Here I open up a bit about my recent diagnosis of "high-functioning autism" and how that impacted both my experience of the divine within Mormonism and my decision to become an atheist and then decision to try to believe again.

My reasons for originally not believing in Mormonism anymore had nothing to do with looking into history, and little to do with LGBTQ+ issues. Or even feminism. They were mostly about all the little niggling problems with the exercise of authority within Mormonism and what I saw as abuse of power on various levels with the excuse of "priesthood."

All the details you don't want to know about my daughter's stillbirth and the "lessons" I was told God wanted me to learn, and why in the end I had to give up belief in that God entirely.