto chumismis sa buhay ko hahaha. promise, useful episodes na next time ^.^

when all is said and done, there’s nothing left to do but move on (and remember)… so ayon, welcome to the first phase of my acceptance stage yie!

in this episode, i just shared my progress in my moving on era. after two months, i can finally say na hindi na ‘ko umiiyak everyday and tanggap ko na, for real hehe! i know this is not a linear process at all, but from where i was just weeks ago, i’m already really really really grateful to where i am now. ito pala yung sinasabi nila na bigla ka na lang magigising :”)

when all is said and done, magslay ka na lang ems.

miss u guys! gala and chika tayoooo! stay safeeee!

if i don’t mean anything to you, bat pa ‘ko andito? ems!

hi, friends. firstlyyyy, this episode is very personal, so please don’t listen if kailangan nyo ng life lessons from this girlypop. wala tayo nyan ngayon haha.

anyway, losing someone who occupies a huge part of your heart is so hard kasi they tend to bring this whole part of you with them. now, i’m stuck in this endless void — afloat — not knowing where to go or what to do next.

because of this ganap, i also realized how much of my self-perception and identity is built around other people. i’m literally just the puzzle pieces of what i am to them. kaya pano na lang pag lahat sila nawala? sino na lang ako?

oK ayun lang naman. ps. this ended sa heartbreak drama na naman, sorry na! 🥲

thank you so so so much for listening, guys!

gaya nga ng sabi ko sa mga umabot sa dulo ng 1-hour episode na ‘to (bakit? pano?), message nyo naman ako oh. binging bingi na ‘ko sa katahimikan hahaha. i’d greatly greatly appreciate your presence in any form :’) 🤍 ayun love u all very much!